I dont know why im this way 

Are we okay? 
Dig my out of my grave 
Just to put me deeper than I've been 
Moving at my own pace 
Said you need some space now your space is with another person i had some faith 
Gave me hope but it turned to me being a slave to my own mistakes 
Trade our love for mountain of pain overcome it so I can see the world and seperate
Walk a mile in someone else's shoes now i feel okay, they dont see my struggle because I hide it from their face 
Misplaced my brain in a state of loneliness I know 
ill be okay 

Thrown away 
Left out for someone to pick me up but then im hearing wait

I dont know why im this way

Are we okay?
Lost in a pile of pain 
Umbrella for the rain 
Negative thoughts from years of strain 
Trained 
Breaking point avoid me 
Like im losing my soul 
Sealed my lows but left me with a hole 
your love always eats me whole 

I feel broken 
I am only hoping 
That ill make it out
And I make it through this hopeless world 

I dont know why im this way

Are We Okay?

its hard to love when no one loves you back 07/08/23 

Read a Bible just to get me out of trouble
Stuck inside a bubble pushed away until i stumble back in rubble
I thought people loved me but they never loved yuh
Get my head straight before going under
Hearing thunder 

call my name 
Call my name 
Before letting the gun bang
Escape the pain 
Scraping change in another plane
Same things different place 
The only difference is I don't have a face 
Last place 
Based out of hell 
Oh well i couldn't concentrate 

so i let the demons do their thing
Gain range till I'm out the way
Faith being tested religious text wont go in my brain 

I've been fixing to picture how to aim 
When i let the gun spray taking lives as they pray 
but their god wont listen anyway 
Favor the chosen ones that gave me death everyday 
Walking the plank of depletion 
deletion still Concours everything 

I don't know how to fix myself 
Sins building so i have live with stealth 
hiding place getting exposed by the belt 
hanging from a heart felt message 
Lesson 
learned 
I burned 
now I'm inside of this ugly urn

Check Out My Hiding Place

Another day that i woke up in a motherfucking grave
Using credit cards so i can try to fucking change
Im still the same
Its not going my fucking way
Homie no its not
Ive been home a lot
Cause theyre fake

Entertain another drain
Now my life and passions have been drained
They wont think i made it until they see 100k inside my bank but the second that you blink the world you're seeing will disintegrate
I told you all that i wont wait

I cant afford shit cause im fucking poor
Always torn if i should leave the world with holes 
getting stabbed by friendly swords 
give me a couple years to finally be on tour and on billboards 
right above where i was fighting a mental war
The world changes faster when you're torched
Turning fire into more
I got demons taking over
Hitting start over before falling deeper in this hole
I got goals
But they're gone
Now im old
Draped in mold instead of gold

What am i doing right if i cant catch up to my fucking peers?
it appears that im losing but im winning when my futures getting near
i dont have any fear
Shed a tear after killing the old version of myself that couldn't steer

Gain a 100k
Ima gain a 100k
Ima gain a 100k
If i can find out how to change

Landing

Sold my soul for a dollar i don't even own anymore 
Storing all my feelings underneath the floor 
Dig them back out when I need em never feed em to another soul 
Everybody leaving me inside the cold after warming up their goals 
Now i dont even know who i am anymore 
Its all the same things ive been dealing with before 
Everything always coming back and forth 
People wanting more and more slowly turning me into a corpse 

Paint another masterpiece then I up and leave 
burning all my currency just to currently see 
who is really friends with me 
Betting there is zero but we will wait and see 
had a team but they keep infecting me 

Effected negatively so I'm on leave 
We've been living lives they can't seem to see
Honey isn't for the fly's enjoy the shit watching me enjoy your dreams 
There is no free ride in this life hard work gives relief

Worrying Too Much

oxidized

@unnoticediguess
@askmesomething

Check Out My Hiding Place

rusted & tarnished

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