Never Coming Home

produced/mixed/mastered by me
i can't listen to you again
it makes me miss all of my friends
the ones who wish that i were dead
these memories won't leave my head
and the cotton candy cigarettes
the smoke detected killer threat
the knots too tight to break a sweat 
around my neck or better yet

tied around a willow tree
the blossoms cover everything
can you hear the song i sing
the ground gets closer to my feet
i crave a bittersweet release
something warmer something free
and then i hear the crackling
and so the earth my body meets

below the tree where i will rest 
im turning blue my eyes are red
the little ones are tucked in bed
and you still yell as if they're deaf
they're crying for you father dear
you said you'd always be right here
the heroin inside the drawer
the days go on you crave it more

one more shot
and you'll be fine
wish that you could read my mind
stars above they hear my cry
please don't let them die (die die)
mothers gone i watched her fly
away from us she lied lied lied
rub my head say it's alright
ill try my best to make things right

father sister brother cry
as they look in your lifeless eyes
without your love what will i do
The heaven song will play for you

heaven song

(Lyrics)

you can't fight
you keep running
find the light
and get home

In a home were there's life but we are scum
we are the same ain't no difference from what you make it
some struggle to live our lives
trying to fight to survive

oh I am trouble
oh I am in trouble (3x)

Trouble :(

dancin closer to the edge

Teenage Suicide

bedside kites - a sad song about a girl i no longer know

lyrics:
Im floating in my bed
Thoughts pooling in my head
My teeth are chomping down on popcorn
I can’t feel my limbs
My body feels so dim
My brain receptors follow him

I feel sound 
I feel sight
I feel everything around me tonight

The moon man looks at me
His toothy grin widening
My heart drops all the way to my knees
My vision’s getting blurry
Oh god why can’t I hurry
I can’t remember where we began

thin mints and popcorn (DEMO)

the last demo before the album is officially released
(artwork done by allyssa van cuyk)

affection

scruffpuppie