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Belowground - I Want to Stop Breathing

disconnected.

[Intro]
Should've seen my face
When I turned up to work
In a coat far too big
My anxieties lurked
A man named Brandon
Showed me around
Taught how to talk to customers
When more were inbound

[Verse 1]
The first thing I did
Was I fucked up an order
The guy was so pissed
And he called me a slur
I spent all night
Cleaning the floor
The hurl from the kids
Made me sick to my core

Did you know it's
illegal
to work a minor on the
night shift
But it seems that's
the deal
I don't know how I
survived that shit

[Chorus]
Constant nights of wanting to kill myself
They say a lot of things, they think I'm suicidal
Constant times I've seen myself worse and worse
My eyebags make me look like I am suicidal

[Verse 2]
Shout out to the bathroom
Where I screamed my lungs off
It was my only safe space
That was never enough
Thank fuck for my brain
Who knew when to quit
When I started to hallucinate
I think that was it

There's been so many times
That I want to die
McDonalds gave me insomnia
And I don't think that's right
The manager's on weed
and he's flirting with teens
I don't know what to do
What the fuck does this all mean

[Solo]

[Chorus]
Constant nights of wanting to kill myself
They say a lot of things, they think I'm suicidal
Constant times I've seen myself worse and worse
My eyebags make me look like I am suicidal

[Verse 3]
My college work is due
I've got so much to do
I'm sleeping for an hour
And I want to redo
I've started sexualising
my own death
And I think that's fucked up
But I still hold my breath

Why does life suck
Woe is me
You're sickly little prickly
And you think that you should leave
I googled how to hang myself
It told me not to grieve
I wanted gone so hard
Yet I rolled down my sleeve

[Intermission]
I can't hear you
I can't see you
I can't read the
things you want to do
I can't escape myself
I can't relate myself
I can't shape the world
into itself

[Verse 4]
One time I heard a voice
It came from a corpse
He said quit your job
And he started to warp
McDonalds drove me down to
the pits of insanity
I don't know what to do
And I think that I'm panicking

I came up with a plan
to fix my head
I'll quit my job
so I don't end up dead
I handed in my two weeks
And never looked back
Fuck that establishment
And fuck all of those twats

[Chorus]
Constant nights of wanting to kill myself
They say a lot of things, they think I'm suicidal
Constant times I've seen myself worse and worse
My eyebags make me look like I am suicidal
There's people telling me that I am suicidal
I think it's funny because I don't want to die
The voices yell at me that I am suicidal

[Solo 2]

Working at McDonalds unironically made me suicidal

entering increasingly extreme 
subcultures
wanna be accepted but im just
a stupid vulture

pray that youll forgive me for my sins 
comply with anyone who takes me in
and you wonder how my views are formed
but don’t help at all you dont try to warn 
me of how i left my world behind 
to get closer to my human side

entering increasingly extreme
subcultures
wanna be accepted but im just
a fucking poser

didnt choose to fall this far at all
just wanted a place i could call home
maybe this song is too on the nose
cant let the irls know cant be exposed 
my worst fear is being left behind 
is this my out
you decide

extremist

( I remastered this on my alt account (Pillacel) btw. Check it out https://on.soundcloud.com/qpXkSOO8bU3LN96ziG )

Lyrics:

{Verse}
Did you know there's only a limited amount
Of happiness on earth to even go around
And it would be nice to get my hands on some
Other people always turn out to be
The problem

{Chorus}
If you don't mind could you please stop
You're always smiling at me
If I was you
I'd be gloating too
I hate it when you're happy

{Verse}
I'll max out all my credit cards and never worry again
'Cause I'm a rich greedy banker winning this zero sum game
And fuck having friends they just get in the way
I'm a crab in a bucket pulling you down the drain

{Chorus}
If you don't mind could you please stop
You're always smiling at me
If I was you
I'd be gloating too
I hate it when you're happy
If you don't mind could you please stop
You're always smiling at me
If I was you
I'd be gloating too
I hate it when you're happy

Emotional Autarky (cover)

dont try to reach my line cause
its past my time
dont come, speak to my face
cause ive blown it right off
its time you care
watch me bleed and die
want you to scream
want you to scream and cry

watch as i bleed
want you to scream
watch as i bleed
want you to scream

no one ever likes me cause i am so sad
they only care when you are gone


dont try to call me cause im dead

was it an act?
an impractical joke?
say it aint so

i feel so sad
knowing what you did
i feel like shit

you were my hero joe gatto
i wish i didnt even know
whyd you have to grape that kid
never watch your show again
you were my hero joe gatto


do you remember me
i was there at your stand up routine
you came to my city
the same year you were cheating

was it an act?
an impractical joke?
say it aint so


you were my hero joe gatto
i wish i didnt even know
whyd you have to grape that kid
never watch your show again
you were my hero joe gatto

Joe Gatto

featuring: @fattard and @roadkill777 the best in the game go follow them

i waste every day
playing anime games
i dont ever need to try
nothings coming my way
always stuck to my chair
but i dont care
i got grease for days 
i got lard in my veins

cause im a
fat fucking retard
im a fat fucking retard 
i got rocks for brains and an infinite waist
cause im a fat fucking retard

and when the girls see me they run away
i dont Think anyone could ever love me
it hurts to be like this
a stupid fat fucking piece of shit
why oh why is this my Life
i'll lay and die in the mess ive made

(fattard)

its getting harder to move
everyday i weigh in a little more
lifes getting tuff i can never look at food the same way i did before
I hate my guts
I cant even get these stupid girls to fuck
even my shirt is getting tighter
everyday i get less lighter

(roadkill)

everydays the same for me
wake up eat slop sleep repeat 
this is not the life i want to lead
if only things could have ended differently

Fattard (ft Fattard & Roadkill)

im falling apart
because i dont know know anyone
so dont say my name
just leave me to equilibrium

i feel like a castaway
and im so ashamed
im out of place
im out of place

im a freak far gone
theres no where that i belong
so ill run away
i cant feel without feeling wrong

im a fucking castaway
and im so ashamed
im out of place
im out of place

Out of Place

Cant sleep at all even with melatonin
no break from zero serotonin
with a gun to my left cheek
the only way ill fall asleep

Sleep debt
I Stay awake as a 
Reject
so fucking upset

stay up all night
being a waste of space
on my computer 
locked in plaace
all these days just feel the same
staying awake til 8 a m

Sleep debt
I Stay awake as a 
Reject
so fucking upset

Sleep debt
I Stay awake as a 
Reject
so fucking upset

Sleep debt
I Stay awake as a 
Reject
i cant rest my head (i cant rest my head)
upset

Sleep Debt

056-Charcoal Tree-2016 4track Demo

2 steps forward. 1 step back.

the very bottom of the barrel when it comes to both musical skill and social interaction. if SoundCloud recommended me to you, I am deeply sorry

Working at McDonalds unironically made me suicidal

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