h4rtbrkr - E - GIRLS (OH MY GOD)

smoking menthols
i love my menthol cigarettes
black and milds i love my black and milds
cigarillos i love my cigarillos
smoking pall malls
gimme back my fucking pall malls
whats the point
its to cope with the fact i couldve been a rockstar

crack open sum natty lites
puff on some lucky stripes
and have a good time
just like i did in my prime

we used to text everynight
i know you wouldve been so tight
you didnt understand at the time
that it wasnt right

i couldve been a rockstar
but i gave it up for a quick nut
girls gtfo
i wanna be alone
its all gone now i hate myself
i wanna kill myself but im to pussy to pull it off

Menthol

beta orbiter cover (desmi)

Sorry for not mentioning you in the letter in my bio Fedze, thanks for the support - Cameron Phlodge

I Should Go Get Wasted (Fedze Cover)

By myself 
Mountain top
Slide down and lay down at the bottom
Wild flowers pollen in the wind 
Blue sky I think hear the laughter of the children
And then the wind starts gusting x2
I think a storm is coming x2
 There’s fire in prairie x2
God doesn’t treat me fairly x2

Black clouds and thunder claps 
Lightning strikes and rain tapping on the glass 
The glass breaks trees de limbed 
I float up and I’m gone with the wind 
And then I keep on floating x2
I see the world below me x2 
I have just one more question x2
Am I going to heaven? x2

Fire In The Prairie

Uploaded the track without vocals and bass. I'll reupload it later with the bass recorded and vocals added. :)
보컬이랑 베이스 없이 업로드 되었는데 나중에 다시 재업로드 할게요 :)

08. Untitled13 (Instrumental Version)

The sun comes up but you know I don't
I say I wanna change but I know that I won't
So I spend the day in bed with all the fantasies in my head
Of waking up as someone else instead

When my eyes are closed I make the most 
Of the time I don't mind being lost
When my life has gone to shit I'm just so sick of it
I wanna sleep it off

Start the day at 4 pm, another one wasted again
I guess I'll just head back to sleep
So I check my phone as I'm laying alone 
And I pray the Lord my soul to keep

With my eyes shut tight in the daylight
My heart full of fear and hateful spite
Would it make a difference if I died tonight?

My mattress holds me and consoles me 
As I worry about whatever
In my dreams I found the means 
To hold myself together

Under my blanket I try to hide
From these feelings I keep deep down inside
From sunset to sunrise
On these filthy sheets I agonize

Over the life I'll never live
And the effort I'll never give
And the nightmares I'll never forget

Sleepover

I'll have to grow up someday
When that is I can't say
but I've still got dna 
to throw away

An empty void I see
Whenever I feel happy
With a life that I don't need
In a world that never fuckin needed me

Never cared to much about myself
But I can still pretend
When I close my eyes at night
I say a prayer to not wake up again

I spent enough time alone 
to understand
I'm always gonna be on my own
And no one's there to hold my hand

Say A Prayer

Easier to sit in my room and cry
Than it is to wake up and try to be alive
Lies you tell me and I believe
To get a feeling of relief
Blacking out just doesn't hurt anymore

It's a long way down
To your bedroom floor
But if you keep your hands on my throat I know
I won't be scared anymore

A numbing comfort I've come to need
To save me from responsibility 
I've dug myself into an endless pit
And I don't know if I ever wanna come out of it
I'll see you when I wake up

Choking games 
We always play to win
Don't let go of me until
I say (say when)

If I fall and crack my head
I still trust you 
To hold me through the siezure
And never tell my mom what we do

Choking Game

When I'm gone, I'm gone 
So don't wake me up
Got a tattoo on my chest 
Just to tell you "get fucked"

I don't wanna come back
I'm cool just where I am
There's no pulse in my wrists
So quit squeezing my hand

I know you'll miss me
Any mother would 
But I've been set to go 
Since my childhood

When I stop puking blood
Just get up and go
Cuz I got three letters 
That I need you to know  

D.N.R, D.N.R, D.N.R, D.N.R 
D.N.R, D.N.R, D.N.R, I got a
D.N.R, D.N.R, D.N.R, D.N.R
Don't resuscitate, I'm better off asleep than I am awake

Breathing air, seeing faces
All those things I'm sick of
Affections I can't return
No future, no love

I was scared for so long
But I don't care now
Grim reaper taking me home
While you put me in the ground

You signed the form, I wrote my name
And now I'm ready to bail
So don't go jumping my heart
Should it start to fail

No tubes down my throat
And no lights in my eyes
I'll kick your fucking ass
If I come back to life

Cuz I got a 

D.N.R, D.N.R, D.N.R, D.N.R 
D.N.R, D.N.R, D.N.R, I got a
D.N.R, D.N.R, D.N.R, D.N.R
Don't resuscitate, I'm better off asleep than I ever was awake

D.N.R

feat. Augie Deimos on guitar/bass

mean no disrespect when I say that I’m probably not getting off this shit this time
no matter how much I need to, it’s not enough for me to fight through my
whole life is just repeating the same thing, never getting better unless someone makes me and
hating myself more than anyone could possibly hate me as i
burn through my brains doing everything that can sedate me

how long will you believe that I’m still trying my best, as I do everything to show that I just gave up on this
it feels so weird that I’m so free to die whenever I want, while parents, friends, and strangers need me to still carry on 
guess it’s cool as long as I still get to get messed up, that’s the only thing I love and it’s fucked 
and it sucks that I’m spitting on everything that I don’t deserve 
all this love and support just enforces this misguided hurt

I don’t know but I don’t care and I don’t know cuz I don’t care
And I don’t know what’s out there or what comes next or why I’m scared

Circles Of Care

Real Cocoa Beach Rock & Roll!
Truest Space Coast Landmark (1997 - 2018)
Deadly Legacy Will Kill 1000s
https://zoneofscabs.bandcamp.com/

Thank you to everyone who's been with me these last few years, I never could've had this much fun or been this productive without you all. This project might be over but I'll never forget how happy it's made me. Goodbye and thanks for listening!

Say A Prayer

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