angelsflyaway ft alphie

the worthless

uncertain

the water

is rising



im choking

help me

i dont know how much more i can take



oh what a beautiful night it is

the wind is howling at my skin

inching me closer to the window

and im not scared at all



a walking corpse

cleanse my soul

rid me of all my impurities



or let me rot

6 feet deep

either ways fine with me





i gave the world my heart and all i have to show for it are scars and nightmares



and i always think about how fucked up it is that we live our whole lives trying to please others



but we can never please ourselves 



day after day

night after night

its just never enough and it will never be enough



now everyday i just sit in this bed and feel sorry for myself and the cycle repeats like clockwork



years to months to days to hours to minutes to seconds



and i swear the only way out of this prison i put myself in is a bullet to my fucking head or a bottle of spilt pills



i need to learn

to just to give in

theres no point in fighting it anymore

i gave the world my heart and all i have to show for it are scars and nightmares

prod @4evrgone i jus added sum bass <3

found myself so thin
downing bottles again
I don't care what you did
just wanna distance myself

from the old bleeding well
from those posts seeking help
know I can't accept shit 
so just go on without me

just get on without me 
know it won't be harming 
know you won't be hurting 
from much that's been haunting me

and that's fine

leave it up to me 
let me fucking bleed 
let me stay 
x3 

it never really mattered anyway

it never really mattered anyway prod. 4evr

prod. @tothegood

LYRICS:

...and I've been feeling worse as each day passes by
Got lost in my head, couldn't stop questioning why
Trying to fill the holes of this existence
How did this story start? Where does it end?

God slammed the door on me again
I banged on it and begged "please let me in"
The universe is such a fucked up place
It slammed its door right in my face
x2

and I've been feeling numb as the weeks pass by me
I'm thinking that this hole's too deep to dig out of
Will anybody help me square this circle?
Fuck my life, I even ditched the dress rehearsal

I'm trying to find the meaning for why my heart is beating
Still searching for the reason as to why I'm even breathing

God slammed the door on me again
I banged on it and begged "please let me in"
The universe is such a fucked up place
It slammed its door right in my face
x2

and I've been feeling worse as each day passes by
Got lost in my head, couldn't stop questioning why
Trying to fill the holes of this existence
Am I the only one here who thinks that none of this makes sense?

Help me understand my purpose
and everything that led me to be here
I lie awake and wonder if any of this matters...

I DM'd God and got left on seen (prod. tothegood)

Production: me :)
Vocals: @lilxlotus
art: https://twitter.com/lexijohnstonx
Lyrics

I don't think that i'll be fine and I can't do this
It's a struggle every night just to get through it

Look me straight in the eye, am I just wasting my time?
You had me waiting for hours and promised this wasn't good bye
And i'm not feeling alright, but you swear i'll be fine
It makes me sick to my stomach, I can't get you out of my mind
I cant get you out of my mind
My mind
My mind
It makes me sick to my stomach, I cant get you out of my mind

Look me straight in the eye (I don't think that i'll be fine and I cant do this), am I just wasting my time?
You had me waiting for hours (Its a struggle every night just to get through it) and promised this wasn't good bye
And i'm not feeling alright (I don't think that i'll be fine and I cant do this), but you swear i'll be fine
It makes me sick to my stomach (Its a struggle every night just to get through it) I cant get you out of mind
I cant get you out of mind

(look me straight in the eye, am I just wasting my time?)
My mind
(You had me waiting for hours and promised this wasn't good bye)
My mind, makes me sick to my stomach I cant get you out of my mind

And i'm not feeling alright, but you swear i'll be fine
It makes me sick to my stomach, I cant get you out of my mind
I cant get you out of my mind
My mind
My mind
My mind
It makes me sick to my stomach, I cant get you out of my mind

Out Of My Mind (ft. Lil Lotus)

everyone sucks except for u

i make everything about me (feat. thebreathingbackwards) [prod. brody]

I don’t wanna talk talk talk
I’ve been getting bands on my own
I’ve been on the road all day long
I don’t wanna do this no more

I don’t wanna talk talk talk
I’ve been getting bands on my own
I look at the mud like my home
I don’t wanna do that no more

I been dippin in and out
This bag like all day
Surprised I didn’t OD
I know that’s fucked up
Sometimes wish that it was me
And that he woke up
To be honest I’m just
tryina keep my chin up
Otherwise the waves will cast another fossil
Otherwise I’ll end how I never want to
Feel the pressure getting stronger
But I have to
I’ve been going thru it all
Because I have to

Because I have to
Because I have to
I’ve been going thru it all 
Because I have to

I’ve been getting bands on my own
I’ve been on the road all day long
I don’t wanna do this no more

I don’t wanna talk talk talk
I’ve been getting bands on my own
I look at the mud like my home
I don’t wanna do that no more

Because I have to
Because I have to
I’ve been going thru it all
Because I have to

93FEETOFSMOKE - thru it all (prod. Reaper)

rip me open w/ shinigami & 93FEETOFSMOKE

prod/recorded/engineered by me

s/o @daine-lauren for guitar inspo <3

how many days have passed?

so many days that passed
couldnt do a fuckin thing
sit in bed, roll a blunt, think of who i need to be

gotta smoke at least a gram a day to keep my mind straight
guilty pleasures, true love
fightin for my heartache

but ur the only one that has my heart
i never meant to break what we had built

i wish i knew the things i have to say
to even up the score and get u to stay with me for another night

but im the only one there is to blame
u dont need to change a fucking thing
baby girl i know it aint the same
but ur in my heart forever

cant even help
but feel like ill fuck it up today
and u dont see
that my minds all over the place

it aint enough
yeah ur hearts for the latter
fucked up
nothing else even matters

lost in my head
lost ur love
im movin on with that

just addin weight 
to my shoulders
straighten out my back

it aint enough
and ur hearts been shattered
fucked up
nothing else even matters

how many times i told you
that the doors right over there?
gave u signs that u ignored
now u pullin out ur hair

yeah its my fault
my fault
dont put no blame upon urself
too far gone
a lost cause
ill keep them pictures on my shelf

cuz ur the only one that has my heart
i never meant to break what we had built
i wish i knew the things id have to say
to even up the score and get you to stay with me for another night

im the only one there is to blame
u dont need to change a fucking thing
ur perfect in every way
i hope that u realize that someday

youre too good for me
and now ur leaving
keep runnin away
til u stop bleedin
ill be here for you
whenever u need it
you can come back to me
if u ever needed

cant even help
but feel like ill fuck it up today
and u dont see
that my minds all over the place

it aint enough
yeah ur hearts for the latter
fucked up
nothing else even matters

Follow me <3

leaving

prod. @ghostrage
mix/master @93feetofsmoke

oh hey, miss ur face
life been throwing fades
shadows on the lake 
oh hey, i'm not okay
sup like hows your day?
yeah i'm doin great
x2

In the back of your thoughts
like the ghost in your hall
I’m the first one to leave
You’re the first one to call 
Hope that table is gone
The initials moved on
you keep friends for a week
Guess a month was too long 

I bite down on my tongue 
u always temperamental 
Scratchin thru my schedule 
room never presidential 
Tell myself to move on 
Stop being sentimental 
back to dabs and liquor 
whipping tracks and rentals 

say its kool 
But its not 
Not the type
to stir the pot
Leave the past 
Dead to rot 
You’ve proven that it’s not worth it 

Ok kool 
Oh wait nah 
fisticuffs 
On the block
Quick to aim
Quick to jump 
Still the same 
you’re still not

oh hey, miss ur face
life been throwing fades
shadows on the lake 
oh hey, i'm not okay
sup like hows your day?
yeah i'm doin great
x2

I bite down on my tongue 
ur always temperamental 
Scratchin thru my. schedule 
room never presidential 
Tell myself to move on 
Stop being sentimental 
back to dabs and liquor 
back to whipping tracks and rentals 
 
say its kool 
But its not 
Not the type
to stir the pot
Leave the past 
Dead to rot 
You’ve proven that it’s not worth it 

ok kool 
Oh wait nah 
fisticuffs 
On the block
Quick to aim
Quick to jump 
Still the same 
you’re still not

oh hey, miss ur face (prod. Ghostrage)

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