been sitting on this one for like two years now. i hope y'all enjoy it. thank you for all the love & support. i can't even begin to tell you how much i appreciate it. <3

lyrics
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i wish i had friends
i wish i had anyone to save me
but i ain’t like them
i’m just a nightmare in the making
i pray that this ends
that the baphomet will take me
away from loose ends
cause i’m not to be forsaken 
maybe it’s a part of me
the anxiety
but the funny thing
is it’s all i can see
& it lies to me
fucking blinding me
when i honestly just

feel like i’m on drugs
even though i don’t even take em
it’s fuckin’ me up
ride these highs to feel complacent
it’s like i’m on drugs
i hide sometimes so i feel safe from
the pain in my gut
yeah it’s fucking me up
feels like i’m on drugs

i should dive in
swim to the surface when i’m stable
let’s skip the pretend
cause this life is not a fable
this story don’t end
till i’m hooked to all these cables
& start to see red
as they lie me on the table
maybe it’s the start of things
something i can’t see
it’s beyond a dream
an advisory
& it lies to me
fucking blinding me
when i honestly just

feel like i’m on drugs
even though i don’t even take em
it’s fuckin’ me up
ride these highs to feel complacent
it’s like i’m on drugs
i hide sometimes so i feel safe from
the pain in my gut
it’s fucking me up
feels like i’m on drugs

somebody wake me
cause life is a daydream
& i’m wasting time with you
so many faces
yeah i’m losing patience
& i’m stuck on loving you

feels like i’m on drugs (x4)

all i can see (prod. nick furlong x tony livadas)

Suicidal

LIL DUSTY G - Nobody
https://polarculture.ffm.to/ldgnobody

Nobody

Stream

LIL DUSTY G - NOBODY

All Night Lit

Beat & Vocals By ℒund.

Wow guys 30 fucking thousand people... each time i grow more and more speechless. you are all my everything. i love you guys. sorry its been so long since I've posted. I've honestly been going through a lot of personal shit with my anxiety and depression and this fucking hamster wheel of bullshit life has thrown at me lately. anyways what I'm trying to say is that you guys are my light in the dark ass world we live in. all corny-ness aside. i don't know where i would be without you guys. I quit my job that was holding me back from music so now this is all i have to support myself. the real hustle starts here but i think i can do it. shout out again to everyone who has took me this far. lets keep this snowball rolling. 

Lyrics..

(Rx Luv)

lately i been harboring 
my feelings trying hide
drown myself in alcohol
to kill the things inside
maybe i should deal with all this pain
easier to take a fuckin bullet to my brain
thc and ethanol are running thru my veins
talking to myself ask myself if I’m insane
why can’t i let it go I’m addicted to the pain
nothing but a low life i can never change

so baby girl just listen up
i think I’ve have enough 
of prescription love
think its time to let you go
maybe I’m just broken down
i can’t take no more

girl i told u to leave me alone
its a warning
only gonna hurt you 
know i got them cold bones
you don’t want to know 
what i know
that your leaving 
cause then if you did 
you would leave love alone

takin all these drugs to numb my pain
since I lost your love I aint never been the same
endorphins are rushing thru my brain
if only for a second still i know i feel it change
its easy nowadays to be ashamed
but i wouldn’t be the man i am if i don’t take the blame  
see i gave up my selfishness & pride
i gave up my everything 
when u walked out my life

my sanity been slipping
i been loosing time
got a make a million 
before i loose my fucking mind
should i keep her around or should i let her go
does it even make a fuckin difference anymore?

14 when i cried 
16 when i lost my sight
18 when i lost my brain
19 im in love with pain   
20 and i’m still the same

Rx Luv

prod @notmorgn

listen on youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gd_Xqqx_St8

whats wrong or whats right
im bouta take a flight like should i say goodbye 
fuck that imma hold onto my pride
momma raised a soldier so i can't afford to cry
lookin back i see the knife in my back now
lookin at life wishing i was in the background 
lookin back i see my future in the past now
90 in the whip like should i crash now

im so sick of this im so sick of shit nobody listening 
demons all around diamonds wet just like a christening 
wait why you always high when you call me
why'd u ask what's wrong when you saw me (X2)

chemicals running through my veins i just wanna sleep 
feelings bleeding out my brain but right now i can't feel a thing 
woke up late time to waste away
my favorite days are the rainy days
let it soak in then i throw it all away
i try my best but this feeling always stays
you know i try but you gotta gimme space
and i dont wanna hurt you if you get in my way

(hook)

reach out just to waste my time
its the young waste of space 
with his headphones on
call me when you need me baby
but i know im the last resort
you said that you love me
how the fuck could you just love a ghost
you said that you love me baby
i said we are not that close

(hook)

reach out just to waste my time
its the young waste of space 
with his headphones on
call me when you need me baby
but i know im the last resort
you said that you love me
how the fuck could you just love a ghost
you said that you love me baby
i said we are not that close

im so sick of this

prod. @notmorgn

she make me feel alive i thought i died inside 
why do i feel fine everything seems right
she a ghost girl sending shivers down my spine
i only get to see her in the night time

I dont plan to stay so imma go
you've been down this road you know it never gets old 
and we should fuck the pain away till our hearts cold 
till we have no feelings cus we are growing old

you dont plan to stay then you should go
i've been down this road no it never gets old 
and we should fuck the pain away till our hearts cold 
till we have no feelings cus we are growing old

but sometimes life's like that
i don't wanna type back
if im forced to fight back
i'll just a flight back to home
back to the rain to the green and the cold
maybe i've just been home sick
but my home ain't shit
and my brain is a waste
fill it with a full clip
maybe i've just been home sick
but my home ain't shit
and my brain is a waste
fill it with a full clip

she make me feel alive i thought i died inside 
why do i feel fine everything seems right
she a ghost girl sending shivers down my spine
i only get to see her in the night time

I dont plan to stay so imma go
you've been down this road you know it never gets old 
and we should fuck the pain away till our hearts cold 
till we have no feelings cus we are growing old

you dont plan to stay then you should go
i've been down this road no it never gets old 
and we should fuck the pain away till our hearts cold 
till we have no feelings cus we are growing old

i thought i died inside

NAIVE

Nobody's Happy.

Lately

Official Music Video

i hope u guys like this one!!

cover art by @perfiosa on IG

Roderick Porter:

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/artist/7Lcln0AXqNHMahrca8KVpy?si=uZ3lI_OYRmOMsLT6oHgMgA

Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/roderick.porter

Twitter: https://twitter.com/RoderickJPorter

Soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/roderickporter

Jay Portal:

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/artist/2mE6lFglCyhkrseEcufU0d?si=phfl1nzgTLOc7ed9j40O0A

YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/user/jakedavidkissTV

Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/lilportal/

Twitter: https://twitter.com/lilportal

Soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/jayportal

Unconditional (feat. Jay Portal)

Roderick Porter