prod by xona(: 

-lyrics-
I still wonder if you watch me 
i sit alone and hoping things that could’ve have helped me 
and I know these things won’t change 
and you don’t care and I’m in my last day

and everything I do it’s so violent! 
everything you do is...
everything I do is- violent! 
but I still love you even if you make me cry..
cause I don’t care at all like why..?
should I try to hide from your eyes?
cause I don’t want no one besides.

(no one, no one oh...
no one, no one---)

everything you do is
everything I-

violent

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trying my hardest

i deleted the ep this song was about 
prod me :

(lyrics)
can you imagine what it’s like to make art 
but you don’t like what you make
can you imagine what it’s like to make art 
but you don’t like what you make
no you don't like what you make

ever since i met you i hope i don’t forget you
i’ll change my fucking life if it means you’ll stay the night
every song i make is an attempt to make you mine
every song i make is an attempt to change your mind x2

drill some inspiration
in my heart im losing patience 
everyday i write a song
but my voice sings it wrong x2

what’s the point of making songs
if my friends never sing along 
and girlfriend gets mad at me
dont think of this as tragedy
and i can’t really promise you I’ll be right here forever
my heart is in your sweater
i promise it gets better

what its like to make art

a more personal song 

@remghost made this amazing guitar <3
query came up wit the name

sitting on my bed str8 dying (shoutout @rouri404)
feeling everything go numb, im crying
system all fucked up n i cant lie
its all my fault since i fucked it up tonight
shoulda done it right

sitting on my bed str8 dying
everything is fallin apart, all flied away
i think that its my last day today
heart fucked up n filled wit hate
n its getting late

locking up my feelings in a cell
and im the type of person that depends on someone else
im dependent on shit, and im depended to live off of
taking everybody problems down up in my mental

i cant try and keep floating high
cuz its ups and downs, and im staying lying
righ down to the ground to the asphalt, i cant even act tall
when the ground is gonna crumble and i feel im gonna fall

sittin on my bed str8 dying
she said shes sick and tired of lying
and im sick n tired, of trying, trying
everybody fake, tryna act like they be right
i cant even put a fight up

and im done from the shit tonight
and im guessing u think ur right
i dont wanna spend the night

hysteria (remghost + tsuyunoshi)

produced by me and @ria_
sc0ttryan

lyrics:

thought i would forgive you, you ruined my birthday
you made it the worst day
now i'm feeling fucking sick and
i just wanna pass out
wanna fucking black out
you make me so fucking sick.
thought i would forgive you, you ruined my birthday
you made it the worst day
now i'm feeling fucking sick and
i just wanna pass out
wanna fucking black out
you make me so fucking sick.

funeral:
Jul 23, 2021, 1:49 PM
i'm fading in and out
i don't know how to stop it
just tell me what's it bout
i just don't wanna watch it

i only wanna watch the world burn inside of my hands
i have vile imagination, wouldn't understand

in love with death and power, i want it all
get it get it, til i mf fall
get it, i get it, don't get it, i get enough
fucking it up i'm just trying to stall

just give me a second i'm just tryna find a way out
i just want everything to get out my fucking way now

me:
and im done
party's over, go to bed
im not having fun no more

and you'll be lucky if i dont walk out of this bitch like, right now

take a shot of the hennessy
i dont drink but i need smth to numb the pain
numb the pain

numb the pain

birthday ft funeral {prod me x ria}

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let me down + k0a, polar, bleach

prod: me and remghost
cover art taken by bleulmao

forget w/ rouri404 & torr

Vocals by maxiim
Produced, Mixed & Mastered by maxeem

ALL PLATFORMS - https://ffm.to/ichandle

[Intro]
I don't wanna end that way again
I end up wasting time
Staying far too long again
There's no one by my side

[Pre-Chorus]
And I know that it wasn't as easy as they said it is
Took a leap of faith into uncharted abyss
On my own, but for the first time
I feel new again, I've ascended into new light

[Chorus]
And I know it's not as easy as they said it was
I fell but got back up, and I'm the best I could be
Took many jabs yet prevailed
But you hurt me
Made me just better myself
Don't concern me
Say that you want something else
You'll get over this
I know me
I can handle this

[Post-Chorus]
In the dark for far too long
The darkness ended up being prolonged
I wanted more out of this song
Let me out, I waited too long
Don't wanna end up another face up on a poster
Lost all to time, lost all the faith that I had

[Pre-Chorus]
Don't wanna end up another face
up on a poster
Lost all to time
I lost all the faith I had

[Chorus]

And I know it's not as easy as they said it was
I fell but got back up, and I'm the best I could be
Took many jabs yet prevailed
But you hurt me
Made me just better myself
Don't concern me
Say that you want something else
You'll get over this
I know me
I can handle this

[Outro]

I spent too many nights
You won't see me up on that poster
I walked out the door
I don't wanna see you again
I can handle this I can handle this

LIIGHTWORK SOON :)

I can handle this

theworst w/ evilmiku & swazy* (prod. swazy* x jxck0 x mistakeboi x fry)

Ft. @reefuh
@poisonedcheeto

Lyrics:
[kurtis]
But she been fuckin wit my health
Takin fluoxetine to help 
Im a shadow of a person 
that I once knew pretty well

Shes a figure of my mind
Fuck that bitch dont got the time
Cause I dont wanna care about you
But im still deep in decline

Bitch shut the fuck up let me talk
Dont check the clock
Im losing hours everyday 
Im sinkin deeper than I thought

Cause I got drugs up in my pocket
You gotta stop it
Now im getting angry everyday
Could tell you didnt wanna save it

[reef]
save it, left my heart out on the pavement
yeaaa 50% of my luv was the payment
thinking u could be w me, girl ur off ur medication
stuck in the past, shriveled me up and threw me in the grass
like how u move on so fast, spent forever tryna get like that
so dont pat me down, maybe u had me then but u dont have me now
so just shut me out, and don't act like that cuz u know how
(i give up)
im drowning in this bot- in this bottle
lost my peace of mind to all these thirsty models
like bitch who you think you are?
if your a shooting star then ima shoot the stars
fake shit rlly dont get far
wanna match better raise the bar
dont race me boy race a car
i been in and out of love i swear im trying hard
oh, ohh, ohh ohhh, oh ohh, oh ohh

[kurtis]
But she been fuckin wit my health
Takin fluoxetine to help 
Im a shadow of a person 
that I once knew pretty well

Shes a figure of my mind
Fuck that bitch dont got the time
Cause I dont wanna care about you
But im still deep in decline

Bitch shut the fuck up let me talk
Dont check the clock
Im losing hours everyday 
Im sinkin deeper than I thought

Cause I got drugs up in my pocket
You gotta stop it
Now im getting angry everyday
Could tell you didnt wanna save it

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let me talk ft. reef (simon m)

(@prodnomu)

luv u guys thank u for waiting again <3 here is a song i wanted to drop on my bday

the sample is "still feel it all" by maro

//
my friends call me dumb
so I start to believe it
say it's a joke
but I know that they mean it
I know
theysay I'm never there
that I should spend more time with them
that's a funny idea

Cuz my friends are at home
And lately ive felt so depressed and alone 
Im back where i started like 3 years ago

and i constantly fail to show all my affection
and all of this shit builds up all of this tension
I wish I could give her the things she deserves
but keep fucking up I'm not learning my lesson
I'm dumb
I'm no fun
I have so many things in my life that are keeping me up
I fuck up anyways
it's almost as if I just throw it away

and my girl’s the best
she wakes up my phone with a good morning text
and makes sure to buy me my favorite gifts
and tells me goodnight after blowing a kiss
Yea i kno
But shes 3000 miles away
Telling me everything is okay
Always fuck up so im taking the blame

A little bit smarter, A little more strong 
A little bit better at accepting my flaws
A little bit faster when i answer your calls
A little more effort when im writing these songs

chorus

a few months ago I was living so well
peaking my mental and physical health
now I'm here
in the back with a face full of tears
in need of help but there's nobody near

**
But its fine
Cuz Ill take it one step at a time
Its okay if i cry
So i’ll keep it together
Cuz one day i know that this sht will get better 
**

birthday ft funeral {prod me x ria}

sc0ttryan

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