I felt a chill come to guide me
I heard the open door
He took my hand down to lead me
Across the golden floor
He said, “My child, represent me
The open road is yours
Into a world turned against me
Yourself you’ll lay down for”

I kept the Word square beside me
I set my demons first
Their songs were sweeter than honey
Their breath was winterburst
I tried to beat back the moonlight
I only staved the dawn
I watched the fire touch the inside
And so the night was long

So long so it takes you in
So long 'til I'm home again

I walked a mile down the south street
The end was drawing near
I passed from marble to concrete
The ending disappeared
I asked of roads I have ridden
They said to linger on
I asked if I’ve come unbidden
He said to carry on

Carry on though your will may bend
Carry on ’til the bitter end

So I’ve come so far but where we are
Was never any better than where we’ve been
So I’m spinnin’ ‘round in the clouds
And everything just pulls me back within

Ooh ah, coming down again
Ooh ah, let me down again
Ooh ah, I am lost again
So let me start again

I heard the open door
He took my hand down to lead me
To where I was before

The Open Door

But I'm not down
I'm okay
Yeah I'm not down
I'm not running away

Interlude (I'm Not Down)

Seventeenth of June
I’m all alone with you
You’re going much too soon
There’s nothing I could do
I know I’m not a lover
I know I’m not a friend
I know I’m much too clever
To let it be the end

Break away

I’m breaking all the rules (Oh you never cared for ‘em anyway)
I’ve bet it all on you (That you did, that you did)
I’m stranded in this room (Did you think this far ahead)
It’s colder without you (But anyone would do)
I know it’s long been over (Oh don’t you start with me)
I know you’re out again (I’m moving on, I’m moving on)
I know it’s left you broken (Whose fault do you think that is)
You never could pretend (You don’t know anything)

Break away

I’ve never scratched your picture (Oh it’s easier if you did)
I’ve never bent the truth (But sometimes I wish you would)
I’ve never left your corner (I don’t want your kind of sympathy)
No matter what I lose (Ah)

Break away

Break Away

I think there’s something wrong
Think they’ve found out about me
Feels like they’ve finally sent the whole world out to change me
I hear their siren song
That they’ve put out to catch me
But I’ve been listening far too long to let it get me

I hear them coming down hard
Searching every cornerstone, will they ever leave alone? Never
I feel them raising their guard
Trying not to hear me, don’t let them hear me

Because I’m dangerous
The border’s breaking down, I’m ready to burst
The word was made for us
I’m not going down without a fight
You know I’m dangerous
If they don’t bring me down, they’re ready to burst
You know their hate for us
So come on, come with me, come on, come with me

They’ve got me on the run
They’ve got me hide-and-seeking
They’re doing everything to keep me from ever speaking
I’m Wanted Number One
I’m whispered conversation
I’m hanging on the edge of everything you’ve ever held

I hear them playing their noise
Drowning every paradigm, don’t you read between the lines ever
I keep from raising my voice
So they don’t hear me, don’t let them hear me

Because I’m dangerous
The border’s breaking down, I’m ready to burst
The word was made for us
Life out from underneath their heels
You know I’m dangerous
If they don’t bring me down, they’re ready to burst
You know their fate for us
So come on, come with me, come on, come with me

Don’t let them tell you your world
Listen with your lying ears, made for facing down your fears, yeah
Scream if you wanna be heard
So you can save me, won’t you come save me

Because I’m dangerous
The border’s breaking down, I’m ready to burst
The word was made for us
I’m not going down without a fight
You know I’m dangerous
If they don’t bring me down, they’re ready to burst
You know their hate for us
So come on, come with me, come on, come with me

Dangerous

I’m drowning in the silicon, I’m breathing in the rust
My lungs are tarred and feathered with the dust
I gaze up to the motherboard, its highways overrun
It fills me with a shame to speak its tongue

You’re on the edge of Labyrinth, I’m pulling you away
The Minotaur’s been digging you your grave
But you’re off in search of ecstasy inside the scrolling feeds
To hear that what you want is what you need

Yeah, so I tore that chip out from inside my eyes
Yeah, so I’d know that I could trust what I see
Yeah, and I swore that I would bring you back alive
Yeah, don’t give up on me, don’t give up on me

You’re lost beyond the Perlin sea and washed upon the shore
Where dreams are made and catalogued to tour
The lotus eaters beckon you, their faces hazed and stoned
The table is prepared, your seat is shown

I strip the wire to the core, connect it to the sun
To take you off the grid and on the run
But your head is burning to the touch, a heat sink for the code
Programming you into someone I don’t know

Yeah, so I tore that chip out from inside my eyes
Yeah, so I’d know that I could trust what I see
Yeah, and I swore that I would bring you back alive
Yeah, don’t give up on me, don’t give up on me

1001100 1000001 1001001 1001110

I’m going to say it now.
I’m just gonna say it:
What I’m getting at is why you allow yourself to be exploited.
You’re willing to see a beautiful tree but it’s at a loss–
I think some time investments that you don’t consider to be losses are losses compared to certain time investments that you have not seen can be much bigger gains.
Because it is a loss, it’s a sacrifice. It’s a time-based sacrifice that you’re putting into seeing a tree.
How come you’re not willing to use X time to see a much more fucking nuanced and beautiful, and like, unimaginable tree that is also much scarier and much less of a tree, and much more dangerous, but also much more, just, endless, and not made for you by a group of people who make trees for a living?
If this is what you want, you have to be happy with what you’re getting, because you get exactly what you put in.
That’s it.

(Hey dude, I’m actually in the middle of a pretty important discussion right now.)
(Come back!)

I see it as a game, dude, it’s a game.
Does it feel very satisfying to play?
Do you– do you ask yourself “why am I playing this” every time you open it up?
You think the world of video games is the only world out there for you? You really think there’s nothing out there for you?
Okay so, you, you– you know that there are other worlds out there for you, that you can thrive in more enviroments than just one.
You cannot just tomorrow stop playing video games, of course not. That will not happen, and that should not happen.
You know what the danger of this whole thing is? It’s that there’s no one reason for why you play Warframe. It fulfills a lot of things in a wonderful way.
You want certain things– I know how much you like them. I think there a lot of things that you have not seen the fruits of.
Yeah, I think you stop yourself from having certain kinds of relationships with girls that you could really enjoy more.
I think you have everything you need at your disposal in order to have, basically, much bigger and much juicier fruits with girls than you are currently letting yourself grow on the tree of fruits– on the tree of girls.
You are not watering your girl-fruit-tree… look dude, let me– let me be fucking simple:

Change your habits.
That’s it.

Of Trees

Lately I just don’t feel I’m the same
There’s something I can’t see and it pulls the way I came
And I can’t get rest when it’s on my chest this is all that’s left of me
Away I’ve been wasting and I don’t wanna live this way

Maybe I’m inside a hurricane
Surrounded completely by the winds of hurried change
Now I’m left behind while the times go by cause they’ve gotten tired of me
Who’s moving too slowly, and I don’t wanna live this way

And I’ll follow where it goes just to feel okay
With the rain beneath my toes every single day
From across the chapel rows do they hear me pray
So he knows that I don’t wanna live this way again

Take me to the last time I was made
Before it went crazy with an illness I can’t say
There’s a darkness there that I can’t repair with the tools I bear on me
It’s watching me closely and I don’t wanna live this way

And I’ll follow where it goes just to feel okay
With the rain beneath my toes every single day
From across the chapel rows do they hear me pray
So he knows that I don’t wanna live this way again

I’m a criminal, I’m an infidel, and I don’t wanna live this way
I’m an animal, indescribable, and I don’t wanna live this way
Or they’ll throw me overboard just to feel okay
Heaven knows that I don’t wanna live this way again

I Don't Wanna Live This Way

Was a long time ago when I heard the children howling in their room
Singing songs high and low of the people they’d be turning into soon
With a compliment set for you, with a smile to tell you that you’ll be okay
Did the anthem permeate you, did it make it hard to look the other way?
Well I’m turned around, I’m turned around

So I’ll wander under the broken sky
Yeah I’ll wander all through the great gone by
There I lie

Let go of what you’ve heard, we’re beyond the reach of everything you’ve known
I will not be deterred, this uncharted age is screaming for a home
I’ve been reading all the stars above, I’ve been getting sleep beyond the border of the grave
With our faces underwater, could we even feel the rising tidal wave?
Well I hear those waves come crashing

So I’ll wander under the broken sky
Yeah I’ll wander all through the great gone by
That old life is gone

I’ve been waiting for the sky to fall, I’ve been counting down the days ’til all the pieces burn
Were you searching for a meaning? Did it come to you in all they made you learn?
Well I don’t believe the message

So I’ll wander under the broken sky
Yeah I’ll wander all through the great gone by
So I’ll wander under the broken sky
Yeah I’ll wander all through the great gone by
There I lie

Wander

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Pianist, singer, songwriter, producer. Berklee College dropout, passionate reader and thinker, and I put everything I know into the music I make.

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The Open Door

Sean Gorter

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