prod. https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCGDePQVGIZccm9g0UwoNOgg

just wanna let it go (prod. metlast)

But its okay
pulling out the 9, i don't know what to say
i was in a bad place, moving in to bad days
i was feelin like a looser, you could see it in my face

its a waste just to say
that im feelin okay
but i know that time is healing me, each second of the day
feelin lost and astray, and i cant stay awake
ill be makin lots uh noise, till im stuck inside my grave

it gets cold in October
the air reminds me every year, the day that we got closer,
don't try to loose my mind
I been manic here at times
but the way the shit was goin, couldn't see me a surprise

thought that I would die
ima man in a disguise
i been hiding all my feelings, same to u, you didn't try
couldn't see the signs
you said i should die
sad to say i think i loved more each time you would disguise
you hated me at times

its a waste just to say
that im feelin okay
but i know that time is healing me, each second of the day
feelin lost and astray, and i cant stay awake
and ill be makin lots uh noise, till I'm stuck inside my grave

i got demons in my head, and they makin me feel dead
i don't wanna be upset, you could see it in my head
if you tried a little harder, youd be next to me in bed
i was feelin pretty led, led into distress

yeah this time you wanted me to leave you lone, but no one said
i was cheating in my head, i was finding ways to spread
cause ive known that you have hated me for years, with that said
ima leave you in the dirt, and think that we have never met.

GRAVE (prod. nvki)

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Shining

dont wait for me w/suszach & sendflowrs (afterlife)

cant you see im never right...
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-lyrics-
i think i saw you up, in my head last night
out with other men, cant you see im never right
trusting in myself is something i cannot get right
loading ur drugs in ur pipe while you cry

i know that you hate it, i always ask why
i sit in my room and just cut with the knife
you gave me last year, yeah its pretty that's why
i must fuck it up, cannot treat me right

sit on the phone on the bus in the night
collide with the reason that i am alive
get deep in my thought when alone, see the light
appear on my phone, that's a signal in time

you'll recognize me, yeah hope its not a lie
im cutting the line, ill cut out ur lies
ill stay on that grind, hope that life treat me right
dont know what to do, im nauseous not fine

i think i saw you up, in my head last night
out with other men, cant you see im never right
trusting in myself is something i cannot get right
loading ur drugs in ur pipe while you cry

gimme a reason that i shouldn't die
ill tell you a secret just help me confine
my demons inside, i fear what is life
you work all the time
dont see you at night

goodnight, goodbye (prod. reytee)

(chorus)

i will be
gone with the wind
you told me you’d never love again
so i have been
cryin myself to sleep
so will you take my hand
and guide me out of this again
just try to understand that
my shaky legs are weak

(MVØ)

finding it hard to speak
finding it hard to breathe
why can't I fall asleep
something inside of me choking me honestly
fuck an apology
why does it fall on me

drive home alone in silence
30 on the dash but my mind keeps racing
replaying
every moment, never lose track of the look you gave him

and I know that either way it's over
I thought I'd come out of this sober
lost touch now I'm filling my cup, yuh
yeah

(bridge)

this anxiety
has got its grip on me
oh cant you see
i’ve been drowning 
i need this please
oh cant you set me free
cause i have been falling 
to pieces

(EPITOME)

i’ll never see you again and i know that
and it’s been 5 years but you still never wrote back
i’ve been here all this time
i can’t seem to figure out why

(chorus)

gone with the wind
you told me you’d never love again
so i have been
cryin myself to sleep
so will you take my hand
and guide me out of this again
just try to understand that
my shaky legs are weak

i'll never see u again w/ MVØ (nevrfall)

10 seconds and im in
based
flipped visions got erased
faced
with the painful truth 
that i dont give a fuck
i dont know what works
but i know 
i was the first
and ill always be the worst
x2

in a different state 
fuckin blacked out
they dont know my name
huh, its how it stays now
yeh
id really
like it
if you kept my name in ur mouth
cus i wanna be talked about
fuck it if i roundabout
spent my life being kicked around
a to the m to the gay 
to the "what the fucks this kid sayin?"
i
dont
get around
i just wanna be grounded

10 seconds and im in
based
flipped visions got erased
faced
with the painful truth 
that i dont give a fuck
i dont know what works
but i know 
i was the first
and ill always be the-

worst.
but anyway,
im scared
that im not gonna make it farther than i am
right now
and i struggle more than i ever have
but now its different shit
and i guess i gotta write about it 
why u stayin in this life if u not really all about it?
im just an angsty teen with the same shit 
that you deal with,
so whats special bout it?
fucking nothing.
i dont deserve any of this shit,
so gimme nothing.
but they'll always be a side of me that wants somethin,
live a life,
maybe fuckin god damn be somethin.

0 seconds and im in
based
flipped visions got erased
faced
with the painful truth 
that i dont give a fuck
i dont know what works
but i know 
i was the first
and ill always be the worst
x2

what works? (valious & maxflynn)

prod. moneo


seasons change, the fall of the dead leaves
walk outside, im feeling a cold breeze
deep inside, i know you dont miss me
but imma lie and say you wont forget me

i saw your mom as we crossed ways
then we went to talk and she said that your doing great
asked me how i was and i lied to her face
cause i dont wanna seem like im just a disgrace

and all of these days they crash
2 years has come to pass
and im still missing u
AND IM STILL MISSING YOU

my friends always ask
why im stuck in the past
and maybe im a fool
ill try and forget that

i wont change for you
and youll always know that
so while i play cool
theres a lot i would take back

seasons change, the fall of the dead leaves
walk outside, im feeling a cold breeze
deep inside, i know you dont miss me
but imma lie and say you wont forget me

i saw your mom as we crossed ways
then we went to talk and she said that your doing great
asked me how i was and i lied to her face
cause i dont wanna seem like im just a disgrace

i'm glad you're doing okay

Mixed/Mastered By Me & https://soundcloud.com/auby4rc
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Prod By https://soundcloud.com/stezzyxl
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(Lyrics)
-
[Chorus]
i always think about oh I'm just an obstacle 
no need to worry girl i know that you are comfortable 
that's how i feel and you were so dramatic girl 
don't know what's real i need to find the cause of it 

[Auby]
i came to plead again
please end my suffering 
looks like my hands are tied
in the palm of your hand
let me take solace that youll be here with me
im done with all this constant wondering
cant look you into your eyeshouldnt be very surprised
sorry that im a mess
i promise i tried my best
living in a web of lies
without you i wouldnt survive
no type of medicine could fix what is happening

[Chorus]
i always think about oh I'm just an obstacle 
no need to worry girl i know that you are comfortable 
that's how i feel and you were so dramatic girl 
don't know what's real i need to find the cause of it x2

[Verse]
seeing all the messages saying that you hated me
i can barely sleep at night i find it hard to fucking breathe 
and i just wanted you closer 
these lonely thoughts are getting colder 

[Outro]
and i just wanted some closure holding each other till we're warmer 
seeing all the messages saying that you hated me
 i can barely sleep at night i find it hard to fucking breathe

Shining

mccn.