https://linktr.ee/Rivilin

Yeah It’s when you punch me in the face and says its desperate measures
were plagued by suicidal tendencies shit doesn’t get better
it’s just another day another friend suicide just hits again
I wanna take my life but that’s not what I meant

can you tell me if you’re happy are you in a better place
did you ever find what you want cus I still just see your face
at the edge of my bed when im trying to fall asleep
yeah all my dreams are just plagued by awful memories

do you know that I cared
do you know that I called
oh god yeah I miss you but you’re not you at all
You’re not you at all, you say ill be ok 

you say ill be ok, 
but some wounds still don’t mend
it feels like my flesh is burning from the inside
im burning from the inside, im burning up alive

Yeah push me in the bed and now im left in recession
just a bloodline with an illness always left second-guessing
Yeah with charcoal on my face cigarettes in my hands
on my grandfather’s chair where he said to me

yeah son you gotta build your life and never look back
there will be people in your life that never give that’s a fact
but it’s hard to see the friends that you used to love go
but you know homie I got your back you just need to give a call 

so save your breath yeah im on my way right now
I don’t want to be someone that lets my friends down
maybe we will block out the sunlight with our despairs
stay in my room no life isn’t fair

Reminisce on issues that we had when we were younger
yeah looking back on it I thought as you as a brother
we suffered from the trauma we didn’t know how to comprehend
until emotion just builds and builds when i hear you say

What Changed

https://linktr.ee/Rivilin

Checkout my homie https://soundcloud.com/slothboipapi
and thanks to my brother WXLVE for everything.

Rivilin:

boot to face then im left to the ground
my hands are shaking now I turn around and face to the crowd
it’s like how did I get to this point without falling
always got a knife in my back im sick of crawling

appreciate everyone that’s always made an effort
just to reach out to me they say that my music is a blessing
but I just keep writing, this is how I cope yeah
not gonna falter im gonna take the future whole

yeah seeing my best friends fall to their old ways
I always got their back and they don’t have to owe me
cus they got mine when I come calling yeah
don’t bring up the past cus it’s always got me hurting

NPCs just give me the kick down
I got everyone I need here
vermin swarm 2021 gonna take it
fuck all the haters you know im not breaking

you wanna come at me and start making accusations
always had it out for me that’s an understatement
like fuck you, fuck them and everyone around me
never had my back when im sinking down slowly

you wanna kick me out the door making implications
then im forced to the ground with no explanation
like move back move in, take it, and don’t slip
cus this is all I got can I sink down below this

WXLVE:

everyone always looks up to me, 
but it feels like iam always drowning on self negativity
yeah, just walking through like yeah, with bleary eyes
im sick of constantly feeling like i need a new life

inside out i feel them haunting my dreams 
its time to sink or swim but im just tryna  wake from the demon within
im afraid these visions are real the man with no names closing in
with brothers close by side ill try not be eaten alive

$lothboi:

RIVILIN
THEY HEAR OUR PAIN
KNIVES IN OUR BACKS WHILE WE CHASE OUR DREAMS

FUCK ALL THIS
ANXIETY
PAIN AND SIN JUST FUCKING FOLLOW ME

Sick of pain, issa fuckin loop
I ain’t want to die, so I’m calling you
Just pay no mind, to my fucking moods
It’s unstable times, I CANT FUCKING CHOOSE

Why do I betray
Myself everyday
Minute I’m awake
I DIG A FUCKING GRAVE

Brothers FT.  WXLVE X $LOTHBOI

Check out my homie: https://soundcloud.com/mefumetto

Lyrics:

Rivilin:


watch the jaws of hell open up for me
falling further down I see the shadows speak
gashes on the side of my cheek I feel the poetry
of all the words you couldn’t say and now the hatred breathes

the bruise marks on my face get darker though
you don’t wanna understand how I sunk this low
medicated on SSRIs just to cope
try to think of memories of you i didn’t loath

i guess the hesitation in your eyes show you don’t care
im grasping onto desperation pulling out my hair
i guess it shows the reasons why you never wanted me
ill hang this noose when you say you want something i cant be

take take from below the ghosts they’re after me
crawling at the scars on my neck im freaking out you see
panic attacks rest deep inside the anger dwells beneath
the red it blinds my vision and im groveling on my knees

--
Ｍｅｆｕｍｅｔｔｏ:

And I got stuck on your lies
It's getting hard to breathe
And I know that I want you but your not what I need
And all of it collapses on my shoulders, I feel weak - I feel weak
Hold my hand when I fall to dust - when I fall to dust
And I'm closing my eyes and letting me go
I only feel like I'm being alone in the end
So let me just fall, let me just die
I lost so much so I don't even mind

FireBloom FT: Ｍｅｆｕｍｅｔｔｏ

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Lyrics
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​Rolling back through my home town
Never thought that you'd regret it but you did now
​Spending nearly every night in a hotel
Bed room, back room just a new shell

One more time, say my name
Sweet lullabies take away my pain
Hold me tight while you play your games
Say goodbye, fade away
One more time, say my name
Sweet little lies make me feel okay
Buried inside coursing through my veins
Burn my life, forget this place

Oh rolling back through my home town
Never thought that you'd regret it but you did now
Never thought that you'd forget it but you did back then
I've been rolling up to try and keep my soul well
Spending nearly every night in a hotel
Bed room, back room just a new shell
Why you worried 'bout losing another fucking friend
You're the type that never seem to wanna go out

Ey, bad news is the new age
Everybody got a reason that they moved away
Wanna ride on a new wave
You've got nothing to look for but yesterday
I gotta check I'm breathing
And my pulse 'till my heart stops beating
People I only ever see when I'm dreaming
Telling me that I've just found a bigger cage

That I've just found a bigger cage
Cage
Cage
That I've just found a bigger cage
Cage
Cage
Cage
Cage
Cage
Cage
Cage
Cage

One more time, say my name
Sweet lullabies take away my pain
Hold me tight while you play your games
Say goodbye, fade away
One more time, say my name
Sweet little lies make me feel okay
Buried inside coursing through my veins
Burn my life, forget this place

Tragedy

Sweet Lullabies

Sweet Lullabies [Prod. Quiteevil]

Lyrics:

I messed around, and I told them all the obvious

The way I'm walking straight is making everything monotonous

For anything that I have had a problem with,

I'd hate to see it all again,

Still here, but my mind has gone away






Saw an idea, it doesn't feel right to die here

get my keys, get my wallet, get the fuck up outta here

This is my fear, came equipped with the right gear

When I'm in the area, it's always my section right there. 


I guess that I'll admit it, I've always been so vindictive

Of the life that I've been living in,

Fortunate for the misfortune, I've been pivoting

Call me a cryptic sadistic visionary 

Put me 6 feet under and leave me buried,





Take a shot of cynanide for every time that I have lied


and even though I know that I will die, the truth is mine to write. 


How will my story unfold? Find out when the time is right.


There's a deeper meaning to exist in this life of mine. 





Painful in proportions, ripping pictures of my walls

Tameful in extortions, going easy on you all. 

My name is what's important, fuck the fame it's all a show. 

I've been faithful to the gods, and I've been faithful to my soul. 





My life is always great, but my mind is always poor

I don't wanna die alone, nothings in control 

Put together pieces, the pieces that I know

Have so many questions but everythings rhetorical x2

Rhetorical (prod. PurpleHex)

Prod by Kami: @yaboikami

Artwork by: www.instagram.com/thiago.saluthi/ & @bvdcxrtex

Lyrics:

(verse)
You tell me that your view is changin'
I tell you everything is just the same and
It ain't your fault that I'm hated
But you and me are long outdated

Empty promises lost within my nightstand
I can't stand that and neither can you

Honestly it makes me sick that
I can't fucking stand you

(Chorus)
Broken shards of glass
And head's on back
Now my veins are turning black
And my skull is fucking cracked

Am I even standing up
What'd you pour in my cup

Broken shards of glass
And head's on back
Now my veins are turning black
And my skull is fucking cracked

Am I even standing up
What'd you pour in my cup

(Bridge)

(Hook)
I'm going to war on myself
I'm stocking my shelves with liquor I fucking need help
I'm killing my brain cells tonight
I need to do this shit right

Silence my demons with sprite
I'm taking a flight
Leaving this city with spite
I made up my mind
I ain't gon' say goodbye
So don't you fucking try to keep me down

(Chorus)
Broken shards of glass
And head's on back
Now my veins are turning black
And my skull is fucking cracked

Am I even standing up
What'd you pour in my cup

Broken shards of glass
And head's on back
Now my veins are turning black
And my skull is fucking cracked

Am I even standing up
What'd you pour in my cup

I'm Mentally Stable, I SWEAR

Outdated

Forget it all
Can't keep up, not new enough
No one knew, its not your fault
Cannot sleep, I'm staying up
No energy to live at all

Forget it all
Can't keep up, not new enough
No one knew, its not your fault
Cannot sleep, I'm staying up
No energy to live at all

Can't stop failing
So fucked, waiting
For my dreams to come true
For the noose to cut loose
Can't I think

I can make it?
Exposed, im naked
You all know about me,
But I dont know about you
I guess thats my fate.

I'm emjaay, im 22
I've been living my life with you
You know more secrets than I do
Cause I've been writing for you.

Whats my sound now? Grown
Slowly getting outta lows
Knockin four crows 
Off the shoulders, left a note
It aint wrong
Falling up, never listen, never not told
I come off cold, I come off low
And its all in my head
But I still struggle to get out of bed
Find peace in silence, I'd rather be dead
Please piece it together, inside my head

Forget it all
Can't keep up, not new enough
No one knew, its not your fault
Cannot sleep, I'm staying up
No energy to live at all

Forget it all
Can't keep up, not new enough
No one knew, its not your fault
Cannot sleep, I'm staying up
No energy to live at all

cannot sleep, im staying up [prod. HXRXKILLER]

https://soundcloud.com/thepalesage

Rivilin
it’s like my hands are grasping through water
cus every time I try to  reach out yeah I just phase through
yeah I know I don’t recognize myself in the mirror
yeah, you know  its all thanks to you

dissociation, looking at the ground it starts to breathe
yeah, it’s like there's concreate on my chest and I just start to sink
down down, to the deep blue
then I think myself, yeah I could die here and just move on

I feel like im never worth your time
you wanna break me down get fucked yeah
burning at both ends ya know im not doing fine
the scars start to reflect my heart your lies

I feel depression burning down inside
spitting out blood, yeah im done with this so hang up
seeing my passion burning through my eyes
not gonna go under so don’t try

Palesage:

mystery
this faucet
covered like a secret
try to open , give up ,
P$ that's a weakness
thoughts in my head
serpents
slither in my system
Pale just like the moon
Sage the wisdom in my runes
shine in the distance
glisten til the noon
disappear in an instance
but I'll see you soon
permanent the frown all around
yeah i'm like a goon
bumping that TeamSESH on repeat
careless like looneytunes
 
where did you go , man
where did you go , man
i'm always tryna see if you thinking up new plans ,
me myself and i we dont care , we wanna dance
put aside all our feelings , what kills us - we won't pretend
... i'm tellin you we won't pretend
... this old life i wanna end
start a life from new leaf
just believe
we don't pretend
start that life from a new story
man just try
we don't pretend

Rivilin:

yeah so why why why would you wanna be like this
mental issues still define me I feel sick
I stay high every day just to feel normal
but I don’t remember what it’s like
 
so I just sink into myself where I build up my own hell
but yeah I know that ill find peace right here
cus I don’t need anyone else
cus I can drag myself down on my own I don’t need your help

just me and the pale sage staring at the moon
pupils wide yeah watch it consume us
howls in the night screaming out our names
watch the wolves run to us tearing us to shreds we won’t call out

never tell him, yeah but he’s like a brother
always supporting my dreams yeah I don’t need another
like rats in the sewers swarming from the underground
always putting up the scraps cus we always overthink like

Taken Back FT. PALE$AGE

https://linktr.ee/Rivilin

bury the capsule of my doubt, I find myself staring through a window into the thick fog inside of my home, and it’s haunting it’s calling me beckoning me to walk further into the trees, and I find that there is no such thing as the word hope here

now im digging my way out, does it get better, does it get better than this
you burst in my room anger is filled in the palm of your fist
waking up with a black eye yeah like everything’s just fine
until the morning brings dust and I fade into my own hell

I swear time stood for a second and it showed me everything
what it means to be alive and for what it means to kill myself
some days it gets better most days it’s just worse
until I find out I hated myself all along 

THE ROPE JUST PULLS BACK
PRESSURE BUILDS AS MY NECK JUST SNAPS
IS THIS LIFE, IS THIS IT FUCK IM SICK OF IT
REPEATING AND REPEATING UNTIL THE TIDE JUST SWALLOWS ME WHOLE

THE RAT KING RELAPSED
I DONT THINK I WILL GET ME BACK
IS THIS LIFE, IS THIS IT FUCKING KILL ME NOW
CIRCLING AND CIRCLING UNTIL THIS HELL IS ALL THAT I FOUND

Even though our eyes had seen so much heartache, we had so much faith that this journey would show us the world in which we loved, but all I'm left with is a hollow empty room, which chills my bones till they freeze, I find my soul no longer lingers in this room because it hates the feeling of knowing that someone is going to die

Iron Teeth

https://linktr.ee/Rivilin

can you see me from the bottom
even though the waters shallow I still feel as if it’s above my neck
does it hurt you to see me suffer
does it hurt you at all can you feel a thing

I see father, im so sorry
I see mother, please don’t worry
because the medication didn’t seem to work I couldn’t get my head straight
dreams of overdosing, shallow breathing, no it’s too late

I see the rain start to pour when I think of your name
I feel the pain when you call, say you’re here with my friend
explosions of infinity say it’s all in my head
astral projects of where I could be happy, no im not happy at all

No, don’t cry out my name, no fuck you this is it
im not who I want to be, but I know when to quit
engrave your tales in my veins just to say you want him
im ripping out my own flesh just to say I forget, no I won’t forget

theirs a face staring back at me, 
yeah what, what does it want from me
it doesn’t speak, it just follows me
everywhere I go, yeah everywhere I turn

in the shadows always consuming
my thoughts always presuming
that maybe one day I will just take a step 
And just learn to breathe

so tell me does get better than this
I don’t even know, you don’t even know so why do I ask
maybe cus im holding on by a thread
and secretly im hoping it gives

so then you can just watch me fall
until I hit the water and let the ocean sky just consume me

Remedy

https://linktr.ee/Rivilin

CHECK OUT MY HOMIE https://soundcloud.com/vishisdead 

im not perfect yeah I know that
im not worth it, you love to say that
im not much but I try my FUCKING best
but you keep keep, taking you keep keep, breaking me

im just the kid in the, in the background
you don’t wanna understand now that the pains found
always self-absorbed in your own issues
you never cared about me you only cared about you

Yeah, watch my skin dissolve into the, the hell below 
yeah im staring straight through, and I see, I see my soul
being torn by the hooks of the, the ones i love
im sick of being stretch between this chronic fatigue always feeling empty

no one wants to understand what its like
when you fucking can’t get out of bed no your a lost cause
chuck me to the side like im just one of your pawns
until I have the balls to fucking kick the fucking door close

I have no appetite for this yeah
wrap your arms around my skin then kiss
all the bone sticking out of my flesh
im sick of being this way when self-hate is the game

you make me sick thinking love is all bliss
when you’re the reason that im a fucking mess
push your nails through my hands and crucify me
I guess my mother was right hell is inside of me

VISHISDEAD

You think i'd like looking in from outside
Cause, i've been doing this shit for all  my life
yeah it's all my fault, why do i even try
Cause when they break my skin my tears won't fly

well hey mumma what were thinking you put me out there
nothing's ever easy and this life's unfair 
I graved my shins, nobody cared

hold on gotta think this back, you left me with the world on my back
18 with a dream and voice ain't nobody loved me had to leave it to choice
no human has ever to haunt you
cause they were the ones that once loved you
and even now when you're facing crowd, and hugging your ropes but no you wont back down



I don't really know about this
can you look me in the eyes, can you tell me it's alright
I don't, I don't really know about this
for the last time, this will be last time

Appetite FT. Vishisdead

Self produced / Sad  

CONTACT: RIVILINAU@GMAIL.COM

FireBloom FT: Ｍｅｆｕｍｅｔｔｏ

Rivilin

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