its hard to love when no one loves you back 07/08/23 

Read a Bible just to get me out of trouble
Stuck inside a bubble pushed away until i stumble back in rubble
I thought people loved me but they never loved yuh
Get my head straight before going under
Hearing thunder 

call my name 
Call my name 
Before letting the gun bang
Escape the pain 
Scraping change in another plane
Same things different place 
The only difference is I don't have a face 
Last place 
Based out of hell 
Oh well i couldn't concentrate 

so i let the demons do their thing
Gain range till I'm out the way
Faith being tested religious text wont go in my brain 

I've been fixing to picture how to aim 
When i let the gun spray taking lives as they pray 
but their god wont listen anyway 
Favor the chosen ones that gave me death everyday 
Walking the plank of depletion 
deletion still Concours everything 

I don't know how to fix myself 
Sins building so i have live with stealth 
hiding place getting exposed by the belt 
hanging from a heart felt message 
Lesson 
learned 
I burned 
now I'm inside of this ugly urn

Check Out My Hiding Place

Another day that i woke up in a motherfucking grave
Using credit cards so i can try to fucking change
Im still the same
Its not going my fucking way
Homie no its not
Ive been home a lot
Cause theyre fake

Entertain another drain
Now my life and passions have been drained
They wont think i made it until they see 100k inside my bank but the second that you blink the world you're seeing will disintegrate
I told you all that i wont wait

I cant afford shit cause im fucking poor
Always torn if i should leave the world with holes 
getting stabbed by friendly swords 
give me a couple years to finally be on tour and on billboards 
right above where i was fighting a mental war
The world changes faster when you're torched
Turning fire into more
I got demons taking over
Hitting start over before falling deeper in this hole
I got goals
But they're gone
Now im old
Draped in mold instead of gold

What am i doing right if i cant catch up to my fucking peers?
it appears that im losing but im winning when my futures getting near
i dont have any fear
Shed a tear after killing the old version of myself that couldn't steer

Gain a 100k
Ima gain a 100k
Ima gain a 100k
If i can find out how to change

Landing

Sold my soul for a dollar i don't even own anymore 
Storing all my feelings underneath the floor 
Dig them back out when I need em never feed em to another soul 
Everybody leaving me inside the cold after warming up their goals 
Now i dont even know who i am anymore 
Its all the same things ive been dealing with before 
Everything always coming back and forth 
People wanting more and more slowly turning me into a corpse 

Paint another masterpiece then I up and leave 
burning all my currency just to currently see 
who is really friends with me 
Betting there is zero but we will wait and see 
had a team but they keep infecting me 

Effected negatively so I'm on leave 
We've been living lives they can't seem to see
Honey isn't for the fly's enjoy the shit watching me enjoy your dreams 
There is no free ride in this life hard work gives relief

Worrying Too Much

All these people speaking in my head
I’ve been begging to stop 
Your heart fled and now mine is about to stop 
a full life of regrets yet your my biggest flop 
I don’t know why I’m still here when I’m feeling so lost 

Life is fucked up because I’ve been forgot 
Pushed them all away cause without rest Ima drop 
Loved but then it stopped 
Every time they need me I feel empty a lot 
Got my hopes up just to get dropped 
Feeling like I got robbed of my feelings but im a man so I have to be tough 

Fuck that cut the cuffs
Hoes turning me into dust 
Tarnished after gaining some rust 
people throw me out before we could build trust 
but once I got money they’ll love what I’ve done 
Luckily Im not dumb unfortunately I’ll forever stay numb 
Alone in my rut 
Another cut added until I bleed out on my rug 
Find my body covered in bugs 
Thinking what have you done 


All these people speaking in my head
I’ve been begging to stop 
Your heart fled and now mine is about to stop 
a full life of regrets yet your my biggest flop 
I don’t know why I’m still here when I’m feeling so lost 

I told you I’ll find out but they think they’ll never get caught 
They say they love me but next week they leave me to rot 
Stressing to impress these people with a mind of fake thoughts 
don’t know why I thought I loved you when you let me get lost

Let Me Rest

Losing is my motto 
I have no core 
Rolling up a fronto
Divine restored 
I cant even rent a condo 
Im fucking poor
Ive been losing at the lotto 
So I rob the store 
My concious ain't geppetto
He left out the door when he couldn't take no more 
Now im pouring out my soul and all remorse 

My life dont make no sense 
Concious or none i cant ever get some rest from this fucking stress haunting every dream of mine until im pressed 
Day dreaming cause I feel depressed 
Everybody gets to know me
Now they left 
Oh can I get the check?
Leave the bill for the next group I'm getting used to theft 
Barley pulling through my world is dead 
I told you I'm the proof of what not to do 
should've listened instead 
wasting time Impressing others 
with wasted memories that burn my mind 
Needed to rest my eyes 
but they're drowning me out of my own life

Headache

album got corrupted so i just dropped how it sounded 

Shhh go to sleep 
When I wake from this constant bad dream 
I’m all alone again 
Know they’ll leave
Again why am I letting it fucking hurt me?
Miserable for just a grand 
Tired of people who don’t understand 
Yeah I’m stuck on a plant cause it helps me with my plans 
So I can stay on route 
I’ve been dodging all their doubt 
Talent motivation and hard work is the only thing thatll help you out 
Inhaling on some loud 
Now I’m not allowed 
Back into the world I was raised I’m kicked out
family sick of hearing me out 
Cut off all my friends to make some weak sounds 
I haven’t seen anybody for some weeks now 

Is this life? I don’t know 
I just thought i could make them happy later down the road 
But now our world is ending 
I Couldn’t see it when I was always stoned 
I know soon my stomach problems will turn me to a ghost 
I need somebody friendly i don’t provoke 
Tired of being broke 
Seed this music my girl let go 
That I got to know
Afraid of letting go

Walk In Slowly

album got corrupted so i just dropped how it sounded

Missing The Old Days

album got corrupted so i just dropped how it sounded


Hiding what I’m doing yea 
my friends are copy cats 
I’ve been sick from years of feeling useless 
Now I’m stacking a bunch of diamond plaques 
My mind in class while you’re sitting on your fucking ass 
Take a hit then I laugh 
No one wants to take all these steps forward 
There’s no never coming back 
Beggers can’t be choosers how bout that 
They made me sad 
Now they’re watching thinking about the life we could’ve had 
Too late
Damage trait
All the things I gained once you left my life that day
Hard work pays off 
Sick of seeing people living like they’re already in the graveyard 
Walked off all my burdens 
I wish god talked 

Thinning as I’m sitting barely eating 
Everyday we’re digging at the life we’re given 
Wasting it on another villain 
So now it’s time for me to make a killing 
Soon I’ll be winning

Copy Cats

album got corrupted so i just dropped how it sounded


Let me gain then throw it all away 
Since nothing even means a fucking thing
I should learn to let go and never be afraid 
To ever lose hitting snooze 
Late to work see the crew
Anxiety in me brews since I’m new
Out the door back to music all night up till noon 
Hoodie on staying don’t belong only fuck with a few 
Introverted only see me once or two 
Staying away from groups that let me fall and stay inside a loop
Getting reduced 

I got a pistol but my core values are fighting my mental 
Life is detrimental when nothing is sentimental 
Getting scammed by the dental
Doctors got me sicker in my rental 
Insurance insuring my death is settled 
medals for going mental 

Playing the chello or a flute I couldn’t tell you 
Staying away from fellows 
That are still zero trynna take me down to their level hiding in highs keeping me mellow 
Tired of searching for gold
With others who keep keeping me low 
Working on growth with time I devote 
While they’re still learning to float 

Concentrating on what I can change 
People always leave me feeling the same 
So now I’m focused on improving my brain
Escaping from the old pain
excuses gets the soul drained 
Never proving myself I need a soul plane 
Stomach drops the second I hear my phone rang 
Who could it be is it for me 
Another person from my old gang 
Only hitting me at their lows 
Gain nothing Before you get something from me I’ll die from old age 

Trynna live my life but it’s hard when you’re hypnotized 
Want a bitch that doesn’t dip 
But fuck a swipe 
Competition making me lose my mind 
So I told you I am hard to find 
Christian in the day 
Disturbed and twisted in the night 
Flicking the bic get severely fried 



Luckily my sword is brave when I need to fight 
Pray to the lord hoping I can change my life 
Dimming the light to realign my sight 
When I need advice I pull out my vice and explain the whys 
Telling myself I’m fine when I’m almost out of gigabytes

Core Values

album got corrupted so i just dropped how it sounded

Mixing all my struggles with my vice 
Exhaling something nice just for once huh 

I don’t understand how we miss each other
But we can’t stand the way we make each other feel on a hill with my pills I feel killed
Better just to throw me off and burn my bills
Haven’t had a meal for so long 
But I don’t give a damn I’m used to being damaged 
Pain is my love language barely standing 
On my own two feet sudden leap the reaper here to reap what I took for granted 
I’m rebranded 
Why is everyone so demanding

Fighting off a disease inside my body 
I wanted to leave but they wouldn’t let me 
Chevy ready red and treading
Counting up souls ive been collecting 
Change into them they’re all worth defending  

I’ve been going mental 
Heard them saying let him 
Good riddance 
I’m not driven until Ive risen 
If you have an ism I don’t have no time to listen 
All the time their killing has me wishing I didn’t give in to the bitching 
Already saw them quitting before starting 
My time will be hidden 
Life isn’t worth living if you don’t have someone there with you 
Show the world my loneliness 
In Hopes the one i want will come back to find me but my diamond doesn’t deserve the mining constant fighting 
Lies been hiding 
unwinding back the years may seem surprising 
But in it you may find  (bud)
it was just hard times keeping you from flying and growing old together but people only want what’s better so I write this letter hoping some kid will learn from the mistakes I made and never settle for lesser

I Still Miss You

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