I didnt know guardin had a second account where he posts different songs, rly enjoyed it

this song make me feel some type of way :<

and i won’t ever put u down by running my mouuuth

Lyrics:

[hero]

i could hear the wall talk this whole time
i could see the ghosts i know i'm
going mental might as well waste the downtime
and i know by will i'm stepping on a landmine

i don't talk to strangers
i don't even talk to me
waste away online
as these bugs invade my sink
sing into my microphone
and people try to leech
holes n shit called cavities waste away my teeth 
toxin from the wind just
makes it hard to breathe
it was carried from the power plant that failed back in 03
and it gave because the thing was empty of its employees 
cause they were tired of the boss that ruled their 7 seas

[cyzun]

I keep on sippin on moonshine
Hoping that I fucking flatline
I’m still Alive that’s a bad sign
Lie to my peers and say I’m fine 
If I keep retaining my thoughts
Sooner or later I will end it all 
I am a failure it’s nobodies fault
I jumped on the landmine and made it go off

You think I’m fine cause I never say shit 
Dont try cause your time will be wasted
rather sit alone in a home that is vacant
Thinking bout the noose in the basement 
I'm standing in the middle of a dark room 
Sick and tired wondering will it end soon
Serotonin hurry up I need you 
Cause I’m barely hanging on like a loose screw

[emptychest]

i think im wasting my time
fuck ur tears ion got none left to cry
got no hope but ill still give it a try
swear to god ill never work a 9 to five
five o five in the middle of the night
ion wanna fuckin die but it seems so right
buckle down or ur gonna end up dead
spend ur whole damn summer lying in ur fuckin bed
soundcloud revenue aint gon pay the rent
voices in ur head aint real js stop being depressed
yeah thats what they tell me and ion like it
and thats what they tell me imma bite it
yeah its all fun and games till its all over 
and i pull the mf-

[hero]

i could hear the wall talk this whole time
i could see the ghosts i know i'm
going mental might as well waste the downtime
and i know by will i'm stepping on a landmine
i could hear the wall talk this whole time
i could see the ghosts i know i'm
going mental might as well waste the downtime
and i know by will i'm stepping on a landmine

landmine (w/ cyzun x emptychest) (whiteravenn)

mixed/mastered by me and kinshii
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feat. https://soundcloud.com/kinshii
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prod by https://soundcloud.com/hellahaunted & https://soundcloud.com/sainttomorrow
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//LYRICS//
its been a long time I swear that I do miss you its been 3 months and i swear that i am trying I'm still used to this and I'm so sick of this I'm stuck at home all alone i am sick today

in my room and I'm feeling so faded don't know what to grabbing my knife I'm gonna stab myself and you don't love me like before oh before 

its been a long time I swear that I do miss you its been 3 months and I swear that I am trying I'm still used to this and I'm so sick of this I'm stuck at home all alone i am sick today every time I wake up feeling wasted times moving really fucking fast and I don't like that why you talk to me I don't talk to you every time I wake up wanna sleep some more

(Kinshii)
now my beds the place i spend my days i can’t get up staring at a screen i do this every night and i don’t want to talk about it appreciate the thought but i’ve been trying to push away what makes me feel alive that’s growing up guess i can’t take it life used to be fun, now i live sedated don’t know why im smoking but still getting faded maybe the clouds free my brain from its cages sike no it’s not, causing a block life’s getting harder and harder than cock prosthetic leg maybe hard as rock kick to the face and it don’t ever stop and my family keeps calling me crazy probably cause i ain’t speak to them lately i been showing the signs someone save me and the reaper just said he’s done waiting truthfully not sure what im supposed do and the voice in my head, who im talking to is convincing enough, i might follow through or maybe i won’t just to stay with you

used to it w/ kinshii (prod. caspr & saint tomorrow)

friends from the past

shoutout @juzo for the cover art :) give him a follow pls

lyrics:

AUTUMN

(rest my arms)
(where they cannot ever be harmed)
(cold to the touch)

there's certain days where i haven't been better!
but when the sun goes down
i know tomorrow will be bitter
i've lost my head; when the clock struck ten
the blade came crashing down & now i'm back where i had started
could give a fuck if i'm dramatic,
the reward could be prestine
if i take the pills they offer me
my dreams could be serene
but i never wanted that; figmentated lies
to put on a public act, for their brainwashed minds

EPITOME

every day i wake up just to do the same shit over and over again
it gets hard to even stand up when i don’t know who i am
i thought you were a friend
but where were you in the end
i see it’s all just pretend
now my wounds they won’t even mend
th-th-th-they won’t mend
nothing feels real 
am i fucking ghost
cant take time to heal
so i’ll put the knife up to my throat
just to see if i’m alive
and if i’m not than what am i?

spotify :)

my wounds won’t mend w/ autumndropsdead (itamii)

not for profit

original:
https://soundcloud.com/sewerperson/lock-da-doors-samashi

love y'all, hope u enjoy
thanks for making this song king @sewerperson
shoutout samashi

lock da doors (cover) [samashi]

thanks for the support

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prod/guitars by me

endgame
i had a time n place to fall back into the fog
replay, id go back today
wish i never called it off
know im not one to just push it aside
i feel my lowest just steppin outside
brushin the dust off my lungs just to breathe alright
now i gotta take shit just to sleep at night

dim lights on my conscious
i crossed out my past mistakes cuz i just dont wanna process
im aware of all that time takes
i wont keep u guessin ima stay the same

surface tension i been making dents on top of water
im built from components held by PCB and solder
death watcher, keep it close to me
like i could just close the page but i dont bother
hold my head down underwater
to the slaughter
feel my soul levatate out of this shell when i step out
i really feel the distance now
it feels so wrong to stick around
coat on, i dont want a send off
threats artificial i fend off
dig straight down like a check off
bite my tongue, just wanted to just say it i held off

dim lights on my conscious
i crossed out my past mistakes cuz i just dont wanna process
im aware of all that time takes
i wont keep u guessin ima stay the same

replay i standup n pace, its all back to this
i cant concentrate, just hesitate
i pick up the pieces like whats to take
and like whats to say
i keep my mouth shut like what can be done
all a fuckin waste
i dont want a friend cause i have to face
that ive failed the people that stuck to me

dust

Hit the silence on my phone
Leave a message at the tone
I'll let emotions out cuz they bout to overflow
I'll deal with this on my own
Poppin meds until I'm zoned
In my bed I'm comatose
I just wanna overdose
Stuck in negative head space
The demons never go away
They just move another place
I'm too disgraced to show my face
I felt the same yesterday
The vicious game of drinking pain away
Feelings hit my chest like a bullet ricocheted
These the moments when time is ticking at its slowest
These the moments when I know that I've hit my lowest
I'm daily going through the motions
These thoughts have their own motives
Facing down reality hitting like a locomotive
Where am I between feeling hopeless and being focused?
Where am I between real life trauma and hocus pocus?
Wheres the fine line between fixed and forever broken?
I'd really love to know cuz I've never been shown it
I know I'm lost cause
never get things right 
walking all alone 
I could die tonight
nobody would know
and nobody would care
exhale my pain
now there's smoke in the air 
I know that it's clear
that I don't fit in
feel so uncomfortable 
in my skin 
laying in bed
and I feel so stuck
I hate the whole world
yeah I know it's fucked 
something is wrong with me
and it can't be fixed
your fucking dishonesty 
just making me sick 
making me cringe
making me wish 
that I didn't exsist 
like everyday 
tortured in my own brain 
yeah I know it's a shame 
I got nothing to say 
I got nowhere to go 
feel like nobody want's me
I tend to push away 
those who love me
the pill's they gave me
just aren't working 
the happy gears inside my head
still aren't turning
drink to numb the pain
now my stomach burning 
if you call him your man
why his pockets hurting
you already know  
mine are swole as fuck
mix margelia
with the trues
I ain't slowin up 
If you ain't talking money
I ain't showin up 
If they ain't showin love
then I don't give a fuck
Ever since I've tried to write a track about sobriety
Like I'm dealin with a post operative lobotomy
Im feeling I cant master an intelligent dichotomy
In my drunken state I thought way more philosophically
I tend to have a better vision with my fucked up chemistry
It's almost like I'm bottling anger that I'm harboring
I use to fire off these tracks semi automatically
I feel that I've been running out of ammunition recently
I've given up the part of me 
that made my last masterpiece
I've given up that part of me
I've killed him off so tragically
I put him on display like a catastrophic centerpiece
Left in the open for the world to watch him slowly bleed
It's been a few months since that part of me became deceased
I had to erase him, make the old me obsolete
The never ending vicious cycle replays memories
flashing through my mind so frequently
Reminisce so vividly
the pill's they gave me
just aren't working 
the happy gears inside my head
still aren't turning
drink to numb the pain
now my stomach burning 
if you call him your man
why his pockets hurting
you already know  
mine are swole as fuck
mix margelia
with the trues
I ain't slowin up 
If you ain't talking money
I ain't showin up 
If they ain't showin love
then I don't give a fuck

Part Of Me(feat. Hammy)

for the last time w/ dead broke (prod. northeast lights & 5v)

@nevrfall

ok im
Drop dead carcass
I just miss my friends now
That’s fine they’re right
I struggle to go out
I’m drop dead carcass 
But i don’t have no patience 
I’m fucked up
Loveless
Most the time i’m not shit

Most the time i’m just adding wav files to my folder
Lately i just really need my folgers
Lately i just want my heart colder
Lately i’m so sick of this

I’m sick of this
Sick of shit
I don’t fuck with anything
Take my shit
Fuck its ish
Hit it ctr alt delete
Record again
Take a sip
Head is spinning 
What is this
It’s kinda fucked up how i act

I don’t much but a job and friends
But that’s all i need here until the end
I hope that it’s soon 
I can barely stand
I hope that it’s soon 
I can barely stand
I reach for the moon but i only grab darkness 
Wishing for feelings of grabbing a star it’s lovely how pain can break us up 
It’s funny how pain can be enough
Why do i still feel its raining
The weathers so gloomy and my memories retaining

drop dead carcass (p/ nevrfall)

“produced” by me

and i know that i’ll get better, but i won’t hold my breath,
every day that i’m inside another day in my head,
i’ll just sit inside, these tears i cry, they spill on your dress,
think i need to go and sit outside so i’ll call my friends

and lately i’ve been worried that the only thing i love is slippin away from me,
don’t fall for me,
i try; i can’t fall asleep,
and i stress way too much these days i thought i was getting better
but in my heart i’ll be okay because i’ve firmed much stronger weather 
and i don’t feel any release when i write a song, i won’t lie
only time i feel okay, 
is when i’m holding on to a knife
and i wont ever put you down by running my mouth,
i’ll make sure that he regrets every sick word that he spouts 

and i know that i’ll get better, but i won’t hold my breath,
every day that i’m inside another day in my head,
i’ll just sit inside, these tears i cry, they spill on your dress,
think i need to go and sit outside so i’ll call my friends

release

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