i keep my head down thru town
walk a straight line
cause ain’t nobody tryna see you break down
in the daytime

so im drinking in the moonlight
i might need a full glass
ain’t right, but i’d die just to go back
won’t fight, i’d lie for a whole night
don’t wanna be lonely anymore

and my imaginary friend
don’t come around and play pretend
no more, no more

someday far across the ocean
i’ll be out there coping
tryna find my way back home to you
no way, i’m barely even floating
drowning in slow motion
caught a case of not so over you

not so over you, i’m not so over you
not so over you, i’m not so over you

fool around, you’d take me back when it was easier
now you’re gone, don’t know exactly what you see in her
smoke until i’m numb it got me floating with the meteors
gave you everything and ever since you’ve gotten greedier

i knew that it was over, started fights without a reason
if you leave you’ll take the only part of me that’s decent
i won’t admit i love to hear you call me when i’m leaving
playing with my heart and over time it seems to weaken

hold on, hard to approach me
go on, let you provoke me
dosing, fixing my mental
hoping i keep it simple
 
someday far across the ocean
i’ll be out there coping
tryna find my way back home to you
no way, i’m barely even floating
drowning in slow motion
caught a case of not so over you

not so over you, i’m not so over you
not so over you

available everywhere

not so over u (wurlishmouk)

Don't go, just stay, it's fine
The storm will pass in time
The ceiling falls inside
The light it burns your eyes

I don't wanna break my back
Frida Kahlo
Shedding all the weight I had
Feeling hollow
Yet I take another pill
Hard to swallow
I'm just living for tonight
No tomorrow

Turning all the dials
Nothing changes
Try to find myself in different faces
Never gonna help
I can't erase it
All the pain I've felt but I'm complacent

Broke ankles
Still on my feet
Psychotic dreams like Dali 
Cold hands keep dropping my keys
Still falling

Miss me, miss me
Why you gotta kiss me
Through the bedsheets
Girl it's not a mystery
Can't breathe
No oxygen
Leaves turn brown and fall again

Miss me, miss me
You weren't even listening
I'm the Bloodletter
Read about my history
It's fine for now 
And then I'll fuck up
I'm confident

In Absence of Identity

all instruments and vocals written / recorded by me
mix master by desmo
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i only do this so you can feel so proud of me
you wont get much out of me 
no theres nothing more to life i see     
nothing that i gotta be
doing all these drugs everyday so obnoxiously 
do i want this more than life itself? 
well probably , well probably
are you hearing what we doing or you asleep ? 
wake up ! 
i said wake up!
i said wake up!
i said wake up!
no this shit is not a game to me
please don't try and play with me
all these tears i fuckin cried
you can take me painfully
don't reveal your secrets to no one
yeah thats the fuckin motto
good job bravo
im sorry what was that your voice was a little muffled
i got some shit i believe its so serious to me
will you take away anything im gonna say
like what the fuck
i feel so stuck
i feel like im always in a fuckin rush
i wish i could tell u to shut the fuck up
nothing that i do ever feels like enough
feel like i rinse and repeat
every day of the week
find new words to speak
nothing that i do 
ever feels like enough
it will never let up
dig another hole and fill it up
i wouldnt take a single fucking thing
back in my life
id let it be the same
let it run its course
ill embrace my name
ill embrace every part of my life that i have in me
keep it between us
just keep this between us

i only do this so you can feel proud of me
you wont get much out of me     
theres nothing that i gotta be
im doing all these drugs everyday so obnoxiouisly 
do i want this more than life itself? well probably

music video

proud of me

girls are spaceships

Dopamine w/ cutdeep (pekarot/homesick)

Track 4 Off my new EP 'You'll Never Figure It Out' 

Guitars & Additional Production by BENNYKAAY

Lyrics:
i’m exhausted 
of all these options 
i see them all in black and white 
cant be trusted 
wanna ruin 
all i have
put up a fight 

i’m exhausted 
i’m exhausted 
i’m exhausted over this 

so when’s it gonna break 
sweat it out, wake up to the good page 
i see now 
what id wanna embrace 
but you force me down 
cage me up in my own brain 

i’m exhausted 
i’m exhausted 
i’m exhausted over this  

through the eyes 
through the eyes 
through the eyes 

through the eyes in my reflection 
i fear i’m just a kid 
through the eyes of my reflection 
i fear that this is it
is this it?
is this it?

i’m exhausted 
i’m exhausted 
im exhausted over this 
i’m exhausted 
(through the eyes)
i’m exhausted 
(through the eyes) 
im exhausted over this

Exhausted (Through The Eyes)

Out My Mind ft. Clueless

SK - Oh Wow(ft. Toshi)(Prod. by YungJZA)

original:  https://soundcloud.com/ihateshinigami/tearsdontfall

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