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Yeah It’s when you punch me in the face and says its desperate measures
were plagued by suicidal tendencies shit doesn’t get better
it’s just another day another friend suicide just hits again
I wanna take my life but that’s not what I meant

can you tell me if you’re happy are you in a better place
did you ever find what you want cus I still just see your face
at the edge of my bed when im trying to fall asleep
yeah all my dreams are just plagued by awful memories

do you know that I cared
do you know that I called
oh god yeah I miss you but you’re not you at all
You’re not you at all, you say ill be ok 

you say ill be ok, 
but some wounds still don’t mend
it feels like my flesh is burning from the inside
im burning from the inside, im burning up alive

Yeah push me in the bed and now im left in recession
just a bloodline with an illness always left second-guessing
Yeah with charcoal on my face cigarettes in my hands
on my grandfather’s chair where he said to me

yeah son you gotta build your life and never look back
there will be people in your life that never give that’s a fact
but it’s hard to see the friends that you used to love go
but you know homie I got your back you just need to give a call 

so save your breath yeah im on my way right now
I don’t want to be someone that lets my friends down
maybe we will block out the sunlight with our despairs
stay in my room no life isn’t fair

Reminisce on issues that we had when we were younger
yeah looking back on it I thought as you as a brother
we suffered from the trauma we didn’t know how to comprehend
until emotion just builds and builds when i hear you say

What Changed

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Checkout my homie https://soundcloud.com/slothboipapi
and thanks to my brother WXLVE for everything.

Rivilin:

boot to face then im left to the ground
my hands are shaking now I turn around and face to the crowd
it’s like how did I get to this point without falling
always got a knife in my back im sick of crawling

appreciate everyone that’s always made an effort
just to reach out to me they say that my music is a blessing
but I just keep writing, this is how I cope yeah
not gonna falter im gonna take the future whole

yeah seeing my best friends fall to their old ways
I always got their back and they don’t have to owe me
cus they got mine when I come calling yeah
don’t bring up the past cus it’s always got me hurting

NPCs just give me the kick down
I got everyone I need here
vermin swarm 2021 gonna take it
fuck all the haters you know im not breaking

you wanna come at me and start making accusations
always had it out for me that’s an understatement
like fuck you, fuck them and everyone around me
never had my back when im sinking down slowly

you wanna kick me out the door making implications
then im forced to the ground with no explanation
like move back move in, take it, and don’t slip
cus this is all I got can I sink down below this

WXLVE:

everyone always looks up to me, 
but it feels like iam always drowning on self negativity
yeah, just walking through like yeah, with bleary eyes
im sick of constantly feeling like i need a new life

inside out i feel them haunting my dreams 
its time to sink or swim but im just tryna  wake from the demon within
im afraid these visions are real the man with no names closing in
with brothers close by side ill try not be eaten alive

$lothboi:

RIVILIN
THEY HEAR OUR PAIN
KNIVES IN OUR BACKS WHILE WE CHASE OUR DREAMS

FUCK ALL THIS
ANXIETY
PAIN AND SIN JUST FUCKING FOLLOW ME

Sick of pain, issa fuckin loop
I ain’t want to die, so I’m calling you
Just pay no mind, to my fucking moods
It’s unstable times, I CANT FUCKING CHOOSE

Why do I betray
Myself everyday
Minute I’m awake
I DIG A FUCKING GRAVE

Brothers FT.  WXLVE X $LOTHBOI

Prod by Puhf: @Puhf

Artwork by: @bvdcxrtex

Lyrics:

(Pre-chorus)
Torment and revenge
I won't feel any better
Torment my tormentor 
Want revenge so I let her

(Chorus)
Now I can't ever forget her
And all the times I upset her
When all her pain gave me pleasure
I'll rot in hell forever

(Verse)
Nothin' ever lasts forever, I escaped my coffin
Take my hand before you fall in
Nothing ever lasts, we're never sure until it's often
Take my hand before you fall in

(Bridge)
Take my hand before you fall in
Take my hand before you fall in

Before you fall in
Take my hand before you fall in

(Pre-chorus)
Torment and revenge
I won't feel any better
Torment my tormentor 
Want revenge so I let her

(Chorus)
Now I can't ever forget her
And all the times I upset her
When all her pain gave me pleasure
I'll rot in hell forever

Now I can't ever forget her
And all the times I upset her
When all her pain gave me pleasure
I'll rot in hell forever

TAKE MY HAND BEFORE YOU FALL IN

(Verse 2)
Nothin' ever lasts, however, pain is what we thrive in
Take my hand before you fall in
Nothin' ever lasts, this life is none of us survivin'
Take my hand before you fall in

Nothin' ever lasts, however, pain is what we thrive in
Take my hand before you fall in
Nothin' ever lasts, this life is none of us survivin'
Take my hand before you fall in

(Outro)
I'll rot in hell forever
I'll rot in hell forever

Rot In Hell

SCAR$ & Puhf - Rot In Hell

https://soundcloud.com/thepalesage

Rivilin
it’s like my hands are grasping through water
cus every time I try to  reach out yeah I just phase through
yeah I know I don’t recognize myself in the mirror
yeah, you know  its all thanks to you

dissociation, looking at the ground it starts to breathe
yeah, it’s like there's concreate on my chest and I just start to sink
down down, to the deep blue
then I think myself, yeah I could die here and just move on

I feel like im never worth your time
you wanna break me down get fucked yeah
burning at both ends ya know im not doing fine
the scars start to reflect my heart your lies

I feel depression burning down inside
spitting out blood, yeah im done with this so hang up
seeing my passion burning through my eyes
not gonna go under so don’t try

Palesage:

mystery
this faucet
covered like a secret
try to open , give up ,
P$ that's a weakness
thoughts in my head
serpents
slither in my system
Pale just like the moon
Sage the wisdom in my runes
shine in the distance
glisten til the noon
disappear in an instance
but I'll see you soon
permanent the frown all around
yeah i'm like a goon
bumping that TeamSESH on repeat
careless like looneytunes
 
where did you go , man
where did you go , man
i'm always tryna see if you thinking up new plans ,
me myself and i we dont care , we wanna dance
put aside all our feelings , what kills us - we won't pretend
... i'm tellin you we won't pretend
... this old life i wanna end
start a life from new leaf
just believe
we don't pretend
start that life from a new story
man just try
we don't pretend

Rivilin:

yeah so why why why would you wanna be like this
mental issues still define me I feel sick
I stay high every day just to feel normal
but I don’t remember what it’s like
 
so I just sink into myself where I build up my own hell
but yeah I know that ill find peace right here
cus I don’t need anyone else
cus I can drag myself down on my own I don’t need your help

just me and the pale sage staring at the moon
pupils wide yeah watch it consume us
howls in the night screaming out our names
watch the wolves run to us tearing us to shreds we won’t call out

never tell him, yeah but he’s like a brother
always supporting my dreams yeah I don’t need another
like rats in the sewers swarming from the underground
always putting up the scraps cus we always overthink like

Taken Back FT. PALE$AGE

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bury the capsule of my doubt, I find myself staring through a window into the thick fog inside of my home, and it’s haunting it’s calling me beckoning me to walk further into the trees, and I find that there is no such thing as the word hope here

now im digging my way out, does it get better, does it get better than this
you burst in my room anger is filled in the palm of your fist
waking up with a black eye yeah like everything’s just fine
until the morning brings dust and I fade into my own hell

I swear time stood for a second and it showed me everything
what it means to be alive and for what it means to kill myself
some days it gets better most days it’s just worse
until I find out I hated myself all along 

THE ROPE JUST PULLS BACK
PRESSURE BUILDS AS MY NECK JUST SNAPS
IS THIS LIFE, IS THIS IT FUCK IM SICK OF IT
REPEATING AND REPEATING UNTIL THE TIDE JUST SWALLOWS ME WHOLE

THE RAT KING RELAPSED
I DONT THINK I WILL GET ME BACK
IS THIS LIFE, IS THIS IT FUCKING KILL ME NOW
CIRCLING AND CIRCLING UNTIL THIS HELL IS ALL THAT I FOUND

Even though our eyes had seen so much heartache, we had so much faith that this journey would show us the world in which we loved, but all I'm left with is a hollow empty room, which chills my bones till they freeze, I find my soul no longer lingers in this room because it hates the feeling of knowing that someone is going to die

Iron Teeth

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I hear the silence talking
yeah deep in my chest
This girl shes got me fucked up
sink in the pills with no regret

Falling down the hallway locked in an empty house
yeah gravities a blur, on the ceiling screaming now
the shadows dancing on the walls seem to taunt me
always beckoning me to just jump and just leave

I haven’t felt this way in a long time
get the strength to walk on the balcony and im staring straight down
legs are shaking as I climb over the fucking edge
if I let go will you please just stop this

all these thoughts they erase over time
like tell me what is my own fucking name I forgot
I collapse, I collapse as my neck snaps
wake up from another dream where suicides a fairy tale

popping pills after pills get my mind straight
watch me relapse again till you just hate everything I am
cut my throat let me bleed, let me bleed out
there’s no amount of medicine that can help me now

yeah im watching the bedsheets consume me
watch the walls start to fade when my vision blacks out
I saw your face standing right there above me
I don’t blame you for cutting out to just leave

watch my soul walk down the hallway
he said goodbye, you’re lost in a state now
what does that make me
just another fuck up that’s a shame, wear a fake mask till my grave

watching my family just stare now
yeah they don’t know a thing about what it’s like to break down
fill my psychs pockets till they realize debts found
kick me out on the street cus I can’t afford to get help

with the shadows on the walls as we stare at my body
it’s just convulsing now everyone just thinks im a druggie
because im paranoid about words that I just hear
cus I know you divulge information that I trusted in you

but we both know that it doesn’t mean shit
I bet you don’t even remember the torment that you just put me through
I collapse, I collapse as my neck snaps
wake up from another dream where suicides a fairy tale

Erase Me

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Rivilin:

cus you come out always at the right time
swisher sweet lips you never wanna be mine
im breaking down while you watch from the distance
I think this is love but I don’t know the difference

yeah, I know I have some issues, drug abuse, and mental illnesses
push your mind state to me then you wanna fuck just all my friends
choosing to stay high instead of sober, face all my problems
till its easier to deal with this but you still choose to watch me sink

into this black abyss, I was there for you, guess I didn’t mean shit
yeah you hang me from the apple tree it’s blatant theirs no one for me
yeah feel the poetry wrapping around my neck as the skin starts to crack and fray
yeah you watch me burn into the ashes rebuild me with bones that don’t last

yeah cus you just try to hit me up to see if you'll get answers
I don’t know how to reply cus I don’t understand the questions
it’s like I was never here I don’t exist im just a ghost in the crowd
Every time it storms I hope you hear me, yeah im screaming so loud

I just sit and watch the time pass as my bones keep growing cold
this nostalgia holds my dreams it beckons me to make that call
yeah if you hit me back yeah you know your always welcome here
cus your loves the only one I know, I miss your voice on the phone

cus you come out always at the right time
swisher sweet lips you never wanna be mine
im breaking down while you watch from the distance
I think this is love but I don’t know the difference

Njoi:

Your memory it follows me its branded in my mind
A constant cold reminder of just what we left behind
I know how far we fell but I long for where we've been
and maybe if I wait it out one day you'll let me in

But all, this is a fantasy, pathetic hopes, and dreams
Cause truth, be told this coffin's full of nails or so it seems
So I'll take another shot to warm the blood in my veins 
Do my best, try and forget your face it's burned in my brain

Now all I have, are visions of the person you were, 
look at you now who  are you,  
Yeah this person aint her
Guess I’ll try and just forget you, guess that's just the way it goes, guess I'll put another paycheck, straight up, my fucking my nose 

If I keep the self-destruction up,  I'll probably end up dead 
But I  need fucking image of your face out of my head. 
And I don't want to love you,  I don't want to say goodbye
So take my soul and cut my throat then leave me here to fucking die.

Rivilin:

cus you come out always at the right time
swisher sweet lips you never wanna be mine
im breaking down while you watch from the distance
I think this is love but I don’t know the difference

The Distance FT. NJOI

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Yeah yeah, overextended not fully mended, 
yeah yeah, emotionally fucked between
yeah yeah, so what does that mean for me
yeah yeah, what does that mean for

just a sewer rat that hangs in the shadows
rest in the meadow so fatigued will you wait for me
Yeah yeah, will you just wait for me
Yeah yeah will you just will you just

karma just builds when I lash out
feeling really bad now like I didn’t mean to show that part of me
Yeah no, that’s just my personality
no no, that’s just my personality

ye uncultivated left to fallow
find me in the shallows of the Lumbridge swamp where im just not coping
Yeah yeah, will I find a place for me
Yeah yeah, will i find, will i find

OVER//EXTENDED

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foggy streets don’t remember a thing yeah
silence just blast in my ears I can’t think yeah
aimless wandering around  just to make sense
of my mental state yeah I am fucked

constantly chased by manifestations of my past
it’s like you have my organs mixed up yeah it’s wrong
so where do I go yeah where do I see
I don’t really know much yeah about me

hearing rusted bearings yeah squeak in the fan frame
two new pair of wires wrapped in my ribcage
feel a bit shit yeah don’t know how to cope man
don’t make sense how I ended up this way

feel the wires cutting my back and it’s not fair
hospital beds just push till I break yeah
theirs a smile on your face when you lock that door man
push me to the floor and  you say ill get better

now im just fucked up lost trust in my own head
in an apartment with dark thoughts yeah they’re closing in
1996 with a mouth full of lead yeah
who the fuck am I yeah I don’t know who I am

wake up cold sweats take a few more meds
lockdown lose touch yeah your not my friend
till I find peace 
in my own hell

im shaking im changing am I the one who’s dead
lost reality when I sit in my head
I’ve been flailing down falling in is no end
if I sink any lower ill lose my chance

lost my way no im not gonna mend
push me away yeah maybe it is for the best
yeah truth be told I already hate myself
til you find out I don’t exist

yeah so hang me up with the noose yeah ill kick me off
it doesn’t really matter cus I wake up lost
strapped to a bed where I can’t really breathe
life’s just mundane yeah its fucking bleak

rusty fences trap me like a birdcage
looking after me cus I break like sticks yeah
waking up in another location not free
I don’t really know much yeah about me

Don't Care

https://linktr.ee/Rivilin

https://soundcloud.com/ripthepetals


RipThePetals

Icy Veins
Freeze within
Calm me down
Think like him

Passion fades from everyone I know
The flowers grow, when your all alone

It's nice to know you cared, I never cared at all
I never cared

Rivilin

ill pop a few more, i‘ll pop a few more
cus i don’t know where ill end up if I accept myself
valium to lithium yeah this is just a false hell
scratching at my faults until i end up hating myself

I turn the whip hard I flip the fucking car
and now im still struggling to put my head in place
Percocet’s to credit cards yeah my minds going numb now
do a few more lines so I can just forget about myself  

RipThePetals

Cigarette in my hand
Stains on my jeans from when the ash mixed with the tears
I'm in a false hell
And i'm tryna get out, im tryna get out, Im tryna get out

It wasn't fair i put you through that
Im manic, depressed, i'm in all this stress
I couldn't even tell that i was fucked up
And i'm tryna get out, im tryna get out, Im tryna get out

And i'm tryna get out, im tryna get out, I'm trying, trying

UNCOLOURED FT. RIPTHEPETALS

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https://soundcloud.com/ripthepetals

Rivilin

I always see your face
when im all alone when im all alone
now the embers snuffed it fades
at the bottom of a well at the bottom of a well

now its always hard to explain what it’s like to lose a friend
if I could reach up to the stars and bring him back would this all end
cus suicides and option but where will that get me
will i come back with the same fate and be embraced by misery

so ill sink ill sink never get up I won’t leave
so ill sink ill sink i dont wanna live when you’re not with me                   
so ill fall and crash yeah this isn’t how it meant to be
so ill fall and crash yeah how did you forget about me

RipThePetals

I've sat there
With the blade on my wrist
Too many times to count

Have you ever lost a friend
The pain never ends
It always lingers on and on and on
The urge so strong, so strong

And I can't take it
You wanna fake it 
Well i can't relate bitch
Why would you say it was all a joke?

And I can't take it
You wanna fake it 
Well i can't relate bitch
Why would you say it was all a joke?

BELOW FT. RIPTHEPETALS

Self produced / Sad  

CONTACT: RIVILINAU@GMAIL.COM

Don't Care

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