all guitar & vox by me
this was made in a rly short time lol

lyrics:

look at that, blood leaking down my arms again
can’t eat, all these words are fucking with my head
i feel sick, not doing better
to your hands, heartstrings are tethered 
tired of the rainy weather, can’t get out my fucking message 

useless, can’t fix it
i’m fucking pathetic
don’t ask me to do shit,
i’ll tell you ‘forget it,’
i’m tired of breathing,
the toxic waste inside the air
i cannot be me, 
i’m breaking down & no one cares

words on the walls, they still speak to me softly
wrap around my feet, then they wrap around my body
letting go of everything i’ve ever known, ever known
wanna leave the world, i’ve got nowhere to go

It's fine, whatever

forgiveness funeral - Self destruction

ty for 4k listens <3 pls listen on spotify too https://open.spotify.com/album/0Zu1TMGY256iat7o8KzQDF?si=svEpCWrKQpmFG-wHON6KPQ

based on the anime "our dating story"
prod me

cant do what i want to do
i might die today
ill try not to lose my sanity
from the way u move
and the way u talk to those other dudes
and i hate myself
i wanna kill me too
and everyday we talk
i fear were ending soon
cos i noticed u started distancing
and i knew with time
you'd eventually leave me

im such a jealous loser
im such a jealous loser
im such a jealous loser
im such a jealous loser
x2

cant do what i want to do
i might die today
ill try not to lose my sanity
from the way u move
and the way u talk to those other dudes
and i hate myself
i wanna kill me too
and everyday we talk
i fear were ending soon

jealous loser

You said that you'd never forget me
"Make sure that you never come back to me
Because that's what you need, so"
I guess i don't mind that.
Never mind that
I Never stop that
You never stop shit, but you say you stopped that
Did i get that? "Did you get that?" I've been hearing you, I don't wanna get that.

i forced myself to say bad things just so she could move on
Do i regret it?
Yes baby, I already dread it
I-I always wanna see you smile, so I'll go and make you hate my guts
Cause, I know you'll come back
You've always been silly like that.

You've been gone so long, I miss your face
I've been tryna clean the blood up, but there's still a trace
You don't know me.
You don't know that.
All this fucking dumb shit you don't get that.

You've always made me feel so good, i cant explain it.
You can paint me as the asshole ,
If that means you can get better.

I hate it, its always in my mind
always replaying thoughts that i cant make you mine.

Want it all to stop-stop
Never wanna talk-talk
Crying alone at night cause you never give a fuck
"You're annoying." Trust i get that "Disappointing." I already know that-that
I can't stand, when you talk, when you lie, its always in my mind

I'll confess cause you're not around that i made you hate my guts
At least at the end.
Always wanted more than friends
So i guess it sucks i had to take another step

Hurt me just so you could get better.

being over obsessive and dependant ruined my life

i dont feel happy no more
i want my wings to swore
look at you look at him 
this life seems so brim
do you wanna be with me  we can go A cross the 
do you want to be with ,e 2x
hold my hand thru the dark
tell me what i did wrong
tell me what i did wrong
my body not that strong
i dont feel happy no more
i feel like my wings are torn
look you look at him 
your life seems so bring
my soul could just be yours
i could be yours 2x

do you want to be with mev2 master

@bloodsekai

bites on my neck
i'm coming home with bruises
parents wanna yell
i wanna be secluded
razor on the shelf
it's looking pretty useless
i'm already hurt enough
i'm just another nuisance
the silence in my room is way too loud
my thoughts come in and break me up and down
i'm just another nuisance
with her hands behind her back
all the confidence i lack
broke ur definition of "wack"
take me back to yesterday

bloodsekai .. just another nuisance demo

woke up on saturday
to a kick right in the face
i have to work in minimum wage
i shouldnt have to work today
because i wanna stay online
i know that i should really get a life
i wont

spend my days on the internet
i fell happy when im isolated

i wont go outside
ill just stay inside
i wont go outside
ill just stay inside

spending my days on the internet

(odihu)
scars on my wrist as a beg for help 
im throwing my notes in a wishing well
hope that i die and i go to hell
i know i deserve it who am i to tell

take the life in me away
kill me now cut off my days

(yuki)
rlly in a bad mood
shoot my face
stuck inside dis classroom
im a disgrace
promised that id @ u n we can play
but im jus havin a rlly shitty day

scars on my wrist
heart's a constant abyss
no dopamine
no signs of bliss
no hand to hold no lips to kiss
im so deprived of everythin
x2

throwing my notes in a wishing well w yuki

https://open.spotify.com/track/1NCucKNiA95f9yxt28FqpH?si=90441ae34bbe46b5
prod. deathsuppressant
lyrics:

you hate me
i dont know why
ive asked you like 1000 times
i just dont wanna be despised
and attacked for the things i like </3

i will be dead
alone inside of my bed
youll never see me again 
and it makes me so happy happy!
im so upset
because you want me dead
your hatred needs some rest
i dont know what i did
but im so sorry
im so alone
nobody hits my phone
your love is a hoax
it doesn't make me happy happy :<
i will be dead
alone inside of my bed
youll never see me again
and it makes me so happy happy!

i really miss your touch
is it love or lust?
every time my name is brought up you have a fuss
you tell your friends im dumb
when you see me you throw up
and i dont know how that is
cause we used to be in love!

like what the fuck did i do?
you said you love me 
thats a fluke
your a batshit crazy bitch
what the fuck did i get into?

no friends i need some buddies
when you notice me
i feel lucky

i just want a simple hi.
talk one time then say goodbye
i just want another life
dont bother me when im with my knife

cut ,cut, cut

i feel like im not enough.

i know you wanna spill my blood :/

so do it slowly

i will be dead
alone inside of my bed
youll never see me again
and it makes me so happy happy!
im so upset
because you want me dead
your hatred needs some rest
i dont know what i did
but im so sorry
im so alone
nobody hits my phone
your love is a hoax
it doesn't make me happy happy :<
i will be dead
alone inside of my bed
youll never see me again
and it makes me so happy happy!

why arent i happy happy? (p. deathsuppressant)

that girl is pretty
i hope she likes
but deep in my heart
im scared to approach her
i wanna get to know her

i just cannot bring myself to ask her out
i dont have the guts
but i dont want her with no one else
i wanna give her a ring
im sacred of rejection

will you take my hand
and live with me forever?
and forever?

youll stay right by me

forgiveness funeral - Self destruction

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