new midwest emo track w/ @salemavenue :)
produced by @nevrfall
hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
[decks]
college has ruined me, my mind is cloudy
wake up each morning im drowsy
feel like nobody’s around me
i just wanted to be happy
living this life is so tiring
nothing in this town inspires me
im not alive just to die,
see through my eyes,
and maybe you’ll find that

i might just fly away for a while
im sober in the candlelight, but sleeping in denial
i’d do anything to see you smile
this dream is a nightmare, im always falling down

this dream is a nightmare, im always falling down

[salem avenue]
i’m always falling down
pick me up and lift me off the ground
i act like it’s all over now
but really i just fill my head with doubt
and where would i go anyways?
when i don’t wanna ever make a sound 
maybe i’ll just fade away
find myself another in this ghost town 

yeah it goes down
pick me up 
i don’t wanna feel alone now
it’s so cold out 
i feel blue now 
pick me up
i don't wanna feel alone now
like they do

[decks]
(living this life is so tiring)
(nothing in this town inspires me)
(im not alive just to die)
(see through my eyes and maybe you'll find that)

i might just fly away for a while
im sober in the candlelight, but sleeping in denial
i’d do anything to see you smile
this dream is a nightmare, im always falling down

this dream is a nightmare, im always falling down

sober in the candlelight (feat. salem avenue) [p. nevrfall]

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sober in the candlelight (feat. salem avenue) [nevrfall]

produced by neverforever

completely non profit 

lyrics

Where u been now
Where u been
Its almost been a week now 
And i havent seen u since
I wanted us to stay friends 
But that isnt how it is
I know it gets stressful
Sticking next to me
All the stress on my mental
It stains all the sheets
So i sway to this tempo
As she falls asleep
In his arms
In their apartment
Life gets hard
But i knew that from the start 

Think i aged like 20 years in a few days
I saw the message of the gods burned in my brain
I found the fight inside my soul n now i spit flame
If anything i learned i got a cruel fate
Suns blocked so i start booting up
I break down my body i dont give a fuck
Bitch im going hard until my time is up
I need the cruelest woman to make me give a fuck

i want u to fuck me up
why is that never enough
looking at me with the eyes of an angel
i think that we're both falling out
how does this come about

she just falls asleep
in her lovers arms
when life gets hard
we fill our lungs with tar

i think i aged like 20 years in a few days
i saw the message of the gods and its burned into my brain 
if anything i got a cruel fate



-1 (neverforever)

I'm feeling happier alone than i did with you
Don't bother hitting my phone when you realize it was all true
You're turning into somebody that ill never like
Two wrongs don't make a right and thats the reason why you left i know

I'm at war myself self self self self
Throw a white flag in the air
I know that life isn't fair
Its getting harder to care when they all stop and stare
While i'm at war wit myself

Oh and i fell in love wit her body
Lately i don't trust nobody yeah
I know you're not down to ride for me ah
And its still as real is it gets
I break her back while she breaking my heart
Lipstick left on my cheek from her kiss
Aimbot
Yeah you already know i don't miss
Back shots
Yeah i'm boutta fuck up her ribs
I don't even gotta say nun thats real rizz
Oh i'm tryna blow thru a hundred thats real shit
Who you know do it like this
You're not the one that i miss
Even if i did it wouldn't mean shit oh
Babygirl you're the meanest
Cant even give me a real reason oh
As to why you leaving baby please tell me why you leaving oh
I need closure i'm at war wit myself
Can you tell me whats wrong wit me i need some help

Self self self self
I'm at war wit myself self self self self
Throw a white flag in the air
I know that life isn't fair
Its getting harder to care when they all stop and stare while im at war wit myself
Self self self self
Oh i'm at war with myself
Self self self self
Ooo i'm at war wit myself
Self self self self
Oh yeah i'm at war wit myself

Oh and i fell in love wit her body
Lately i don't trust nobody yeah
I know you're not down to ride for me oh
And its still as real is it gets
I break her back while she breaking my heart
Lipstick left on my cheek from her kiss

nowim@warwitmyself

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nowim@warwitmyself [p.methboiswag]

and these seconds go by like they’re nothing 
and precious is time but means nothing to me 
and these minutes rain down and cause flooding 
my waterproof coat hides the heart on my sleeve 

and i met her last year through her cousin 
it was april or may i don’t know honestly
i was away with the fairies all morning 
and we texted all day and it felt like a dream

now this time i once spent with my darling 
means nothing to her or to me 
oh my god 
how embarrassing for me was blubbing
in front of her mom and like 3 of her friends

and i guess ill be there if you need me 
you don’t have to fake to please me
you can talk to me so sweetly
or pretend that this is easy
it’s a daily rock bottom
so i drown my pain in weed leaves
10KG weights, and tea leaves
and when you hurt me kill discretely, please 

(greenwood)
try to parse through the things that you said
crossed over Madison, i loved you to death
stayed in the winter despite what i need
but we never made it to august heat
eyes on the valley, you asked me to wait
ask of the baggage, it's as is you care
still keep the coat that i got you in spring
i still keep the pictures i'm not even in

i still keep the pictures i’m not even in w/ greenwood (pekarot)

read the room 0.0

staring at the sky pt.2 ft sendflowrs (caves)

spaceman (nico north)

Bangin Dølla (feat. EA TJ)

I GOT SWAG (PROD. KRAGER)

context: this is the original version of nickisgonenow’s “there was blood on the floor underneath u” but we had a falling out, and it resulted in him taking me off the song before release 

nick passed away recently; fortunately for me, i was able to squash our issues long before that happened, and we were once again on good terms, he was a super talented person, and seeing the success this song would go on to gain never once bothered me (which is weird because i’m naturally a super jealous person) and i think that’s because i knew he had a banger on his hands, i remember when he first sent me this open and it shook my whole house on the speakers, i lost my mind. this song is perfect as it was without me squeezed on at the end, and i knew it 

nevertheless, any work i have with nick is now public on my profile, he was a character and a super talented person that i had the honour of working with 

i miss ya nick, and i hope whatever greets us after death is treating you well

my verse lyrics: 

and there was blood underneath you
dripping down from your nose 
wanna cry? baby me too 
and i just wanted to see you
bad day, feel ashamed
i just wanted a redo
i don’t feel it
i’m too fucked up to see you
out of my league
all these girls they wanna be you
down another bottle throw my sorrows in the back room
standing in the mirror
say “i love you”, you don’t have to 

__________

beat by: @nickisgonenow
featuring: @nickisgonenow
u the goat nick fr

underneath you w/ NICKISGONENOW (prod. NICKISGONENOW)

produced by the extremely talented: @yunnygoldz
vocals, mixing & everything else by: @sendflowrs

make my heart drop when she calling on my phone, 
baby kissed me twice now ill never let go, 
its making me sick (ew!)
all these drugs, think ill quit
I just wanna go home to my girl
x2

up in this bitch
yeah im runnin a bag
I won't stop doing this
im addicted to ur tainted lips
n I cant deal with these kids
all these pussies they stay talking shit 
but one day ill blow 
its too bad she didn't know 
i couldn't see her in my photos 
now she wanna hit my phone

and ill send you sunflowers every day of the month
I know you like that love shit, I know ur eating it up
you gotta take care girl, ur not eating enough
I wanna make you squirm 
grab the keys to the cuffs

make my heart drop when she calling on my phone, 
baby kissed me twice now ill never let go, 
its making me sick !!! (ew!) 
all these drugs, think ill quit
I just wanna go home to my girl
x2

extended clip on my body!
nah im just playing, I dont hold no Tommy,
you not matchin my k/d just get out my lobby
slaying these pussies like this is my hobby
bare knuckle im swinging like Ronnie, 
she dont want me cus im rotten like Robbie,
I dont need no gang or no muhfuckin army
cus I got James there he stay keepin the shotty

double kill

sendflowrs