Falling in Love with your Best Friend by paul baribeau

I fell deep into the bitter sea
Felt so cold, yeah my body went weak
Red alert you say you wanna see me
Got so high till I couldn't think straight
Heart palpitations sweat perspiring
Head gone numb and I couldn't breathe
Party fell dead now you wanna speak
Saw your face now I wanna leave, sorry

It's hard enough for us to be friends
Never got it right, I don't wanna pretend
Wasted years on us, I don't wanna be
Living in a dream, out of reach, makes me wanna scream

Oh no, don't make it look easy
Too close, I can feel you breathing
Hate this, you make me feel useless
I'm not gonna be the one that breaks first

Curse this scene, get me out of here
Too cliche for the hell of it, maybe
The writers just wanna, embarrass me, probably
Script might change, but I wanna quit, way too
… Naive, for my own good, so what now?
Surreptitious and ineloquent
No cares left, think I'm ready to throw up
… Gotta dig a way outta this hole I dug

It's hard enough for us to be friends
Never got it right, I don't wanna pretend
Wasted years on us, I don't wanna be
Living in a dream, out of reach, makes me wanna scream

Oh no, don't make it look easy
Too close, I can feel you breathing
Fuck that, don't tell me you love me
I don't need false hope to believe in

I don't wanna be the one that breaks first

Bitter

thanks to my brother for the beautiful music u hear in the background his creation inspired me to write these words💚

my poem

NO MORE SOUND

ART WILL BE GONE

Matriarch in a ball jar
Family farm lost its charm 
Busy tearing the roof off
Bobby’s burning the barn
Wonder where will the rats go?
Into the basement I’m sure
Healthy and grown
Sick sad alone 


Sick sad alone
Sick sad alone
Sick sad alone
Sick sad alone

Matriarch in a ball jar 
Suburban home lost its charm
Fell asleep on the floor
Furniture was gone
Took my fathers moonshine 
Drew up the line
Crossed that line several times
I’m fine
Life is a door
Never ignore the unseen
And you’ll be surely protected and free

Sick sad alone
Sick sad alone
Sick sad alone
Sick sad alone

But I thought I was doing fine
I thought I was doing fine
We thought he was doing fine
But we found him on the floor
Don’t look like him no more
We thought he’s doing fine
It’s easy if you’re trying to unpack
But I wanna go back

Produced by Jeff Friedl
Engineered and mixed by Matt McJunkins.
Mastered by Dave Collins.
Recorded at Secret Hand Studios; Los Angeles, CA.
Art by Mas Kihira.

Sick Sad Alone

hurt people hurt people

12 Feet Deep

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Led by wild and captivating front-man Fred Farrell, “Saytr Play have a burgeoning reputation for delivering a live show that’ll leave your jaw on the floor, ears begging for more” (This Feeling, Gigslutz). Over the past few years the band have sold-out several headline shows at some of Manchester’s most iconic music venues as well as appearing at YNot?, Kendal Calling, 110 Above. Receiving playlisting from Radio X, Spotify (New Music Friday UK, Hot New Bands, Indie List) Amazing Radio and BBC introducing, the band have racked close to two million streams on Spotify & a dedicated fanbase. 

Following their hiatus, Saytr Play returned this year with ‘The Butterfly Stitches EP’ amassing over 200,000 streams on Spotify (Editorial backing on New Music Friday UK and Fresh Finds), BBC Introducing support, playlisting on XS Manchester and national radio coverage on Radio X. Off the back of this success, Saytr Play sold out their headline show at Manchester's Deaf Institute a month in advance. Recent single ‘Brother (YKTDY)’ led to a session for BBC Introducing, continued features on national radio and Spotify editorial playlisting on the flagship ‘Fresh Finds’ playlist with over 2 million followers. 

Saytr Play release Falling Out Of Love on the 10th November, taken from their forthcoming ‘Life in Black and White EP’.  Highlighted by shimmering synths and driving guitars, Falling Out Of Love is an energetic indie pop track. 

“Behind the upbeat instrumentation the song itself touches on that point in a break up where you realise it isn’t meant to be. Our lyrics are always based on experiences we have lived and we hope you feel that. Enjoy!”

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