Featuring @sendflowrs
Produced by @hellahaunted & @sainttomorrow
Mixed & mastered by @horoshamusic
Logo by Dead & Detached

i been smoking too much like every day

who would'a thought that these drugs don't really numb all the pain

my eyes stay shut but i still see your face
i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled


and ive been smoking too much like every day
since fifteen think it's rotting my brain

i got my windows closed but i still hear the rain

i don't like myself anymore

think i've changed

and while you sit there drunk on the side of the pave

do you ever think about those times in the cage

with your friends in the sun oh those times they have changed

now i'm sitting on my own thinking of life on a stage


thinkin of life on a stage

these days i'm alone 

take 3 blunts to the face

spend my days blazed just thinking of life in the states

shoutout jj
i'm tryna record everyday


i think i'm going straight to hell for those two years

if you didnt know im sad you must be new here

cliche dyed hair
i'm a loser

forever screaming on my own at a computer


i'm a loser and I know it
got it tatted on my sleeve just to show how much i own it
stay glued to my computer
writing sad songs and playing first-person shooters


watch me self-destruct

catch me yelling "nerf this"
while i'm rolling up another blunt


i used to do this for fun

now i do this on account of all of my bad luck

i been smoking too much like every day

who would'a thought that these drugs don't really numb all the pain

my eyes stay shut but i still see your face
i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled


i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled

i don't even know what i'm fighting for



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Loser w/ sendflowrs (Prod. caves & Saint Tomorrow)

feel the breeze
on my knees
some1 kill me please
don't wanna live
if u leave
will u stay with me
sick of this
i want peace
please leave me be(2x)

waking to the same shit
every single fucking day
im getting tired of all of it
im sick of the waiting game

this shit hit me outta nowhere
i wasn't expecting
anything that would make me feel so bad
why is life so unfair

my life has been nothing but fucked up
some say i deserve it
others that i have bad luck
can't depend on any1 and yeah that shit sucks
im only 16 and i can't get the fuck up
can't sit back and relax while i roll 1
cause im always stressed and depressed
i can't feel love
now im on my knees
in the middle of my room
wishing to be dead, soon

feel the breeze
on my knees
some1 kill me please
don't wanna live
if u leave
will u stay with me
sick of this
i want peace
please leave me be(2x)

ha~a~oh//woah~o
(please leave me be)

stuck in my head
never talk; i be nauseous
i feel the wind on my skin
never wanted you more
like am i important?
cause i feel ignored
i swear that i’m worthless

i try to be by you
but everything’s breaking
so now i should die soon
for not fucking waiting
it hit like a typhoon
oh how degrading
my eyes they would dilute
would you come to save me

leave me be w/autumndropsdead (afterlife x jolst)

𝘪'𝘥 𝘳𝘢𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘮𝘰𝘯𝘦𝘵𝘪𝘻𝘦 𝘮𝘺 𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘤𝘬𝘴

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Why’d I let this demon inside of my bed 
I need sage 
I need faith 
I need something bad
One more taste 
wanna hit her like a vape 
Hard to quit 
how much time til I cave in

Think it’s bout time I run away from your love now 
Hit the glass hards how I try to come down 
Hit the lights let it all burn out 

She wanna fuck around ye
I tell her how i feel but she doesn’t wanna listen 
It’s not are time right now so I guess I just keep it distant 
Don’t it feel like shit when you feel like you’re not good enough 

Missing all your tattoos 
You/re my sunshine 
Your eyes when they look at mine 
You can’t be trusted 

Why’d I let this demon inside of my bed 
I need sage 
I need faith 
I need something bad
One more taste 
wanna hit her like a vape 
Hard to quit 
how much time til I cave in

Let’s just get this over with 
Can’t stop letting you in 
Is it obvious, I can’t stop this
I feel it constantly weighing down on me 
Feel like the subject of this classic poetry
Where I’m the man 
You’re the girl to kill me slow and painfully 

Deep down 
I hope you’re better now 
But part of me still hopes you drown 

Think it’s bout time I run away from your love now 
Hit the glass hards how I try to come down 
Hit the lights let it all burn out 

Deep down 
hope you’re better now 
But part of me still hopes you drown

Sage

ｔｈｉｓ　ｆｉｒｅ　ｂｕｒｎｔ　ｉｔｓｅｌｆ　ｆｏｒ　ｏｘｙｇｅｎ

prod @user-230494921
hope you enjoy 
still more to come
thank you for being here
i appreciate you all so much

could do without a hubris
i barely feel human
tuck it all inside, the heat'll rise until i'm fuming
i wonder what the use is
'cause i ain't wanna do this
no amount of joy could mute the noise the mind produces

quick, you gotta hurt me just to prove that blood was bled
tried every solution
but this one, it feels the best
i can feel my pulse work it's way out of my chest
so tired that this fire burnt itself for oxygen

my mind won't humor me
i feel like a failed attempted lucid dream
a eulogy to send me off, then kick into a flowing stream
(closed my eyes) i'm still the only one that's staring back at me
let her disposition grant a wish of living happily

it took too long just to move on
learnt nuance bared clarities
not headstrong, just kept on
given all the bullshit i was parrying

i can't fill this heart yet
'cause nothing's staying in
(but it might be)

colder than snow
dry like a carcass
cut by the throat
motion; lathergic
left on my own, to my own devices
liquid will flow, i've grown to like it
seldom approach
zero will manage
the older the ghost, the faster they vanish
that home was your home, 'till you've known that you've grown out it's place
with no one in sight, now i throw down the mace

could do without a hubris
i barely feel human
tuck it all inside, the heat'll rise until i'm fuming
i wonder what the use is
'cause i ain't wanna do this
no amount of joy could mute the noise the mind produces

she said i had hopeful eyes, and
that had me mesmerized
if there was time we had left,
then she'd want none of mine

i drowned out all my anger in the water
but that made my heart much hotter
lent a hand, now mine's in sulfur
just so others wouldn't falter

jinn (4lexf)

i needa go to work my girl if u hear me now 
i’ll be back at 6
make u food if u want it 
woke up in a good mood 
but shortly after lost it 
this table and this screen 
keep me in like a coffin 
at my 9-5 way too high to be conscious 
broke another streak
i feel bad for my sponsors
need to put this bottle down
head spinnin like a comet
2 litre sprite
pinewood then cherry drop it 

like run your diagnostics 
on my friends 
anythin u want girl
i’ll buy it 
can’t afford a prada bag
so i rolled this 10 
will u hold me down when i get indicted
pass the gas to my homie only smoke fire
hold the knife in my hand and i get excited 
pass the gas to my baby yea she light it
she put flowers on the grave that i’m inside inside in

and it’s like lately
idk, i can’t explain 
i been - 
ugh

i mean, like lately,
i been low once again 
i feel like things are starting to fall into place
then they slip and i drop them 
they smash like a vase
always just a fuck up 
yea i cannot explain
why do i always think people want me this way
then they cut and they stitch n they try change my shape
i pop pills n im lazy 
the fuck can i say
either take me 
or leave me 
stop playing this game 
i’m a person i deserve to be loved and- 

tf am i sayin 
just pass me a 30 n get out my way 
i’ve gone cold through these years that you’ve shredded my brain 
what’s a life without fighting 
feel fuckin insane
did you see how he fell when i hit him again 
i got blood on my hands wash it off in the rain
i can’t make a fist or hold my phone a few days 
but i promise that pussy won’t try it again
all i need in this life is some weed and a pen

i’ll be back at six (nevrfall)

[Intro]
(Beam me up Scotty)

[Chorus]
Ayy, changes you made to me
Yeah, that's irreversible
No, why you afraid of me
Yeah, I think you're beautiful
Ooh, chaining the celery
Yeah, that's irreversible
No, why you afraid of me (Why)
Yeah, I'm not that powerful
Ayy, changes you made to me
Yeah, that's irreversible
No, why you afraid of me
Yeah, I think you're beautiful
Ooh, chaining the celery
Yeah, that's irreversible
No, why you afraid of me (Why)
Yeah, I’m not that powerful

[Verse 1]
Woah
Energy release
It’s purely emotional, you made it physical
Never talk sheep, never talk scheme, never talk we
Never talk ‘bout me
It’s all about you
All about who fucking who
And a lot of our time
Really your time
Talkin’ bout blue
Look at my life boo hoo
Well I been lookin’ at it
Look at your life again
'Cause I'm in there too
You just gotta get past you
Gotta look deep, gotta go through
All the DM and the voicemail
So you could see me right here in front of your vision, it’s cool
I’m easy to miss, so I’m told, yeah
I’m easy to block out of view, ayy
Easy to block, uh
Red lips with the peach taste
Black jeans with the shoelace belt (Ayy)
Rubbin’ on ‘em got ‘em red face (No)
No waste for the love he felt
Pick love for the G string well
Chose wrong now it hurt deep down
Heartbreak gonna curve his health
No waste for the love he felt, cold ass hell

[Chorus]
Ayy, changes you made to me
Yeah, that's irreversible
No, why you afraid of me
Yeah, I think you're beautiful
Ooh, chaining the celery
Yeah, that's irreversible
No, why you afraid of me (Why)
Yeah, I’m not that powerful
Ayy, changes you made to me
Yeah, that's irreversible
No, why you afraid of me
Yeah, I think you're beautiful
Ooh, chaining the celery
Yeah, that's irreversible
No, why you afraid of me (Why)
Yeah, I’m not that powerful

[Verse 2]
Hey
Time is up, ayy
Give it up
Triple coffee cup
I’m throwing up (Burp)
Truly boot cut
Polo pony stuck in mud
Ashy from the bud
Spongey spitting out my blood
Man, I'm more than just the suds
Down the blue to power up
Blowing powder off the dash
OG said it just to dust
If you smelling lines, I’ll be asking you to cut
No more snow that man is geeked
All my boys prefer that run
Remember when you joined me
Remember when you used to crack it slowly (Crack)
Remember you would out smoke me
3 grams in the blunt, no kobe (Shoot)

[Bridge]
(Woah, woah, woah, woah)
3 grams in the blunt, no kobe (No kobe)
Now you don’t even know me (Ayy)
(Now you don’t even know me, yeah)

[Chorus]
Ayy, changes you made to me
Yeah, that's irreversible
No, why you afraid of me
Yeah, I think you're beautiful
Ooh, chaining the celery
Yeah, that's irreversible
No, why you afraid of me (Why)
Yeah, I’m not that powerful
Ayy, changes you made to me
Yeah, that's irreversible
No, why you afraid of me
Yeah, I think you're beautiful
Ooh, chaining the celery
Yeah, that's irreversible
No, why you afraid of me (Why)
Yeah, I’m not that powerful

Sage

mccn.