brown eyes

the rest of my life

pleasure machine

Music composed to accompany a dance work of the same name by Mary Sigward. Premiered at Seattle International Dance Festival, 6/16/2024, then extended and re-worked for Mary's Semblance of a Loop residency at Base Experimental Arts, 9/12-13/2024. 

Bass performed by Scott Allen Miller. Electronics realized by Charles Rudig.

Title taken by Sigward from A Carafe, that is a Blind Glass by Gertrude Stein.

Accompanying photo edited from an image created by Jim Coleman.

an arrangement in a system to pointing (Extended, Reworked Version) [2024]

i trapped lil shine in this angelic prism

jan 2025

i know love is never wasted
although youre not with me anymore
count up the little moments i adore
make my heart shine like the sun
love is wasted on no one

i know love is never wasted
although we're not together anymore
count up the little moments i adore
laughing with you in the sun
oh no, im really sad you had to go

but if you call me
i'll pick up
is it sad that i still care?

youre lovely
im alone
but i know i should get out of your hair

whats it gonna be
a fairytale or a tragedy
i wondered when we first met

what i didnt know
was how you were gonna touch my soul
i wonder, are you the best i'll get?
left me standing there
but you'll find better i bet

all the pretty ppl on the street,
at least theyre beautiful to me
treat each one with love and dignity
cruelty just gives me a heart attack
i wonder if i'll you'll take me back
but youre not mine to keep
oh love never belonged to me

never wasted

i found time,
it was sitting by the river,
waiting for you and me
under the tree.
we dont lie
we just dont deliver
we’re exceptionally flakey human beings

you’re just not the same,
anymore.
we’re just not the same,
as before. 
he fell in love
with a coke sniffin girl,
i fell in love with our
tiny little world.

if you loved me
you would’ve
seen that i wasnt good enough.
i couldnt even tell you why
i felt so much towards you!
and it seems like a recurring theme.
me not being able to speak what i think,
i kissed a girl in my front seat
but i couldnt explain 
what i liked about her,
and it haunts me today
i couldve told her eyes,
or her genuine honesty
or that my heart felt real nice
everytime she talked to me.
instead i broke someones heart
and i chased someone else
and i have little to none
respect for myself.

and it bleeds.
my shirt bleeds.
i wore it so much
my shirt bleeds.

in my dreams i fly
i fly really high
my finger scrapes the sky
and i peel off the blue
but the blue isnt enough
i want grey skies and clear sun
conflicted interests
make my brain run
and she runs
she runs fast
i think she wants to go.

never wasted

sunshxwer

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