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sometimes when i get up at 6:20 i ask myself:
«what am I living for?»

ㅤㅤㅤそれはすべて意味がありますか？

no life left.

YOU GOTTA RUN RN

sendflowrs

Bumps

🌙👾🤖

feels2.0

i’ve been trying to write you
a series of poems
but nothings changing
ill bottle my problems
till i can’t contain them
they’ll stay right inside of my own head
and i just wanna know what it means
to be myself again
i’ve lost interest in the things that would help me just forget

and i don’t like the way i talk
i hate whats said
id rather just shut up
and eat this lead
i cant deal with dread
i cant deal with stress
i lie every single night awake in bed
my mind is sinking into sorrow
i cant see tommorow
yesterday was hollow
eyes are feeling shallow
i cant give a reason
why i should be breathing
wish for different seasons
so i can feel decent

some nights I lie in bed
trying to make sense 
of what i intend to be
my mom says get a job
but i cant hang on
to a life that isn't for me

but you and i
see eye to eye
as they keep movin forward
we get along
sing the same song
someday we'll make it out there

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poems for myself w/ stephanie cortez (caspr & saint tommorow)

@kennedysucks
https://soundcloud.com/user-551713846

decomposing [w/ kennedyxoxo] [noahmadethiss x jolst]

produced by @jolst and @sainttomorrow <3
out now on youtube through biteki & static:
https://youtu.be/DWpNablizm0
https://youtu.be/nEK_a4oFms8

music video:
https://youtu.be/95Kayd1Rpiw

hope u enjoy :)

lyrics:
i let my soul drift away just to feel something again
i sold my conscience for free, nothing to see but a man without his skin

cuz im nothing like him
you’re not the person i remember
i’ll just disappear into the trees
like i did back in december
my voice is cracking as i talk,
on the phone, i watch the clock
why won’t time just ever stop
why wasn’t i enough?
enter the forest, forget life,
i’ve done this shit for the last time. 

plenty people consider hitting my phone again
i don’t mind but i’d rather just be alone again
findin peace in my soul life ain’t that innocent
if i wanted em to be, things would be different
quiet nights in my attic, now the static is loud
i just wanna see my dad again and make him proud
tired of the recycled life i’m bottling up
smoked a little bit too much and now i’m throwing up

whats in the water, i wonder...
sink to the river, discover
see my reflection in ripples
i think i need you a little
more than i’d admit
i find it hard to reminisce
feel my stomach start to twist
and now i’m back with those i miss
woahhh

cuz im nothing like him
you’re not the person i remember
i’ll just disappear into the trees
like i did back in december
my voice is cracking as i talk,
on the phone, i watch the clock
why won’t time just ever stop
why wasn’t i enough?
enter the forest, forget life,
i’ve done this shit for the last time. 

enter the forest, forget life
i’ve done this shit for the last time x2

enter the forest, forget life

enter the forest, forget life [p. jolst x saint tomorrow]

spotify!

enter the forest, forget life [jolst x saint tomorrow]

produced by: https://soundcloud.com/prodmichael

lyrics:

try hard
where does it get me
i wake up, feeling so empty
if i die would you forget me
if i die would you forgive me
back to back another bad night
back to back another hard fight
lost again another black eye
lost again another black eye

it dont feel right
not at all
i try my best
but i just fall

coming up but i still feel down
got a couple k in my bank account
i dont wanna be here right now
you dont care if im here right now
blacked out
i dont wanna wake up
ima cover my scars with some make up
blacked out
i dont wanna wake up
ima cover my scars with some make up

where does it get me? (p. xmichaelwarren)

prod: aspect

(so cold, so cold,
so cold so cold so cold, 
yeah so cold, so cold)

the weddings ruined 
she's all alone
pin me down
wipe ur nose
raise a glass
make a toast
hate myself
how'd u know?
come back to my place
I promise its warm
but I cant let her parents see me
red marks on my face
my jacket is worn
bloody hands and she won't stop screaming

and I promise
everything will be okay. 
if you promise
you'll hold on til Saturday 
cus the weekend fixes everything 
and I know theres not much love to bring
to you
but ill still bring it every morning with my hands up,
get off my page u fuckin bitch go get ur bands up 
I heard she bleached all of her hair got a new man, fuck
ima lose my shit and break his legs so he cant stand up

guess I've been here before,
I've hit rock bottom, hate the taste of the floor
guess I've been here before, 
hit rock bottom im the one you ignore 
x2

stormcloak (aspect)

collapsing

collapsing. w/scapegoat (prod.deadspyro)

Intro:
Used to chill up in my treehouse.
High above the clouds, inside a world I couldn’t be found.
I was doing me, all by myself and staying positive.
Fall asleep and wake up, had a dream about accomplishments.
Ima do It all.
As long I can stay committed.
I don’t want a 9-5.
Cuz I’m too high above the city.
Know my mom is getting worried, promised I would make her proud, but...
then they cut my treehouse down.

Verse 1:
Flash forward twenty years.
Group work, twenty peers.
Stuck in grad school.
I’m mad cool, but that don’t matter here.

Had to sacrifice my goals, cuz now I got a family.
No more music, no more lyrics, no more dreams of winning Grammys.
Had to man up for my girl, and drop my plan to change the world.
Cuz they said that ain’t realistic.
Especially for misfits.
Integrity was cut in half.
Sit atop a lonely stump.
Think about what could’ve been.
I can’t go back, but we ain’t done.

Outro:
Cuz I built my son a treehouse.
And made it somewhere he will always be found.
He can be himself. ima cherish his accomplishments.
Got a new role, great man on my father shit.

Ima tell him everything they never let me learn.
And ima teach him how to swim in case the bridges ever burn.
I know that one day, he gon make it and I’ll see him at the top.
Love my family forever, even after time stops.

@sorrow - i miss my treehouse (prod. 8ROKEBOY)

Produced by bapop x ayoleybeats

Lyrics

Laying in my bed, been up for 24 hours
I don't wanna feel the love unless the love is ours
I should learn to let go but I'm honestly a coward
I'm afraid that we're past our final hour

Baby where'd you go?
I been missing you since
I made that grave mistake
I think I should take a hint

That you're done with for good
But I still wonder if we could make it work out
But then again I wonder if we would

Cause we're both fucked up, we don't know what we want
But I know I want you back and that I never could front
I'm like I was when I had that job calling outbound
I don't care about shit, I only work when you're around

Come back baby
Won't you save me?
I hope you don't hate me
I could never even if I say that I do

I only have cause it hurt so much
To go without what I had
Your touch on my soul made me glow
And how dark it's been without, you don't even wanna know

I can't escape from myself
I know I'll burn in hell
For the things that I did
But I never would tell

Nicotine on my tongue
Bad build up in my lungs
Metal press on my lid
My hand is holding a gun

Send a signal from my brain to my hand just to end them all
Place I'm in just abysmal like the hole inside my heart
If I had a fucking nickle every time I fell to parts
I could buy a fucking missile and blow up for real this time

I get lost when in my mind
All my thoughts are you & I
Think bout all the times
That you fed me up with lies

Telling me you loved me
Ain't nothing else above me
But I know everything is
At the bottom of the pit

Fuck this, I'm pissed
My pain I'm in
I don't think I'll ever get
What the fuck it is I did

spotify.

UNI.

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/2shXwMVkuarIsLjigxyKtS?si=674a852900204a1c
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/fi/album/stay/1566083025?i=1566083026
YouTube: https://youtu.be/95aim9tU9rk

[Verse 1]
I hate it sitting alone when my thoughts attack
‘Cos I lost my shield a while ago 
I'm really sorry if I put it on your back
There's not way I could know

[Pre-Chorus]
I don’t want you to leave
I wan’t you to stay right here with me
You’re the reason I feel how I feel
I want us to be what we are in my dreams

[Chorus]
I need you by my side
I got you on my mind 
Everything around me
Reminds me of your smile

[Verse 2]
I know what you're thinking 
He just really hates to be alone
But I promise you
That you're the one I love

I will admit when I'm wrong
Not always easy to see
But I'll give it my all
And then I know we can be 

It's always better with you
I haven't felt that in weeks
My tunnel's lighting up too
And I can finally breathe

[Pre-Chorus]
I don’t want you to leave
I wan’t you to stay right here with me
You’re the reason I feel how I feel
I want us to be what we are in my dreams

[Chorus] x2
I need you by my side
I got you on my mind 
Everything around me
Reminds me of your smile

Stay

produced by: @prodneverforever

lyrics, mixing and mastering done by me 

and my eyes 
they burn white
where u been
all this time, i
i’m lonely
on white wine 
u won’t win
this time, i 
i won’t leave
and that’s fine 
and codeine leaks 
from my eyes, i
won’t breathe 
not this time, 
so get up
and don’t cry, boy
x2

burnwhite.

AMV: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SZE1pcbPkcQ
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// Twitter: https://twitter.com/6obby
// Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/c/6obby
 Featuring HKFiftyOne
// Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/hkfiftyone/
// Twitter: https://twitter.com/hkfiftyone
// Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/user/HKFiftyOne

Worries (ft. HKFiftyOne)

never sit in silence.

https://soundcloud.com/c-o-r-p-s-e

I was told to love myself but then went and dated it.
Shipment closing I've been clouting working up my banishment.
Keep it simple, up the hatred think up on the internet.
Everything for nothing, frightened thinking it's so imminent.
All I talk about is music speaking lonely, me, me, me
Run up through the traffic, end my life while I hear a beep, beep, beep
Thinking I'm a winner but my numbers scary e, t, c
Sayin I'm all better, up my problems, someone hurt me, please
Leaking head my issues solved thru sadness
Topple over friends to get the Madness
Level up till gaining swag to Harness
Soul is raw and crunchy like a Radish
You are my own take on hell now.
I'm sad, man, cant you fukn tell now?

COFFEE (PROD. CXRPSE)

Tonight

NØIR out errwhere. 🍷smarturl.it/SminoNOIR

KLINK

NØIR out errwhere. smarturl.it/SminoNOIR

NOIR

The Jungle Is The Only Way Out

Sandstorm (feat. JID)

This track wasn't on SC, so I added it. Simple enough.
Incase somehow obvious wasn't obvious, all credit to @ https://soundcloud.com/fuckthtx

FUCKTHTX - Wake Me Up When I'm Dead

so you’ve grown roots into my soul
the pieces of you became pieces of me
and i can’t tear you out
you’re my everything

your eyes burst into flames
they’re pouring over us
they’re pouring over us 
theyre melting through my soul
theyre taking control
theyre taking control

can you feel yourself
lost in a frozen forest now
with the snow leaving halos round
your broken bleeding lonely crown

flowing from those morning
waking up at 6 am
i recall you had no make up on
you looked great that day

icanttearyouout

Cold, I don't feel a thing, I know it's troubling.

So, what do I do now? I've got to go find myself. 

x2





It's cold in my socks, when I walk, I freeze in my place
I need an escape,


They tell me they love me, I wanna be free from the hate. 
no it won't be of this way. 

I spoke to a demon today,


He told me they wouldn't believe what I'm saying.
So what is the use if I speak of my brain.
I wish I could just flee into space, without even leaving a trace,




I should proceed, and just move on with silence,
Cause no one can find about the things i did 



Call me itachi, I only embody the evil,
I need to save all these people.


All of my trust, all of it's gone

 I shoot for the moon, I shoot for the stars,
I shoot for the dead, I shoot for my cause. 
I shoot at your eyes, I shoot at your heart. 







I SCREAM AT THE GODS, WHO IS IN CHARGE,
i WAS BORN INSIDE OF PANDORA'S BOX 





till this day i watch society rot,
kill everything till it finally stops. 
wish the day comes when im finally gone

WHY AM I THE ONE THAT'S DYING SO YOUNG X 3 


see all the shit that i live with
very young odd kid living  - x4

Antihero (prod. silentnight)

im god awful

prod. https://soundcloud.com/nextime

art. https://soundcloud.com/c3of

mixed by. https://soundcloud.com/endoindigo

god awful prod. nextime

lyrics: https://genius.com/Chris-rain-centipede-lyrics

artwork: @hugo.psd , @tom.v.e.r.s.e

AMV : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ngNVb_CnV_8

SPOTIFY

CENTIPEDE (Prod. NoWay)

FROM GRACE, FOR GRACE

GILLIGAN

love lost (prod.dewhuan)

produced by the one & only: @yunnygoldz
featuring: @decksmusic & @nevermadeithome

lyrics:

sendflowrs:

it’s been a year since we left and we’re still not fuckin talkin,
left my home at 16, it feels like i’m still runnin 
why am i so upset?
i broke my nose now i’m covered in red,
and will you promise, stay right by my side?
it’s cold out there my love, pls just stay with me tonight 
just put your phone away yeah, i don’t wanna fight
(cus i know that i can’t trust u,
i know that i can’t trust u)

look what you did yeah, look at the mess that you made,
boy i’m good everywhere, each city i’m the thane 
fire up my bow yea the skies are turning grey,
fire up my flow yea best pray for it to rain

(cus i’ve been walking,
on my own,
never delete your number 
out my phone
she loves that fucking powder in her nose,
loves that fuckin powder, loves that fuckin powder, yeah)

decks:

it never even mattered to me
i said it was a problem but i lied thru my teeth
you’re the only one that i wanna see
dont wanna cause a scene, i don’t wanna intervene but

look at the way that u treat me
and deceive me
now im leaving
i don’t wanna be a problem
but you beat me
now im fleeting
and i tweet about it every day but now i need to “let it go”
i wish you could save me but i know you’re not my antidote
and yeah i know that im obsessed with you
or maybe i just like the idea
and i know that i need to get it through
my fuckin skull and get up out of here



nevermadeithome:

Well can you get the fuck out of my brain now 
im fuckin pissed off with you constantly being there 
And everytime that im walking around town 
I swear i see your face on everybodys head 
All your friends, they are fucking dead to me
They all knew, that you cheated 
I hope that your next boyfriend 
Goes out never made it home again 
I think ive just finally got over you 
Get outta my mind girl 
Stop hitting my line girl 
Even though your fine girl 
I dont wanna see you again 
Laying in my bed at night 
I cant see your eyes for the first time 
For the first time in my life 
My life 
My life 
Im upset 
In my life

upset :( w/ decks & nevermadeithome

Buy on iTunes

Chanel Shoes! Prod. by [ Loveonfriday ]

i (prod.@darkboysanta + vendr)

produced by: malith
vocals, mixing and crying by: @sendflowrs
visuals: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JQ2TJ3aX_Rc

lyrics:

so shut up, shut up,
yeah bitch i just said it,
cus i’m a fuck up, 
but i don’t care anymore,
thinking of you,  
i’m scrolling on reddit, 
cus you’re not on my level, 
why the fuck you sending for?
x2

hit me on my cell,
it’s all you there’s no one else,
you’re the one i call yeah when i need help,
you’re the one i call yeah when i’m in hell
n you can kill me i won’t tell,
you hate me more than you hate yourself
i been sleepin all day, i’m not well,
but im pushin thru, all by myself 

yeah, and i’ve had enough 
of writing all these songs about you,
because you’re dead and gone,
to me you’re just a girl with some tattoos

but when it’s said and done;
i still can’t help myself when i’m around you,
and i won’t hold my tongue,
cus everyday i wake up in a bad mood

so shut up, shut up,
yeah bitch i just said it,
i’m a fuck up, 
but i don’t care anymore,
thinking of you,  
i’m scrolling on reddit, 
cus you’re not on my level, 
why the fuck you sending for,
x2

covenant

space (prod.2ezzy)

produced by: @yunnygoldz
featuring: @lilskeleskrrt

lyrics:

// flowrs // 

it’s so degrading 
the way you say that
you know what you want,
and you don’t want to love me

you’re so persuading,
i fuckin hate it
when you say those things
that you know 
fucking cut me 

our love is fading
and you’re evading
all these cloudy thoughts 
cus you’re so fucking lucky

just fucking say it
can’t catch a wave
so i’ll just stay afloat
cus you’re swimming above me 

fuck you,
fuck him 
fuck everything,
every thought,
don’t wanna ever think you’re fine,
i know i’m not 
tell me does he 
love you
the same way that you
loved me
i hope you fucking die 
i swear to god
i’ll kill you with my own two hands
you went too far 

but i’m here
and you’re there 
and you tell me 
that it’ll be okay 
you’re a tumour 
i can’t see you
but you kill me more
every single day 

// skele // 

it’s so frustrating 
how you push me away 
then you’re pulling me back by the end of the day 
it’s so annoying 
how u say that u need me 
then act like u hate me 
i’m tired of waiting 

so why u got act all mad for 
tell me that ur needing more 
why u gotta slam the car door 
n now ur taking off my shirt on your floor 
but i’m here 
and you’re there 
and you tell me that it’ll be okay
i don’t care

// flowrs //

but i’m here
and you’re there 
and you tell me 
that it’ll be okay 
you’re a tumour 
i can’t see you
but you kill me more
every single day

tumour w/ skele

produced by: malith 
everything else by: me 
this may be the most mid song of 2020

lyrics:

and fuck everything that I wrote down,
all these dark clouds, cant go back to you now
and I feel a lil sad so I ball out
and this hole I'm in's too deep yeah, I cant crawl out
x2

and you make me feel so alive
maybe one day ill get to call you mine
x2

(and I guess its just my turn,
like everybody else had one,
I guess ill never learn,
ill never learn to hold my tongue, 
im not what you deserve,
I won't put myself first,
ive gotta kick you to the curb,
then my heart it gets sewed back on

and fuck everything that I wrote down,
all these dark clouds, cant go back to you now
and I feel a lil sad so I ball out
and this hole I'm in's too deep yeah, I cant crawl out
x2