I am not ok

Hazy clouds is about a time in my life when I had hit rock bottom. My marriage had failed and everything had gone to shit. Broken promises and betrayed friendships. There was no light in my darkness and all I could feel was loneliness and pain. 


Hazy clouds drift through the sky
Stolen secrets as they fly
Shades of grey and hints of blue
Painting life in every hue

Colours of life they twist and blend
A vivid story that won’t end
Through the shadows through the light
Every tone feels just so right

Golden beams break through the haze
Softly setting hearts ablaze
Shifting tones in fleeting time
Moments captured so sublime

Oh the storms they bring the rain
Washing out the deepest pain
Every drop a note that sings
Life's a canvas with no strings

Hazy clouds .mp3

We welcome you to the journey within.

“Secret” began as a whisper in my own journey and grew into a shared truth.
It speaks of fear and love, of scars and trust, of stepping across the invisible line that holds us back.

Healing is not given by systems or authorities; it rises when we turn toward ourselves and one another.
We are not alone. We stand at a turning point – together.

For me this is deeply personal: I realized I am more than a name. I am a life force.
Not to be above anyone, but to live my truth and share it – as one voice among many, in hope that others recognize their own strength.

Produced and shaped together with Marol – from an experience that opened something deeper, beyond flesh and blood.
And in his words: “Stay true to yourself and others and let the healing begin.”

May this song be a hand on the shoulder, a light on the path, a wake-up call to remember: healing is real.

It is also part of a wider vision I call Echoes of One – a gathering of sounds that carry the same quiet truth.
https://soundcloud.com/kat_space/sets/echoes-of-one-whispers-of


Secret

BREAK ME FROM THIS CAGE by Nova J

[Intro]
(Hmmmmm
Hmmmmm
Hmmmmm)
Break me from this cage
Take me out and make me feel alive
I’m too young to live this way

[Verse 1]
Put me on a plane
I want to go somewhere far away
Because I can’t survive another day
Anyway
(Anyway)
Anyway

[Build]
Break me from this cage
Because I want to be a star in space
And they all know my name

[Drop 1]
Put me on a plane
Fly me from this place
Because I don’t follow their ways
Take me half a world away

[Breakdown]
And if our airplane disappears
I have no fear
To disappear with you
Into the heavenly blue

[Drop 2]
And if a missile shoots us down
Scatters us all over town
To be blown up with you
Would be my pleasure absolute

[Chorus 2]
Break me from this cage
Release me from this maze
I’m ready, I’m ready, I’m ready
(I’m ready, I’m ready, I’m ready)

[Interlude]
And in the back of a taxi cab
I feel my time has come at last
And suddenly I’m gripped by fear
I tell the driver to turn back

[Drop 3]
Break me from this cage
Release me from this maze
I’m ready, I’m ready, I’m ready

[Verse 2]
Put me on a plane
I want to go somewhere far away
Because I can’t survive another day
Anyway
(Anyway)

[Bridge]
And if our airplane disappears
I have no fear
To disappear
Into the heavenly blue
(And if our airplane disappears
I have no fear
To disappear
Into the heavenly blue
With you)

[Drop 4]
And if a missile shoots us down
Scatters us all over town
To be blown up with you
Would be my pleasure absolute

[Outro]
Ohhh
Oh, I will make it happen, I will be a star
I will make it happen, I will be a star
I will make it happen, I will be a star
I will make it happen, I will be a star
I will make it happen, I will be a star
I will make it happen, I will be a star
I will make it happen, I will be a star
I will make it happen, I will be a star
(Hmmmmm
Hmmmmm
Hmmmmm
Hmmmmm)

Break me from this cage

Letters in the Dark

[Verse 1]
I wrote you a letter
but the ink ran thin
like the silence between us
where the hurt’s been living in

Your coat still hangs
like a ghost in the hall
I touch the sleeve gently
and it says nothing at all

[Pre-Chorus]
I keep your memory
in a glass by the bed
sip it down slowly
like the words we never said

[Chorus]
Oh! love is bitter love is sweet
like cherry wine that stains my teeth
I drink it just to feel you near
a bruise a prayer a shadow here
Oh! love’s a letter never sent
folded corners paper bent—
and in the dark I call your name
but nothing ever answers back the same

[Verse 2]
I see you in strangers
the tilt of their smile
but it fades like a flicker
like the moon after miles—
the nights are too quiet
the mornings too long
I hum our old verses
but they don’t make a song

[Pre-Chorus]
Your absence lingers
like a hand on my chest
pressing so softly
but it won’t let me rest

[Chorus]
Oh! love is bitter love is sweet
like cherry wine that stains my teeth
I drink it just to feel you near
a bruise a prayer a shadow here
Oh! love’s a letter never sent
folded corners paper bent—
and in the dark I call your name
but nothing ever answers back the same

[Bridge]
Would you forgive me
if I never let go—
would you still haunt me
just to tell me so—
every word I wrote
is a scar on the page
bleeding with silence
burning with age

[Final Chorus]
Oh! love is bitter love is sweet
like cherry wine that stains my teeth
I drink it just to feel you near
a bruise a prayer a shadow here
Oh! love’s a letter never sent
folded corner paper bent
and in the dark I call your name
but nothing ever answers back the same

[Outro]
So goodnight my dear—
goodnight my ghost
You were the wound
and the cure I wanted most

Letters in the Dark

Pop / electronic / indie — Track 2 of 8 from VICE by Nova J. Full album streaming now.

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Lyrics:

[Verse 1]
Walkin’ through the Case Mountain woodlands
Cravin’ a companion to ease my pain
I pulled favors to find you, man
Now I’m chasin’ you down again

[Verse 2]
Thank you for keeping me warm, and
Thank you for this nutmeg night
There may be hell in the morning
But tonight I’m feeling alright, yeah

[Chorus]
So bring it on, bring it on, Adele
Bring it on, baby, I’m begging you
Bring it on, bring it on, my belle
Time to shake off these winter blues

[Chorus 2]
Yeah, I need you to bring it on, bring it on, Adele
I need you to bring it on, bring it on, Adele
I need you to bring it on, bring it on, Adele

[Instrumental Interlude]

[Outro]
Yeah, bring it on, bring it on, Adele
Bring it, bring it on, I’m begging you
Bring it, bring it on, my belle
Bring it, bring it on, I’m begging you
Bring it on, bring it on, Adele
Time to shake off these winter blues

ADELE — Track 2 of 8 from VICE by Nova J

Thus it begins. The picture, that is. But the track is how it ends. The album, that is. All will become clear sooner or later when I finish the video.
All sounds except drums made on the suprisingly awesome little Roland S-1. Yes, you read that right. Just go out and buy one. 
Mostly modifications of factory patches or modified from the free ones at https://www.ultimatepatches.com/synth-patches-presets/roland-s-1/roland-s-1-patches-presets.html.
But also something that started out as Mark Young's Rhodes Piano Patch (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=646qJ7i8B0Q&list=LL&index=6). Thanks Mark!
Drums are Ableton packs.

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This piece was inspired by the app "Safe Place” by Rädda Barnen(Save the Children).

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