Never Coming Home

produced/mixed/mastered by me
i can't listen to you again
it makes me miss all of my friends
the ones who wish that i were dead
these memories won't leave my head
and the cotton candy cigarettes
the smoke detected killer threat
the knots too tight to break a sweat 
around my neck or better yet

tied around a willow tree
the blossoms cover everything
can you hear the song i sing
the ground gets closer to my feet
i crave a bittersweet release
something warmer something free
and then i hear the crackling
and so the earth my body meets

below the tree where i will rest 
im turning blue my eyes are red
the little ones are tucked in bed
and you still yell as if they're deaf
they're crying for you father dear
you said you'd always be right here
the heroin inside the drawer
the days go on you crave it more

one more shot
and you'll be fine
wish that you could read my mind
stars above they hear my cry
please don't let them die (die die)
mothers gone i watched her fly
away from us she lied lied lied
rub my head say it's alright
ill try my best to make things right

father sister brother cry
as they look in your lifeless eyes
without your love what will i do
The heaven song will play for you

heaven song

(Thank you to all who have listened to this song over all this time, it means the world to me.)

Took a lot of courage to upload this. No edits, all improv. Sorry.

[i was visited by an angel
she walked past me as i was playing bass in the stairway
i swear i could feel her
as she clenched her fists and thought 
its been way to long since ive touched those lips 
so she came back my way
she had nothing but a frown to face
she gave me a grin and i swear 
my entire world erased

she said ive been thinking a lot about you 
and i couldnt muster any words out of my 
stupid fucking mouth but
i nodded my head okay
and she turned away
she went the other way

since that day ive been having these dreams 
these nightmares that i only know as nightmares 
because i see your face 
and were together again 
and youre holding my hand 
and youre caressing my face 
and i cant stop dreaming about these 
heavenly places that you brought me to 
one day is just to much for me to face]

Angel

Hotel Books - Nothing Was The Same

the last demo before the album is officially released
(artwork done by allyssa van cuyk)

affection

hellloooooo im back with another SONG!!!! thank you everyone who listens to my music it means the world to me and i hope you enjoy this :~}

words:
i don't really think that i'm good at anything
i wish i could just give up and leave
but i know you'd probably be sad that im gone
so i guess i'll just have to suck it up and be strong

what do you even see in me
my eyes are uneven my pants are unclean
and i cant help but think that nothing will last
so i'm sorry if i hurt you and leave us in the past

please don't be selfless, baby i won't mind
if you decide to leave me for a better guy
cuz i can be hard to love sometimes
my unpredictable feelings plague my mind

i cant stop smelling that perfume you wear
it keeps me going even when im going nowhere
i don't deserve this i think that you're perfect 
uuuuHUHUHhhhhHUhHHhhUUUUUH

aaaaaaaaaaaa x4

i think i love you
i think i love you

i think (i love you)

sleep- scruffpuppie and spencer

A song from Scruffpuppie's newest album (unreleased)
Lyrics:
about a year ago
it was raining here and cold
and my toes were turning blue
and my eyes were getting huge
and i spent every day with u
and everybody knew
drugs were always running thru
so it didn't matter who

so i ran away from home
and i went further down the road
i only packed a couple things
it was either u or me

i left my mom a note
and all the things i wrote
made her cry and cry
she couldn't get oh why
why i never could've stayed
she called me much too late
and im really fucking scared
but i can't even care

cos im never coming home
ill take the longer road
and im scared to go alone
but im never coming home

HELLO MY NAME DEON

Scruffpuppie - im never coming home

music video: https://youtu.be/dpTSzwYpQqM
My first studio recorded single!!
lyrics:
i don't know why i can't see
my vision's getting real blurry
my legs are numb my arms are weak
my body has a fleeting feeling
took the hit and held it in
and then my lungs start to expand
fill all the cracks and crevasses
i can't go back towards my friends

geometry embraces me
my ego's gone and so empty
now it's dark and nothing has need
i'll write you back when i can breathe

everyday

White Rooms (Acoustic)

she/her
https://linktr.ee/scruffpuppie
willows weep for me
notes for growing up (demos) presave link in the linktree

affection

scruffpuppie

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i feel terribly lonely

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