listdn to this NOW

songs i like alot

goated shit i produced

isn't it so lovely^^

everything playlist

the prom

please leave me under the cabinet
lost abandoned and forgotten
i'll keep in mind your promise
i'll make an effort next time
i'm not the hero of the story
please don't give me all the glory
it belongs to someone that's worthy
and you know i'm far from perfect
we know that this isn't working
fight over things unimportant
i know that you're more important
i wish you just thought the same
i wish no one was to blame
it feels like everything changed
you lay your head down in shame
as i throw mine on the blade

but hey now it's fine
we'll just talk around in circles
ignore every obstacle that's in our way
pretend that it's alright
and just go our separate ways
cuz that's life
it's no myth
it's no secret of the world
but i'll miss you that's for sure
or at least what i thought you were
and hey now it's fine
i'll just keep it moving forward
and know better than before

i wish i was someone you could look up to
i wish i was someone you could belong to
just push me to the side
don't even bat an eye
you know that i'll be alright
even if that was a lie
i wish i was someone you could look up to
i wish i was someone you could belong to
just push me to the side
don't even bat an eye
you know that i'll be alright
even if that was a lie

a hero you could look up to (prod.pr37)

beat sampled @trustt - i think

https://soundcloud.com/trustt/restart

everyday i wake up i wish i had not
everyday feels the same it's so hard to stay strong
i've been trying to keep a smile up for far too long
i've been walking down the same road don't know where i'm going
they say i look good on the outside
i'm nowhere close to perfect on the inside
just don't give me a reason that i should try
that i should try
why should i

i've been keeping feelings tucked up in my heart for too long
every time i see your face yeah i want to explode
every time i try to face my fears i turn and i run
every time i try to do things right i get things wrong
i don't wanna try if it means i get hurt anymore
i don't talk about my problems because you think that they're small
i can't look you in your eyes if you look at me wrong
i know that the world is big but to me it seems small

i just want to disappear and delete myself
i don't know what it means just to be myself
hope you never have to feel the pain at which i felt
stomach churning i feel nauseous i cannot stand up
i don't wanna hear another thing about my health
it's unimportant because the plan was always off myself
i don't think you really know how much i hate myself
i don't think you really know how much i hate myself

everyday i wake up i wish i had not (prod.h3artch3rades)

additional production by h3artch3rades

hard on the outside
thought that you were stronger on the inside than the out
don't even wait for me
i said to not hold on
but you couldn't just let go
and even if you're still holding on
know your heart can only decide
only decide
took me a long time to figure it out
but i don't want to think about things like that

fly away
hate you for making it out
fly away
i've been looking for the answers
fly away
how could you just
fly away
fly away

project 61 (prod.pr37)

no part of me worth saving
every inch of me worth breaking
bring my down to my knees
break me down i can't breathe
no part of me worth saving
every inch of me worth breaking
i stay down i can't see
black out drown into the sea
hello again
i can't go again
feel the same way
bring you down onto a knee
you feel sympathy
but i lack that
ultimately lack empathy
don't have that

used to the scars on my heart
yeah they changed me
they never chained me
they couldn't break me
how many times did i loss
how many scabs in my heart
picked at and breaking apart
broken and falling apart
i learned to just play my part
honestly it's gotten harder
i should have saw the signs
i shouldn't have gone any farther
everything is a bother
i wish i never left
i wish i never faltered
days when my heart would flutter
now i feel nothing at all
now i feel everything's wrong
harder to break a new fall
harder to say what's wrong
harder to carry on

no part of me worth saving
every inch of me worth breaking
bring my down to my knees
break me down i can't breathe
no part of me worth saving
every inch of me worth breaking
i stay down i can't see
black out drown into the sea
hello again
i can't go again
feel the same way
bring you down onto a knee
you feel sympathy
but i lack that
ultimately lack empathy
don't have that

no part of me worth saving (prod.mercyyy)

nobody's coming to save you
you can't just dig out of this one
and you know in your heart
you're turning me upside down
down
yeah down
you're turning me upside down
down
yeah down
turn me upside down

just when you thought it was over
you'd fallen in love
and you can't speak whenever you're around me
just give up and accept that
there's no running from
what your heart's trying to tell you
you're feeling inside
just give into it forever
let our hearts be together
i know you're feeling the same way
whatever they say is irrelevant
what does your heart say
i think you should heart that instead

did i guess that right
does your heart feel tight
when you see me
you're near me
you feel like
you can't breathe
well that's okay because i feel the same way

you telling me one thing
but your heart says another
will you be there
will you meet me even halfway
just to bridge the gap
and make you fall in love
like it was just for the first time
go and decide for yourself
trying to decipher your thoughts
to understand what you feel
to try and learn if it's real
i think you already know
but tell me do you want it that way

nobody's coming to save you
you can't just dig out of this one
and you know in your heart
you're turning me upside down
down
yeah down
you're turning me upside down
down
yeah down
turn me upside down

upside down (prod.jayysoul, sochi, & dia6lo)

prod me

no i wont take this shit no more
don't u know i hate the way dat this go
thought i could run until my legs wouldn't hurt no more, no more
and if i just take one wrong step, ima end up gone
gave u one shot, was that not enough?
guess you're tryna test your luck
i've been on my lonesome lately, goin fuckin nuts
wish that u would change, but u don't got the guts

act like this shit don't even matter
made it feel like my whole world shattered
seems like you don't know what's imperative to us
and i just don't know where to take this with ya

ain't ask for help, but i'll take it regardless
this an uphill battle, ain't making no progress
ain't ask for help, but i'll take it regardless
this an uphill battle, ain't making no progress

Spotify

uphill battle

@chewy @achorda

[0000027]

\\ sorry i haven't dropped lately, i've had a lot going on. i never slowed down, though. i have at least like 30 songs in the vault; there's a lot more coming this summer !! we're so back. it's sinefelt season mf... \\

her eyes so unusual
find them 2b beautiful
n when i look on back
i cant help but miss their laugh

why can't we turn time ar---

hdwujipvcbhgedwfhjuoivbhijefb 
vhjlebfrwjlhvberwoihubvfoihuef

i felt free
from the lost n found
affectionate n cared
ab
now
i'll c u ltr ig
i'm js scared of
sum1
else
i live w
subconscious fears
that i can't hide
i don't
got
verneers

(move ur hands)

yea i js wanna b near u
reading ur lips when i hear u

um
i think i spoiled myself
a part of me wishes
that it didn't happen
the others r giving
a life 2a shelf

idealizations of u n i
sit trapped in my head
how does it work?
how can i help it?
idk..

idk how 2tell
if the two of us r helpless...

what happened 2feelin the same
rackin the backside of ur brain,
yea!

i wanna uncover the cause
even though you're uneasy bout that,
whoa!
 
i know, i know i know,
that we can't just go
but i been missing feeling ur arms
the one time i felt disarmed
n i see ur soul like art

did you feel mine through my body...?

her eyes so unusual
find them 2b beautiful
n when i look on back
i cant help but miss their laugh

why can't we turn time ar---

hdwujipvcbhgedwfhjuoivbhijefb 
vhjlebfrwjlhvberwoihubvfoihuef

i felt free
from the lost n found
affectionate n cared
ab
now
i'll c u ltr ig
i'm js scared of
sum1
else

dont BE scared @heroine @achorda

music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CW3OcGBmh_g

in the crib still editing my diary
body still writhing
feel it when i’m writing
u don’t know i lied when i said that i was trying
feel my ribs caving in when im off it
feels like a chore just to weigh all my options
i don’t know anywhere but the closet
it’s alright just gotta be less honest
off a pack i’m not fond of it
when i see dope i need all of it
breaking down like a solvent
like you knew the whole time i was starving
i cant change but you know what that’s the worst part
lyrics of ur memory
flooding my discography
spent a little while rlly thinking that u wanted me

wanted me (mercyyy)

01.22.24
with @sennaidesu
@dishonors
i cant tell the real from the fake
i only got one shot and i better make it great
they say ray u such a dumbass but my bands dont say the same
say the same
taking lexapro until i cannot feel a thing 
f-feel a thing
and im lying for fun
(again) 
i dont need your love cuz ik that friends will be friends
and i still come back to you
(again)
i cant tell the real from the fake 
real from the fake
r-real from the fake x2

@sennaidesu
i can tell the real from the fake
different money comin different ways
holdin shit down doin what i say
when the times right know i'll do whatever u want
money in the safe, i ain't never been one to flaunt
i aint playing games, never catch me lying for fun
ain't a secret, i already know what u done
but u still cant see the problem
i can tell the real from the fake 
real from the fake
r-real from the fake x2
i can tell the real from the fake

real from the fake @sennai @10soul

back to my roots
@rhekdens for the pic 
stuck inside my head ive never stooped so low
put it all upon you
bby u my home
js leave me alone
leave me alone x2

close ur eyes and i'll try to make it better
go outside
find a way to get hurt
dre told me that sometimes im introverted
just kno some ppl dont deserve ur full attention
lately i've been having fun starving myself
but ik it'll be game over when my hands start to swell
and when my wrist pop pop
(ik that i did well)
i wish my father asked me if im ever doing well

stuck inside my head ive never stooped so low
i remember when u thought i was a joke
smoking apple sunrise till i start to choke
ik the ones that talking hate themselves the most
(stuck inside my head ive never stooped so low)

stuck inside my head ive never stooped so low
put it all upon you
bby u my home
js leave me alone
leave me alone

(js leave me-me)

stoop so low @01ashes

@chewy

catch my breath
hit my texts
wishing i'd roll over dead
misinterpret what i meant
misconstrue what i say

turn my legs to gelatin with every word you speak
don't even explain, i don't want to hear a peep
feel like a fool
used as a tool
bloodlet a pool

really thought this would be a good idea;
the price i paid was premium (x2)

man fuck a safety net
i don't ride with all that
better empty your atm
'fore i take you right around back
damn it really feels like i was made for this
endure any and all pain for this

i can't see without you
why is my heart still fluttering?
i can't be doing this again
i know you meant what you said
bent over backwards ever after
till i was ordinate

fooL* @heroine

cover by @1ure
@zzjay
@46b
@kin1k
@h4blackasf

ok w. edyn, zjay [@kin @ivvys]

Live & Direct

@chewy @dreamno7e @finlince

i wanna say sum but i can't i gotta get a grip
gotta bite my fucking tongue until i sever off that shit
or i'll tell you everything you did that was wrong
i can't resist
(oh my god)

sing !!!!!!
dance !!!!!!!
you're braindead if you can't see through the rants
so i have to put all my trust in their intelligence
honestly, it's my fault; she didn't deserve a chance

i saw you again and didn't know if i'd be able to stand it
i just simply ask that you acknowledge all your collateral damage
i could tell though from your eye lobes that you couldn't understand it
feeling so sickle and famished; wanna take back what you ran with

i get so obnoxious when bleeding
and you sent a lot i'm not reading
just kidding i did and got livid
but it's okay, i live for the feeling
(x2)

BiTE my tongue @heroine @dreamnote @finlince

Might slow down on dropping, I'm working on a secret :3
Sorry this one is kinda short
Single 1/?

Lyrics -

so can you tell me what's the problem
don't know how to solve em
all on my own
and I can't afford to drop it
rlly gotta lock in
so i gotta go

reaching for solutions
making me feel stupid
lying to my face
cause you know that i wont do shit
i dont really wanna go back home
just so you can tell me ITA

know you're questioning like everything i say
shift the blame on me, you hate on me when things dont go your way
im the punching bag i get it, its embedded in my brain
so when that bullet cross my mind, i know that you got nun to say
always leave me feeling upset
targets on my head
and the numbers aint gon help that
or anything about that
my hands go numb and i can't feel my legs
so put the bullet right inside my-

AITA (xhaji)

@trisonline

i know im rhyming it with it with it sut up

you can act like you deserve me
couldve been gone too early
i could never let them hurt me
tell me why u always changing topics

you put me in a place i dont deserve
you cant bitch about it
i could tell you everything 
if you dont ask about it
double crossed
but one day i'll just forget about it
i dont have to get you back
i wrapped my head around it

they just sulk over wasted time
didnt gaf till i noticed they been wasting mine
i cant tell
do you ever draw the line

dont be drawing mine
i dont need you drawing mine

i go through my days knowing i dont deserve it
dunno why im lucky i cant wrap around it
im always way too scared to ask about it
ive been tryna lose it since the day i found 

if you wanna go you can say less
he get packed like an HS
he was scared cs he was talkign shit w no chest
why you think that you get more if you pay less
wish it was painless

deserve prod tris

https://open.spotify.com/album/7mxSEqPaYMh2O0EZIOTjAW?si=7qihSTFNTYyVtjA6UHBDNw

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instrumental - tris
vocals - scrambl

i love you all

lyrics:

oh right so its my fault
looking down the barrel of a rifle
you dont have the guts to shoot till you do then what do i do from there
am i a fool for thinking you cared
am i a fool for thinking
how much did i miss by blinking
you were gone in a moment

you were gone i was frozen
tho im not sorry for cutting you off
you still come up when im dozing off
you still come up in my mind

you still come up all the time
and theres nothing i could do to change it
and theres nothing i could do to embrace
you dont have the guts to shoot to kill  (a lot of times i guess)

ive only seen you as a coward
and youve only gone and proved me right
its the only certainty ive felt in the time with you in my life

you dont have the guts
ive felt so bad even though "i could not"
ive been getting told what to feel by the lot
ive been getting told not to feel and to rot

its hilarious
never felt so fucking serious
and you tell a cat to not be curious
guess you lied when you said it didnt hurt

you dont have the guts to shoot to kill  (a lot of times i guess)

ive only seen you as a coward
and youve only gone and proved me right
its the only certainty ive felt in the time with you in my life

shoot to kill

@trisonline

fuck you harshy there is NO newtone on this

lyrics

-

i aint even talking but im fuckin loud
y'all some fucking garbage and you talk a lot
if i had the target, i know i could hit that shot
if he really wanna run it i can show how you get knocked
even if i hit it, you know you dont got a shot
its like 1v3 with .223 i take the fucking lot
watch it crumbling im stumbling and they just fucking watch
i might fall back down but ill be damned if i dont come back up

why you clonin, wanna be me
yeah i promise its not fun when you see these
little bits of information that i've come to know
on the edge of fuckin dropping the whole net n going ghost
cause if we talking bout
shit i been around
shit man, its been a while
feel like i just climbed a fucking mountain, new air breathing now
i tried so hard to say away
just had to put you in your place

bitches been talking
but i just keep dropping
i drop all my shit then say fuck that
if he got problems
i swear we gon solve em
i promise that he will not bite back
im not the enemy
but you know you not a friend of me
we gonna mash em like sticky keys
i rlly promise i stay going up, up
fuck that shit
ill duck that shit
cuz all you bitches sold
you know you cant come at me cuz i been on a fuckin roll
and if i had to drop it all and quit, id rather fold
cause i cant leave this shit behind me, if i tried, id probably cut me down

bite (tris)

i dont wanna see yo face
sorry baby i'll be late
i dont wanna go on dates
lose my mind i go cray
tell me something i can say
tell me what would make u stay
been going through this too much
hop on a flight to la
hop on a flight to la
karma a bitch
we kick him out of the mix
touch a mic i get rich
that boy dumb he a fish
you not gonna blow u a dud
you not my gang not my bud
we spend a rack on grub
you cant tell me its all love
but you know i love you
i just hope that you love me too
will you still try to love me
after all that i put you
dont wanna let you go
i wanna let you know
that you're all that i know
i want you no more
i want you no less
big hole in my chest
pull my hair i stress
turn me to a mess

karma (violet)

@trisonline

dont even have any words
say what u want idc if it hurts
make no sense im just vomiting words
im feeling sick ive been vomiting

youre almost everything id ever want 
somehow youre still nothing
youre almost everything id ever ask for 
somehow youre still nothing

they see a problem they run like athletics
they like to talk but not back it up
and they say that were pathetic
they never look at whos speaking up

give me an offer ill take it up
i think im using up most my luck
taking my time got no need to rush
minutes they turn into hours

minutes they turn into hours
im waiting for may and the flowers
im waiting for things that i may never discover
i dont know why but i hope that i never recover

minutes they turn into hours
i dont really mess with the others
i never move i just hover
i dont think that ill ever get better
i dont think that ill ever get better

minutes turn to hours prod me n tris

Fijiomw by skiMAR & Tboii 🖤

@trisonline goated producer
@777mude

I don't really know what u want
why do you keep saying im a loner
I don't wanna smoke that runt
we already know its over

think im getting sick of feeling like im done
but ur telling me its alright
only pay attention when im acting like im fucked
its the same as always

walk beside me but its different
I just wanted you to listen
what I had ended up missing
and there isn't room to fix it

what was that for
why you want more
every word like sending shots from a 12 boar (@bonedoji reference)

why my lungs sore
can't we talk more?
was this really all the love that you sought for

@777mude:
I fell in love
I fell in love
the shit you did to me
it felt so rough
i cant go back now
im way to stuck
and i dont care now
dont give a fuck
blood on my nightstand
my sheets are stained 
nothing to lose and
nothing to gain
I feel so lost here
and Im ashamed
that youre still stuck here
dealing with pain

Me:
I don't really know what u want
why do you keep saying im a loner
I don't wanna smoke that runt
we already know its over

think im getting sick of feeling like im done
but ur telling me its alright
only pay attention when im acting like im fucked
its the same as always

same as always + mude (p.tris)

PROD @MENTAL

I DONT WANNA DIE CAN YOU HEAR ME CRY
THOUGHTS OF YOU AND HIM KEEP ME UP AT NIGHT
AND I THINK ITS MY FAULT I CANT DO IT RIGHT
TELL ME THAT YOU LOVE ME I WANNA HEAR IT TWICE
CLOSE MY EYES ALL I SEE IS YOU
IF THIS LOVE IS TRUE IT MUST BE A FLUKE
MAKE ME INDIGO BABY TURN ME BLUE
PURPLE ON MY JEANS YOU WONT SEE THE TRUTH
FEEL YOU IN MY SOUL
I MIGHT FALL DOWN
THIS DONT FEEL RIGHT
I SEE YOU AROUND
AND ITS ALL THATS ON MY MIND
HELP ME FEEL ALRIGHT

IF I STAY AND IF I WAIT WILL YOU LOVE ME 
IF I PRAY AND RECIPROCATE WHEN YOU TOUCH ME
IF I CHANGE IN ANY WAY THAT YOU WANTED
IF I CAVE CAN I BE SOMBODY YOURE FOND OF
IF YOU HURT ME ILL FORGIVE AND FORGET IT
IF YOU CURSE ME ILL REGRET MY ACCEPTANCE
TRIED TO TURN ME TO DOLL CAUSE YOURE JEALOUS
EASY SWAYING ME IM SURE ILL REGRET IT
YEAH YEAH
I KEEP THROWING UP
YEAH ITS NEVER ENOUGH YEAH
IS IT HATE OR LOVE
YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH
I CANT FEEL YOUR TOUCH
YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH
YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH

twice ft. mental

lryics later hi gujys song war people cover art by me prod me flip you

scrambl

i dont care abt the side effects
are you stupid why you asking if im leaving yet
you dont know how fukcing bad it gets
i know we aint talk for ages sorry i forget

ho i know you you just duck when youre called out
u know u far away u talking on my phone now
he know what he done he aint even try n clear his name
they try to say i changed

did i do enough
rlly thought i healed but i still want me gone
i could never pick that up
i cant pick it up
i dont want your drugs

i got headaches and it gets too much
im not trying to earn back your trust
i cant name a time i dont know when to start
you can sit back while i tear myself apart

daikyu

i think thats just how it goes
everyone's a poser
i dont know where but im going there
i think that im awful
i think i got set up
but would you come back if you had the choice

no i dont have the choice
i been stuck in one place for a year now
there's nothing more to talk about
dont know why im fucking up so i just keep on fucking round

you could take my life
i'd kill myself to be something
i know that shit will never get better
handful of pills tell me "take it or suffer"
cant rely on shit like that i can't be altered

i see people looking for a way to break the clock and wind it back to change the things that they regret and fix the problems that they left but i could never tell
if that's something that i would do
if its something that i could do

scrambl

and theres nothing i could do
tell me why would i want to
dont go saying "zy you aint call back"
what you said that aint nothing you can take back

dunno why they hate us when they taking what we built up
tried to talk to you i swear that shit was rlly torture
get off their dicks you aint nothing to them
mfs rlly would just kill u in a second w no second thoughts

minutes turn to hours prod me n tris

zhenyue