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Checkout my homie https://soundcloud.com/slothboipapi
and thanks to my brother WXLVE for everything.

Rivilin:

boot to face then im left to the ground
my hands are shaking now I turn around and face to the crowd
it’s like how did I get to this point without falling
always got a knife in my back im sick of crawling

appreciate everyone that’s always made an effort
just to reach out to me they say that my music is a blessing
but I just keep writing, this is how I cope yeah
not gonna falter im gonna take the future whole

yeah seeing my best friends fall to their old ways
I always got their back and they don’t have to owe me
cus they got mine when I come calling yeah
don’t bring up the past cus it’s always got me hurting

NPCs just give me the kick down
I got everyone I need here
vermin swarm 2021 gonna take it
fuck all the haters you know im not breaking

you wanna come at me and start making accusations
always had it out for me that’s an understatement
like fuck you, fuck them and everyone around me
never had my back when im sinking down slowly

you wanna kick me out the door making implications
then im forced to the ground with no explanation
like move back move in, take it, and don’t slip
cus this is all I got can I sink down below this

WXLVE:

everyone always looks up to me, 
but it feels like iam always drowning on self negativity
yeah, just walking through like yeah, with bleary eyes
im sick of constantly feeling like i need a new life

inside out i feel them haunting my dreams 
its time to sink or swim but im just tryna  wake from the demon within
im afraid these visions are real the man with no names closing in
with brothers close by side ill try not be eaten alive

$lothboi:

RIVILIN
THEY HEAR OUR PAIN
KNIVES IN OUR BACKS WHILE WE CHASE OUR DREAMS

FUCK ALL THIS
ANXIETY
PAIN AND SIN JUST FUCKING FOLLOW ME

Sick of pain, issa fuckin loop
I ain’t want to die, so I’m calling you
Just pay no mind, to my fucking moods
It’s unstable times, I CANT FUCKING CHOOSE

Why do I betray
Myself everyday
Minute I’m awake
I DIG A FUCKING GRAVE

Brothers FT.  WXLVE X $LOTHBOI

Thank You For Everything

How do I relive a life again
I dont know if I'll redeem my sins
We lasted like diamonds in the rough
Dark days, nearly lost my head
Hey you have begun to escape this
Pain thats seeping through
With no eyes at my witness
I could end it too

What if I begin to lose
And I'm slowly giving up
When I know its not enough

It's not enough to replace it
This hole inside my chest
When every thought is invasive
Breaking down in my regret
I've been surrounded by faces
Strangers I don't recognize
But nevermind, you were never mine
I think its for the best
I need to let it die

I'm losing it all for you
I've never felt so consumed
The life that we had secure
Was our chance
To be so much more
Hey baby I don't feel so good
Keep saying gave it all I could
If 10 years is before I die
I'd still give you all my time

It's not enough to replace it
This hole inside my chest
When every thought is invasive
Breaking down in my regret
I've been surrounded by faces
Strangers I don't recognize
But nevermind, you were never mine
I think its for the best
I need to let it die

Days Gone ft. Riverkinn

prod. ocin
guitars: 5head

Baby I know that I fucked it up this time 
Maybe I could fix it all with a glass of wine 
Now my visions blurred, I’m lost in my own mind 
I’ll be back in a minute, just know I’m fine 
And now you wanna feel my love 
I will never stop forget it 
And now you wanna find my heart 
Baby I could be the one, the one for you 

I know that you wanna be with me 
And know that I wanna be with you 
The truth is you can’t see through me 
I’m already in too deep 

Baby I know that I fucked it up this time 
Maybe I could fix it all with a glass of wine 
Now my visions blurred, I’m lost in my own mind 
I’ll be back in a minute, just know I’m fine 
And now you wanna feel my love 
I will never stop forget it 
And now you wanna find my heart 
Baby I could be the one, the one for you 

This is what I meant when I said 
You are mine no matter what I do 
No matter what I do girl 
I’ll keep finding you, keep haunting you girl

glass of wine

i hope its what you wanted (prod. KIRAW🌈)

Lyrics (artwork by https://www.instagram.com/g0re.krist/?hl=en)
------------------------
I'm an odd boy, I don't associate,

I let all my hate, exfoliate,

Let it rain MK48, 

surrounded by way too many phony fakes.


You living all your life, make believe,

I bet none of you would ever show your face to me.




I sniff out a rat like a hound, 
Talking that shit get my blade then get down 

You a private, so you staying silent, but I'm a vet now. 
Buncha props, sitting still on my set now,

Don't ever step on my premises,
sick in the head you need medicine. 


Put you to bed with some sedatives,
Everything was what I said it is. 
Dont even think of comparing us.


GOT MORE MONEY THAN YOU I STILL DON'T FLASH IT,
THE MORE YOU TALK ABOUT IT AND YOU STILL WONT PASS US

ODD KID I ROLL ALONE IN THE CITY, 
WINDOWS ARE DOWN AND MY DRIVING IS RISKY,
ALL LIMO TINTs WHILE IM HITTING 160
i see the lights now they coming to get me


Pull me over and they give me a warning,
Smile and wave cause I'm looking so charming.



Yea, young boy, I feel silly.
Yea nobody ever come get me,
Don't hit my phone I'm busy
Yea every one offended,
I don't ever show no pity,
My shots are full feel tipsy
Now I pop out feel jiggy,

I'm a bad guy but you cant kill me.

Bad Guy (prod. Nativ)

Things get better :) I know this first hand
Reach out to your family, friends or your local crises center for help. People care about your well being.
https://www.iasp.info/resources/Crisis_Centres/

prod https://soundcloud.com/crclxx
cover @muski_blegh

Lyrics
I got death notes some suicide texts ho like
Some that I wrote, that you wrote, we ain’t all fine
I got texts in my phone that will make me cry
I got texts in my phone from people that died

I AIN’T GOT THIS NO MORE JUST GO FUCKING DIE
SICK OF TEXT FROM THESE PEOPLE THAT MAKE ME CRY
ITS NOT MY JOB TO CHOOSE IF YOU LIVE OR DIE
I CANT HANDLE THE STRESS I MIGHT FLY TONIGHT

Threats of death are in my head
All this pains surrounding me
And I love the ones I date
And I hate the ones that fake

I got death notes some suicide texts ho like
Some that I wrote, that you wrote, we ain’t all fine
I got texts in my phone that will make me cry
I got texts in my phone from people that died

And I’m sorry but bitch I can’t save your life
You manipulate me into staying right
Well fuck all that cuz I’m packing up tonight
As you screaming that if I leave you gun die

I aint pick up this phone tonight
But I pray that you fucking survive
And I’m sorry I couldn’t be fine but your messages got me fucked up all the time

I got death notes some suicide texts ho like
Some that I wrote, that you wrote, we ain’t all fine
I got texts in my phone that will make me cry
I got texts in my phone from people that died

Death Notes

⸸ spotify / apple ⸸

Death Notes (CRCL)

https://linktr.ee/Rivilin

yeah I never meant to be this way
always shutting down never reaching out with the words I need to say
I could use a friend right now
I just need someone to pick me up so I just don’t drown

can’t rely on others im just let down
just pretend it’s fine until I breakdown embrace hell
I feel like I’ve been here before
never really winning just pushing on to the next day

attending funerals where I can’t remember the names
maybe ill see myself laid to rest here and then ill fade away
cus these thoughts don’t make sense to me never filled with energy
anger seems to take control when I think of my families name

no matter how much I hate you I hate myself more
just the fact that I can harbor this just breaks at the soul
so if you could tell me how to let go of this misery
would you come, would you come and set me free

im worthless, so pick me up, pick me up, pick me up, and then you say
it’s hurting, so what’s it now, what’s it now, issues seem to find me how 
im worthless so pick me up, pick me up, pick me up and light the match
im burning, just to bring me down, bring me down, I open up my souls yours now

so what did I have to say
to make you hate me and turn things this way
my heart is like a river but it’s dried up
burnt at both ends till the fire just consumes us

yeah so how do I explain to a family that doesn’t understand
the sunlight passes through the shutters burn my irises again
cus im introverted, not worth don’t wanna go outside
mind is lurking on topics ill and say im fine

you can see pass through the fake smile
Yeah would you like to understand it even if it’s for a while
it’s like there are fishing hooks inside my skin
yeah when everything is doing fine you reel me in

searching through my pockets like what’s the point there’s no money there
roll the last of my tobacco cus id rather breath it than the air
my gums are an astray why did I expect to stay
walk into another home just to be kicked out again

Worthless

https://linktr.ee/Rivilin

bury the capsule of my doubt, I find myself staring through a window into the thick fog inside of my home, and it’s haunting it’s calling me beckoning me to walk further into the trees, and I find that there is no such thing as the word hope here

now im digging my way out, does it get better, does it get better than this
you burst in my room anger is filled in the palm of your fist
waking up with a black eye yeah like everything’s just fine
until the morning brings dust and I fade into my own hell

I swear time stood for a second and it showed me everything
what it means to be alive and for what it means to kill myself
some days it gets better most days it’s just worse
until I find out I hated myself all along 

THE ROPE JUST PULLS BACK
PRESSURE BUILDS AS MY NECK JUST SNAPS
IS THIS LIFE, IS THIS IT FUCK IM SICK OF IT
REPEATING AND REPEATING UNTIL THE TIDE JUST SWALLOWS ME WHOLE

THE RAT KING RELAPSED
I DONT THINK I WILL GET ME BACK
IS THIS LIFE, IS THIS IT FUCKING KILL ME NOW
CIRCLING AND CIRCLING UNTIL THIS HELL IS ALL THAT I FOUND

Even though our eyes had seen so much heartache, we had so much faith that this journey would show us the world in which we loved, but all I'm left with is a hollow empty room, which chills my bones till they freeze, I find my soul no longer lingers in this room because it hates the feeling of knowing that someone is going to die

Iron Teeth

https://linktr.ee/Rivilin

I hear the silence talking
yeah deep in my chest
This girl shes got me fucked up
sink in the pills with no regret

Falling down the hallway locked in an empty house
yeah gravities a blur, on the ceiling screaming now
the shadows dancing on the walls seem to taunt me
always beckoning me to just jump and just leave

I haven’t felt this way in a long time
get the strength to walk on the balcony and im staring straight down
legs are shaking as I climb over the fucking edge
if I let go will you please just stop this

all these thoughts they erase over time
like tell me what is my own fucking name I forgot
I collapse, I collapse as my neck snaps
wake up from another dream where suicides a fairy tale

popping pills after pills get my mind straight
watch me relapse again till you just hate everything I am
cut my throat let me bleed, let me bleed out
there’s no amount of medicine that can help me now

yeah im watching the bedsheets consume me
watch the walls start to fade when my vision blacks out
I saw your face standing right there above me
I don’t blame you for cutting out to just leave

watch my soul walk down the hallway
he said goodbye, you’re lost in a state now
what does that make me
just another fuck up that’s a shame, wear a fake mask till my grave

watching my family just stare now
yeah they don’t know a thing about what it’s like to break down
fill my psychs pockets till they realize debts found
kick me out on the street cus I can’t afford to get help

with the shadows on the walls as we stare at my body
it’s just convulsing now everyone just thinks im a druggie
because im paranoid about words that I just hear
cus I know you divulge information that I trusted in you

but we both know that it doesn’t mean shit
I bet you don’t even remember the torment that you just put me through
I collapse, I collapse as my neck snaps
wake up from another dream where suicides a fairy tale

Erase Me

https://linktr.ee/Rivilin

im a scumbag, not your friend
say you wanna get him back, let’s pretend
that my heart is still intact, it’s on the mend
yeah you know that’s a joke, but you don’t care, you don’t care at all

time can get fucked it breeds despairs
yeah for a second just stop it’s not fair
lost in a messy background, a nightmare
now your cutting circulation I can’t bear, I can’t bear at all

your eyes they break me, they just stare
yeah you love to play with my soul until it’s dead
Yeah now im just a puppet, no theirs no end
yeah where do I turn, I don’t know, I don’t know anymore

time can get fucked it breeds despairs
for a second just stop it’s not fair
lost in a messy background, a nightmare
now your cutting circulation I can’t bear, i can’t bear at all

Scumbag

https://linktr.ee/Rivilin

https://soundcloud.com/ripthepetals

Rivilin

I always see your face
when im all alone when im all alone
now the embers snuffed it fades
at the bottom of a well at the bottom of a well

now its always hard to explain what it’s like to lose a friend
if I could reach up to the stars and bring him back would this all end
cus suicides and option but where will that get me
will i come back with the same fate and be embraced by misery

so ill sink ill sink never get up I won’t leave
so ill sink ill sink i dont wanna live when you’re not with me                   
so ill fall and crash yeah this isn’t how it meant to be
so ill fall and crash yeah how did you forget about me

RipThePetals

I've sat there
With the blade on my wrist
Too many times to count

Have you ever lost a friend
The pain never ends
It always lingers on and on and on
The urge so strong, so strong

And I can't take it
You wanna fake it 
Well i can't relate bitch
Why would you say it was all a joke?

And I can't take it
You wanna fake it 
Well i can't relate bitch
Why would you say it was all a joke?

BELOW FT. RIPTHEPETALS

Self produced / Sad  

CONTACT: RIVILINAU@GMAIL.COM

Erase Me

Rivilin

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