I (H)ate my ex

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produced by crayon
mixed by crayon
mastering by crayon

no fun
no fucks
you did me bad
i dont wanna know why you came back
can we just forget each other
sorry right to my mother 
i failed my life
failed my life

can we just forget each other 
sorry right to my mother
i failed my life
failed my life

can we just forget each other

sorry this is too much

mix and beat w/ @blurxy

u tell me to scream
but i dont want to shout
got my head spinning
and the voice
is getting loud
and i cant take it
cant take anymore
i cant take it no more

october lies with u - i cant take it

@six-days-after-christmas
@i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later

i cant stand my skin 
i fell in love with lynn
i noticed that she was right
noticed that she was right
dont know where begin 
im cursed with your sin oh i am
just about to burn 
just about to burn

stop cursing me

@ankleankle
@six-days-after-christmas
@i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later

i guess every time you close your eyes
you see me standing right beside you
brush your hair from morning on
wipe your skin til your tears are gone
i guess everyone just fucking hates you
shattered words will end and break you
cry to me while you sing along
look at me while you get it wrong

say what you said i heard you
i known you for a long time so i cant hurt you
and i dont want you feeling like im not okay
i tried to leave but not again
looking at the ceiling of my room
im pondering im missing you
thinking of our conversations
i cant even think of things to do
you wanted me to stay but i dont wanna see it through
rather be by myself but everytime i close my eyes im seeing you

close your eyes w ankle

all by me

lyrics:

my memory fades
i wish that i changed
pls don't go away
pls don't go away
in the bush she lay
all it happened same day
i think that i'm fake
i think that i'm fake
i'm so fake
i'm so fake

if i was perfect - think i'm fake

5/18/2024 3:38 AM

i dont wanna let u down
in this vacuum theres no sound
feed my self into the hounds
can we kiss and make it 
loud?

stab me with ur knife
stomache bleeds all night
take my life just twice
velvet tears and
why?

and white

if i was perfect - cry like velvet

https://soundcloud.com/keshibeats/bandaids not prod me

made this cuz im sad

u shouldve told me...
idk what to say
why are u sorry ?
how did things get this way ?
my heart is broken
down to the core
this is not what i wanted...
idk what i want anymore

im afraid the bandaids
are no good
for heartache

not okay...
so tell me
when ur world comes crashing down

if i was perfect - why are you sorry?

prod ratatooulie or however u spell it im not french

i just want you to me
nobody else

let go my secrets
i loved you since 12

look at my face
and show me ur hate

say it for once
and i'll leave u away

if i was perfect - from me, to you </3

i tasted your razor blades
i hope these words cut deep
cause you’re not subject to change

you’re such a
evil conniving lil slut
i hope they rip out your guts
i hope you go grab that pistol and turn your brains into mush

you whore

i hope you’re somewhere just rotting
in my mind i’m fantasizing 
me in the woods really quiet
waiting for you in the silence
so i could rip all the skin from your body

you’re undeserving of love
you shake my bones with disgust
i swear i’ll catch you don’t run
and stab you until you gush

such a whore

@i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later

makeup smeared on your face
you cant tell me what you think of me
no its not a mistake
girl you fucked up now youre dead to me
got no empathy
i didnt think you would but thats okay cuz
anything you say
doesnt mean shit

i cant get you out my head
you would rather see me dead

makeup smeared on your face
you cant tell me what you think of me
no its not a mistake
girl you fucked up now youre dead to me
got no empathy
i didnt think you would but thats okay cuz
anything you say
doesnt mean shit

makeup

out of the mental hospital

Prod @mbrksht
mixed and mastered by me 

Lyrics: 



How's it my fault?
Things you did I couldn't imagine
Now I want to see you rot
You don't even know

How your shitty words just break me
And your words moving like it's 8D
Hate the thought of you just Tryna play me
What the fuck

I don't even know what you really want from me
Better tie me down or you will see
DEATH DEATH
My intrusive thoughts want to see you bleed
Do you feel the weight of jealousy?

When tongues are tied to fallacies
Did you know I want to see? ROTT
ROTT

YOU ROTT
YOU ROTT
ROTT YOU ROTT
ROTT

CAN YOU ROTT?
Girl, I'm tired of all the acting
You putting that shit in the past tense
Even though all your points were clear

A mistake my dear
left my patience here
Am I what you fear?
So, please can you let go?

Can you let go
Watch your blood paint on the floor
Look you in the eyes, you dirty whore
You're so helpless, you can't run no more

How could you think that you played me?
How could you say that you made me?
Feelings that are overtaking 
Can you just let go?

How's it my fault?
Things you did I couldn't imagine
Now I want to see you rot
You don't even know

How your shitty words just break me
And your words moving like it's 8D
I hate the thought of you just tryna play me
What the fuck

What the fuck
I don't even know what you really want from me
Better tie me down or you will see
My intrusive thoughts want to see you bleed

Do you feel the weight of jealousy?
your tongue is tied to fallacies 
This is why I want you to rot

october lies with u - i cant take it

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