I was never meant to be a music producer or an artist, idk why I keep doing this stuff, because with each passing day I feel worse and worse. This project was started around March 2021, and yes, I was sitting in it and working on it up until today with maybe 2-3 months break (while also working on other stuff).And YES, im using this caption as opportunity to adress my mental health in all this. Im not a special case or anything but I can't cope with it for much longer, I no longer enjoy the process and I'm too dumb to understand all the technical stuff like mixing and mastering.And I feel like a clown sometimes for taking SO long working on this while Im mostly free with no job. All the young producers around me are getting better than me, understanding better, and making a name out of themselves, while Im struggling to finish one mid-sounding track. I have this cancerous habit of comparing myself with others in anything I'm doing, be it producing or drawing and Im ruining my works by over adding stuff to make it sound perfect because Im desperate and I can't no longer see what Im missing in my works. The short of it is that, at the moment, I feel traumatized because of music and I REALLY don't want to deal with it any longer because of so many factors I described above...
I have a lot more to say about it, but in the end I will just say thank you for the people who support me and appreciate my work despite of it sounding bad, and thank you to @verdantbass , @thextamusic and @targetoblivion for helping me cope with this and giving me constant feedbacks on this, pls show these guys some love. (I know how everyone are struggling as well and is all part of the journey but I don't understand how to cope with it)

Idk if I will quit or not, because music is such an annoyance that I can't even rid myself of it. Enjoy this thing I call "complextro" for now...it ain't much but IT IS honest work.

Artwork by me: https://www.pixiv.net/en/artworks/101467088

Youtube:
https://youtube.com/channel/UCKg3-KVLEE6gAe3MB3TqvqA
Instagram:
https://www.instagram.com/official.positive/

My World

SHOW ME LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!

fine ill unprivate

prod me + mycorpsebride
this song is presented to you by Mr. Beats
scrapped song but idgaf
lyrics:
yea we gon put em in the ground
chop him up yea his body never found
we were never heroes
dont play around
they always feared us
we wont make a sound

smoking pressure
make my head hurt
dont use no effort
im a bag getter 
x2

@akkir0
imma i-i-imma let it blast now
finger on the trigger
im collecting all yo tabs now
take a percy werky
imma feel it til i pass out
did dis shit no effort
you can it see it when u black out
we got 123 fucking bullets to his head
make sure that his body drop
body drop until he dead
a-a-a-a you dont want no smoke
i got bands i let it blow

@1crusafix
take a picture hide my face from paparazzi
1 shot to his head then we laughin at his body
i got voices in my brain they tell me stop it
but i dont ever listen to em cuz im fuckn toxic
gotta lot of bands thro em up like its vomit
talkin on the net bitch we siajgipojrpsoeg
im wit ellie and we best buds
im wit ellie and we awesome

heroes w/ akkiro + 1crusafix (crusey + mcb)

ENERGY DRINK FLIP (feat. ariana 16 ounces)

@1afflicted
@egoworld
production by @prodmelik

lyrics:
i cant even start
i cant be apart from you
keep me in the dark
i dont got no love for you
tell me what u want
no we cant restart
and ive been stuck up in my head
feel like a star
i know what u need
doing what u please
i cant even breathe
do u want #me4me
its too late to fix this
i know we r different
i know u miss this
im sending wishes 2 u

(@trustt)
throw me in the dirt
tell me if im worth it
ive been on my own
ive been more than patient
steady moving locations
tell how its basic
tell me how it is
cuz im tired being patient
cuz im tired being patient
tired being patient
cuz im tired being patient
tired being patient

i cant even start
i cant be apart from you
keep me in the dark
i dont got no love for you
tell me what u want
no we cant restart
and ive been stuck up in my head
feel like a star
i know what u need
doing what u please
i cant even breathe
do u want #me4me
its too late to fix this
i know we r different
i know u miss this
im sending wishes 2 u

what u need ft. trustt prod melik

@1afflicted
@7akkiro
prod aidennxo

lyrics: 
i keep my head down
head down
i cannot let go
g-go
i cannot stay 'round
stay 'round
i keep my eyes closed

pussy wont fall down
one shot to the brain
goin all out
i stand on my money im tall now
if im the paint bitch i ball out
u in the dust i wont slow down-down
im on the top and ive grown now
walk in the spot and i pop with my pole out
bitch im outside in the whip better pull out
(pull out)

@akkir0

i keep my head down
head down
i cannot let go
g-go
i cannot stay 'round
stay 'round
i keep my eyes closed

pussy wont fall down
one shot to the brain
goin all out
i stand on my money im tall now
if im the paint bitch i ball out
u in the dust i wont slow down-down
im on the top and ive grown now
walk in the spot and i pop with my pole out
bitch im outside in the whip better pull out
(pull out)

yuh leave him to bleed
bitch im outside with my team
mask on my face bitch feel like im scream
pouring up wok and i spill on my jeans
yuh yuh
pull up act all new
yuh yuh
im outside with my crew
yuh yuh
fuck it we leavin him blue
yuh yuh
if im gon see u i shoot

head down ft. akkiro prod aidennxo

#af @1afflicted

prod. @bonxxx

bitch come show me now

yeah u actin like a bitch u act stupid now
why u playin with my heart like u gon lose it now
i cant fall for no fake love send my bullets flying out bitch like a dove
you not over him yeah i know u stuck
i just rolled a fat pack roll it up

and i tried to wait
 but it only hurts
like bitch come put me in the dirt
i guess its never what its w- worth

ya yea my heart made of steel
i cant trust no bitch yea thats how i feel
like i could never cop no deal
brought the pint out bitch i crack the seal
ya yea my heart made of steel
i cant trust no bitch yea thats how i feel
like i could never cop no deal
brought the pint out bitch i crack the seal

doves prod bonxpf

i think it beeped at me

END OF TIME

3KAI

the good ol days

this project has concluded. old songs have been unprivated. WIPs will remain unfinished.


discord: mightbearobot.exe

I've launched a new project, DM for link.

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