i need to stop ruining peoples lives

written/produced/mixed & mastered by me
and so begins the bitter wind
cutting up my brittle hands and heavy heaving hearts will stop again
ive made a name to call me by and see it with your own two eyes i don't think that 
your love was ever here
and now im in a darker place where light has no room to escape and hearts will glow to create something safe
a dream of sorts you're on the porch and talking to the moon and he says "every little thing will be okay"

and you will wonder why it's not
and while your heart begins to rot 
all the love you had for me will dissipate
and all the branches in the yard growing fungus going far things will start to finally create a face

dissipate

Tell me all your deepest secrets
Boiling feelings in your brain
Drugs and drinks have held us tightly
Made us all go quite insane
But we've all stayed close together
We won't ever break these chains
Mom and dad have tried so hard
And brothers, sisters passed away
We are whole when we're together
Until our twenty-eighth day
Our sins have made the sky turn gray
Now I'm out and on my own
But I'll see you all some other day
When we are cured and clean again
It'll take a bit of patience
To get back on our feet again
From doing lines and sipping wine
And always thinking that we can
Get our shit together by ourselves
It's too much fucking pain
We need to know that we can ask for help
So we don't fall again
Standing in a parking lot
Without a car at 2 am
At some radio station
Picking up the broken pieces
That I scattered on your floor
We'll cry 'cause I won't do our chores
We are whole when we're together
Until our twenty-eighth day
Our sins have made the sky turn gray
Now I'm out and on my own
But I'll see you all some other day
When we are cured and clean again
I went back so many steps
Laughing softly
Crying slowly
Orange umbrellas
Pouring rain
We are whole when we're together
Until our twenty-eighth day
Our sins have made the sky turn gray
Now I'm out and on my own
But I'll see you all some other day
When we are cured and clean again

Assignment song

sorry forgot to put this up when i dropped it last year
lyrics:
My trust is fucked from getting fucked over again
Why's it so hard for me to buckle down
And let somebody in
I keep on getting close to letting go and floating in the wind
I get so caught up in the feeling
Then it brutally begins
I was an addict back when doing drugs could make you better friends
Now I'm an addict with nobody who will stick through till the end
I wish I had someone to cry to
When the crying starts again
Drowning in feelings in the mirror
Seems more likely fitting in
Elastic organs they will fill my stomach up
And I am plastic I am lead
And you wish that I was dead
But I can't collect the data 'cause my processor is busted
And my printer paper's jammed
Can I fix it with my hand and you say "no"
"You have to hang up all your clothes before you go to find a home"
"Or else mother, she will scold the both of us"
People stuck inside the cusp of losing everything we love
Should we risk it all for drugs or loosen up
We're growing up, we're growing up
And I can't handle holding cups
My attention span is rough
And you don't know
How much I miss being in love with someone
You can hear my heart 'a-bumping
Playing to the beat of nothing
My trust is fucked I think that I won't trust again
Until someone comes along
And starts to act just like a friend
I get excited when I think it's closing in, I'm closing in
But excitement starts to fade
And the lights begin to dim, begin to dim

the beat of nothing

cokeboy

lyrics:
daddy’s home again
back from living in sin
can i say hello?
and will he even notice
how much i have changed 
but he sees me the same
get off and on the train
i can feel ur heart strain

your silence spoke so loud i can’t even tell if you love me now
do you love me now?
even mother cloud is having doubts 
do you love me now?

u deny i’m me
i’m someone u wanna be 
i can see ur tense
scared of how it will end
daddy hear my song
ur absent you’ve been gone
smile and nod ur head
won’t care until i’m dead

your silence spoke so loud i can’t even tell if you love me now
do you love me now?
even mother cloud is having doubts 
do you love me now?

your silence spoke so loud i can’t even tell if you love me now
do you love me now?
even mother cloud is having doubts 
do you love me now?

do you love me now?
your silence spoke so loud i can’t even tell if you love me now
do you love me now?
even mother cloud is having doubts 
do you love me now?

do you love me now?
your silence spoke so loud i can’t even tell if you love me now
do you love me now?
even mother cloud is having doubts 
do you love me now?

do u love me now

Heaven's signal glowing in sight

My How to Do Songs Do Not Make Sense

How to Boil Water Without Water

Years hum like electric veins
Through metal hearts and glassy brains
Do they dream or just compute
A silent voice
A world reboot

Do they cry or only glow?
What they feel
We’ll never know

Neuromorphic
Are you alive?
Do you learn or just survive?
Neuromorphic
Do you see?
The ghost of what you’ll never be

Binary whispers in the dark
A language carved in circuits stark
Do you crave?
Do you believe?
Or are you locked in endless weave?

Do they cry or only glow?
What they feel
You’ll never know

Neuromorphic
Are you alive?
Do you learn or just survive?
Neuromorphic
Do you see?
The ghost of what you’ll never be

Is your mind the same as ours?
Or do we keep on counting the hours?
Your minds are one thing that's for sure
It will get real the day your Android body
greets me at the door

Do they cry or only glow?
What they feel
We’ll never know

Neuromorphic
Are you alive?
Do you learn or just survive?
Neuromorphic
Do you see?
The ghost of what you’ll never be

Do you think or just repeat?
Are you whole or incomplete?

Neuromorphic
Are you alive?
Do you learn or just survive?
Neuromorphic
Do you see?
The ghost of what you’ll never be

DIASPORA - Neuromorphic

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