prod by marlon & jacob vallen

its hard to feel proud
wonder when i fell behind
i cant find a reason now
between the lines

need something i can lean on
just something for myself
people change, it seems im the only one that cant move on at all

sleep away my days, its got me feeling useless
theres alot to say, when i dont i feel like a nuisance 

sleep away i lay awake
don't follow me, my dream is fake
my blood still flows it circulates
clown on stage 

not everything revolves around you, its a hard truth to tell, all this circus has to end
i've been barely proud of myself, this is where i dwell, no more masks we used to lend
from now on it's only no repent, i just do my thing, then i got no one to blame
but in the end i did resent, think i didn't think, enough to see flames

proud w/ marlon

the fear was born in this house
so i need to leave it here
but i can’t get out
it’s weighing me down
the worst of it has me now

i’m begging just let me go outside
i’m making up reasons now
i’m so used to having a bad time
and now i can’t phase it out

i thought i’d feel better at home
and i thought that you knew me but maybe you don’t
the walls that surround me crush right to the bone
but i’ve been so weak maybe it was my fault

the fear was born in this house
so i need to leave it here
but i can’t get out
it’s weighing me down
the worst of it has me now

born in this house [neverforever]

My perfect victory (prod. sorrowbringer)

prod. ilyl1ght

lyrics:
Do you have something to say?
has there been anything new?
What goes on in your brain?
Do you only think about you?
I hardly know any of you
Who are these people? Who are you?

Oh i give up
Go do what you want
What did you say?
I wasn't listening :/

Oh i think that i'm overwhelmed
To many people around
Catch my breath i had to stop
oops i think i drifted off
I need nothing don't reach out
I got all this figured out
They all ask how have i been
Oh i'm okay don't ask again x2

overwhelmed

dont give up - corbin (cover)

Vails x Mackk - not so special
Prod. By Mackk
Vocals from vails 
Lyrics below:

You think of me special, but I ain’t shit
Got a lotta issues I can’t fix
Heart been cracked, yeah it’s got no stitch
Every time you love me, it just don’t stick

I been running from myself again
Tryna fake a smile, play pretend
You see gold where there’s rust and pain
You hold on tight, but I just can’t stay the same

Yeah yeah I break down when the world gets loud
Yeah yeah Smile on my face but I’m not proud
Yeah yeah I’m just a ghost in a fragile shell
Yeah yeah Been through heaven, but I stayed in hell

I been runnin’ from the pain I feel inside,
Smile on my face but it’s all a disguise,
Bottle it up, yeah, I keep it in tight,
Pray for the day that I’ll finally feel right

You see hope where I see my flaws,
I see cracks where you see no walls,
I keep falling no hands to hold,
Heart too numb, it’s already cold

It’s already cold it’s already cold
And now I’m freezing, now you’re leaving
Now I’m grieving baby why you leaving me 

You think of me special, but I ain’t shit
Got a lotta issues I can’t fix
Heart been cracked, yeah it’s got no stitch
Every time you love me, it just don’t stick

I been running from myself again
Tryna fake a smile, play pretend
You see gold where there’s rust and pain
You hold on tight, but I just can’t stay the same

#rap #melodic #vails

Not so special

let u go w/ yungcray (sorrowbringer x luffy)

lyrics ⬇️  

 I made this song on October 14th

its 2 am and you wont talk back
so how should i feel if you off of the map
tell me its real but see that its cap
i wanna walk with you 
for life you wanna take a nap
i got a solid scoop
you wanna lie and you wanna love
so i can’t rock wit you
even if its all that i got left
i tried to hike and it was a trek so it wasn’t worth the move
if its an emergency dial the number an ima put on my shoes
im gonna be there real soon
when i get there i hope ur not upset
i wanna share it with you no bunkbed
said youll be there but you want me to function
dont give a heads up act like its nothin
you couldn’t expect me to sit here breath girl cuz ima choke
you gon see you got ropes around my throat

no no dont remind me what you said
id rather take one to the chest
not a word of it made sense
maybe wed be better- better off as frie-

i couldnt even finish what i was gonna say
cuz it hurt my head too much i wish i could explain
ima keep on trying as long as i see a flame
i jus hate the option you wanna wash it down the drain
what could i say
i know its late
lemme explain
i dont wanna leave you but if u wanna go
lemme tell you everything you wanna know 
but you bolted on a heart of steel

when you touch me ill be colder than November feels
and i know that its been harder than you wanted
when we started i knew you were never honest
now were off it every night and every time i tty i feel like ima fold and die
maybe this all i wanted - its not
you said you were so exhausted 
i should drop
i would rather be alone than ever wanna hear you talk
if u jus gon give me all of that trash i would rather stop
i cannot rock wit no litter bug id rather date a rock. 🪨

litter bug (sk8miles)

lyrics

only thing i wanna buy is time
when i blow up, selling tickets for free like shots at the line
you dont wanna play those games no more and thats fine
baby imma be alright
its like you know im waiting for the end when you drive straight to my house and you lift me up
wonder how i made it to my house when im this fucked up
none of this shit was ever in the playbook but i cant take the bus
half the shit i do, the moms on facebook like "control your son"
but this is all of my doing
havent been inside of my head as of late but now im tryna move in
tryna move on if you standing in front of me get out my way
i got them waiting on the next track, dont know what imma say yet
been going to sleep so high i cant tell if im even awake yet
should be a picture perfect life, somebody smeared up the painting

jai's lyrics soon...

chrysalis w/ love jai (p. under the maple tree)

produced by s0ftskelet0ns, who killed this shit
mastered by ne'erdowell
for my brother myles, whom i love

lyrics

I got a friend and he doesn't take enough care of himself
He prays for an end and he bides all his time reprimanding himself 
and he pushes out the cravings of what he really needs
For the habit he built

And he thinks his times up

He thinks she was the one
But it's not worth dying for her
Or the image you had of it all
There's more to this world
Than a girl that you never knew.

Who gave you the idea 
that you're unfit for love my friend
I think I put 2 and 2 together 
they mentioned s&m
That shit was never love and a kid
should never bear these things 
Why you take it out on yourself
There was no winning this

Why do you resign yourself to this mess
Oh Myles you know better

If it feels like you're decaying 
Then the first step isn't praying
Take your foot out of the grave 
And punch the world back in the face
You need some good shit in ur brain
Like Vitamins and sunny days 
You need a proper bit of steak
And then some beers with proper mates 

Why do you insist
On letting this bitch win
Myles you know better

And it's not worth dying for her
Or the image you had of it all
There's more to this world 
Than a girl.

my brother myles (s0ftskelet0ns)

Vocals, Mix & Master by @solrisyours
Produced by qionxo
Released with safehaven.
Cover by Scarlet & @solrisyours
YouTube Video: 

lyrics:
bad for you
but i'm the only thing you got
i'm kinda sad for you
'cause you can't get a thing you want

felt it before, i said i love you still
ruined my life, it's like you love to kill
bury my body, all yours just for the thrill
stop, pause a minute, don't leave me until you've had your fill

bad for you
but i'm the only thing you got
i'm kinda sad for you
'cause you can't get a thing you want

solr - bad for you (qionxo)

@blondelittleangel my music
23, transfem, gynesexual
content creator / drone artist
safe space.

solr - bad for you (qionxo)

safehaven.

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