The Upload

I guess I'm stuck in the past,
and life's been moving too fast,
they told me I should grow up,
but I still feel like a brat,

another pill to the head,
another night til' I'm dead,
and we've been moving so fast,
that's how I know this'll last.

they tell me that I'm just a mess,
and I'm so depressed, yah I get it..
yah i get it..

she love me til my heart cant beat no more,
and I don't get it.. I don't get it..

I guess I'm stuck in the past,
and life's been moving too fast,
they told me I should grow up,
but I still feel like a brat,

another pill to the head,
another night til' I'm dead,
and we've been moving so fast,
that's how I know this'll last.

brat (prod. rohff)

When You Smile (with waitingoncisco)

Safe Sin - Break My Head prod. @jakemarkow @nickmira_

use this to sleep

ion cry every time something hurts
ion always wanna lie under six feet of dirt
but i do when i see u
god i fucking hate u 
and idgaf if u don't love me at all
cuz i hate so much that i hate being loved
depressed w the world n chumps like ya
 i think i lived enough when u walk in a room
i just don't care for ur life or mine if i lose

but i'm still loved 
i don't know why
i want to be hated
but the more i try
i gain more than i lose
accept the ugly truth
life ain't fair
dat ain't nothin new

i'm a lil fuckin prick
u a big fuckin bitch
big ole mouth
big target to hit
quite yo shit
imma slice yo wrists
jesus w ur blood on my palms
forgiveness is sin the world that i run
no one gives af if u down n ur done
die in the dirt w ur bitch on my mouth w my middle finger up

ion cry every time something hurts
ion always wanna lie under six feet of dirt
but i do when i see u
god i fucking hate u 
and idgaf if u don't love me at all
cuz i hate so much that i hate being loved
depressed w the world n chumps like ya
 i think i lived enough when u walk in a room
i just don't care for ur life or mine if i lose

SPOTIFY

i hate everything (prod. discent)

find a way out (prod. capsctrl)

“produced” by me

and i know that i’ll get better, but i won’t hold my breath,
every day that i’m inside another day in my head,
i’ll just sit inside, these tears i cry, they spill on your dress,
think i need to go and sit outside so i’ll call my friends

and lately i’ve been worried that the only thing i love is slippin away from me,
don’t fall for me,
i try; i can’t fall asleep,
and i stress way too much these days i thought i was getting better
but in my heart i’ll be okay because i’ve firmed much stronger weather 
and i don’t feel any release when i write a song, i won’t lie
only time i feel okay, 
is when i’m holding on to a knife
and i wont ever put you down by running my mouth,
i’ll make sure that he regrets every sick word that he spouts 

and i know that i’ll get better, but i won’t hold my breath,
every day that i’m inside another day in my head,
i’ll just sit inside, these tears i cry, they spill on your dress,
think i need to go and sit outside so i’ll call my friends

release

Produced by sketchmyname x vaegud

Lyrics

What I want and I feel do not agree
It's stopping me from reaching to all that I could
I try to be good but my thoughts keeps stalling me
I'm not an angel don't call to me
I'll make you regret it, don't fall for me
I know that I did but I hate that I said it
I'm guessin' that love is just not for me

I cannot trust what I feel
Stuck in the lust I know this isn't real
I'm feelin' crushed, I might crush up a pill
You know how it goes, at this point it's a drill

Wake up, feel fucked, go to sleep, repeat
I miss real love, nobody needs me
I fall, get stuck, no one can reach me
To me do not look up, ain't fun to be me

I smoke for the pain, life in the drain
I wanna forget so I go grab a drink
Do I really need it though? I do not think so
It seems that the drugs all that help with the pain though

So I'ma get fucked up
Don't want advice, shut the fuck up
When I was alive you ain't act like you care
So the day that I rise I won't show love

Leave me alone, just leave me alone
Don't care if you stay cause I just wanna go
No not to a place, to the grave where we go
When we get erased from the life that we know

Evil in my head
Don't try to care either when I'm dead
Cause honestly I got like 3 friends
You can't save me I'm stuck on the deep end

I don't care, life ain't fair
She's not here, I'm not there
I hate this oh I swear
I can't make this up out of air

Bleeding out, I'm on the floor
Don't care about it anymore
I've tried time and time again
I don't think that I was meant for this

I'm a piece without a place
I'm a mask without a face
Not too long before I break
You should stay out of the way

Cause the day I do
I won't consider you
I'll just burn it all
Along with anyone too

3.14...

Blood Diamonds

Lyrics AMV featured on IDLEGLANCE: youtu.be/FaB_adGLw7Y

take a chance.
now you in it full send, no looking back, advance
crumpled up the blueprint ain't got no fuckin plans
I know that I've been lost for minute take a glance
hit the gas the exhaust linger with it 

kush got me in a trance, think I'm losing it
swallow up my pride and pills yes baby i'm abusing it
sorrow in my head alright, this dream am I pursuing it?
got her in my bed tonight but she ain't gon remove pit

up in my stomach
I'm nauseous stay cautious I've been feeling low
like fill up the void with these flows
write down on the paper I roll
exhale all the vapor I know that
this shit ain't good for me
blowing out smoke like a factory
charging for features like battery
hopin this could be my salary
like, eating beats up like a calorie might
beat up the verse
know that this won't be the first
weepings the greatest, you worst
like fuck that shit was clean might run back
getting lean no more lack
smoke that green no piss pack
get me on ill attack that

note
i might fucking choke
I might waste away
let time decay
fuck what I wrote
feeling bleek today
can't speak no way
anxious no smoke
they say you can't really fix up whats already broke

take a chance.
now you in it full send, no looking back, advance
crumpled up the blueprint ain't got no fuckin plans
I know that I've been lost for minute take a glance
hit the gas the exhaust linger with it 

kush got me in a trance, think I'm losing it
swallow up my pride and pills yes baby i'm abusing it
sorrow in my head alright, this dream am I pursuing it?
got her in my bed tonight but she ain't gon remove pit

who the fuck you think you are?
talk bad on my name?
yes a year from now you'll leech my brow
and take the blame
"weepings" glow in golden lights that's that rise to fame
and ain't nobody wanna fuck with me before my flame

(slowed)
take a chance.
now you in it full send, no looking back, advance
crumpled up the blueprint ain't got no fuckin plans
I know that I've been lost for minute take a glance
hit the gas the exhaust linger with it 

kush got me in a trance, think I'm losing it
swallow up my pride and pills yes baby i'm abusing it
sorrow in my head alright, this dream am I pursuing it?
got her in my bed tonight but she ain't gon remove pit

Exhaust [prod. pink]

welcome back.

prods by:

mbwav: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCBq4cBluKKTewe84BZ9f_Bw

pale1080: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCzDXQ7i0mR5_PvT56YpPOXA

toryonthebeat:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCMguZFA1Vmm5otr1Z9vEOlg

ismael jam:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCj4XpVVmH98UG7suqspmDpA

illuid haller:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC88Wq7tg0ei3FyOXweotcew

manuel:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCT3-XIWcgc4NX1l_4lzyRaw

ammar junedi:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCKqgJs5PZtJOGrRLQDsf5sA

be franky:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UChIzv6IQIG0zZZ0ug0ka-Ag

w/ sewerperson: https://soundcloud.com/sewerperson



admit one.

swaine lyrics:

this the only thing i know
used to stay up late at night just thinkin when the fuck ill blow
wonder all day overthoughts i could just use it all to grow
day dreamin bout success is really not the way to go

sicker than the most
evil in the post
crossfaded, dunk maybe arm in rim and foul throw

voice baritone gettin deeper by the minute
when im pissed and prolly sinnin 
talkin shit up to the ceilin
maybe so

feel like soprano
the mafioso
sicily livin tissue tucked inside the coat

toronto state of comets and the dunes we always know
save ur comment for the butt u need to shove it where it goes
im solo dolo dirty seemin 
really gotta see this event
thievin i know how u breathin
read u like a book 
and best sell it like im order phoenix

the route is never scenic
watch out who u talkin to cuz people turnin really easy

"...fuck you if you doubted me! and i see how you talk about me, i read it man. fuck you.
lurking in the comments and shit. nobody needs to hear all that."


so whats up?
i heard u got a leg up
but u still at the bottom still complainin w ur legs up
get ur fuckin sense up
before i slap it out of u

and get ur money cents up
financially been doubtin u

matter fact im next up
and u still talkin down on who?
i swear that u were dead once
but u dont listen good do u?

man dont get me started
im leo like departed
undercover suckers got the nerve to act around me 
aint nobody dubbin me the L's could start surrounding
you should thank academy and tell em where you found it

cuz its all me tho
the truth can get pointy like dorito
seein red pourin up the vino
all ur shit is dry u gotta moisturize aveeno
im up in the sky forgettin bout it like im ceelo
i be makin sequels till i die and thats on dio
yet another fragrance from the guy it aint no dior



"...and i went to swainesworld II and it was just a good time man! had a great time there. lots of cool vibes
and shit. full effect. had to get out of the dunes for a bit. get myself on another level, another mind state. 
so lemme go back a bit. make some cool shit again, you know?"

sewerperson lyrics:

open up the minds eye
firestorms and lightning fighting night and lighting up the 
shy sky
blink twice
and miss the foreign bodies dropping down jsut to fly bye
im betting on this saucers fuck u mean a close tie
bitch bye
my plug these days reside 20 miles south the oort cloud outta 
earths sight
i pick apart the pack and pack a paper real tight
this ember scare the dark from out my view like night lights
god why
if we dont kill it first the sun gon power down and die
revolutionary actions still induce fist fights
god why
we just tryna fight for whats right
well most fights
we just get a little lost along the way it takes time

OVERTHOUGHT W/ SEWERPERSON (prod. ismael jam)

Other Side (Prod. Padilla)

I'll Never Let Them Hurt You

close to me like apparitions in my room
haunting me 
no chance to see this through 
suddenly I'm not the same anymore
what's become of me?

@xo6ftunder

suddenly I think that I've been changing
the sickness that's inside of you is hateful and contagious
the ghost of you how could you set it free?
now I'm sitting in my room with apparitions haunting me
suddenly I think the nightmares are progressing
i don't want to waste my time with counting up my blessings
i gave my all and still you took my soul from me
now I'm wide awake because i see you in my dreams

Apparition (feat. 6ftunder / prod. micco)

-it's first song from my next project "OVERLAPS"
There will be only (no sample) tracks recorded by me between 2017-2019.

-stay tuned and thank you for listening <3

OVERLAPS

it's behind the pine trees

It's behind the pine trees

but what did i expect

prod: https://soundcloud.com/caspr
artwork by: https://soundcloud.com/caustyk



i don’t wanna fall in love 
and fall apart again 
idk if i’m ok enough so i keep taking medicine 
to give my head a rest 
but what did i expect 

i said i’d give him everything but everything meant nothing 
but i still stayed so i could feel i’m holding on to something 
n i feel like a burnout 
lie n say that i’m better on my own now 

ok 
alright 
i’m starting to feel nothing when i lay awake at night 
ok 
alright 
i’ll fool myself with every other lie 

i still think of every word you said to me 
trying to ease the memory by drowning it in nicotine 
i swear to fucking god that one day you’ll be dead to me
but right now just to hear your voice i swear that i’d do anything

medicine (prod. caspr)

We're not the same anymore

lyrics:

did you notice
did you notice,
we're not the same anymore
did you know this?
did you notice
did you notice,
we're not the same
did you know this?
did she notice all the shit you said in the past,
the look in her eyes when you told her it'd last,
did she notice all the shit you said in the past,
the look in her eyes when you told her that it
all fell apart,
rest in peace your broken heart,
took the pieces of the puzzle,
and transcribed them into art
now you're asking but you already know this,
baby girl we're not the same,
did you notice?
imagine never really leaving your mind,
never knowing, what it's worth, til its, lost in time,
and now its over, but why are you sad?
we still can start over, its really not that bad,
we all wanna go home, we're all gonna die,
yet in the glimmer of this cold world, we all act surprised,
when its time to go
you know they say no one knows

Did You Notice? (prod. sorrow bringer)

prod. @reedkun
🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤
💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋
Lyrics:
Fell in love with lil shawty at the strip club
All these lights flashin on me when i drink up
Lookin at me i been lookin for a way out
Im so drunk and your the only one i want now

I need a bad bitch
Girl i need a kiss
Now im smokin on a spliff
While im fukin on her hips
x2

I just need some fake love
Couple shots to the brain, i cant feel the pain love
Dopamine all i crave, so i dont feel numb
I dont know her name, she got me feelin like the drugs

Fell in love with lil shawty at the strip club
All these lights flashin on me when i drink up
Lookin at me i been lookin for a way out
Im so drunk and your the only one i want now

I need a bad bitch
Girl i need a kiss
Now im smokin on a spliff
While im fukin on her hips
x2

The Upload

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