just a vent, very drunk rn 
shoutout my brother @jolst on the production



tell me baby does he write you songs? 
blood all on my pillow when i wake up shit is wrong
i been takin 30’s got me itchin i can’t stop 
every time i think i got a hit it start to flop
i wish that i never saw those numbers from the start 
try not to let it bug me but i can’t lie it hurt my heart
i spill my soul on the mic n go smoke a dart 
shoutout to big veins we just alike in that regard 

everybody write bout doin drugs, it’s ok
but u ain’t ever threw up in ur sleep it burn ur lungs
i been sippin lean for 4 days babe im havin fun, ay
feel my heart beatin in my chest i’m dying young
and words are powerful theyll kill u like a gun 
watch the shit u speak cus ur whole life it becomes
people love to talk their shit but watch em when i run
when i fly to USA im landin with a punch 

i got G.E.R.D
regurgitation ): 
might pop a 40
and float away and
can’t stand you phonies
so go away yea
got good friends round me
but they won’t stay, yea 
and i’m used to that 
always been the same 
since a small boy i been
always filled with hate 
but i love my momma 
and i love my dad :)
and i’m thankful daily
for the shit i have 

maybe life is okay
maybe it’s not that bad 
i got someone who loves me
can’t argue with that <3 
i still get so fucked up
til i can’t call a cab 
i been tryna love myself 
but i don’t love me back 
i still wake everyday 
with shit on my shoulders i’m a heavyweight
get away
from all the negative things i always say 
fill the page
with shit i would think but i would never say
care+ in my drink 
but i been tryna get in better shape 

i can’t even think yea 
baby i’m just sitting here recording with a drink yea 
shoutout to the gang 
that’s double L all on my krink yeah 
shoutout to the goat jolst 
can’t wait till we link yeah <3 (love u bro) 

n i still wear a hoodie 
even when it’s hot
pull it over my face
so u can’t see me rot
baby take your hood down
girl i’m self conscious
everybody talkin money $$$
don’t know what a job is 

i guess this is what they call 
a r- release 
i just love you all so much 
that i can’t even speak
i feel fuckin worthless
but you’re all helping me
this one for the soundcloud
ima go to sleep … 

(love u all bro i get a lil soppy when i am drunk sorry )

maybe its not that bad (jolst)

produced by: jolst + homesick 
vocals, mixing & mastering by me 

lyrics: 


felt the whole room change when she stepped in
she got fire in her blood she electric
he would kill for her if she would let him 
but she holds his hand tight to prevent it “whered u stay? whered u go? whered u check in?”
it’s a little bit too much
but he expects it 
and it’s more than his face shes obsessed with
she wants his blood
oh i bet tastes expensive 

and in the moonlight of his death
she’ll lay her hands upon her chest and rest
for a while
until this city summons her again,
look down at this place and she can’t help
but crack a smile 
she collects and carries souls from these men
those pretty words she says fu-fu- fuck with my head 
a soft spoken queen til he lays in her bed 
in the morning 
and when it’s time my love will you please heed me with a warning 

and these doors are locked shut, so just bleed
she can’t see anything 
through her mask full of greed
just breathe
bury me 
in the leaves 
by the trees
curse the lips that got me here 
and she ice, so i freeze 
shes a spirit; baby turn my skin white promise i wont leave 
everybody want her but don’t want those punctures from her teeth
i thought vampires were stories
eyes turned black, i couldn’t believe 
on this night this wooden floor is the only thing under me 

my eyes open finally to 6 feet 
of mud
throat is dry, and my hands feel numb 
last thing i remember was the slow slow cut 
i can smell the copper on my clothes
i’m covered in blood
so i push, i pray, i cry, i hope that i get out this rut
she laughs, and i can hear her, though it’s muffled and i’m stuck 
she told me “boy you shoulda turned around when i asked u what’s up”
and then she smile, put a dress on, to the next party she struts 

felt the whole room change when she stepped in
she got fire in her blood she electric
he would kill for her if she would let him 
but she holds his hand tight to prevent it “whered u stay? whered u go? whered u check in?”
it’s a little bit too much
but he expects it 
and it’s more than his face shes obsessed with
she wants his blood
oh i bet tastes expensive

souleater (jolst + homesick)

prodbylxcid

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i need the beamer, i need the wagon 
and i need the porsche 
money it comes real quick 
but leaves just as fast when u take a loss
girl keep hitting my phone
she need me now
i carry a cost 
whip straight thru LC im hittin up graff 
and buyin the lot 
pinewood in my cup
i’m pourin it up
i cherry the drops 
i can’t hold shit down 
i’m sorry my girl
i travel a lot 
i got expensive tastes
i ran in the spot 
and took out the crop 
im on my elden ring
i run up on opps
and slaughter the boss 
slaughter the boss 
i 
i’m sippin on care+ high up
don’t talk shit you’re a liar
throw b’s only smoke fire 
pull up all black attire
strider, not from the shire
send 10k, hit my wire 
you’re bait don’t hit my line up
you’re bait don’t hit my line 

and i’ve been running 
to the money 
these guys try so hard  
tryna be gully
i’m pourin care+
sipping on honey 
please don’t come round me
tryna be funny 

cus i, i i, 
look back at life 
sometimes i cry
like oh my god i 
got by those many times 
i had to hustle by 
got greazy
i’m not tryin 
moncleezy 
have to buy it 
stay sleezy 
i’m not lying 
GTeezy
big supplyin
real platinum 
emerald, diamonds
switch watches 
when i’m flying 
dream big 
and u can buy it 
some man are broke and healthy 
some man are rich and dying 
45 i had to fry him
big wren otn gliding ✈️

ELDEN RING (LXCID)

prod. project luna (s/o them<33 amazing prod)

i know baby and its killing me
i know maybe it was make believe
run, so cold in these maple leaves
one day, saying know you wanna leave
drive slow, baby where u taking me
die so, bleed thru me fatally
sidenote memories be haunting me
eyes closed, i cant even go to sleep

drive slow, driving for eternity 
die so, taking time to try n breathe
sidenote, no sleep n  im goin geek
eyes closed, all i see is u n me 

craving for sum remedy 
or something to help w helping me
listen to the melody im 
really about to take my leave
speaking with all the honesty 
nothing could really fw me 
more than seeing you
breaking what's left inside of this shell of me

this life it was forced upon me
just know that i didn’t ask for any of this
the candle light burns dim and slowly
now i must go
before i start to fall to pieces

i know baby and its killing me
i know maybe it was make believe
run, so cold in these maple leaves
one day, saying know you wanna leave
drive slow, baby where u taking me
die so, bleed thru me fatally
sidenote memories be haunting me
eyes closed, i cant even go to sleep

let me rot away.~

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the haunting (ft. casperrr & epitomeoffailure)

[if injured, please use the first aid kit underneath the pilot seat.]

and i 
don’t think that i’m getting up this time 
the only thing i saw was a dark blue light 
i think i saw a face but i fucked up
hands are both numb 
and i keep throwing up blood

bite 
i scream as i feel what feels like sharp knives
piercing my lungs, i can’t close my eyes
this place is the home of something fucked up 
they’ll never find me, i’ve no grave to be dug up 

cus at the end of the day
we just die at the end 
some of us get lost 
and are never seen again


i hope my sister doesn’t cry because my soul is finally free 
i hope my mother doesn’t weep too loud
i hope that she finds peace
i promise that if i could go back
would’ve never signed the lease
to go down to this place i rest my head
and here i rest in peace 
i think i hear something behind me 
and i think it’s stalking me 
when i just blinked i think i saw it move 
i try but i can’t scream
i caught a glimpse of its face staring at me
sat by moss and weeds 
i felt my soul just leave my body
when i realised that its me

i swear it looked just like me but when i was a kid 
what the fuck is this place god i wanna live
if that thing comes near me i am gone i fear
i think it’s smiling at me grinning ear to ear 

stay awake
stay alive
i got sand in my eyes
stay in this cave another night 
stay awake 
think of home
my house my dog is all alone
i hope he knows that it’s not me

and i 
don’t think that i’m getting up this time 
the only thing i saw was a dark blue light 
i think i saw a face but i fucked up
hands are both numb 
and i keep throwing up blood

bite 
i scream as i feel what feels like sharp knives
piercing my lungs, i can’t close my eyes
this place is the home of something fucked up 
they’ll never find me, i’ve no grave to be dug up 

[system failure. no lifeform detected on board.]

the place i rest my head (jolst + sor)

@sewerperson
prod. @taylor @4evrgone @6houl

sewerperson - the Duel (taylor morgan, 4evr, 6houl)

rest

residential. - rest (crewneck kid X YUNG PROD)

It’s so cold will you bring me warm
And I would never do you harm
The taste of the dirt on my tongue humbles me again 
Even when I’m hurt I’ll protect you until the very end 
Looking back I’m at fault for never stepping in
And I can love you better babe you just gotta tell me when 

X2: Used to find peace
when I go to sleep
Now my nightmares haunt me like a knife and I fucking bleed 
never knew me never knew what the fucks best for me 

December is creeping along painfully slow
Ever since I fucked it all up by letting her go 
It’s funny how the loves never there when you need it most 
Throw stones at my porcelain heart and act like it’s while 
So lay me down in roses when I pass on to the other side 
And I pray you feel the same when I say there’s nothing else you could’ve tried 
I’m still in her arms I fall asleep and I dream at night 
Peace misses chaos that’s my broken mind
So stuck in silence  
Fire fills my eyelids 
All these toxins inside this alcohol leave me beaten up 
Nightmares from this poison inside this liquor cup 

Used to find peace
when I go to sleep
Now my nightmares haunt me like a knife and I fucking bleed 
never knew me never knew what the fucks best for me

Maybe I can just lay in this field forever 
Waiting for death to come and wash me over 
And turn all my bones into four leaf clovers 
And no I don’t wanna sleep (no more)
Turn your ashes to dirt that you leave on your front porch 
Leave my heart for the trees (go home)
Tell the people I love not to grieve when I let go 
You said to me it’s fine 
Don’t wait and change my mind 
So now I’m starting to sleep turning dust into dreams like the stars in the midnight sky 
(I don’t wanna go)

I don’t wanna bleed 
I don’t wanna sleep 
And I don’t wanna leave 
Yeah I don’t wanna leave 

(And I don’t wanna run)
But I’ve been feeling so done 
Only place I’m finding peace is inside a loaded gone 
Insomnia up for weeks just let me be let me rot 
Terrified to go to sleep I got no where I can run

I dont wanna sleep ft. Sewerperson and Days to Waste (Irby/Jolst)

2022-05-20

Lyrics :
In this Moss cover I reside here
Far removed from beating hearts I can hide here
They thought of me a witch I was forced here
When I first let go it was a nightmare
Tell me did the secrets u hold try to shape u
Tell me did the last lover had try to tame you
I would never shit on the experience that made u
Im just asking questions so I could see it from ur angle
I think drank had made me nauseous I been geeked out in the lobby
Before u came to get me baby I swear I thought I would vomit
I feel my body shake I hate it if I knew id never drink it
I got problems with my medies
She does too so just get me
Im at war with organs laid inside my flesh
Oh surprise I still been working even though im spent
Only god could save me now my liver forfeit
Maybe I should pull the plug and lay atop my deathbed

U know its harder now that
Ur gone with someone else that
Treats u how I could never
Ive known since last September
Whos car was that in the driveway
I had known but I prayed its all fake
I wish u had told me before u broke me
Now im in the bottle getting headaches

Red leaves hit the window fore they decay
Fall rendered me afraid of my own fate
Ive been on this bender since about friday
If I keep it up im dying by Monday
When this Fire climbs up in my throat I guess im sober
I should’ve changed up my life before Id ever grown older
That’s the effects of a broken heart
Would u Leave me be so I can sit and rot

U know its harder now that
Ur gone with someone else that
Treats u how I could never
Ive known since last September
Whos car was that in the driveway
I had known but I prayed its all fake
I wish u had told me before u broke me
Now im in the bottle getting headaches

the place i rest my head (jolst + sor)

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