Hold your breath, you're going over the bridge (with waitingoncisco)

𝘪'𝘥 𝘳𝘢𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘮𝘰𝘯𝘦𝘵𝘪𝘻𝘦 𝘮𝘺 𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘤𝘬𝘴

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Why’d I let this demon inside of my bed 
I need sage 
I need faith 
I need something bad
One more taste 
wanna hit her like a vape 
Hard to quit 
how much time til I cave in

Think it’s bout time I run away from your love now 
Hit the glass hards how I try to come down 
Hit the lights let it all burn out 

She wanna fuck around ye
I tell her how i feel but she doesn’t wanna listen 
It’s not are time right now so I guess I just keep it distant 
Don’t it feel like shit when you feel like you’re not good enough 

Missing all your tattoos 
You/re my sunshine 
Your eyes when they look at mine 
You can’t be trusted 

Why’d I let this demon inside of my bed 
I need sage 
I need faith 
I need something bad
One more taste 
wanna hit her like a vape 
Hard to quit 
how much time til I cave in

Let’s just get this over with 
Can’t stop letting you in 
Is it obvious, I can’t stop this
I feel it constantly weighing down on me 
Feel like the subject of this classic poetry
Where I’m the man 
You’re the girl to kill me slow and painfully 

Deep down 
I hope you’re better now 
But part of me still hopes you drown 

Think it’s bout time I run away from your love now 
Hit the glass hards how I try to come down 
Hit the lights let it all burn out 

Deep down 
hope you’re better now 
But part of me still hopes you drown

Sage

Wokeupscrmn (with notmorgn)

everyones an asshole 
my plug cuts his coke and my doctor pushes benzos 
my head smacked the floor when i tripped off my board
skating round the halls cause my parents aren't at home
today ive been bored
today i woke up at 4
needed stuff but got too high to drive to the store
at the checkout said "how are you?"
i said "not much"
on my way out i tripped and my thing of eggs crushed

dont be ashamed to be proud of yourself or slow down for a sec 
i say as i quietly critique parts of myself 
i guess i just keep helping so i wont need help
but regardless it helps

can you tell me we're good now?
you left me put down
bad is my good now
when i cry it's a good sound 

(hamilton)
cut it all out
take it all away
i dont wanna feel 
no not today 
numb to the pain numb to it all
hanging by a thread i might fall
i might slip 
lose my grip 
tryna find out where the time went
where it all goes
i dont know
i can only walk the path i chose 
build me up just to break my bones
crushing up drugs on my phone
tryna fix my heart but it got worse
every time i fall in love it hurts
every time i try to not think bout you it dont work
maybe im just meant to be alone with the dirt
but maybe its just meant to be 
i get so high i cant speak
walking round cant feel my feet
when i sleep i grit my teeth
when i sleep youre all i see
so every nights a bad dream 
i dont wanna wake up
just to feel nothing

when i cry it sounds good (with hamilton and sorrow bringer)

My shadow on your floor
I don't want to do this anymore
Think I'd rather have a conversation
Cuz we're never gonna be this young again

We take another pull
Wanna hear my thoughts
Don't you know I'm awful
You gotta give me more cuz you know I'm cautious
But we can pull the pin, make it toxic

Light it up, seal the bag
Pills you kept in cellophane
Send me off to Neverland
Got these party drugs in my hand
You and I could blow the dust
Tinkerbell and Peter Pan

Hop in the car, route to all of our dreams
We escape for a weekend
You're falling asleep
As the sun starts to rise from the mountains I see
Say I'm scared that this won't feel as good as the peak

No way, fuck that
I won't ever let go
Won't wait, packed bags
Fly you to the east coast
No fake laugh tracks
Everyone that we know
Watching you and I live in a fairytale

Light it up, seal the bag
Pills you kept in cellophane
Send me off to Neverland
Got these party drugs in my hand
You and I could blow the dust
Tinkerbell and Peter Pan

Tinkerbell

In My Cup

Talking To Voices - WRLD

[+] the hardest part about all of this, is saying goodbye to
the person i planned on spending the rest of my life with.

* featuring @sleyeofficial & @lilskeleskrrt * prod by @lilsp00ky *
(artwork created by @scottysplash)

IG: www.instagram.com/seejayxo
TW: www.twitter.com/seejayxo
DISCORD: discord.gg/VRcvcdf
LYRICS:

[intro: seejaxyo]
fall apart every second you're not by my side
i never thought the day would come i'd have to say goodbye
i hope you know i really loved you like you one of a kind
i hope you're happy even though you break me everytime

[hook: sleye]
baby when i choke now cover my face
empty out my lungs now 
wrap me in my sheets
when they put me in the ground 
will you stand on my grave
will you stand on my grave
yeah i love it when you hate

[verse: seejayxo]
told you right off the bat, i wasn't ready
you promised it was cool, said that we could take it steady
but i could feel myself falling for you already
said that we were soulmates that we don't need no wedding

and that was fine with me
cus i thought you were so cool
but you played my heart
and now im the fool
got me sitting here
and im just missing you
i know you say you care
i can't tell if it's true

thought you loved me but i know it's a lie
fuckin with me, got you all on my mind
you have him, stop wasting my time
i'm moving on, so say your goodbyes

cus i got all of this weight on my chest
no missed calls, snapchats, or texts
i know baby that this for the best
i know its me i'm the reason you feelin depressed

[verse 2: lil skele]
said she feel ok 
I don’t feel the same way
it’s been awhile now and I still feel the same weight 
eyes low bitch I can’t even think straight
and my heartbeat’s moving at a slow pace 
it’s all over anyway 
I keep on fucking up everything 
I left a call today im always feeling the same way 
ruin my life again
I’m sorry I thought we were more than friends 
leave me alone again 
tell me that you’ll love me untill the end 
baby when I choke now cover my face 
I don’t want you too see that I’ve been living this way 
I put my head in the clouds and hold my breath underwater 
told me that you love me but you can’t stay any longer 
I just wanna feel ok

goodbye ft. sleye + lil skele (prod. lil sp00k)

moon (acoustic)

All production, mixing/mastering, everything aside from sewer's verse by me. SPOTIFY/APPLE:
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/doublemydose/when-i-rise-feat-sewerperson
Special thanks to @sewerperson for working with me again <3
Album art by @ zzzcurtis (on instagram)
(doublemydose)
No love, shattered trust 
Looking for the ladder up
Was a victim in your prison
Unforgiven, you never listened
Now here am
Spark the fire in my hands 
Fuck your bitch like it was planned
Get in line I’m in demand
All blacked out in the subie smoking loud
Put a 30 on your tongue ya we sippin' on some rum
I been up all night with the shadows and a sprite
Not waiting on no calls cause bitch I caught em’ all 
And I know
I know I know I know that I’m reckless
Pedal to the floor till I’m breathless
Bitch I’m not the one you expected
(sewerperson)
bury me in shallow dirt for when i rise
i let go of my flesh and live my second life
i been back in here like plenty times
blunt smoke hit my yellow eyes
baby girl i told you twenty times
this is just an ordinary night
i watch my ash im in these pearly whites
rainy alleys in my broken nikes
dont you worry baby take ur time
i got a feeling imma need an early night
onyx
baby u just tell me where to go and then im on it
breaking down backwoods rolling up comets
tryna come back wimme i did not offer
she was all prim till she gimme that knowledge
lights blew out now i cant see faces
metal in the air and i follow that tracing
suck it back up every time i bleed
if its so bad why it feel so amazing
(doublemydose)
All blacked out in the subie smoking loud
Put a 30 on your tongue ya we sippin' on some rum
I been up all night with the shadows and a sprite
Not waiting on no calls cause bitch I caught em’ all 
And I know
I know I know I know that I’m reckless
Pedal to the floor till I’m breathless
Bitch I’m not the one you expected
Bitch I never was invested
Pocket full of blues ain't stressin'
Looking toward the top I'm headed
I hope you go the message

when i rise

when i rise (ft. sewerperson)

SPOTIFY/APPLE

Imma go and leave the house again i got my backbone
Watch the ground shatter glass when i walk up on
People only call me when there something always wrong
I see distant memories creepin when i pass by
Hope its the last time
Stay connected like its land line
Watch my footing cause im surrounded by land mines
Never gonna trip cause im allways on stand by
I got ice up on my wrist you know this shit took time

Pills in my system only reason I would fall
Error in my coding so i always reinstall
They always try to stop me but im breaking threw these walls
Still hopin for that call

every night
baby i used to see u bout like every night
now im like
are we alright
damn
i just hold my head and dig my feet into the sand
man i miss my home land
u look like an angel in this candle light ya
the news had said that storm out west been heading over here
we sit in front this fire waiting for it to appear
while my eyes roll back into me as shes thumbing thru my hair
exhausting all my energy into the summer air
i swear i had this in me way before i was aware
sheath this field when im in public cause i hate when people stare
this aura seeping out of me whenever im feeling scared
black clovers
covering my books
im tainted
i levelled before i was ready now its rage i shoulda waited
rippin thru my mind i separate from what i hated
i live in constant fear of my projection in my basement

Everyday thinkful to god that i made it 22 
I be mixin all my pills and with my liquor to
She be fuckin good im keepin all the answers inside the coop
She tell me that’s she wasted i tell her im am to
Markings on her body 
She levitate the room
In my mind i tell her that ill see her soon
I be writing scriptures in these pages
Witth you know i keep it weighted 
Hated
Only show me love when your jaded
New beginnings but im feeling outdated 
Comin home to see nobody waited
Oblivious is stated

Sage

mccn.