HOLD ME TIGHTTTT AS I CHOKE DOWN MY ENVYYY

⁂ DOKI DOKI VIBES ⁂

Dead

oxygen w/ Jackie Platinum (johnnyfriend)

Stuck in your mind 
You can’t be there for everyone 
Drugs you should try 
We can fiend them together, love 
Once upon a time we both had things to do everyday 
The we almost died when we wrecked your sister’s Chevrolet 

XANAX IS A TERRIBLE MIX WITH ALCOHOL 
I
WISH I COULD ADMIT YOUR DAD WAS WRONG 
And 
His stolen prescription; adderall 
How
Could I ever fix this after all?

The times when 
We were just 
Survivin 
You’re alive, 
Guess I did some
Thing right then 
Touch the sky
Whenev the sun is shinin
I’m just surprised 
We were too young to die then 

Ah ah I 
Ah ah I 
Oblong oxycada 
Watched a lot of friends die 
Damagin medulla oblongata inside 
Heart breaking my mama she wish god was in mine 
Ah ah I 
Ah ah I 
I rock gosha, Prada
And a lot of N9
No moonlight sonata 
Have u got up this high?
I can’t talk about it 
Not if god is implied 
Implied

drugs you should try (prod. suni vega)

This song is a reimagining of "My Heroine" by Silverstein. 
Featuring @killingartmusic
Produced by @jolst
Remixed by @carlby
Engineered, additional vocals by @horoshavibes

LYRICS (Written by Silverstein/ Shane Told)
The drugs begin to peak
A smile of joy arrives in me
But sedation changes to panic and nausea
And breath starts to shorten
And heartbeats pound softer
You won't try to save me
You just want to hurt me
And leave me desperate
You taught my heart
A sense I never knew I had
I can't forget
The times that I was lost and depressed from the awful truth
How do you do it?
You're my heroine
You won't leave me alone
Chisel my heart out of stone
I give in every time
You taught my heart
A sense I never knew I had
I can't forget
The times that I was lost and depressed from the awful truth
How do you do it?
You're my heroine

(Killing Art)
Heroine
Poisoning my veins
You’re the reason
That I’m going insane 

I get like this every single time
Fiending for your love like every night
Am I gonna overdose and waste my life
I’d feel less pain with a fucking knife

Like you tore my heart again
You’re just like heroine

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Heroine w/ Killing Art (Prod. Jolst)

Lyrics: Semisad & Deep October
Produced: D Maul & Splvsh Gvng
Mix/Master: Suni Vega

Isn't it so interesting
Live again though your mood affects me
Filaments of amends attesting
Static sounds bear no connections

Hold me tight
As I choke down my envy I might fall this time
The rain upon your skin like when we talked all night
And I can see the clouds and silver lines drawn fine
What a sweet, lost life

Deep October:
Fields of butterflies
Reality escapes her
And you're afraid to fly
Like gravity's your savior
What's happening to us
I would happily discuss
My, mastering your trust
It's been happening for months time
And I don't have the time anymore or the patience
This never feels right but of course I'ma chase it
Like how when it rains you can change different faces
Everything you claim is just strange with no basis


Somewhere in the garden feeling whole within
Can't keep me from falling, that's my only end
Crows up in the sky, in time I mulligan this mortal fit
Might I make it up when we both meet again
Hold me tight
As I choke down my envy I might fall this time
The rain upon your skin like when we talked all night
And I can see the clouds and silver lines drawn fine
What a sweet, lost life

rain skin FT. Deep October

Broken Promises [+ sogimura]

produced by: @freveltrothy
happy halloween (even though by the time I drop this it'll probably be like fuckin 2037)

i think i killed another man last night 
i didn’t even stop to check
either way he’s not moving 

all i need is a mask and a knife
i don’t ever need a glock
little bitch i’m not shooting 

only time i ever truly feel alive
is when i’m cutting thru his flesh
swear the sound kinda soothing 

i took his wallet 
saw his girl as a picture 
go to the address
finish it and bring the jewels in 

so i cry
till my eyes swell up
and i can’t fall asleep 
think i’m too fucked up
room spinning think i’m gonna throw up
and i guess im old news 
your new man look tough 

i wanna bleach my eyes but im way too scared
so i just stare at the sun 
wanna close myself
cus you were never there
at least you’re having fun

i don’t know why i’m like this 
how the fuck could i take another man from his family? 
so i go and wash the knife quick,
think i went overboard 
violence charge my battery 
no point tryna fight this,
know i’m gonna go to jail
insane
yeah i had to be 
when i cut him, kinda liked it 
need to go home now
hope my moms not mad at me 

i think i killed another man last night 
i didn’t even stop to check
either way he’s not moving 

all i need is a mask and a knife
i don’t ever need a glock
little bitch i’m not shooting 

only time i ever truly feel alive
is when i’m cutting thru his flesh
swear the sound kinda soothing 

i took his wallet 
saw his girl as a picture 
go to the address
finish it and bring the jewels in

killer (frevel)

featuring my dawg @homesick

[@sendflowrs:]
whats on ur mind?
whenever u talk
whenever u talk to me
cant help but lie
ur just a jester
laugh and smile at me
jus while i die
n my brain so fucked up
prozac helps me sleep
but i still cry 
whenever a memory comes to me i weep

i think my time is nigh
just let me out to dry
think ill pour another cup
or maybe roll n jus get high
n i been feelin hella fuzzy
u dont love me
need to lie
n i been screamin till my throat is sore
cant even say goodbye

[@homesick:]
say goodbye, goodbye
send me off n shut the lights off
i can't expect you to live with this
no i won't spell it out for you
it's all wrong
i can't try to replace this
but i can keep my distance
let the memories keep me jaded
take what you want, i'm reapin the product
i'm serving sets of the shit i got wrong
n shit i cant talk, what i never wanted            
back to that spot it's so cold there
im a shadow with a blank stare
old coat with that old tear
i got a new spot with some old fears

[@sendflowrs:]
whats on ur mind?
whenever u talk
whenever u talk to me
cant help but lie
ur just a jester
laugh and smile at me
jus while i die
n my brain so fucked up
prozac helps me sleep
but i still cry 
whenever a memory comes to me i weep

i think my time is nigh
just let me out to dry
think ill pour another cup
or maybe roll n jus get high
n i been feelin hella fuzzy
u dont love me
need to lie
n i been screamin till my throat is sore
cant even say goodbye

liar w/ homesick (addyexo)

don't feel my heart my heart no more yeah
too much wakin up passin out yeah 
too much i been thinking bout in my head

too much
no one
to tell me when to stop
aint got self love 

waiting for a change 
and i mean us
wipping of the dirt
and i mean dust   

another day getting geeked up
sip so much got a lean gut 
how do you say you love me when u give lust 
need u to say sum before i give up 
seasons may change but i feel stuck
might die over love like i mean drugs

got my heart
full of sorrow
and my blood
full of drugs i cant see nothing

can't change her mind
not even if i try
while she said
it was nothing
  
stay away from my home
i don't care no more
cause i feel like 
im burning 

???

smoke anotha cig 
and i roll another 
blunt while i roll
thru the function 

i used to get the shakes
when i looked at ur face
dream about us 
in london

stick a needle in my veins
and i slice thru my arm
just to see blood running 

don't feel my heart my heart no more yeah
too much wakin up passin out yeah 
too much i been thinking bout in my head

too much
no one
to tell me when to stop
aint got self love 

waiting for a change 
and i mean us
wipping of the dirt
and i mean dust   

another day getting geeked up
sip so much got a lean gut 
how do you say you love me when u give lust 
need u to say sum before i give up 
seasons may change but i feel stuck
might die over love like i mean drugs

𝚒 𝚖𝚎𝚊𝚗 𝚞𝚜 (YÜG x casperrr) [santana]

its early morning but i still cant sleep
i make myself some breakfast but i still cant eat
i started scrolling, it was more bad news
you said that You Were Meant For Me, that shit aint true

oh no, oh no, i dont know what to do
get me out of this hell, but im loving it too
oh no, oh no, i dont know what to do
now what killed me is dead, so we're both dead too

love is dead, yeah i said what i said
always cold, always hanging by a thread
im done with lies, only real thing counting bread
love is dead
love is dead

seven-thirty i already got the bag, uh huh
wish that you could see me
but i swear its not to brag, oh no
'cause i know
that im nothing but a shell
and i say im doing well
but i feign to get the point across

oh no, oh no, i dont know what to do
get me out of this hell, but im loving it too
oh no, oh no, i dont know what to do
now what killed me is dead, so we're both dead too

love is dead, yeah i said what i said
always cold, always hanging by a thread
im done with lies, only real thing counting bread
love is dead
love is dead

love is dead

honored to have @foreignforest on this
hkfiftyone:
i feel so messed up, like im never right
swear im drained just from putting up a fight
i wont sleep but im tired, so i might
want to be up in the sky

if im real, i just want to stay alive
if i wake up in the morning, i survived
keep it pushing even if i dont know why
know there's something more to life

foreign forest:
my chest
feels like it's full of rocks sometimes
yes
i've been working on my mind
tests
all i ever seem to find is
stress
i don't wanna lose my mind yet

i'm so tired of living in the future
thinking i'll be good
but for now im just a loser
this is not "it"
lost my "present" in the sewer
gotta get it
but i don't know what i'm doing

what if i
have a different story i could
tell in time
though i didn't get it on the
very first try
at least i can say i tried

hkfiftyone:
i feel so messed up, like im never right
swear im drained just from putting up a fight
i wont sleep but im tired, so i might
want to be up in the sky

if im real, i just want to stay alive
if i wake up in the morning, i survived
keep it pushing even if i dont know why
know there's something more to life

im tryna get back up, i swear i try my best
but every time i fall, i feel it in my chest
and then my brain gets numb, so then i make a mess
its like i cant think straight, but you probably get it

hold on
i swear it's gonna be okay
been too long, but swear it wont stay
youre not alone, i know its lonely
youre all in my prayers

Sample from Julia's Message of Hope
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5rvhgvmABL0

"It's ok to be afraid, but I don't want you to give up. Because the thing about depression, is it lies. You know, you gotta fight to be here. Because it does get better, and all of these lies will eventually go away. You just have to hold on, 'cause it doesn't get to win. It doesn't get to take you. Because you're stronger than that, and you're worth more than that.
And it's possible."

Stay Pt 2 w/ Foreign Forest

FritoHiLL,fhbk ig: fritohill 

PRODUCED, ENGINEERED BY 999ines
(Instrumental)

ENGINEERED BY FritoHiLL
(Vox, Mastering)

over the garden wall

problems

Die Young as Late as Possible

lyrics
—————————
u didn’t care like i thought u did
say u think im doin good
well its the opposite
fall back
get me off of this
death callin
show me where the coffin is

feelin bad but i know
if i try than i can
make my dreams come tru
like a star in the night
when it shines so bright
with the sky
& i think of u

& i know that
things aren’t always what they seem
i wanna go back
but i can only seem to do it when i sleep

i don’t like this
the feeling inside it
eats me alive
all the time
i cant fight this
indecisive
i feel like im dyin
pacin’ & whinin’
the tides keep on risin

& one day ill make this right
& one day
ill make my dreams come to life

produced by dead spyro

make my dreams come to life pt. 2 [prod. dead spyro]

Thanks for listening!
Prod by luvgrip @luvgrip

brandnewheart/coldbrickwall

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