Mood.

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Let me be

2019

No good

This song is all about that feeling you get when you look into the future of your relationship... and you wonder, where are you?

Now You're Gone

Remixes by Christoph Andersson
Songs from G-EAZY "THESE THINGS HAPPEN"

https://soundcloud.com/christoph-andersson

#TheseThingsHappen June 23
smarturl.it/thesethingshappen?iqID

Tumblr Girls (Christoph Andersson Remix)

http://music.citybynight.co.uk/album/alicks-help-me-out-cbnr020



help me out

im sorry.

@shiloh-dynasty
original: https://vine.co/v/OvPJ6THwWmO

album artwork by namalas

theres still us EP

I'm sorry (feat. shiloh)

you don't act like you used to.


cover art by .philo  
twitter @philosophimage

neither here, nor there.

you'll be in love till it kills you

production by jay vee
vocals by shinigami

@ihateshinigami
full project together soon

grew up too fast
like a bullet breaking thru the glass
remember that
fell asleep in every single class
i hate the fact
that ive become an insomniac
i hate the fact
that im never ever going back

cant even say that im feeling sad
i cant help but dwell on everything i had back when i was a kid
all those emotions they cease to exist

the world was so new woke up bright every day
now im just jaded its faded to grey
and i lay in a coffin that i helped create
facing the fact that ill never feel great again

shinigami - grew up 2 fast (prod. jay vee)

Cover Art Credit: http://vsco.co/rosieshulman

You completely destroy me
You destroyed me like you never knew you could
I'm not over you and I never will be
The thing about love is that simple things like her lips and her eyes break my heart
They're not mine and I don't know who's they'll be
Her hair is therapy to my cold and brittle heart

I used to find safety in her smile
I used to feel warmth in the look on her face
I've been left an empty shell to whither and fade away
I used to think of all the things that we'd be
Now I only think of all the things that we never really were

I used to call you mine but now you just don't know
What am I left to do but stand here in the cold
All I've got left are some photos of you and your voice stuck in my head
Saying how you'd be there always and forever until the very end

You were everything to me, and you always will be
Deep in my heart that aches for the sound of your voice
But no longer will I have the choice

I'm sorry for anything that I've done
For the person I've become that you learned to love but then turned your back like a setting sun

If I hurt you I pray that you forgive me
I mean all the words that I say please believe me

And see me as the person you always knew I was
I've never been perfect not in a single way
And that day that you saved me is when I fell from grace
I only needed you and I pushed everyone else away

So now I'm left alone
To live this life all on my own
And I hate the fact that someone else is holding you close
And how you broke my heart when I needed you the most
I've always been too scared to be properly diagnosed
Because you were my pill but now you're nothing but a ghost

And I still have your pictures and that letter you wrote
Where you said that you loved me and you'd never let me go
And you saved me from myself and that's something I hope you know
But you cut me down so quick and I've never been so low

And my stomach aches with every breath of air I breathe
Because you were the one that gave me everything I need
But now this pain won't subside I just can't believe you chose to leave
You were my reason for living how could you do such a heinous thing

I was like a boat that got carried out to sea
And I trusted in your waves, that you wouldn't harm me
You protected me from the storm and gave me a chance at life
And I love the way you cared and asked if I was alright

But something died, something changed and I sunk to the ocean floor
You no longer wanted to hold me up and I drowned from within my core

And every essence of my being is still just too afraid to fight
Because I'm terrified to keep on living without you by my side

And all the things that people said I guess this whole time they were right
Love can never last this way when the flame burns too bright

But I hope you're happy

I hope you're doing fine

I love you still today

Just like you were still mine

I still love the way you laughed
And the things you said to me
You'll never leave my heart
Nor my memory

I just wish I could understand
Why you had to leave
I can't do this on my own
I need you here with me

But you've turned into a ghost
And you're nowhere to be seen
And I can't hear your voice
I won't see your message on the screen

We won't have a family
We won't have a house
We won't raise our kids
You won't be my spouse

We won't grow old together
Like we always planned
You disappeared forever
And alone here shall I stand

you completely destroy me

the worthless

uncertain

the water

is rising



im choking

help me

i dont know how much more i can take



oh what a beautiful night it is

the wind is howling at my skin

inching me closer to the window

and im not scared at all



a walking corpse

cleanse my soul

rid me of all my impurities



or let me rot

6 feet deep

either ways fine with me





i gave the world my heart and all i have to show for it are scars and nightmares



and i always think about how fucked up it is that we live our whole lives trying to please others



but we can never please ourselves 



day after day

night after night

its just never enough and it will never be enough



now everyday i just sit in this bed and feel sorry for myself and the cycle repeats like clockwork



years to months to days to hours to minutes to seconds



and i swear the only way out of this prison i put myself in is a bullet to my fucking head or a bottle of spilt pills



i need to learn

to just to give in

theres no point in fighting it anymore

i gave the world my heart and all i have to show for it are scars and nightmares

EP performed by Seclorum, Shiloh Dynasty, and MCJ

2.) Astrid (Feat. Shiloh Dynasty)

netherrealm w/ shy

blessed are the forgetful

produced by @notmorgn
with @cpt_sad and @guccihighwaters

spotify

in the wind (w/ yesterday and guccihighwaters)

Non profit
Beat by ocean beats
Lyrics by neptune

Heart Broke Summer(Prod. by Ocean Beats)

rip peep

Featuring Smrtdeath
@smrtdeath

Artwork by Mikey Joyce
https://twitter.com/mikey_joyce

https://twitter.com/xxmisogi
https://twitter.com/smrtdeath

Nightmare (ft. Smrtdeath)

soundcloud.com/prodreaper


another night i would've wished that you were here 
i'm kinda high but still it never really stick
yeah i used to sit around just reminiscing
but now i'm tryna figure out a way to make a difference

turn around i see you standing in the sunlight
but i can't look cause everything around me so bright
sometimes 
i just wish i wouldn't be up all night 
and i don't ever really like it going outside

and if you love me why you treat me like you do
you always left me out the loop
and i got nothing left to lose

i ain't your trophy you can't put me in your room
with every heart that you collect 
you never really had me fooled
(i kinda knew)

i gotta pack up all my shit 
i'm on the move
i think i need another hit
don't feel a thing at all unless i'm taking two
still i can't forget it i be holding onto you
i got a pill to help me go and find some closure really soon

know you wouldn't answer 
if i ever tried to call
blow me off again
i know i'm not the one you want at all

you got me all tied down
now i'm strung up
i always felt that i was up against a lost love
i never said i wouldn't quit you should've saw
i wouldn't put up with your shit
don't you pretend you didn't know

i guess i'm not that right for you
i didn't ever really wanna have to fight for you
and i don't ever wanna lie to you
i think i left it where i should've least i tried to
(tried for you)

bury me with several little roses by the words
and write my eulogy in sentences that make me look the worst
i'll have dependency
addicted 'til i'm rotten with the worms
no i don't think i'll ever end it
got me caught up in a curse

If You Love Me (prod. reaper)

fuck.

lyrics

and i just wish that i was normal
wish i didn't have to fake to feel at home tho
scratch out my face in all ur photos
i know ur right when u said that ima no show

take my hand 
you know that i've 
done all that i can
for you
 
ima no show
keep them doors closed
see you in that photo
see you at my next shoow

i wish that i was normal (prod. ftbondatrack)

Check out the producers

@lu_lo
@oceanonthebeat
(Prod. Ocean & Lu_Lo)
Shout to @Lu_Lo on the Vocal Mix 

Twitter.com/sadmccn
Follow me on Spotify at SadMCCN 

She's a bad girl with a cute smile
Ain't no control when i see her face
So, baby will you come back to my place
We'll take it slow
Or maybe we wont, I don't know
Don't need to know what the future holds 
Girl take my clothes cause you look so cold
I bite your neck
You say you love it when I pull your hair
(Marks on your body left everywhere) 

We got that liquor on our breath
Ooo but we see so clear
Don't want this night to end 
Just wanna lay here.. 
Just wanna lay here.. 
Don't want this night to end just wanna lay here
Just wanna lay right...
Just wanna lay right here...

Cause she's a bad girl with a cute smile
Aint no control when i see her face
So baby will you come back to my place
Bad girl...
She's a bad girl with a cute smile
Ain't no control when i see her face
So, baby will you come back to my place
We'll take it slow
Or maybe we wont, I don't know

She like my fast car... 
Got her a pink Ducati
But she says that she'd rather ride me
I bite your neck
You say you love it when I pull your hair
(Marks on your body left everywhere) 

Cause she's a bad girl with a cute smile
(liquor on your breath)
Aint no control when i see her face
(Don't want this night to end)
So baby will you come back to my place
(Don't want this night to end) 
Bad girl

Bad (Feat. Lu_Lo)

fall against your wall (acoustic)

Twitter.com/sadmccn

Lyrics


I don't want you to rest in peace
I can't believe you're gone 
I miss the smile on your face 
The way you use to contemplate every word to say
And no i'm not okay 
I'm tired of the fakes 
If you were here you'd put them in their place

I've been dreamin we will meet again
In these pills I see your face
All I feel now is empty space
Blame it all on me i'll take your place in a heartbeat 
I know you're watching me
Blame it all on me i'll take your place in a heartbeat
I can't stand to see your grave
Your ghost is watching me 

I'm trying to believe their words when they say... 
You know
You're in a better place, sometimes it's hard
Someone please help me feel something
Instead of lay awake without you here 
Most nights I feel like
I was the one that died that night

Cause' I don't want you to rest in peace 
I can't believe you're gone
I miss the smile on your face 
The way you use to contemplate every word to say
And no i'm not okay 
I'm tired of the fakes 
If you were here you'd put them in their place

I've been dreaming we will meet again
In these pills I see your face

Empty Space (prod. HXRXKILLER)

www.sadboiszn.com

could you teach me how to do this shit again
what's the point when the feeling always ends
if i spill my guts for you
would you leave the room as it fills with my gloom
i'm tryna stay up but it's a trend
i can see the scales when they're tipping on the mend
she said we were forever what's new
if we were forever can i live forever too 

i been feeling toxic
spend too much time with me and now you're feeling nauseous
cut myself right through the lungs i can barely breathe
i would trade my soul for some air and a heartbeat
drugs in my blood, numb the feelings in my brain
i'd paint you a picture if I knew how to paint
but all i do express this pain
do you think a couple words could paint a thousand pictures aye

could you teach me how to do this shit again
what's the point when the feeling always ends
if i spill my guts for you
would you leave the room as it fills with my gloom
i'm tryna stay up but it's a trend
i can see the scales when they're tipping on the mend
she said we were forever what's new 
if we were forever can i live forever too 

you said this wouldn't die
wake up overthink over-drink then i cry
this place a ghost town where you hide?
i don't wanna know, you can keep me out your sights

could you teach me how to do this shit again
what's the point when the feeling always ends
if i spill my guts for you
would you leave the room as it fills with my gloom
i'm tryna stay up but it's a trend
i can see the scales when they're tipping on the mend
she said we were forever what's new
if we were forever can i live forever too

Empty Space (prod. HXRXKILLER)

mccn.