Never Coming Home

you lost your dog in oceanside 
skin as sharp as a porcupine 
why are we so mortified 
to give it another try

i see you in your mothers eyes 
my skin is sharp like a porcupine 
why are we so mortified 
to give it another try

i don't care
i just want to 
i don't care

sleeping in the garden 
drinking on the weekend
cover me in blankets  
hold me like a secret

standing in the kitchen
everything is broken
wonder what's behind this
door i never open

everybody's watching
no one pays attention
i don't think i'm sick
but i think it's an infection

everything's a pattern
living is a sequence
drowning in a tidepool 
kiss me in the deep end

but i don't care
i just want to
touch your hair
and be beside you 
i don't care
i just like you
i'll cut your hair
i'll run away with you

you lost your dog in oceanside 
skin as sharp as a porcupine 
why are we so mortified 
to give it another try

porcupine

written/produced/mixed & mastered by me
and so begins the bitter wind
cutting up my brittle hands and heavy heaving hearts will stop again
ive made a name to call me by and see it with your own two eyes i don't think that 
your love was ever here
and now im in a darker place where light has no room to escape and hearts will glow to create something safe
a dream of sorts you're on the porch and talking to the moon and he says "every little thing will be okay"

and you will wonder why it's not
and while your heart begins to rot 
all the love you had for me will dissipate
and all the branches in the yard growing fungus going far things will start to finally create a face

dissipate

Lies I’ve told myself since you left

ticho v lese mezi stromy RAW

this is not as good as it could have been but im building a new computer and will lose all my demos so i decided to top this one off and post it!! :p thank you for listening

lyrics:
i'm never really happy with anything that i do
i always feel like someone else could've done it better
i know that didn't rhyme i just wanted to say
that i feel this way every fucking day
of my life

but it's ok i know that i'll be alright
and maybe one day i'll feel like i did something right

something right [demo]

lyrics:
Im floating in my bed
Thoughts pooling in my head
My teeth are chomping down on popcorn
I can’t feel my limbs
My body feels so dim
My brain receptors follow him

I feel sound 
I feel sight
I feel everything around me tonight

The moon man looks at me
His toothy grin widening
My heart drops all the way to my knees
My vision’s getting blurry
Oh god why can’t I hurry
I can’t remember where we began

thin mints and popcorn (DEMO)

the last demo before the album is officially released
(artwork done by allyssa van cuyk)

affection

A song from Scruffpuppie's newest album (unreleased)
Lyrics:
about a year ago
it was raining here and cold
and my toes were turning blue
and my eyes were getting huge
and i spent every day with u
and everybody knew
drugs were always running thru
so it didn't matter who

so i ran away from home
and i went further down the road
i only packed a couple things
it was either u or me

i left my mom a note
and all the things i wrote
made her cry and cry
she couldn't get oh why
why i never could've stayed
she called me much too late
and im really fucking scared
but i can't even care

cos im never coming home
ill take the longer road
and im scared to go alone
but im never coming home

HELLO MY NAME DEON

Scruffpuppie - im never coming home

catnaps in an abandoned parking lot

music video: https://youtu.be/dpTSzwYpQqM
My first studio recorded single!!
lyrics:
i don't know why i can't see
my vision's getting real blurry
my legs are numb my arms are weak
my body has a fleeting feeling
took the hit and held it in
and then my lungs start to expand
fill all the cracks and crevasses
i can't go back towards my friends

geometry embraces me
my ego's gone and so empty
now it's dark and nothing has need
i'll write you back when i can breathe

she/her
https://linktr.ee/scruffpuppie
willows, weep for me

affection

scruffpuppie

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