The Upload

Gates and fences

everyones an asshole 
my plug cuts his coke and my doctor pushes benzos 
my head smacked the floor when i tripped off my board
skating round the halls cause my parents aren't at home
today ive been bored
today i woke up at 4
needed stuff but got too high to drive to the store
at the checkout said "how are you?"
i said "not much"
on my way out i tripped and my thing of eggs crushed

dont be ashamed to be proud of yourself or slow down for a sec 
i say as i quietly critique parts of myself 
i guess i just keep helping so i wont need help
but regardless it helps

can you tell me we're good now?
you left me put down
bad is my good now
when i cry it's a good sound 

(hamilton)
cut it all out
take it all away
i dont wanna feel 
no not today 
numb to the pain numb to it all
hanging by a thread i might fall
i might slip 
lose my grip 
tryna find out where the time went
where it all goes
i dont know
i can only walk the path i chose 
build me up just to break my bones
crushing up drugs on my phone
tryna fix my heart but it got worse
every time i fall in love it hurts
every time i try to not think bout you it dont work
maybe im just meant to be alone with the dirt
but maybe its just meant to be 
i get so high i cant speak
walking round cant feel my feet
when i sleep i grit my teeth
when i sleep youre all i see
so every nights a bad dream 
i dont wanna wake up
just to feel nothing

when i cry it sounds good (with hamilton and sorrow bringer)

prod. clear purple x maybe
@clearpurple

fuck on my lip wit a blunt
and baby u roll when i cut 
like why do you think im luv
shit is rough
muddy cup fillin sludge
fuckers call me they brother
barely know you that much

know i come off codependent 
i just want love and let in
break this soul i’d let you dead it
said home is where ur headed
i feel like i’ve never met it
still slitting paths of velvet
picture frame with shattered lessons
got me second guessing everybody, patterns second
after life come death, well i dont think that i accept it
just a coward little bastard, fearing countless changes 
with how im climbing them you’d think my mind is fucking everest
and even if i kill myself im sorry honest
shizu never wanted problems, but my songs adore it
so this leaking heart can bleed throughout the art its forming
take a breath, to telling everyone ur living for it
have mercy on me

fuck on my lip wit a blunt
and baby u roll when i cut 
like why do you think im luv
shit is rough
muddy cup fillin sludge
fuckers call me they brother
barely know you that much

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sludge (clear purple)

It was a pleasure to work with cray on this, love this song.
(prod. sadface)

**lyrics**
(me)
You can hate me
You can hate me
You can hate me all you want, I'll still give you my heart

I gave you all that I had
Been like 6 months but im grieving the past
I know where you're going, you know where i'm at
Pretend I don't see it, I can't face the facts

Now every song just been sounding the same
They're all about you or describing the pain
Sifting through letters & needless to say, I'm mentally prone to these kinds of mistakes

Looking into all my thoughts & my actions
Hella reminiscent i've been living in the past tense
Well at least I had my fun while it lasted
Screaming in the mirror, pick out everything i'm lacking 

Back then you remember we were laughing?
Every time I gotta mess it up its automatic
Tragic, I witnessed everything that happened
Hate the way I cope 'cause its been getting problematic

(yungcray)
Girl I don't like this, woke up in my room I'm the highest
I said I'm so weak but bro I'm trying
everyday's the same but you don't mind it
i don't like this though

lets take a step back can we go back to what we was
lets let the time pass, think about all the things we could
i cant help but cry when I'm stuck up in this dark maze
you were the drug, now here comes all the heartache

(me)
I gave you all that I had
Been like 6 months but im grieving the past
I know where you're going, you know where i'm at
Pretend I don't see it, I can't face the facts

Now every song just been sounding the same
They're all about you or describing the pain
Sifting through letters & needless to say, I'm mentally prone to these kinds of mistakes

all that i had w/ yungcray

I'll walk home (prod 1800.entity)

9TAILS - the game (prod. scottysplash)

lyrics: 
y si tan solo pudiera explicar
que no tengo razón pa despertar
si no estás en mi rumbo
no gasto segundos
y solito me hundo
y es duro no querer aceptar
que si no te busco no te veo más
que si me doy la vuelta 
ya nunca tocarás mi puerta
pero no cambiaré quien soy
tú estarás mejor si me voy
señales tan confusas, siento que me usas

se sentía como un sueño
ecos de tu voz en mi mente
no nos veremos de nuevo
sabes que nunca fui muy valiente
sabes mis miedos, los tienes en frente
en ese espejo contemplé mi suerte
y sin más remedio caigo
ya no hay nada que me pueda despertar

sin ti mi camino está falto de un final
con mi alma perdida me podrás hallar
pero es irreal, me sienta muy mal 
saber que con nadie más sentiré igual
es tan irreal que pueda funcionar
un ser tan inamovible y uno que no puede parar

se sentía como un sueño
ecos de tu voz en mi mente
no nos veremos de nuevo
sabes que nunca fui muy valiente
sabes mis miedos, los tienes en frente
en ese espejo contemplé mi suerte
y sin más remedio caigo
ya no hay nada que me pueda despertar

COMO UN SUEÑO (GRAYSKIES)

i've been sitting on this for a few months
i hope you guys fuck with it
thank you for every little bit of support
make sure you check out ricky's work too
@rickyhernandezz
<3

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Heartbeat

I guess I'm stuck in the past,
and life's been moving too fast,
they told me I should grow up,
but I still feel like a brat,

another pill to the head,
another night til' I'm dead,
and we've been moving so fast,
that's how I know this'll last.

they tell me that I'm just a mess,
and I'm so depressed, yah I get it..
yah i get it..

she love me til my heart cant beat no more,
and I don't get it.. I don't get it..

I guess I'm stuck in the past,
and life's been moving too fast,
they told me I should grow up,
but I still feel like a brat,

another pill to the head,
another night til' I'm dead,
and we've been moving so fast,
that's how I know this'll last.

brat (prod. rohff)

When You Smile (with waitingoncisco)

ion cry every time something hurts
ion always wanna lie under six feet of dirt
but i do when i see u
god i fucking hate u 
and idgaf if u don't love me at all
cuz i hate so much that i hate being loved
depressed w the world n chumps like ya
 i think i lived enough when u walk in a room
i just don't care for ur life or mine if i lose

but i'm still loved 
i don't know why
i want to be hated
but the more i try
i gain more than i lose
accept the ugly truth
life ain't fair
dat ain't nothin new

i'm a lil fuckin prick
u a big fuckin bitch
big ole mouth
big target to hit
quite yo shit
imma slice yo wrists
jesus w ur blood on my palms
forgiveness is sin the world that i run
no one gives af if u down n ur done
die in the dirt w ur bitch on my mouth w my middle finger up

ion cry every time something hurts
ion always wanna lie under six feet of dirt
but i do when i see u
god i fucking hate u 
and idgaf if u don't love me at all
cuz i hate so much that i hate being loved
depressed w the world n chumps like ya
 i think i lived enough when u walk in a room
i just don't care for ur life or mine if i lose

SPOTIFY

i hate everything (prod. discent)

Lyrics AMV featured on IDLEGLANCE: youtu.be/FaB_adGLw7Y

take a chance.
now you in it full send, no looking back, advance
crumpled up the blueprint ain't got no fuckin plans
I know that I've been lost for minute take a glance
hit the gas the exhaust linger with it 

kush got me in a trance, think I'm losing it
swallow up my pride and pills yes baby i'm abusing it
sorrow in my head alright, this dream am I pursuing it?
got her in my bed tonight but she ain't gon remove pit

up in my stomach
I'm nauseous stay cautious I've been feeling low
like fill up the void with these flows
write down on the paper I roll
exhale all the vapor I know that
this shit ain't good for me
blowing out smoke like a factory
charging for features like battery
hopin this could be my salary
like, eating beats up like a calorie might
beat up the verse
know that this won't be the first
weepings the greatest, you worst
like fuck that shit was clean might run back
getting lean no more lack
smoke that green no piss pack
get me on ill attack that

note
i might fucking choke
I might waste away
let time decay
fuck what I wrote
feeling bleek today
can't speak no way
anxious no smoke
they say you can't really fix up whats already broke

take a chance.
now you in it full send, no looking back, advance
crumpled up the blueprint ain't got no fuckin plans
I know that I've been lost for minute take a glance
hit the gas the exhaust linger with it 

kush got me in a trance, think I'm losing it
swallow up my pride and pills yes baby i'm abusing it
sorrow in my head alright, this dream am I pursuing it?
got her in my bed tonight but she ain't gon remove pit

who the fuck you think you are?
talk bad on my name?
yes a year from now you'll leech my brow
and take the blame
"weepings" glow in golden lights that's that rise to fame
and ain't nobody wanna fuck with me before my flame

(slowed)
take a chance.
now you in it full send, no looking back, advance
crumpled up the blueprint ain't got no fuckin plans
I know that I've been lost for minute take a glance
hit the gas the exhaust linger with it 

kush got me in a trance, think I'm losing it
swallow up my pride and pills yes baby i'm abusing it
sorrow in my head alright, this dream am I pursuing it?
got her in my bed tonight but she ain't gon remove pit

Exhaust [prod. pink]

but what did i expect

prod: https://soundcloud.com/caspr
artwork by: https://soundcloud.com/caustyk



i don’t wanna fall in love 
and fall apart again 
idk if i’m ok enough so i keep taking medicine 
to give my head a rest 
but what did i expect 

i said i’d give him everything but everything meant nothing 
but i still stayed so i could feel i’m holding on to something 
n i feel like a burnout 
lie n say that i’m better on my own now 

ok 
alright 
i’m starting to feel nothing when i lay awake at night 
ok 
alright 
i’ll fool myself with every other lie 

i still think of every word you said to me 
trying to ease the memory by drowning it in nicotine 
i swear to fucking god that one day you’ll be dead to me
but right now just to hear your voice i swear that i’d do anything

medicine (prod. caspr)

some guitar n stems by cisco
@waitingoncisco

Cynic Little Cycles (with waitingoncisco)

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just happy to be here

When You Smile (with waitingoncisco)

Softheart

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