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NOVEMBER 1ST

She (H)ate me

🌧️ 🍁

star67 - i think i hate every1

(lyrics 🎭)
sippin out the solo
feel like a zombie
by myself im solo
no one to help me
shawty came from tokyo
look like a barbie
these drugs got me so low
im out my body
keep my circle small 
don’t trust no one
anger issues
got a lot of em
but she left my heart frozen x2

solo.wav 🎭 🎸 (kxquartz) *all plats*

dont cry
ur only made of plastic
ive tried
2 be more than a hasbeen
u walked
somewhere far from home
with ur own two feet
nd now yr all alone
you were the wind inbetween my stretch
oh id cry how i lost my breath
every second i have left
ill spend clawing at my chest

third take
rip my eardrums out
ive been tryin to sleep
but the voices are loud
every day i shall weep
till my eyes are a drought
every minute ive lived, is a moment in doubt, i swear

i didnt ask to be this way

i wanna wear ur skin, leave ur blood inside a flask
i wish i was a witch, i could make u come back

i'm not alex g, and ur not sarah

@menthol100s cover

just ten toes can't avert my obsession
you are my one and only possession
fill the void in my chest that you left since
all i have is a hole in my heaven

living in ur shadow

w/ @i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later
ya

@i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later
im looking at her 
i told her im ok
i told her im ok 
but im really not 
im taking it slow 
im thinking about those days
im thinking bout those days 
where everything was 
the same and boring 
the raining was pouring down
on my roof 
the stars wouldnt shine as bright as u

me
all i saw
was you at the table
i asked if you're abl
to talk to me again
you said im busy
and to leave u alone
i left feeling sickly
with nobody on my phone

those days

concept sorry if its shit

i cant write my thoughts
everythings not pretty enough for you to hear
i wish this wasnt so severe
how did u take the fall
did it evne affect u at all
now im sounding obsessed 
and of all
i cant jhust send u a text cant give u a call
 
she sold my high
to some dumb guy
still dread that night
where u said its fine
\

i wish this wasnt so severe

oh darling now your gone 
ik u feel complete and im no fun
im no fun 
but darling now ur gone 
i look at all the photos feeling dumb 
im so dumb 


remember was the first time i saw you 
your face glowed bright and i couldnt aproach u 
i still feel numb from the words that u told boo
and i dont know how i really still love u 

the things u said to me girl they hurt

now you're gone

six days after christmas - all i had asked for

@menthol100s

im tired of skin to skin
i cant let the right one in
your call is all i need to sin
let another one go im all in 
everythings been at my expense
i saw you leave when you found somebodys bliss
i cant write for you it never makes sense
wasting so much time on you again

shut my eyes and count to ten
wanna wake up in your skin
you only see her in your dreams and all you wants to sleep again
and the next time that i see i hope its you 
i hope its you
if not ill gouge these eyes out and i swear its true
i swear its true

let the right one in w/ skeleton

mixed by @six-days-after-christmas

dreaming of the winter
on a warm sunny day
dreaming of the summer
when its to cold to go out and play 
dont forget her face 
cus she'll go for once and for good 
dont forget her smile 
cus she was just misunderstood 
soo dooont
please dont leave me alone 

dreaming of her touch 
when shes out and away 
when shes here for you brother 
you say you need space

don't forget her

every time u leave 
girl i feel like an asshole 
i see ur smile 
and i cannot relax girl 
i love ur hair i love ur eyes 
but i dont think im alright 
i saw u walking down the hall 
and noone else was there but u 
it felt like a movie when i saw u walking through 

i told you i said i was okay 
i know that its your way or no way 
i still think bout past times that we had 
now ur gone i cant help but feel sad 
i told you i said i was okay 
come with me ill show u what i think
i need you now more than ever 
could you  please stay with me forever

but you made me feel so blue
i dont know what to do 
i still feel this burning pain inside my chest

i told you i said i was okay

@i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later
prod both of us as always

@i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later: 
slow down 
shut up 
take a picture of us 
watch her driving away
leaving nothing but dust

i know 
you dont 
really like to pretend 

you love me so let me go
??

me: 
im sorry
you know me
you expect way too much, again

you're going
still coping
i cant live my life without u in

so she'll go
on her own
and find someone else to make her smile

it makes me sick when i think of what we said
so many words i regret, but cant forget

pictures of us

produced by crayon
mixed by crayon
mastering by crayon

no fun
no fucks
you did me bad
i dont wanna know why you came back
can we just forget each other
sorry right to my mother 
i failed my life
failed my life

can we just forget each other 
sorry right to my mother
i failed my life
failed my life

can we just forget each other

w/ @six-days-after-christmas

like a deer in headlights 
when i saw your face i froze in fear 
ran back home in hopes that 
all the thoughts i had would dissapear 
thinking bout ur face while sitting sippin on some shitty beer
lay in bed dreaming that maybe one day 
youd be near 

monday wasnt good at all 
walking past you in the hall 
i saw you with your friends 
laughing and joking  at someones expense i 
didnt know them 
but im glad it wasnt me 
cus im hoping 
maybe i can talk to you at least

i cant get any closer 
my friends told me walk up but i dont even know her
i havent had this feeling in a while itold her
i know how it endsmaybe try when we're older 

cuz its i hate you and you hate me
your lifes a little more private but i'll still see 
cuz if ur all i need you're all i'd be
but i cant see that much from here i'll just see u in my sleep

deer in headlights

sorry this is too much

if u fw the old version of the song More im sorry That shit had some tts Wit my ex name so i jus cut it out and extended this to a minute

STREAM ON SPOTIFY INSTEDA BRO
https://open.spotify.com/album/1Jqcaa6uhspHNEVw9cEg1y?si=yC4DSd_IRH-oyhIoE6W8mQ

prod mac demarco
lyrics:
im sorry to my mom and dad u raised a fucking failure
now i bloody up my wrist and i feel like a fucking hater
think its time to kms ill kms see all u l8r
its a joke i thought she liked me now i mf hate her
now im fucked up takin pills and ion think im gettin better
i hope u fucking kys i hope u jump into a river
blood carved in my wrist its a mf s
now im lookin at that shit wishing i was fucking dead
im so tired im so stupid ion think i wanna do this shit
i hate the way i look my nose is big i need a facelift
i dont know how to think or who i even wanna be with
i fucking miss my ex i love her ass up on some rs

u did this 2 me :/

@six-days-after-christmas
@i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later

i cant stand my skin 
i fell in love with lynn
i noticed that she was right
noticed that she was right
dont know where begin 
im cursed with your sin oh i am
just about to burn 
just about to burn

stop cursing me

@ankleankle
@six-days-after-christmas
@i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later

i guess every time you close your eyes
you see me standing right beside you
brush your hair from morning on
wipe your skin til your tears are gone
i guess everyone just fucking hates you
shattered words will end and break you
cry to me while you sing along
look at me while you get it wrong

say what you said i heard you
i known you for a long time so i cant hurt you
and i dont want you feeling like im not okay
i tried to leave but not again
looking at the ceiling of my room
im pondering im missing you
thinking of our conversations
i cant even think of things to do
you wanted me to stay but i dont wanna see it through
rather be by myself but everytime i close my eyes im seeing you

close your eyes w ankle

all by me

lyrics:

my memory fades
i wish that i changed
pls don't go away
pls don't go away
in the bush she lay
all it happened same day
i think that i'm fake
i think that i'm fake
i'm so fake
i'm so fake

if i was perfect - think i'm fake

5/18/2024 3:38 AM

i dont wanna let u down
in this vacuum theres no sound
feed my self into the hounds
can we kiss and make it 
loud?

stab me with ur knife
stomache bleeds all night
take my life just twice
velvet tears and
why?

and white

if i was perfect - cry like velvet

https://soundcloud.com/keshibeats/bandaids not prod me

made this cuz im sad

u shouldve told me...
idk what to say
why are u sorry ?
how did things get this way ?
my heart is broken
down to the core
this is not what i wanted...
idk what i want anymore

im afraid the bandaids
are no good
for heartache

not okay...
so tell me
when ur world comes crashing down

if i was perfect - why are you sorry?

prod ratatooulie or however u spell it im not french

i just want you to me
nobody else

let go my secrets
i loved you since 12

look at my face
and show me ur hate

say it for once
and i'll leave u away

if i was perfect - from me, to you </3

ive been thinking bout u 
and all the things that we would do 
and it gets lonely without u 
i swear sometimes i hate u 

cus when i lay my head to sleep
its only u thats in my dreams 
and i cant get u out 
i tried so hard 
but i dont know how

i cant get you out

@i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later

makeup smeared on your face
you cant tell me what you think of me
no its not a mistake
girl you fucked up now youre dead to me
got no empathy
i didnt think you would but thats okay cuz
anything you say
doesnt mean shit

i cant get you out my head
you would rather see me dead

makeup smeared on your face
you cant tell me what you think of me
no its not a mistake
girl you fucked up now youre dead to me
got no empathy
i didnt think you would but thats okay cuz
anything you say
doesnt mean shit

makeup

out of the mental hospital

prod me

why is she blocking the hallway?
guess i will never know
thought we could both go our own way
but it seems that you just
keep showing interest
stalking my pinterest
like all my photos after you said we were finished
whats wrong?
baby whats wrong?

why is she blocking the hallway

prod me

surfs uppppp
woaahhoho (x4)


i really tried to actually make you fucking happy
but this shitty feeling always tends make me trashy
and i realize everyone and you are just the same
so ill waterboard ur ass into a hydroplane

so

surfs uppppp
woaahhoho (x4)

surfs up

prod me

bash your skull
cave it in
i wont tell nobody
you can kill yourself
slit your wrist
i can hide the body
steal ur parents car
and drive it to
another fucking party
that nobody even wants you in
oh god you're so retarded

nobody loves you like i do
you suck at life but i do too

bash your skull
cave it in
i wont tell nobody
you can kill yourself
slit your wrist
i can hide the body
steal ur parents car
and drive it to
another fucking party
that nobody even wants you in
oh god you're so retarded

nobody hates you like i do
you suck at life but i do too

bash your skull
cave it in
i wont tell nobody
you can kill yourself
slit your wrist
i can hide the body
steal ur parents car
and drive it to
another fucking party
that nobody even wants you in
oh god you're so retarded (x2)

kill yourself stupid

prod me

you suck
and ill never stop saying it
cause you never wanna cough it up
you suck
i know one day your gonna OD on those drugs
you suck
you're a junkie bitch
but still somehow i suck
more than you
worse than you
more than you

i dont feel like anyone else
not even myself
i hate this feeling that comes by
every other week
i feel so damn week
is this whats its like to be you all the time

take your life
but let me take mine
i wanna persuade you
better than the thoughts inside your head

you suck
and ill never stop saying it
cause you never wanna cough it up
you suck
i know one day your gonna OD on those drugs
you suck
you're a junkie bitch
but still somehow i suck
more than you
worse than you
more than you

six days after christmas - all i had asked for

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