To the Grave (feat. Tuxx)

Rivilin:

I know anxiety lives in me 
if I stay here will I lose my mind I think I've already passed that time
plagued by derealization feel like im looking through a fucking glass
feel like this ain't my body im just in a dream will death wake me up

these drugs no they don't mean shit when this body doesn't feel even real
can’t keep up a fucking job it feels like im just blessed with bad luck
try to explain it to someone but they don't understand
like why can't I be normal for a second so I can feel human

my body on this cold concrete no furniture fucking around
convinced these shadows on the walls are out for me till im in the ground
take a step back id like to realize that im ok it's just my perspective
It cus feels like im living in my skull like nothing is real and this is all a dream

till I take my life and I wake up, maybe then ill be happy in this place
my psychologist doesn't get it, no amount of therapy can change what I feel
I tell my mother that im ok, that im just going through a rough patch
this is my reality, ill fake a smile and say that im fine

floating above this city,
if I let go will I suddenly fall then can I wake up
to me, this place isn't pretty
I feel disgusted when I see myself suicide’s not enough

there's a constant battle in me
gravity has given in hear the wind roaring as I collide
with the concrete end it quickly 
my eyes snap open breathe heavy, every time I die I wake up

Coaastgxd:


Every time I die I wake up
Every time I die I…

This time I'm just fine running away
And I'd sell my soul just to better the days
I never get a hold of this, I throw it away
I never know what to say, I make the same old mistakes

I been playing in traffic with my emotions and 
I'm closer to a rope than I been in a fucking minute, oh
Every time I think I'm getting better, I end up fucking sendin'
Now I'm back to the motherfucking beginning tho

Can't sleep and I can't wake up
"Life's tough, get a helmet and, shit, man up"
I been stuck and I'm spinning my tires up in the mud
Going nowhere fast, The ash floating over the sun

Rivilin:

my body on this cold concrete no furniture fucking around
convinced these shadows on the walls are out for me till im in the ground
take a step back id like to realize that im ok it's just my perspective
It cus feels like im living in my skull like nothing is real and this is all a dream

till I take my life and I wake up, maybe then ill be happy in this place
my psychologist doesn't get it, no amount of therapy can change what I feel
I tell my mother that im ok, that im just going through a rough patch
this is my reality, ill fake a smile and say that im fine

floating above this city,
if I let go will I suddenly fall then can I wake up
to me, this place isn't pretty
I feel disgusted when I see myself suicide’s not enough

there's a constant battle in me
gravity has given in hear the wind roaring as I collide
with the concrete end it quickly 
my eyes snap open breathe heavy, every time I die I wake up

Scarlett FT. Coaastgxd

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Lyrics:

Cross on my chain
But the horrors I saw
Still remain
I don’t want fame
But the path I’m going
Always ends the same
Got dr*gs in my system
Feel it going faster
Think I might d*e
I'm a young disaster
I don’t want passion
I just want prescripts
But I said I’d never be this

In the back room
Baby turn the lights down
You just wanna fight
I just wanna d*e now
F*cking with a main vein
Sipping on this white wine
Hate me in morning
Love me in the nightime

In the back room
Baby turn the lights down
You just wanna fight
I just wanna d*e now
F*cking with a main vein
Sipping on this white wine
Hate me in morning
Love me in the nightime

Love me in the nightime
Yeah
This ain’t the right time

So I’m back
Laying down
Paying for the wrongs
That I can’t change now
Sitting through the cold
While my heart beats drown
Lookin for the pills
That I can’t take now

Got the broken heart tatted
Heart just broke
But I’m high and I’m manic
Yeah
Got some laced up packets
Eat them all at once
So I don’t have to panic
I'm a crybaby
Feeling like peep
I feel so alone
Baby I feel weak
Looking in the mirror
And I don’t see me
Think I took enough
That I might od

In the back room
Baby turn the lights down
You just wanna fight
I just wanna d*e now
F*cking with a main vein
Sipping on this white wine
Hate me in morning
Love me in the nightime

In the back room
Baby turn the lights down
You just wanna fight
I just wanna d*e now
F*cking with a main vein
Sipping on this white wine
Hate me in morning
Love me in the nightime

Young Disaster

Yates XV - Young Disaster

Come to in a bathroom tub, waters on, frozen I’m stuck
can't believe I'm here again, broken arms I can't pretend
that it's just normal to be pacing these hospital rooms
tryna search for something but every time I get a little closer, I'm consumed.

wake up, wake up
You’re floating above the sky, you think the clouds are rushing past
you feel like you’re just alive, for once in your life,
but that's just it, it builds up and then you fall upon knives, like what’s up

Worst part of it, I’m just repeating myself over and over and over again
nothing changes; I just stay, try to get up it's too late
set on fire, melted down, regenerated these flames are bound
to soul when I am found, I'll be screaming without a sound

teeth filled with the flesh of another, 
you don’t want all of this, you don’t want to be missed
I see the faces coming forth from the shadows,
they're brewing down to a cyst, they leave my neck tied and twist 

stare down from the edge I can’t breathe
I see death’s stare looking straight into me
He says, If you fall hit the ground; fall apart
I'll pick your little pieces up, but can't fix a broken heart, I loathe

I look up to see that no one is there 
it's just the grey sky that latches, fills me up with despair
I try to reach up, yeah, but no one replies
constantly tearing at my skin just to see if I'm alive

Welcome to hell you said. didn't imagine it'd be like this
gone unfed, can't afford to eat, yea this world is far from bliss
blessed above with dissociation, try to get a grip losing patience
as you push your nails through my hands, flinching back I didn't understand

yeah, there’s no meaning to it; you just enjoyed it
see my face fill with pain, breaking bones to remain
Yeah, to be the one you’ve chosen, my eyes are frozen
on seeing your smile decay, grind me down you betray

and there’s just me, laying in this bedroom alone
and sometimes I hear the noises scratching at the walls they beckon and call
yeah just to see some type of change, they want me to cave so they can control
what's fucking left of this body as I drink myself a hole, and you say

teeth filled with the flesh of another, 
you don’t want all of this, you don’t want to be missed
I see the faces coming forth from the shadows,
they're brewing down to a cyst, they leave my neck tied and twist 

stare down from the edge I can’t breathe
I see death’s stare looking straight into me
He says, If you fall hit the ground; fall apart
I'll pick your little pieces up, but can't fix a broken heart, I loathe

I look up to see that no one is there 
it's just the grey sky that latches, fills me up with despair
I try to reach up, yeah, but no one replies
constantly tearing at my skin just to see if I'm alive

University Telephone Hotline

I dance with the ghost as a child drawn out
screaming in my dreams I doubt
that anyone can hear me now
with a voice that's scraped with a razor, I'm just a stargazer
 
who wanted to reach heights that no one saw,
the thing about that once you fall you’re gone
hang me out with the noose that's made of your lies
meeting you makes me wish I wasn't alive.
 
cus, I don't wanna hear it when it’s just all about you
now you're flicking out your razor saying that you wanna cut through
 
yeah, you're putting pressure on my mind, and it makes me wanna die
yeah, I’m scared of the public, I think I’ll stay inside
cus, I don't wanna hear it when it’s just all about you
 
Wake up, cold feet, get out of bed to yesterday’s static
pass out, don't think, scratched out eyes of the photo that you just
don't want to keep, will I find a place to mend but I just can’t
get on my feet, so I’ll just stay in the house where I am high
 
Hey, that's me, by the tree line of the cul-de-sac where I grew up
hands over ears, don't want to hear an argument from my father
years pass in a blink, still end up crying to my mother
a fuck up, that's me, so what if I take drugs to cope.

Hey, that's me

prod. rick hardy

It's not hard
To fall down
And the scared
Want the crown

Never bother your mistake
You will be forever pained

So be quiet

So be quiet
Don't be
An excuse of life like me
I'm afraid
I'll see
Im weak
Cause these pills have rescued me

It's not hard
To fall down
And the scared
Want the crown

Never bother your mistake
You will be forever pained

So be quiet

No I wont, I wont keep my voice down
even when, blood is filling my mouth
torn throat, paint me as a turncoat
kicked down, im running out of all hope

hang me up above, watch my limbs dangle
as I fall, straight into your arms
so I wait, accept it, hold me down cant collect it
my thoughts my memories all the clouded judgment burst from the seams

I am nothing, more then me, a hollow husk that's caught in-between
of the down fall of my own existence, I hate everything that I've seemed to become

It's not hard
To fall down
And the scared
Want the crown

Never bother your mistake
You will be forever pained

So be quiet

quiet feat. Rivilin

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3 Homies,3 Letter$

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Have you ever gone through tough times in a relationship? i have, if you can relate with this song feel free to carry on the scars w me. much love to all of yall 

You Forgot - prod.Eskimos x Zeux

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