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it’s like my bones are weighed down by lead
I pull my feet to the ground and I try to move forward
there’s an absence of the sound here
until my vision fades black and I wake up on your shore

how do I put my thoughts to words
when my ghost keeps tripping on itself and I fall
emptiness was just the goal here
weigh your problems on me till I crumble, crumble, crumble down

yeah im the rat king yeah your love still stings
affection pins me to the wall, the ground opens yeah watch me fall
your the dreamless the one that still calls
fill my lungs up with sorrow until I can’t breathe in I drown again

yeah cus im the rat king, where the fuck have you been
close my blinds and lock the door im not coming out anymore
desperation still lives in here
so we toss the key and move on

fuck fuck fucked all around me
I will bury our love in me
take take take till im nothing
toss me to the wolves when you’re done 

break break break all around me
mood stabilizers make me sick
leave leave leave in the morning
I know you never cared where I went

push me back and spit in my face
when I said to you that im sick
sorry that im too just much to handle
another day spent inside wasting all my time just to sleep

fall to pressure now addicted should I blame you now im weak
when you’re not in my dreams I can’t sleep what the fuck you’ve done with me
on my knees now can’t stop the shaking
just pull the plugs and watch me drown

Tidewreck

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staring at the edge of the world
yeah contemplating if I should stay
it’s in the eye of the storm we scream
yeah your love makes me feel nothing

It’s when the ghosts starts to get under my skin
I hear the rats start to eat at my shins
I had the key to leave all this time
I didn’t have the guts to make that climb

watch the wolves start to tear me to shreds
a mental battle where im lost in my head
you hear the bones start to snap and tear
a bullet to the head wake up gasping for air

sleeping with an eye open now that you’re gone
scared to fucking death with what I have become
overfilled with rage yeah with bloodshot eyes
push me on my back as I just float into the sky

watching pretty starlight consume me
breaking one by one just to make you happy
fuck I only wanna see you smile
that’s never the case when you’re with me

should I just accept my fate and sink
watching the ground open up and just swallow me
surrounded with the ex-friends down in hell
it’s getting hard to breathe when depression swells

Fate Weaver

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maybe im the curse
I’ve lost my way
stone built skin
to hell, I lay

it’s getting darker here how could I tell
cus im lost in limbo shit isn’t simple
trapped in the layers of hell
cus my feet are sinking losing feeling

watch the waxwings start to melt
as im falling faster should not trust her
there’s no light here I couldn’t tell
the graffiti sky holds the illusion you sell

you murderer, murderer liar,
take advantage of the person you love
you coward you coward you monster
it’s your own fault that you fucking lost her

it’s a fever dream I built
this flaking skin bears no shame
now the cracks just fill your eyes
through dementia, you will pay

Glasshouse

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I see you still fighting through a fog that you couldn’t seem to get through
you try to still pick me up like im just the kid who didn’t fit his shoes
I promise I would try and find a cure, im just a youth who was so ignorant I didn’t know what i put you through
I didn’t want to see that you remember me as a kid, I didn’t want to be the one who watched you enter this hell

I tore my hands to pieces trying to just dig you out alive
I never understood the words when you said you should let me die
i don’t want to give up on you, cus you were there when I needed you
but you told me time waits for no one and that includes you to

who am I that’s what you said, you couldn’t recognize me in your bed
and that same place became your grave where you saw your husband stay
you don’t remember your daughter anymore your shaking legs landed you on the floor
if I could take away the agony you know I fucking would

you shake, yeah Parkinson’s never really suited you anyway
hearts break when the ones that you love start to see you fade from old age
it’s just a game, to be trapped in a prison when the body starts to just ache
we fade when the memories of old start to chip and you lose faith

so calm down, calm down, it’s not like you remember who I am
your just a shell of the person I used to love but ill stay right by you
there’s nothing worse than being left on your own as the world just fades out
So i’ll hold my tongue, I won’t let another take advantage as you wither away

Swan Rd

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push the curtains back my skin starts to unravel
It’s not like ill fucking be missed
take some pills and enter bliss
where fogged walls cloak everything and my bed is the abyss

back then I was trapped in hell 
and I couldn’t fucking tell what was real and what was fake
yeah I thought you were my friend, guess the drugs got the better of you
I had to let  you go I had to leave

you were fucking like a brother to me
we watch the wolves in the woodwork chase after the pieces of my soul
face first hit the concrete 
my eyes snap open just another nightmare will I wake again
just to find reality isn’t really like fucking hell is this a joke
this is not fucking funny anymore

Every day this lifeline gets a little thinner
hold on yeah just wait a minute throwing up what’s left of dinner
sick of fucking feeling but that is not what I want
I just want to say that I am happy

trauma leaks from those red eyes
if you cant understand would you grab my arm and drag me out alive
fogged up your just a dead mind
yeah dissociated at fucking best 

I feel like I am crawling out of lab x 16
poltigiest controlling me with memoroies
im in the old woods by the doctors’ house
feel like im out of control can you look into my eyes and say that you remember me

The One You Hate

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Rivilin:

fingertips purple and numb
I guess the glass is half full
just so empty and glum
separations never easy

I never thought I could hate you so much
dance with the devil down low
im by myself here a lot
this nightmare is all my own

so what the fuck did I do to deserve this can you tell me, no
burning cigarettes into my hands prepare for hell then loathe
knowing my existence is nothing more than a fucking joke
tearing at my skin, can you just fuck off oh

watching your eyes sink into this emptiness I call a soul
they say the abyss stares back when you look at someone with no hope
on my fucking deathbed cellulitis up my neck, don’t call
never heard a word from you, you left me in a shallow whole

this emptiness is more than enough
im fine here alone,im fine by myself
this thing we call love is never enough
you take watch you want and leave me torn up

northwestghost:

Nether Ft. northwestghost

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it’s not fair that I see your smile, your right there
unconditional love always giving always care
you were right beside me you never left you always stayed
with your two big brown eyes yeah you gave a grin and

layed your head down on my sheets yeah
push the pain down yeah I weep
you didn’t know what was happening or what was going on
if I could just sacrifice myself for you, you’d know id do it all along

demons climbing up on you, no you can cope yeah you just falter
wading through the dark abyss, i see your eyes and now their broken
you don’t got no strength left in your legs so ill just pick you up and
drag you out until we reach a god who can explain this situation

see the bones start to stick out of your flesh, medicated, losing weight but
always have a smile on your mind you know that is hard to face this
watch my brothers fill with concern as your losing balance changing
into something that we don’t recognize anymore, its not fair

tell them it gets better, it won’t
perspective of this change is a joke
foggy grey blank mind is my world
the change wont come if I stay here alone

lacerations in my head hurt
dependency on drugs make me lurk
losing a best friend feels like shit
I lay my soul in the dirt

im sick of watching our loved ones fucking leave
what does god want id give up fucking everything
just to make the one I love stay 
before it’s my time to leave

you better make sure they’re all their afterlife
I don’t care if it’s in hell i’ll make sure im there in time
Just to see a smile on their face,
to make sure we are alright

Luminous

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each day just repeats after the next
seems to always be the same yeah I can’t catch my breath yeah
try to explain but you just don’t get it
cus the same thing happened like you just took an amnestic

in my own hell right here, yeah I think I get it 
I just write these songs so yeah I can admit it
cus im lost in these tunnels not making sense
put a knife through my sternum treat me like I am an experiment

poor piss pants kid what did you expect
did you really think they’d treat you like an equal with respect
yeah boot to the face and they left you on the ground yeah
strap a kid down and medicate till his family is replaced

with a bottle and some drugs on the side yeah
wake up every morning feeling like I wanna die yeah
pushed into the trunk and try to kick out the light
no energy no strength just to keep up the fight

So what’s the point in living when you don’t really get it
yeah 404 connection lost im awkward I admit it
yeah what’s the point of running when they knew from the beginning
like who the fuck am I this insanity repeating

so what’s the point of loving when I couldn’t just admit
just a feeling of disgust in my stomach and its screaming
cus I hate this hate that everywhere I go
just the same face, lose touch, everything’s for show

say its aggravated assault when I punched you in the face
I swear time stood still for a second then its breaks yeah
watch the consequences start to come around yeah
running without shoes from the cops living underground

remember two of us at the landfill 
didn’t want to go home, no choice tears spill
in the family house where the holes start to resonate
watch the abyss grow in the cracks from your fathers’ hate

I hear you fucking crying through these paper-thin walls
you didn’t understand emotional abuse and now she’s gone
I see you running down the street, not a fear in site
except the one from your father where he stabbed you in the spine

three kids residing in the back room feeling pretty shit
don’t know how to talk about each other’s pains
until one day they just give up
I still blame you for her death

The Coward

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Rivilin

until I’ve had my fill
ill linger here be numb
my family always calls
to ask if I am done

of being pulled by the strings
a constant reminder
of foggy streets at home
where I lose track of time

Yeah I place my feet straight on the floor ye watch everything turn to stone
the wooden shutters hide the sunlight sinking in an empty hole
grasping onto straws in desperation  just to find I fall
straining everything out of my mental state im pacing back and forth

I can hear the wood start to creek as you’re pressed against this
hear my calling out as the ground open up, im forced to embrace hell
how can I call this living as the wolves open up my gut
watch me sink, watch me sink into myself

sepsis in the veins, now complain to a new face
all my psychs cant analyze me, pushed aside, and disgraced
spitting on your grave, you left me down in this place
gravity it falls as I take a leap of faith

what I got to lose nothing left except my name
putting pressure on your scalp until you can feel my pain
metal to the head like I am praying for a new way
no reply from God above, so here I drown in dismay

Tsunami J.

These things they hurt inside me
I’m searching for the freighting
I might not find what I seek
But I will search till I peak

Wash the shame outside my mind
I can see the sands of the time
I been hoping for a sign
But I’m hopeless in this life
I keep peaking out the blinds
Cause I’m focused on the light
I’m just poison to the kind
Man I’m stuntin with my dime

I think I’m worried I might sink
It’s just the spins from all these drinks
I think the world is onto me
They must be here to watch for free
I keep begging for my sight but I’m not trusting what I see
I keep drinking till I lie cause I’m just rushing to my fiend
He’s just breathing to my binds until I’m dusting down my needs
I’m just dealing with his cries until I’m fucking up my peace

I think I’m worried I might sink
It’s just the spins from all these drinks
I think the world is onto me
They must be here to watch for free

These things they hurt inside me
I’m searching for the freighting
I might not find what I seek
But I will search till I peak

Sepsis FT. Tsunami J.

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yeah crucify me stab me in the front
what was I expecting I knew you’d break my trust
watch the veil come down and cover up my eyes
would you come and save me, ill believe your lies

tell me what’s the point I feel like I’ve given up
should I call you back when I know this isn’t love
you just take advantage when im on the low
when I need you most I find myself all alone

I can feel it in my skin crawling under my eyes
its constant negativity that makes the doubt and takes emotions that I hide
until im just left feeling so numb
a delicate flower that breaks when it’s loved

im over-medicated i didn’t want to say it
because if I admit it, you just freak out and leave me here all alone
and it shows
that i don’t know how to communicate to you at all

I see you suffering, you know it’s hurting me
I ask if your ok but you just find ways to push away
all the pain
until it builds and builds and you take it out all on me

so why can’t you explain to me what you're going through
you know you're not alone
but we shut everyone out
until were drowning in our doubt

Live A Liar

yeah flashback as my skin to stone, yeah as a kid yeah I didn't really get it
disconnected as I see bone a clean break, yeah I couldn't fucking mend it
this fuck hitting me up on my phone, no matter what I say im left reprimanded
im drinking myself into a hole, down here ill never be happy

so put me on display, you want to try and make a mock of my name
so is everything you said to me real, that's when I knew that you never fucking feel
so show my flaws for the world to see
tell me what’s the point when everyone around you has already given up

why can't you look look look at me
my skin’s burning as im underneath
am I not enough, am I not enough
am I not enough, watch the blood leak in my dreams

tell me you hate hate hate all of me
I understand cus I feel the same thing
and ask if we just give up I know you wanna break
yeah if we just give up, I know you're just using me

I try to come back alive but I know your feelings are dead for me
try to make up my mind but you know its not as easy as that
we try to live and collapse we never give and take back
and that's when I realized I lost

I guess I knew back then when it happened cus I saw your soul burn to the light
experimenting on amphetamines unfortunately you burnt out your sight
you try and push me to the wall it felt like I was turned to stone
im fucking frozen in a place where I am left all alone

maybe we can work it out no fuck that I don't want you here
panic attack from your face you fucked me up I made it clear
but you still hit me up and say you've changed I believed that last time
and I just fell into a cage where misery embraced my name

no, I don't want to be.
left alone again
cus you know that ill be hurt by you
but I always come back just to find im used

BURNING ALIVE

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