whats the problem?
prod. @imcaves
hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
whats the problem
i try not to think ab it in the long run
say it louder to convince myself i’m awful
i see ur face n think i’ll never pass the autumn
ain’t it funny how that works
never knew how much it hurt
put a price atop my head i got a target
thought i need more attention now i’m starving
i knew myself a whole lot less than i regarded
now ur over me w him
i don’t know where to begin

u can tell me that theres more to life
but i just wish we were immortalized
i think im brave until im forced to fly
i’ll never catch up to the morning light

suffer, suture wounds
i crushed my future; tomb
i’d see the sun
if you’d just move a bit
puncture lungs removed
tell me what u do
when night hits
everything is new again

whats the problem
isnt this all that u wanted in the long run?
i could spend my days just waiting for a phone call
but if i did then i wouldnt be someone u want
aint it funny how that works
i’ll just lie down in the dirt
u can bend me how u wanna cuz i like that
i miss how you’d make me hurt i never fight back
i know that it didnt work but yet despite that
i’m a sucker for ur love
i thought it was kinda fun

u can tell me that theres more to life
but i just wish we were immortalized
i think im brave until im forced to fly
i’ll never catch up to the morning light
i'll never

brave bird [caves]

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a mutual sickness report

[+ loverboybeats]

@navyxower
@dylaanlotus
@noxious-nights
@souldfadexo
@emptychest
@northshoremusic

(navy)
gotta black tee
some would say its green
baby i gotta lay down
baby im feeling weak

wandering through the streets
heartbreak on the seames
ima travel cross the sea, i wonder what it means

party you party, lets party you talk in ur sleep, i need to get outta here again
why do you wanna get down with him, i heard you talking im sick

when we met by the water
would you think of me differently, if i had a daugher
i watch all these aniamls go to slaughter
its cause ur all selfish, what did they do wrong

(dylan lotus)
i’m burning up, i been hellbound
i’m leaving this earth cuz you hate me
so fuckin lost, i been spellbound 
i’m under the curse that you gave me
fuckin it up til you break me
all of these drugs that i’m taking
lace a few pills and i’m soarin off
lovin a thrill yeah i’m pouring up
fucked up; i’m worthless 
constant soul searching 
am i really worthy of love? i’m not perfect

(noxiousnights)
why am i so hard on myself ?
my goals are too big it's ruining my health
i could really make it easier
but all the summer i make it feel like winter

I distort my mind to help me cope
the world is spinning i'm out of control
sometimes it feels like there's no hope
i'm lost in my thoughts i can't let go

(soulfade)
Surely hate the way you talk to me
When things around fallen downward
In sense I never wanted this
Things would never happen way too soon

Always talking to myself at the noon
Always staring blankly at the moon

(emptychest)
different day different rolls
u know how the story goes
u know how to keep me close
i know how to keep u warm
its my responsibility
to keep u warm..
i never thought id live, endeavor!
never thought id see forever!
i didnt think id find my home
I really thought id die alone 
die alone.
nobody knows whats in my head.
ive been counting down my days
so i can finally get some bread
ay, see my, be my, mind
you'd die in a second!
its crazy to think im the same as you

(TNS)
Take the path that’s in front of me 
Feel the rhythm inside of me 
Tired of just playing hide n seek 

Where you really at girl, I don’t wanna leave 
Self esteem aside, girl I need you with me 
I just did a full 180

Hide & Seek w/ NAVYXOWER, dylan lotus, noxiousnights, soulfade, emptychest & The North Shore

everything by me
been working on a lot
seriously way more to come
hope you enjoy. 
thank you so much for listening.
your support means beyond any means to me.

i know i can't keep killing me off slowly
putting my dreams behind me
i find it so damn unlikely; 
remind me
quiet lifestyle, but defiled by this thoughts of mine
memories are heaven
'till you are what you forgot in time
don't care..
you don't care
you don't care, anymore.

i can see appeal
conflicted with the feeling
a burden on myself
it feels like i just killed me
get over that hill
down another cup of coffee
relive how it felt
to think, see, hear, and feel nothing

over-sensitized and ill
aye, when's it my turn to heal?
insinuate that better place you've always dreamt of only kills
until we fall and call it quits
by stone or gun that don't exist
i was here for all of this
(i was here for all of this)

i know i can't keep killing me off slowly
putting my dreams behind me
i find it so damn unlikely; remind me

how i got here, and who i am to stand by
'cause with fragile ears and hearts,
we've always been paralyzed, paralyzed
no wonder, why.

(killing me off slowly)
(putting my dreams behind me)
(i find it so damn unlikely)
(remind me)

all of this

Thank you @caspywaspy for the beautiful feature <3

Dxnny 

No use for my flesh
guess im crawling out
backed up into the corner
Fucking done it now
Dip out of the function and im running till my legs give out
(Till my legs give out)

I was never invested
But the sex is..wow
i dont think that i was ever ready for the hell inbound 
she wishes that we were telling eachother our wedding vows
i dont think im ready for commitment there i said it now

She told me its your loss
Well Baby i think that you’re lost
nothing you say is making its way
Through to me
X2

Casperrr

im hurting and im aching
My pain will only make my back break
I love you, you hate me i should run away for my sake
all of the trauma Im facing
I cant believe its a part of my fate
i spend a lot of time of my life just thinking bout solving problems in any other way

She told me it was my loss 
Cant really tell if shes wrong
I just cant think i feel lost
I’ll hide it with addys and bongs

your loss ft casperrr (boy50)

ｎｏ　ａｉｒ，　ｂｕｔ　ｓｏｍｅｈｏｗ　ｉ　ｂｒｅａｔｈｅ　ｔｈｒｏｕｇｈ

prod by my guy @solofttt
fucking love you all.
more on the way
stay strong
take care; drink water
try to get some rest.
thank you for being here

too much
i don't wanna feel too much
(like what?)
beat up; feet are clamped in the mud
no one
fuck this damper wood i'm hunching over every day
you shouldn't feed me love 'cause i'll regurgitate it anyways

that's the price that i'll pay
not to be overcome by my emotions
a hallow frame, left to be hung on it's own
where nobody'll noticed it's changed
feel that pain of your confusion
and just turn it into music
orchestrations of my patience
retrospective-made illusions

just be cautious not to lose it
'cause some bitch said something stupid
trust me, god i know it hurts
but know your worth and keep on moving
somewhere in the sky
just go outside and raise your head
there's reclusive ways to cleanse yourself
without this constant dread
but this toxin's running deeper
i don't know how long i'll last
i misplaced my faith with hatred
as i'm staring down the glass
i ain't hitting you up like i know you (but i do)
but i'm up a few notches, i'll understand
'cause the past, it haunts you (it does)
i try to reach out, but i got ghost hands

felt too much
now i don't feel enough
felt too much
i may have dove a little deep in the ocean
for my lungs,
couldn't handle the pressure that they had been holding
y'all folding, but i'm focused
honestly i feel omnipotent
only when i get my hands on the potion
or i'm broken, i'm not joking
but maybe if i break daylight, then i'll get shit done
and i'll feel alright
with a tone so stale there was no real cry
on a blood-stained trail, we still bleed overnight
fuck, i bet that you feel it again
incisions embellish your skin
and now you're all alone again
deprived of the people you thought were your friends
i made a couple calls, did they go through?
it ain't fair, i really don't wanna miss you
take care, i'll be blowing on tissues
no air, but, somehow i breathe through
it's 4 in the morning, my guardian's snoring
i'm sorry i lied, i've been sippin away
i'd make me some porridge, but puke it by morning
the cycle is horrid, but i ain't complain

indefinite pain ain't just part of my day
it's been shrouding my brain
like a vulturous gate
this shit's an escape
i'm always afraid
of being locked out of my own mental state
try not to run away just yet, i feel you
breaching my skin, for the meantime

too much 
i don't wanna feel too much
(like what?)
beat up; feet are clamped in the mud
no one
fuck this damper wood i'm hunching over every day
you shouldn't feed me love 'cause i'll regurgitate it anyways
(anyways)

woodworks [prod. soloft]

featuring my dawg @homesick

[@sendflowrs:]
whats on ur mind?
whenever u talk
whenever u talk to me
cant help but lie
ur just a jester
laugh and smile at me
jus while i die
n my brain so fucked up
prozac helps me sleep
but i still cry 
whenever a memory comes to me i weep

i think my time is nigh
just let me out to dry
think ill pour another cup
or maybe roll n jus get high
n i been feelin hella fuzzy
u dont love me
need to lie
n i been screamin till my throat is sore
cant even say goodbye

[@homesick:]
say goodbye, goodbye
send me off n shut the lights off
i can't expect you to live with this
no i won't spell it out for you
it's all wrong
i can't try to replace this
but i can keep my distance
let the memories keep me jaded
take what you want, i'm reapin the product
i'm serving sets of the shit i got wrong
n shit i cant talk, what i never wanted            
back to that spot it's so cold there
im a shadow with a blank stare
old coat with that old tear
i got a new spot with some old fears

[@sendflowrs:]
whats on ur mind?
whenever u talk
whenever u talk to me
cant help but lie
ur just a jester
laugh and smile at me
jus while i die
n my brain so fucked up
prozac helps me sleep
but i still cry 
whenever a memory comes to me i weep

i think my time is nigh
just let me out to dry
think ill pour another cup
or maybe roll n jus get high
n i been feelin hella fuzzy
u dont love me
need to lie
n i been screamin till my throat is sore
cant even say goodbye

liar w/ homesick (addyexo)

you left me in the background
i really miss the past nowwwwoww
feel like ima black outttt
hopefully wont wake up when i pass outtt

whats the fuckin point of this
everything is pointless
everyones dissappointed

deaths no longer avoided
i welcome him with open arms
to take me to the void yuuuuhhhh


stabbed m e in the back again
everything u said was problematic
never rly cared enough 2 ask me how my day been
bad as shit
every single f unctions automatic 
everytime im smilin just know that i been fakin it

fake shit thats all u ever gave me
u would fuck wit all of my emotions on the daily
baby u were toxic thats all u ever were 2 me
thought that i was tripping but you really did me dirty
i see all the red flags
wish i saw em back then
u can keep my hoodies ion even want em back bitch  
only cared about the bag
all that u was chasin
wish it woulda worked out but that shit was makeshift
i been restless
cant sleep
all this fuckin weight on my chest i cant breathe
and the fuckin way that you left me with ease
made me really feel like im dying in peace
nah

you left me in the background
i really miss the past nowwwwoww
feel like ima black outttt
hopefully wont wake up when i pass outtt

whats the fuckin point of this
everything is pointless
everyones dissappointed

deaths no longer avoided
i welcome him with open arms
to take me to the void

restless II (metlast)

prod. metlast x sor
mix: me
master: teddyboi (@yoimn3ver)
art: my girlfriend <3

lyrics:

close, but i can’t finish it
just know, that i don’t wanna be close tonight
when im at home, i feel the pain sink in
bottle after bottle after bottle down my throat 

know, that i can’t let go, this simply
of something that took time to put together
but clearly these bonds have been severed

don’t get too close, you’ll let the pain in
frost lands on my nose, it’s come im shaking
she knows, that she shouldn’t get close
but it’s freezing 

3 in the morning
i should be sleeping but im not
this anxiety has got its grip on me
this is something you won’t see
cause you’re caught up in a dream
so far away from the disease
im begging im down im on my knees
for someone to save me
but no one’s here lately 

close, but i can’t finish it
just know, that i don’t wanna be close tonight
when im at home, i feel the pain sink in
bottle after bottle after bottle down my throat

know, that i can’t let go, this simply
of something that took time to put together
but clearly these bonds have been severed

don’t get too close, you’ll let the pain in
frost lands on my nose, it’s come im shaking
she knows, that she shouldn’t get close
but it’s freezing

now you see me
now you don’t
now i’m gone and missing
you shouldn’t have gotten close

close (metlast x sor)

prod. sunshowers

i cant see any how else
no way! :')
people tell me how else
how else?! ;(
to breathe, to live, to see,
my friend died last week.
i dont want no one, else
stay away!, stay away!,
theres something thats been off today..
im changing up my day-to-day,
in hope and search for better days.
i cant see any how else
no way.. !
people tell me how else

i know this isn't, and i know youre kidding
you took!,-
damn near everything i had to barely call myself
i cant stand myself! <3
drowning in myself! < / 3
I DONT NEED NO HELP!
thats what i told myse-e-elf. . ...

ǝslǝ ʍoɥ ǝɯ llǝʇ ǝsɐǝld
ǝslǝ ʍoɥ ʎuɐ ǝǝs ʇuɐɔ ᴉ
to get out of this mess,
to get out of my head,
i think i just need rest..

i cant see any how else
...
people tell me how else
...
to breathe, to live, to see,
my friend died last week. .

yh, yh,
get away, GET AWAY,
I really fucking h*te this place!
im changing up my day today,
and i know it wont change anything at all♡..
i try, i guess, but who am i?
fuck all the complications,
read the text, now my heart's racing!
hideaway, hideaway, yh :c
its time to question everything, yh!! ;c
dont turn back now,
you can slow down,
smoke that roach now,
blow that smoke out,
to clear my mind drought,
set the sun out..

i cant see any how else
no way! :')
people tell me how else
how else! ;(
to breathe, to live, to see,
my friend died last week.
i dont want no one, else
stay away, stay away,
theres something thats been off today
im changing up my day-to-day,
in hope and search for better days
no, way..

last week

halfhearted (https://soundcloud.com/user-642636378)
FøRD (https://soundcloud.com/breckenford)

Greenwood:
ice on my shit, when i'm stopping it
(burning cold when i hit)
i just left an ounce where my body is
(up inside of this bitch)
up inside my head as soon i'm clocking it
(clocking shit and i dip)
they won't find a reason, it ain't obvious 
i promise it

i call out in the snow
(somewhere to feel life)
i wonder where it goes
(someone to take mine)
i don't know if you know 
(fade in the foglight)
that we've been here before
something else gotta give i don't know why

FøRD:
seems like every day time slips 
saying mayday
lucky life I live if you say that then you don’t know me
cuz i deal with the phonies and the frauds on the daily
they make me an insomniac why everybody hate me
they act like they all want me but they really just betraying 

baby often makin me so silent make me shaky
I’m waitin while faded

the lights up in our basement 
still shaded but luckily it’s still vacant

so come down when u wasted
I’ll change it to that playlist 
I’ll wash away the parts that you invisioned would be painless
girl you make me so brain dead 
like grab another latex get in bed get undressed and then I’ll say what to do next

halfhearted:
who’s next in line
got me walking through a dream
i’m on ur mind
but it’s nothing like it seems

u pushing me so far
my heart been living on the brink
gotta shoulder full of scars
i think you like to watch me bleed

but i don’t got time for you

lay me deep down i’m dancing with the devil by myself
where to go now
i’m sick of knowing you won’t ever help
you’re not helping me

Greenwood:
up the dose, yeah i'm taking two
steady shifting, i feel it move
i was losing my mind in truth
i was hoping you'd see it too
i was hoping you'd wanna go
i was hoping you'd see the pain
i was broken you wouldn't know
but that don't mean it don't hurt the same
up inside of my room
fuck the job, i'm aloof
drink the pain on the roof
nothing helps, i'm the proof
nothing changes in oakwood
couldn't text back cause my phone fucked
no one here even knows us
like i'm not here to be social

restless II (metlast)

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