Demos/ One-takes

Untitled - 21:11:16, 2.56 AM

Tell me if i’m guessing wrong
Tell me if i’m getting at the wrong thing
If i’m being too presumptuous
Was there ever even an us to start with

Tell me if i’m being rude
But yes i’m accusing you of using 
Me and my body
You just needed somebody
to hold at night when you were lonely

Yeah we all get lonely sometimes 
but it’s not right to cross that line 
To give a girl mixed signals
Loving doesn’t come with a deadline
Yeah i thought we were so fine
What happened here

Made me think that it was me
Thought that i was safe for once
In you i trusted i can’t believe
Left me shaken left me weak
Been hurt before but didn’t think come from you

But baby now i see
That i’m not unloveable
don’t have some kind of deformity
The problem lies with you
And so i hope you get through
Whatever left you broken bruised and so confused
So i wish you well and know we’re all good

Travel Diaries #31 (perth) - 21:11:16

@samantharui
@Thezadon

© Zadon & Sam Rui 2017

Right Now (ft. Sam Rui)

you and my baby got too much under the water
go around in circles never talk bout what we ought to
string me up hang me dry
use me just to keep you warm another night

i've been thinking bout it i've had time to myself lately
don't make any sense or fit right when you call me baby
know you got another girl
we in bed together but your mind's on her

baby i don't love you when you're not sober
baby you don't know where you do me wrong
when you're not sober

i can't have you lie to me i know your heart has wandered
to another woman but you keep me close for comfort
lie to me to keep me close
scared of facing the the unknown when i'm not yours

Travel Diaries #3 (soberinsydey) 12:11:17

Travel Diary #17 (HK)- youdontcallanymore.mp3

so you say to me
that you down that you for me 
not a part of your game
that you in it you steady i'm stuck on your brain

why you say to me
that our loving is true 
it get to you good
that for all that its not 
its me you're into

baby tell me what i need to know
if you gotta break me down why you do it slow
why you gotta pull me into you so close
if you gotta break my heart don't do it slow

i remember that yesterday
all easy we fine nothing to complicate
you confess that its hard but through it you stay
but you were faking it overtime
rob me of my pride
you make me feel that you was never mine
that you were never mine

why you gotta be so hard to hold
baby let me know when you became so cold
why you gotta keep me under let me go
if you gotta break me down don't do it slow
don't do it slow

Demo: Things Have Changed (Prod. Rish)

Love, come back to me
Disguised as a full bodied bloom 
In the heart of the city 
But I, it would be foolish of me to believe 
That flowers
Grow strong in concreted walls

Tell me I'm wrong 
Tell me that 
I'm being cynical
Bad things don't last for so long
Name me a song 
That hasn't come out of heartbreak 
So I'll drop my wall

But for now
I acknowledge that I'm alone 
I believed once 
Now I don't know 
About love
Somebody teach me again

Voicenotes#2 (don't know about love) 08:02:18

Voicenotes#1 - only when it's easy

Voicenotes#1 - you hurt me too

I Want Love (demo) 
beat by yusei: https://www.instagram.com/yuseiworld/

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lyrics:
tell me what u mean by you can’t do this no more
tell me what you mean by that 
cos it’s barely been 4 days 
since the night at your place
when i asked
u sure u wanna fuck right now?
u sure u really down right now?

tell me what u mean suddenly you all guilty
baby where’d that come from
you don’t want me?
now that you’ve gotten it don’t want no more
all that i was to you some foreign score  

every time
i’m a late night comfort
after summer gone
nobody call back no
nobody stay round 
so it 

it brings me down that i want love
there's no one around to really love
and it gets so very lonely 
looking for somebody i can trust
yeah it bring me down
that i want love 

i’d be lying if i said 
that i aint been stressing it
over and over
baby trying to pretend
that it aint mean nothing but
why’s this keep happening to a good girl like me?
 
guess i’m the root of the problem
write all these songs cos i’m trying to solve them
and if i’m being honest 
it aint about
this boy or that one
its i don’t know what i really want
so it

it brings me down that i want love
keep looking around cos i don’t love
me for who i am right now
if i fix that then i might just, yeah
not anymore
i look for love

it's bringing me down that i want love
i keep looking around cos i don't love
me for who i am right now
if i fix that then i might just
not anymore
i look for love

i want love (demo)

you taking all these pictures
don’t wanna see you with her baby
abercrombie fitch shirt
remember that i bought that baby
难道你不觉得羞耻
在我面前, 当众以及, 你这样子
甚至一周都还没过

so tell me why you do that
因为我还是忘不了你
最近这黑暗，有多么痛
连一句话都没有说
你已经踏着脚步，开始离开我 
诉说我哪里不够
你要分开的理由

i would have loved you better 
过一会儿你就看得出 
yeah we belong together
比不上你和我的相处
独一的爱
无二我们一样完善的一牌    
能不能绕我的身边回来
 
－

i hope that whenever you’re with her
taking her to coffee and dinner
somebody walks in wearing something that i would have
and now its just me you be thinking of
我们的历史
she doesn’t know bout it
现在我必知的就是
if you still keep our photographs on your bedside
午夜之后想着你 sleepless all night 

i would have loved u better 
为什么你不能看得出
yeah we belong together
她比不上你和我的相处
独一的爱
无二我们一样完善的一牌    
能不能绕我的身边回来

我忍不住 this baby
能不能绕我的身边回来
受不了看你们在一起
能不能绕我的身边回来 

you posting all these pictures
of you and her together
so i can’t help but wonder how you are
do you miss us like i do
i would’ve held my loving back if i had knew
I’m looking at your photo right now

照片 (demo2) - 11:12:18, 3.02 AM

do u think that maybe we could work it out
hang out on a thursday night 
go somewhere she aint hanging round
get u to my ownsome
swear that i aint usually like this
not the kinda girl to have a motive
baby could u stay a while?
baby could you stay a -

don’t stress about the cab fare 
(fuck all this traffic)
didn’t bring your card out
(it’s cool you know i’m good for it)
all u gotta do is tell me
that u want it too
and i’ll cover you
whatever the weather
if its gonna be me you, together
i don’t care how cold it gets
freeze to death with no regrets so

do u think that maybe we could work it out
hang out on a friday night 
get drunk while she be out of town
get u to my ownsome
swear that i aint usually like this
not the kinda girl to have a motive
i want you to stay a while
baby could you stay a -

why you gotta have a girlfriend
(man, why's it always gotta be complicated)
and on top of that go do that to me
gonna keep me guessing 
stop it with ur 어장관리 
what exactly am i to you? 
cos i might have fallen and i can’t lie 

baby i want you and i to work it out 
hang out ever day now 
cos i wanna but still haven’t found
anybody like you
swear that i aint usually like this
not the kinda girl to have a motive (but)
i want you to stay a while?
baby could you stay a -

6am in Seoul: Stay a While (demo)

baby i ain't proud of what I’m feeling right now
say you got a lot that you can’t deal with right now
and its only me you can turn to
only me you go to
when you get like this i never learn
like a stray dog biting
can never seem to let it go so why then
sacrifice me
i bear your cross when you ask
i steer your course so you don’t crash and burn
i never turn my back on you
cos you’re getting old and 
still living lonely stranded 
hunchbacked on a cold shore

part of my future i won’t have
angel above lost in the sand
i’d give up my youth to bring to you back to life
now a dead man walking 
the man i love
who i loved

dead man walking (freestyle)

歌词：

guess we’ll never be more than friends
so i accept my fate
in loving a boy that i can’t have
and to suffer every day 
to go out with you to dinner
dressed in that killer 
outfit that i hate 
cos it brings out the way that your eyes glimmer
when your beanie’s on that way

what i’m trying to say
is that i’m cool with our deal
at least i get to see you
and at most lock up my feels
on account of the fact
you don’t see me the way i do
i’m fine if we’re just friends forever
see your point of view

世界为什么只对着我有恨?
舍不得我快乐 
怕我快就变成个
心里怀着醋的单身狗
无运能够找到个真正永存的爱火

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继续这样想着你
到底为我有什么效益?
落进这一阵的折磨 
是我自认的错
never be able to give me more
因该把这痴情所扑落
怜悯这个无助多可怜的我

世界为什么只对着我过分?
难道我不值得？
难道我的确是个
不许得到爱的一个单身狗
怕我整一辈子必须 
spend my whole life alone

单身狗 （single dog）

i been thinking bout you late night
새벽까지 여전히 잘수 없어
움직이지 않았던 내 맘이
갑자기 복잡해 졌어  

또 물어봐, 난 왜 이래?
널 볼때마다 난 무너져 
like I didn't already know you
but now suddenly I'm losing my cool

그때 지금까지 똑같은 너
(yeah no doubt, you're still)
스타일 바꿔 머리 잘랐도
네 매력적인 미소와 네 목소리 (yeah)
feeling so out of it one look at you and my vision’s blurry
자꾸 궁금하지만 난 몰라요

only friends that’s howwe identify
how’d that change for meyeah overnight?
friends never lovers 
혼자서 i suffer
over you, wanting you
what should i do?
(mm yeah baby what should i do?)

yeah you got me like
what the fuck is this feeling
can’t fight it
끊으려고 했지만 아직 이 느낌이 남아 woah
어떡해 풀어할까? 
우린 형제 듯이니까 
but i can’t see you like that anymore no
아무리 답답해도 이젠
i’m gonna keep my distance so then
더 깊게 떨어지지 않을거야
(이게) 확실한 말한다고 말야 

why’s it you and not a stranger? why
not even that good looking
but  guess u cute when u fooling round
why’s it you of everybody? why
too close for comfort
oh baby why?

think i’m in love with my best friend
tried to but i can’t pretend
that you aint the one i want
i’ve fallen hard for my best friend
tried to but i can’t pretend
that you aint the one i want

cos we’re only friends that’s how we identify
how’d that change for meyeah overnight
friends never lovers 
혼자서 i suffer
over you, wanting you
what should i do

**sorry for the konglish and the mixing that bass was v hard to tame

always in the mood 4 u (demo)

IamSamRui (voicenotes/ drafts/ travel diaries):
https://soundcloud.com/iamsamrui

samantharui@hotmail.com