Cry Baby Mix

In The Dark

In The Dark prod. By Matthew Paul May

Okra II Feat. Mike Clappas

Music and visual art I made. Lyrics: 

audrey, haunts me, in my dreams
thought you cared, so it seemed
for your touch i still feind
emotional bout everything
i gave you what you wanted n you left me in the dust
this is probly why i have issues with trust
this is probly why i abuse all these drugs
this is just the stupid things we do for love 
this means something if they hate it 
never thought i'd become jaded 
tell me please why did you fake it
was it somethin i was saying
back in highschool
i thought I was cool
i know i'm a fool
to you just a tool
i can't love you cause you don't respect me
regardless of how you so sexy
i can't text you if you don't text me 
but i still do, a lover that's me
why do you treat me 
like a piece of meat
why do you treat me 
like a piece of meat
audrey, haunts me, in my dreams
thought you cared, so it seemed
for your touch i still feind
emotional about everything

(mp4(og))AUDREY HAUNTS ME IN MY DREAMS (PROD. GRIM JONES)

AUDREY HAUNTS ME IN MY DREAMS (PROD. GRIM JONES)

Gospel/Soul I love the Lord and I always will no matter who or what we are God is working on your behalf. Let folks talk . You just see God moving in your life,and thank him.

THIS IS MY HEARTFELT PRAISE

The hardest thing is to live peacefully in the present without letting it be tainted out of fear for the future or regret for the past

Time

Music Video:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wa374RnImiw

Lyrics:
Fuck you all
I see right through you
Your fucking facade
Just smile and lie to me
Say that you care
Say that you'll be my friend
But I know you're fake
I know you lie
Because you're normal
You lived a happy life
Free from pain and suffering
Why would you help someone like me?
What good will it do you?
Fucking selfish animals

Fuck you all
Fuck you

I see them all
With their friends and families
Lovers holding hands
Enjoying the time they have on this earth
Without a single care in the world
They know not misery
They've never known depression
What it feels like to be alone
I see them all
Blind sheep following a fantasy
Their lives are but a dream
From which they shall never awake

A distorted Nihilistic Reality

Humans Are Shit

I was never able to live
I could never be happy
I can't even do the things I love
There's never any time
Because my time is always taken away from me
The years I've spent on this earth
This life that I've lived
I was never allowed to enjoy it
All the ideas
All the plans for the future
I was so smart
And yet I ended up here
I wanted to be something
I wanted to do something with my life
But I can't even get out of here
I'm stuck in this place
Everyone else has a life
Everyone I knew moved on
And I'm left behind
Struggling and not able to change my situation
I've always been held back
I could've had a happy life
With friends and someone to love
But they all forgot me
Like I was nothing
Nothing
Nothing but a failure

A Distorted Nihilistic Reality

Failure

There's no meaning to this
This life of sorrow and disappointment
Failure is all I know
Because no matter how hard I try
I can't change my situation
There's no way out
All my efforts
All of the work I do everyday
Is gone to waste
It was never enough
I was never enough and never will be
The sadness I feel in this solitude
Is unescapable
I live in this never ending cycle
This endless struggle that drains my life away
All of my peace, all of my joy
Sucked right out of me
Why do I still give?
Why do I still try?
If I get nothing out of it
If I don't even feel alive
What's the point of living?

Pointless Struggles

Credits: Music Production by Thomas Crager & Zukuu

Lyrics
Verse 1:

At first, I thought that you could be 
My baby
But I never thought
That I would be wrong
Funny how time
Could change my mind

Was I silly to believe you were the answer
To all of my dreams
Romantically 
wanted to be
All that you need

But, I 
Was not enough for you, 
Had your cake and ate it too
While I listened to your lie, lie, lies
Now, boy
I’ll teach you not to toy around
You thought that you can clown around 
So baby bye, bye, bye

Chorus:
You must be high as a mother fucker

I don’t get got (4x)

Must have twisted with them niggas

Cuz I don’t get got 

Verse 2:

You say that you don’t see us as a couple
Before Valentine’s
So effortlessly 
I couldn’t believe
You did that to me

So, then naturally I crawled into withdrawal 
To hide from the world
To gather my thoughts
Regain my composure, ‘fore I go off

But, I should of known it from the start
You’d go and break my heart
now baby, baby why, why, why
(Would you)
play a game all in my name
this wins for me to claim
game over, baby bye bye bye

Chorus:
You must be high as a mother fucker

I don’t get got (4x)

Must have twisted wit them niggas

Cuz I don’t get got 


Breakdown:

No, no, no (3x)
 
Chorus 2x:

Pointless Struggles

Santito Part II