this song is so mf good. been on repeat all this week🔥💯💯

what a fucking song and voice man can feel all the emotion and it sounds so beautiful and sad love it <3

madison & 1st, night lights in a coffin
w/ @betweentheveinsandi
prod. @sadboiforever
hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
yeah u can take my life if u want it
file thru the pain, small prize if u block it
and i never been ashamed, cut ties if im wantin’
u came here to play, eat shit where ur talkin
cuz im sayin u can take my life if u want it
madison and 1st, night lights in a coffin
i cant ever fall asleep, twist spine pretty often
bored of counting sheep, yet fine feelin nothin

and im saying with dusk comes dawn
another painful day where the night feels wrong
& i’ll stay inside tonight so i can weather the storm

my mind
a fragile portrait of my architecture
my spine
is broken by the words that i have dragged along
inside
i’ve spent so long for progress to force me backwards
alive
im glad i am, its hard to carry on

veins:
Take my life if u want it 
I don't really give a shit 
2 shots that's a warning 
And I don't make ties they just loosen with time 
Back when throwing up was the best part of our lives 
Oh what u say book a hospital stay 
All the times and the days that u tried to run away 
Despite what u say I think ur mom is pretty sweet 
Cause if u always be the victim then u always live in pain 
She said that break ups suck 
But I don't think she gives a fuck 
And I don't think that meaning from a broken heart just takes a fuck 
Woah 
Laid back 
I'm at terms with the past 
And I'll follow the act 
Just tell me how to act  

yeah u can take my life if u want it
file thru the pain, small prize if u block it
and i never been ashamed, cut ties if im wantin’
u came here to play, eat shit where ur talkin
cuz im sayin u can take my life if u want it
madison and 1st, night lights in a coffin
i cant ever fall asleep, twist spine pretty often
bored of counting sheep, yet fine feelin nothin

and im saying with dusk comes dawn
another painful day where the night feels wrong
& i’ll stay inside tonight so i can weather the storm

take it, it's yours (ft. betweentheveinsandi) [2001]

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lyrics:
i had that dream again last night
it culminates from all this  pain i hold inside...
and i try to hold it all together 
but it really doesnt matter now
im trekking thru the stormy weather
but somehow the rain doesnt make a sound
yeh
i been trying to get better
studying these flaws of mine
inscribe in this fuckin letter
to bad i cant send it back thru time
cuz i been fucking up for the longest time
try to find myself
then i lose my mind..
i lose my mind...

idk how to make this right
idk how to feel inside
cuz something...aint right
guess ill down another pill
and at this point i just do it for the thrill
oh i be doin it for the thrill....

[casperrr]
all the pills i take
are because i ache
and every breath i take
makes me pray for a change
im losing my head
alone in my bed...
my visions going black
and pain is all you left...

break down again in my bedroom
i shouldve never trusted you...
now tell me what am i going to do?
i kinda wanna know where to go to...

oooo....

lost my mind on the way to myself w/casperrr [+Boyfifty]

love it when im feelin lost...

lyrics:

Cause i give everything for everybody its like
Nothing i give is alright
Im always tossed to the side
Stranded im an island
left with nothing again
This is how it all ends
Im always left here for death
Caution on my heart
Fragile marked on the sides
Signs of usage inside
Think im broken for life
Numbing everything behind this wall made of smoke
Hiding all of my features inside this bottle i hold

Nights been feelin bleak and my whole body feels tired
Im wasting my time lookin at sparks from my lighter
Rings around my eyes look like tree stumps in a forest
Eons here in silence branches grew looking bent
Moss has grown inside my hair got bugs all over my skin
Blood leakin out of my pores i feel so nauseous again
Got cuts all over my wrists
Oh god these scars have grown big
Last night i thought that i died
But i woke up here again
Im upset

Im addicted to my flaws
Love it when im feeling lost
When im bent over my sink 
Wishing i just didnt live
Im addicted to my drugs
Love it when im feelin sick
Love it when i cannot think
About this life i have to live
Im addicted to my skin
Love it when i see it bleed
Like tears dropping in the wind
Hope i bleed out on my sink
Im addicted to my thoughts
Love how they feel like a hug
I feel cold inside their arms
But Im addicted to them all

hope i bleed out on my sink (prod. metlast x smokerose)

Mixed/Mastered By Me https://soundcloud.com/sadboykana & https://soundcloud.com/auby4rc
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Produced By https://soundcloud.com/lindenblossom & https://soundcloud.com/nevrfall
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[Lyrics]

(kana)
Why do i keep trying?
Questioning my life now
God i feel so tired
Always being let down
And you were just a liar
Girl you got me fucked up
Walking down the wire
You're wastin my time love
Quit textin my phone up
I swear that i'm so done
I swear i'm not in love
Left me feelin so numb
Pictures on my walls i
Burnt it all to ashes
Made sure that i left them
How you left me
I'm damaged

(akiradoves)
i feel so dead when i'm holding my hand 
the tears on your chest babe i don't understand 
tell me why you lie tell me why you're cold 
and i don't wanna wait anymore
so tell me why you're gone
somewhere around my heart hurts
sometimes i feel useful 
but most the times i feel like i am nothing

(auby)
you make me forget the things that i said
i don't wanna hurt you but you make me upset
i need to focus on myself instead
don't know if you want this
it's all in my head

suffering w/ kana & auby (linden & nevrfall)

you don't have the heart to love someone like me.

have heart

the first single off my new album 'dearly departing', coming out 9/9!

fully produced and mastered by @jolst
album art by @/ashleydhe on instagram

so much time and effort has been put into this project and i truly hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
i cant really see it here and now
and the lights behind my back are turning down
every sailor knows his in and outs
but i struggle every now and then with life so hear me out

i might die today
i could throw my life away
every time i surface i cant see
i think my mind’s away
they say im bad luck
thats why the bad stuck
and follows me everywhere

seeing aint always believing
the ocean was never forgiving
we need to drop anchor

and i stand and wait as cold air breaks the sail before us all
our fatal fate has taken everything that we once loved
so fuck it all
if i go down i’ll be swinging
a rope tied to songs i’ve been singing
the weight is enough for a fixing
so i tighten the knot and im ready for war
war
i still need more (from life, inside my mind)
more

i cant really see it here and now
so i contemplate the ways in which i drown
every time i’m lost im never found
i just suffer all the consequences, end up on the ground

i might die today
i could throw my life away
every time i surface i cant see
i think my mind’s away
they say im bad luck
thats why the bad stuck
and follows me everywhere 

seeing aint always believing
the ocean was never forgiving
we need to drop anchor

im leading a life not worth living
and seemingly so, unforgiving
its time i let out this anger

dearly departing

anchor [jolst]

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V. anchor [jolst]

[Non-Profit]
Mixed/Mastered By Me
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Produced By https://soundcloud.com/nciku
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(Lyrics)
perfect for me 
I'm always crying in the cold nights
this is something we gotta talk about 
but some days just get harder 
i don't wanna do this no more
i want you , you want me 
we're such a perfect match 
i know we won't collapse 
don't get bored of me 
i know that I'm too much 
i'm trying to be perfect

it's always silent in the cold night 
the weather is so cold without you 
and i love you 
don't want this to end 
I'll hold you till the end
just notice that i care 
i trust you with my heart
i just wanna be there 
i just love you way too much

i love you (nciku)

Prod @Sinxi

LYRICS 

Stop my heart
Dont fear this
Stuck all day
Cant see its
Too unclear
My feelings
Wont fade here
Im breathing
And im sleeping til my eden
Keeping distant
But you stay here
I been waiting
You wont change things
Just to fake things
Just to breath near
When im creeping dont be thinking
That im drinking and Im safe here
Cuz im dreaming about dying all the time
You dont like on what im thinking all the time
All the time you wont ever say
Cold fresh air
Vomit pitch black
Im back
Two seconds
Might just relapse
My last
Im checking all of my thoughts on facts
No guessing
Got me on form like that
Too bad
Shawty moving like a trackstar
Way she throw it back
Living life Im not gon act hard
Feeling where im at
Feeling where im at

So frail
Snap my life in two
I guess im too stale
Pick up all my ounce in my lungs
Keep me in the back til im done
Cuz I been breathing for a long while
Too bad
Shawty moving like a trackstar
Way she throw it back
Living life Im not gon act hard
Feeling where im at
Feeling where im at
Feeling where im at make a fucking move

Got my fucking signs
I dont wanna lie
Darling girl your fine
But i dont wanna do this again
She wont like the way that i am
Cuz i be sending it to voicemail

So frail
Snap my life in two
I guess im too stale
Pick up all my ounce in my lungs
Keep me in the back til im done
Cuz I been breathing for a long while
Too bad
Shawty moving like a trackstar
Way she throw it back
Living life Im not gon act hard
Feeling where im at
Feeling where im at
Feeling where im at make a fucking move

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VOICEMAIL

featuring @decksmusic

produced by 5head and Yeezo

Lyrics:

sunset, not yet, falling again 
cuz i’ve been upset, force fed things that you said 
is my head, spiraling n dying as i’ve been 
trying is violent 
silent as nothin 
face me, baby 
try me and maybe
you can be safety 
cuz it’s on the daily i’m 
dying 
always trying 
to be fighting 
but the truth is 
i’m just tiring 
(pre-chorus) 
and i’ll just waste the night away 
searching for your remedy 
cuz all my luck just seems to fade 
when you’re not here next to me 

(hook)
can i keep you safe in my head?
far away from what wants me dead 
when you’re not here can’t seem to forget 
that i need you closer 
you’re my four leaf clover

waste time
face my
fears all again
its like i back track
snap back
years in my head
so could you tell me something
that i could pretend to care about?

watch the street light
chase my
tail in the night
i’ve got a death wish
headless
nothing is right
i can’t seem to get back up
when my face is in the ground

so hold me
when theres nothing
consoling
i’ve been searching for solace
nonsense is blurring the lines
i can’t do this
through it all in my mind, so

clover (feat decks) [prod. 5head & Yeezo]

Featuring @hammy
Produced by @noahmadethiss
Mixed by @decksmusic
Mastered by Bryan Shortell @shordeli

LYRICS
(hamilton)
Wake up repeat 
I wish I could stay asleep 
I know you know 
That you make my heart beat 
Don’t know what’s wrong 
What's wrong with me 
I need some rest 
Feel so empty 

I know you know 
That you drive me crazy 
I’m off two blues 
In a black Mercedes 
Speeding swerving 
I'm not gonna slow down 
Sirens screaming 
Ain’t no turning back now

(Carlby)
There ain't no turning back now
If you lack the passion my suggestion is you tap out
I know that it can be hard to manage
There’s no better way to cope with hopelessness and panic
Damage
I can feel I now as I drive ‘round my hometown
Someone cut the brakes
I can’t slow down
I know I'm so pessimistic
But I'ma really go the distance

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No Turning Back w/ hamilton (Prod. noahmadethiss)

so where you been gurl lately it's been hard not to notice
lately you been feeling like a walking diagnosis
suspended in the air still kicking at your chair
if you need me here i'mma stay right here
i'mma keep you here so safe from the other side
and i'mma hit you with the truth i'm sick of all the blues
but i ain't walking out on you; i'm scared of finding you suspended in the air still kicking at your chair
don't you dare
but i ain't got the capability
physically or forcefully to change your mind
draw a line, stay this side, promise me
you'll call me the moment you feelin low
it's like your soul went cold right now
gotta bring you back somehow
i'm anxious, i'm nauseous
i'm pale as death's horse is
i wanna carry on but i'm just exhausted
don't wanna have to leave but the sleep is creepin over me
i have to trust you'll get better
won't you stay with the living?
won't you stay with me

i already broke this promise [prod. droozy]

it's just another thing i have to forget...

hope i bleed out on my sink (prod. metlast x smokerose)

kana

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safehaven.

Jack

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