Never Coming Home

written/produced/mixed & mastered by me
and so begins the bitter wind
cutting up my brittle hands and heavy heaving hearts will stop again
ive made a name to call me by and see it with your own two eyes i don't think that 
your love was ever here
and now im in a darker place where light has no room to escape and hearts will glow to create something safe
a dream of sorts you're on the porch and talking to the moon and he says "every little thing will be okay"

and you will wonder why it's not
and while your heart begins to rot 
all the love you had for me will dissipate
and all the branches in the yard growing fungus going far things will start to finally create a face

dissipate

produced/mixed/mastered by me
i can't listen to you again
it makes me miss all of my friends
the ones who wish that i were dead
these memories won't leave my head
and the cotton candy cigarettes
the smoke detected killer threat
the knots too tight to break a sweat 
around my neck or better yet

tied around a willow tree
the blossoms cover everything
can you hear the song i sing
the ground gets closer to my feet
i crave a bittersweet release
something warmer something free
and then i hear the crackling
and so the earth my body meets

below the tree where i will rest 
im turning blue my eyes are red
the little ones are tucked in bed
and you still yell as if they're deaf
they're crying for you father dear
you said you'd always be right here
the heroin inside the drawer
the days go on you crave it more

one more shot
and you'll be fine
wish that you could read my mind
stars above they hear my cry
please don't let them die (die die)
mothers gone i watched her fly
away from us she lied lied lied
rub my head say it's alright
ill try my best to make things right

father sister brother cry
as they look in your lifeless eyes
without your love what will i do
The heaven song will play for you

heaven song

Light Breaks Through

Verse 1 
The streets are empty, 
the windows are dark
Every step feels heavier
 than the last
I carry the silence 
like a stone in my chest
Waiting for a sign, 
but nothing comes back

Pre-Chorus (quiet shift)
And I can’t tell if I’m fading
Or if the night’s just overstaying

Chorus (uplifting)
But the light breaks through, it always does
Shadows fade when it’s just us
We are stronger than the fear we knew
The light breaks through, it always does

Verse 2
The clock ticks slowly, 
the years disappear
The world keeps moving 
but I stay here
The walls remember 
every word I’ve said
But I’m still alive, 
I’m not finished yet

Pre-Chorus
And I can’t tell if I’m sinking
Or if the world is slowly blinking

Chorus (uplifting)
But the light breaks through, it always does
Shadows fade when it’s just us
We are stronger than the fear we knew
The light breaks through, it always does

Verse 3
Hold on, hold on, 
the night won’t last
The dark is heavy 
but it breaks like glass
Hold on, hold on, 
we’re almost through
There’s a brighter sky 
waiting for you

Pre-Chorus
And I can’t tell if I’m sinking
Or if the world is slowly blinking

Final Chorus
The light breaks through, it always does
Shadows fade when it’s just us
We are stronger than the fear we knew
The light breaks through, it always does
Yeah, it always does


Light Breaks Through

Hotel Books - Nothing Was The Same

an art gallery could never be as magnificent as you

the last demo before the album is officially released
(artwork done by allyssa van cuyk)

affection

A song from Scruffpuppie's newest album (unreleased)
Lyrics:
about a year ago
it was raining here and cold
and my toes were turning blue
and my eyes were getting huge
and i spent every day with u
and everybody knew
drugs were always running thru
so it didn't matter who

so i ran away from home
and i went further down the road
i only packed a couple things
it was either u or me

i left my mom a note
and all the things i wrote
made her cry and cry
she couldn't get oh why
why i never could've stayed
she called me much too late
and im really fucking scared
but i can't even care

cos im never coming home
ill take the longer road
and im scared to go alone
but im never coming home

HELLO MY NAME DEON

affection

scruffpuppie