basicbeam (edited version) [shinigami beat tag]

shoutout my homie for bein on this! @notaheroo

lyrics:

i’ve been drowning my sorrows in the bottom of bottles
she said i should relax and not to go full throttle 
baby just calm down and i’ll be gone by tomorrow
you say your heart has been hollowed

but have you looked at me lately?
i’m the one who needs a saving grace
her eyes they pierce so painfully
i see your face and i’m back in that place

they’ve left me with nowhere to go
i’ve been broken down and on my own
my shoulders are crushed from the weight of it all

and you’ve been laughing at me waiting for me to fall
and i lack the motivation to force myself to crawl
you held back information knowing that it’s your fault
clarification is shown behind the walls
a now known revelation planned to kill my soul

it’s hard not to fold 
underneath the mold
of what i was always told and what i’m feeling
the seasons are changing again

oh, changing again
oh, can you tell me where the times been?

(notahero)

can u hear me coming baby?
open up the front door
i know time is infinite
but i don’t think i got much more
my bones and back grow sore
u tell me i should fight
pain gets defied when i look up in ur eyes
sorrow gets diffused into energy all u gotta do is fight
it’s hard enough waking up
be my saving grace tonight
anxiety riddles me when i feel my lungs fucking up
the pressure belittle me when i don’t think that i’m blowing up
but riddle me this baby
how come i ain’t never show no signs of giving up?

full throttle w/ notahero (R3DQX x Luffy)

prod. sleeplessbeats
featuring: @officialnoisecomplaint
check this dude out, he's insanely talented <3

lyrics:
scorpio:
youre a dark storm
always lingering over
your shadow haunts
watching over my shoulder (x2)

tried to list all the bad things about you
to stop me running back like how i always used to
i tried my best to be strong, but it felt so long
now im left not knowing what to do

its in my head
everything i said
cant believe i feel regret

it was a mess
we werent the best
i really wish that i could love you less

youre a dark storm
always lingering over
your shadow haunts
watching over my shoulder (x2)

noise complaint:
I just don’t know how to take that
Bad news ‘cause I know we won’t make it
How I feel man I can not fake that
I just feel so let down by you
Dark storm when you crying
Acting fine but you know I’m lying
Best years of my life yeah I don’t buy it
21 so I should be thriving
Turn around and say you love another guy
That’s fine
But you say you miss me, how you gonna treat him right?
Sick of playing games with you want the girl to go away
Too cowardly to kill myself off find another way
I just don’t know what to do
I won’t be another boy waiting here for you
We’re not on the same page telling you the truth for once
Yeah I’m telling you the truth for once

scorpio:
youre a dark storm
always lingering over
your shadow haunts
watching over my shoulder (x2)

dark storm (feat. Noise Complaint)

prod. matthew may

lyrics:

its been months since youve been in touch
i miss you so much, probably more than i should
cause if you really wanted me, then you wouldve been here
three years down the lavatory, why do you not care?

so many questions unanswered
when you left were there banners?
i gave out so many chances
but you still abandoned (x2)

whats the point in getting up just to be let down?
how could you fall in love and easily fall out?
made me question trust, but i still stuck around
wish i could forget about us, but i dont know how

picked up the drugs, got on a buzz, poured the whisky up
bummed me a smoke, tried to overdose, cut till the blood flowed
went a little distant, cut off connections
didnt learn my lesson, now im a mess and - 

so many questions unanswered
when you left were there banners?
i gave out so many chances
but you still abandoned (x2)

banners

propose (feat. Devin's World)

numb (feat. Blospar)

@noizzbeatz

why do i sit inside til its over
maybe i shouldve tried getting sober
she tried to ride on my wave ion know her
maybe ill fly away for november

tried to run away
but still i see your face
in every single frame
in the back of my brain

i shouldnt have to beg
for the food on my plate
are you fucked in the head
or am i goin insane 

im not doin okay
i rly got a lot to say
but words dont come out of my mouth
i hate to say that im ashamed

i cant say that i hate the pain
because the pain is what made me
wont u feed me to the lake
before my vessel betrays me

feel my bones start to rot
ive abandoned the thoughts
thatve obstructed the process

as i sink into this cot
i start to wonder what ive lost
in the path of my destruction

oh how ive grown to hate your touch
im fallin out of love
thats why i left in the first place

i couldnt be good enough
would you even give a fuck
if i was dead before thursday??

i miss autumn

dead before thursday

dead before thursday (NOIZZ)

B1GHEADCHRIS - Talking Behind My Back

A blend of rap and R&B with a retro-hip-hop vibe

All day

Tamaulipas

love and everything in between. <3
thank you to all my friends who helped me produce this EP and thank you to my girlfriend who inspires me to be my best self.

40 Long Days (prod. Neomada + Elijah Heaps)

discord: scorpio4488

side project w/devin's world: @frozen-grotto

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