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Prod by: @quiteevil

Robstar: @robstar100

FLOWERBOY: @ix_flowerboy

Artwork made by: https://www.instagram.com/akagi_redsnus/

Lyrics: 

(Robstar)
I've been gettin' too high Imma crash boy
All I ever want is cash and some hash, boy
Imma pull up with a stash, it's the plan boy
All black on this little sad bad boy
Uh, I'm back with a new ploy
You gon' see me at the top when I rest on my throne
You wanna work? That's a bag boy
And I ain't talkin' 'bout a Lidl less you're talking gold
Through the light see a new toy
Talkin' 'bout me to her friends like I ain't gonna know
She wanna fuck but she too coy
Baby meet me out back, I can take you home

Ride with me
Cry with me
Baby wanna pop some shrooms?
Vibe with me
Get high with me
Spend it all thinkin' of you
Lie to me
Fight with me
Bury me in your room
You're tryin' me
Would you die with me
If I kill you too?

(SCAR$)
Done with all this shit
Die young in the back bitch
Broken heart gang
Fuck that I don't like it

Done with all this shit
Die young in the back bitch
I quit fuck it I don't like it
I don't like it

Before we die we gon' have fun
We gon' have fun
Pills when i cry do you want one
And i'm done
I'm done

(FLOWERBOY)
All I've ever wanted was a call
nightfall comes and I cant feel at all
Where'd the sun go 'cause he never said hi
Sleeping all day 'cause i wanna fucking die

My face hurts
Face hurts
I can't feel my face
My face
My face
Misfits outside out of place
Tell me do you see the same thing baby

All I've ever wanted was a call
Where you ever really there at all

Just the top
You've got claws
I can't feel my face at all
And I try so hard and i get so far
Tell me why you gotta be so cold to me
Just woke up come hold me baby

Du du du du du
I'm done

You were never really there were you
I wish that i could change the way i see things
I ain't going back
I don't give a fuck
I don't care anymore so don't call me
Baby

I'm done I'm done
I'm done I'm done

(SCAR$)
Done with all this shit
Die young in the back bitch
Broken heart gang
Fuck that I don't like it

Done with all this shit
Die young in the back bitch
I quit fuck it I don't like it
I don't like it

Before we die we gon' have fun
We gon' have fun
Pills when i cry do you want one
And i'm done
I'm done

Done with all this shit
Die young in the back bitch
Broken heart gang
Fuck that I don't like it

Done with all this shit
Die young in the back bitch
I quit fuck it I don't like it
I don't like it

Before we die we gon' have fun
We gon' have fun
Pills when i cry do you want one
And i'm done
I'm done

I'm done/I'm done/I'm done

I'm done/I'm done/I'm done (ft. Robstar, FLOWERBOY)

LYRICS:

All up in my feelings like it's Black Rock shooter 
Black rock shooter, I said all up in my feelings like its black rock shooter

All up in my feelings like its Black Rock Shooter
Put that chain around my neck I swear to God i'm biting through it
You gon miss me when I'm Gone, took a shot and then I Blue it
They said life is but a dream, what you mean get into it? X2

Bullets in excess I think I lost my fucking mind
they said "Revy where you Go?", I don't know, all the time
I can tell you wanna talk, But I never got the time
I got big plans later tell your friends that they can slide
I know, I fucked up but its okay
We can stay up on the path that we never really made
It seems I've grown to hate these ways
I think my life is turning Grey

"Wow. Your dreams are crazy."
"Uh-huh, I saw a lot of girls this time But I'd never seen any of them before, and the blue eyed girl... she..."
"Wait! I think I get it!"  
"Huh?" 

All up in my feelings like its Black Rock Shooter
Put that chain around my neck I swear to God i'm biting through it
You gon miss me when I'm Gone, took a shot and then I Blue it
They said life is but a dream, what you mean get into it? X3

All up in my feelings like it's Black Rock shooter 
Black rock shooter, I said all up in my feelings like its black rock shooter

Black Rock Shooter (prod. Valel)

@rivilin

Lyrics

I say I'm happy but I'm not fake a smile it takes a lot
No energy feeling lost, what's the point now your gone
Plagued by nightmares where I'm shot, through the head and i wake up
Didn't think that was a dream, no I'm losing losing weak

Yeah i hear these ghost yeah outside my hallway
My windows covered in ash at the moment
I don't think ill ever escape from this
The walls start to breathe and the eyes just open up

Moving back and fourth like I'm in a body
Of some disfigured by product of hate
I guess ill make my home right here
I'm more comfortable being trapped inside then exposed
 
To the daylight of the morning
Where I hear pretty whispers just calling my name
And I wake up in a day dream
Thinking that you just went out to get coffee or you went to work

But yeah i know that it wasn't real
That's why i stay awake in the night time
So i know i don't get disappointed by the morning
When i wake and your not there

Cus you know this life gets a bit difficult at times
Yeah I don't think I'm coping i think that I'm lost
Yeah teetering on the edge of suicide
Like yeah do i do it or do i wait to die

Cus it feels like you picked out the gems from my bones
I was so beautiful now I'm empty and all alone
Cus you love to put your two hands in my insides
And you push me on the stage where I'm blinded by the light

Yeah I'm tripping on my own tongue try to find the words
Just to tell my family that im not ok, i hurt
Tell me when was the last time that anyone cared
Probably when you read my eulogy when im fucking dead

Everyone has their opinions on why i takes these fucking drugs
Yeah just to feel numb so i cant give a fuck
Im sick of overthinking about everything in my life
And you know youre fucked up too

Its crazy they don't get it
Just a-fucking-live cuz I got people that be caring
Standing on the edge and staring
At the faces warped from cries if took this step to end it

Walls be closing so I'm phoning in cuz I feel so lone
On the edge of it, cuz I'm on a binge and I know it shows
Sold my soul for shit boy this ain't a skit, man I feel so cold
Lost it in a f it, I was in a binge, can't take back those

So I live with it, and I loop a bit, and I loop a bit
Like I broken record I'm forgotten bitch
I know I got a problem, made a fucking list
Knowing I'm adding daily cuz I'm throwing fits

My mental state be going down a pit
I got a itch, which I gotta fix
Cuz I'm bleeding out from scratching all of it

These walls are closing in
Losing all my breath
Thinking did I live and life without a end

Gasping for a breath
Fighting for my friends
Fuck I gotta make it, I ain't ready yet

Gotta make amends
Cannot fly again
Off the handle, man I'm fucking losing it

Grounded by a bend
Blacking out again
Sober up until it happens all again

Fucked up I need to lay low
Beta blockers with the Faygo
Anxiety got me fucked up with these fake thoughts screaming lameo

So I close my eyes till it fade away
Open up and its another day
Another day issa another waste
Man I fucking hate, that I think this way

Losing It

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$LOTHBOI x Rivilin - Losing It

prod. ocin
guitars: yago

(I always found it hard 
The answers 
X2) 

I always found it hard to find 
The answers 
To all the problems they describe 
No answers 
Could ever save us from our lies girl 
Could ever save us from the night girl 
Cause every fucking road 

We can’t go wrong 
Feel it in your back now 
I can’t go wrong 
No more luck I’m growing fast now 
I can’t go wrong 
Feel it in your head now 
We can’t go wrong 
I can’t 

I can’t tell what’s real no more 
I can’t feel love am I insane? 
All these thoughts consume my brain 
You should leave me here in the rain girl 
Leave me alone, I’m in my zone 
No matter what I’ll find a way 
way 

Can’t go wrong 
Feel it in your back now 
I can’t go wrong 
No more luck I’m growing fast now 
I can’t go wrong 
feel it in your head now 
we can’t go wrong 
I can’t

can't go wrong

Better Off Dead - LivEviL (MMXX SIDE A)

Say That you Need Me Well That Was All A Lie
Say That You Want Me I Don't Even Know Why
Yet I Still Want You I Need You By My Side
Should I Live Or Die , Should I Live Or Die

Feel Like There's Something Wrong With My Head
Half The Time I Just Wish That I Was Dead
Emotions I Can't Hold em , Drowning In My Bed
Should I Live Or Die , Should I Live Or Die

Tempting Thoughts Of Suicide 
But When I Die What Will I Leave Behind
What Will I Leave Behind 
Should I Live Or Die , Should I Live Or Die

Down In My Cave I Be Crying Like A Bitch
Pass The Joint I Just Need Another Hit
Emo Boy I'm Just Living As It Is
Hit Reload 
Let Me Bring This Chorus Back , Hit That Switch

Say That you Need Me Well That Was All A Lie
Say That You Want Me I Don't Even Know Why
Yet I Still Want You I Need You By My Side
Should I Live Or Die , Should I Live Or Die

Feel Like There's Something Wrong With My Head
Half The Time I Just Wish That I Was Dead
Emotions I Can't Hold em , Drowning In My Bed
Should I Live Or Die , Should I Live Or Die

Tempting Thoughts Of Suicide 
But When I Die What Will I Leave Behind
What Will I Leave Behind 
Should I Live Or Die , Should I Live Or Die

Down In My Cave I Be Crying Like A Bitch
Pass The Joint I Just Need Another Hit
Emo Boy I'm Just Living As It Is
Hit Reload 
Let Me Bring This Chorus Back , Hit That Switch

Down In My Cave I Be Crying Like A Bitch
Pass The Joint I Just Need Another Hit
Emo Boy I'm Just Living As It Is
Hit Reload 
Let Me Bring This Chorus Back , Hit That Switch

Down In My Cave I Be Crying Like A Bitch
Pass The Joint I Just Need Another Hit
Emo Boy I'm Just Living As It Is
Hit Reload 
Let Me Bring This Chorus Back , Hit That Switch

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Life Or Death (Prod.Kuroime)

Why does everything end up like this
I swear I knew it would end,
I’m getting used to it, I know you’d come back and quit
I know you’re with him not me, getaway

Why does everyone hate me right now
I swear it’s like I just found out
What did I expect this time I will pretend that I’m fine
Cus I don’t want you hearing about me

I guess you really didn’t think id find out
I know you’re using me right now
say I’m just like him but I’m second best
yeah, if you had him I know you’d leave me like the rest

It’s your fake heart, yeah its fake love
say you wanna come back and make things up to me
but I don’t want that, I don’t want that
leave me alone ill be fine

sick to death of watching the best of me get eaten alive
I still see your heart on your shoulder when you look at my eyes
why can’t you let me go,  
I don’t feel it, it’s over

kiss me on the cheek, close my eyes yeah ill step away
biting on my lips, I know if I don’t leave I will decay
don’t look down look at me
I’m doing alright so just leave

Why does everything end up like this
I swear I knew it would end,
I’m getting used to it, I know you’d come back and quit
I know you’re with him not me, getaway

Why does everyone hate me right now
I swear it’s like I just found out
What did I expect this time I will pretend that I’m fine
Cus I don’t want you hearing about me

lying on the floor I see you cover your eyes
the sun is just too bright
you talking to him and you get into his car
leave me here stranded on the road, where did I go wrong no

don’t recognize the face in front of me
yeah the mirror doesn’t seem to give images I wanna see
so I shut down and shut out everyone
learn to be alone but it wasn’t fun

forgive and forget half-alive here at best
my memories are getting hazy so please just
understand that I need to take a break
between us it wasn’t about you and me I knew you always were fake

kiss me on the cheek, close my eyes yeah ill step away
biting on my lips, I know if I don’t leave I will decay
don’t look down look at me
I’m doing alright so just leave

Why does everything end up like this
I swear I knew it would end,
I’m getting used to it, I know you’d come back and quit
I know you’re with him not me, getaway

Why does everyone hate me right now
I swear it’s like I just found out
What did I expect this time I will pretend that I’m fine
Cus I don’t want you hearing about me

YOU KNEW ID FIND OUT

Lyrics (artwork by https://www.instagram.com/g0re.krist/?hl=en)
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I'm an odd boy, I don't associate,

I let all my hate, exfoliate,

Let it rain MK48, 

surrounded by way too many phony fakes.


You living all your life, make believe,

I bet none of you would ever show your face to me.




I sniff out a rat like a hound, 
Talking that shit get my blade then get down 

You a private, so you staying silent, but I'm a vet now. 
Buncha props, sitting still on my set now,

Don't ever step on my premises,
sick in the head you need medicine. 


Put you to bed with some sedatives,
Everything was what I said it is. 
Dont even think of comparing us.


GOT MORE MONEY THAN YOU I STILL DON'T FLASH IT,
THE MORE YOU TALK ABOUT IT AND YOU STILL WONT PASS US

ODD KID I ROLL ALONE IN THE CITY, 
WINDOWS ARE DOWN AND MY DRIVING IS RISKY,
ALL LIMO TINTs WHILE IM HITTING 160
i see the lights now they coming to get me


Pull me over and they give me a warning,
Smile and wave cause I'm looking so charming.



Yea, young boy, I feel silly.
Yea nobody ever come get me,
Don't hit my phone I'm busy
Yea every one offended,
I don't ever show no pity,
My shots are full feel tipsy
Now I pop out feel jiggy,

I'm a bad guy but you cant kill me.

Bad Guy (prod. Nativ)

Feature Artist: https://soundcloud.com/slothboipapi




Rivilin:

losing conscious from the panic attacks
yeah they build and swell deep inside you when you find you relapse
on pills that never helped you surface
yours breaking down, it’s hurting 

me and you and all of your friends
I see your wrists start to bleed when you panic again
with the razor blades cutting at your voice till you can’t speak
see your legs dangling but you won’t fall im holding on

cut up, cut up you falter
your blank stare just stares cut straight through me
again and again 
and again and again

I miss your smile from back then
your breathing but you are not there
its kills me, it kills me
it kills me again. 

I’ve never been deserted like this, yeah
now I know what they meant when they said that ignorance was bliss
with the pills and the pain that it just built
all the drugs that you tried just to numb yourself

cus im still suicidal
so you tell me that losing a best friend would never work out
but I lost you and lost a lot of time
losing myself in the depths of my mind

the game called life didn't work out on my end
im still struggling to get where I needed to be
but losing you hit the nail in the coffin
I’d be lying man if I said I didn’t think about you often

and im sick of it, 
I still get high every day like I used too
cus I miss you so much
yeah where did you go

$lothboi:

They ask me whats my problem is and then they fucking cry
Cuz they cannot handle stories of my mother fucking life like
Yes I seen some suicide and yes I’ve fucking tried
But I’m never going back to that fucking place, right?

Gone for some days and I’m back in night
I been on a fucking binge and I know it aint right
I been crying for a week but I been out of sight
So it ain't nobody's problem, shit its just my fight

I been fighting since the start
The age of sixteen
This depression made me dark
Sloth born from a seed

Like I don’t wanna start
The PTSD
But I seen bodies on the floor
Since I was 18, Fuck

I ain’t playing this my life
Yeah

Sloth really seen some sights
Man
Its been fucking my head damn
I MIGHT FUCKING JUMP AND END IT

HOLDING ON (FT. $LOTHBOI)

prod. @darcybaylis
mixed by me

lyrics:

Convince myself
everything changes, 
I bid farewell
to all our exchanges, 

I don’t feel well
Maybe it’s fading
but I can’t tell
It’s slowly degrading 

And still I try,
it’s still important, I’ll make it right
choke my disorder, it’s worth the fight
I’ve been an absorber, the pain I write
is making it harder to sleep at night 
And still I try 

I’m drowning 
Alarming
I pay the price amounting
I’m counting
I’m shouting
This wasn’t meant to happen 

I decide to pay the price,
Convince myself it’s in my mind,
survive it every single night,
I close my eyes and see the light 

Convince myself
everything changes, 
I bid farewell
to all our exchanges, 

I don’t feel well
Maybe it’s fading
but I can’t tell
It’s slowly degrading

MUSIC VIDEO

Convince Myself (prod. Darcy Baylis)

OFFICIAL RELEASE DATE: 26/10/20
Releasing it early on Soundcloud, I wrote this 6 hours ago and I really wanted to share it.

so don't worry, you'll never have to hear my name again
so don't worry, I’ll only be here for a sec
cus every time I wanna be something more than someone else
you wanna put me back in my place cuz I’ve lost myself

you just want attention always mention me when you hear my song
you just love the fact that it's about you, yeah I hate when you call
I bet you don't suffer the way I do when I see you in my dreams
you don't even have the guts to say you never loved me

you know that I’ll come back if you hit me up so leave me alone
I’m not worth your time and we both know that so we push me and fall
cus I can feel your gaze your cutting at my ankles like a razor
can you feel the boiling in my blood yeah I succumb to anger

I ALWAYS WANTED TO ASK WHERE I WENT WRONG WHERE I WENT WRONG
I ALWAYS WANTED TO STAY BUT IT’S MY FAULT BUT ITS MY FAULT

VHS DREAM

Self produced / Sad  

CONTACT: RIVILINAU@GMAIL.COM

YOU KNEW ID FIND OUT

Rivilin

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