written/performed/produced by sepha.
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Soundcloud - www.soundcloud.com/sepha-joey​
Spotify - open.spotify.com/artist/094ug46k2…2_fQ&dl_branch=1
AppleMusic/iTunes - music.apple.com/us/artist/sepha/1243252989
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Lyrics:

always learning lessons how to live
always learning how to die right
all i know is i'm blessed to know u
always blessed to see the sky

tell me how do u know you're good
when u never embraced the bad
how do u know what's right to do 
when you've never let yourself go mad

well I think its aspirational
to hang around and do fuck all
it seems unconventional
to be content and no one at all
x2

do nothing 
be no one
just fade
fade
x2

dreamscape fadeout in our room
we're crazy
crazy baby escaping reality
x2

always learning individuality
thinking it's real like originality
when everythings in rewind and repeat
but sometimes it will still be packing heat 
yeh
it's on the preach of the screen i pray
i conform to it every day
conformity's the new alternative
I love to be irrelevant and say
well i think it's aspirational
to hang around and do fuck all
it seems unconventional
to be content and no one at all

do nothing 
be no one
just fade
fade
x2

dreamscape fadeout in our room
we're crazy
crazy baby escaping reality
x2

STREAM + NEW MERCH

be no one

Depths (Prod. ERLAX)

https://soundcloud.com/rivilin

Music Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XNQ77eK9Gf8

Lyrics

Yeah, yeah this doesn't make any sense
So why did you tell me you don't want to see me again
How's does it feel to be you, pushing abusing the ones you love you break
So what does it mean to be me you wanna ask me
The questions you don't wanna see
You're rubbing the back of my hair your screaming so loudly
You don't want to show that you care

You're punching your face in the street
You're hitting the pavement your spitting out bloody teeth
Eager to meet me, don't want to see me, so confused i don't want to see
So what does it mean to me, you never ask you never care
So what does it mean for us, yeah you know i shouldn't ask that

Cus im a skinny piece of shit from the west side, lose sight
From where I wanna be cus im back on the drugs again
I wanna blame you but I know it's my fault
Just to date someone so disgusting

So who am I meant to be, yeah I know
He looks a lot like me
So tell me lucifer is that your reflection in the window
Staring back at me, what do you see

Cus too many people here talk about me
So how does it feel to be the one without a dream
Fuck a 9-5 I wanna be free
Cus too many people wanna talk about me

Fuck you watchu thinking, you ain't know fuck all about me
I work harder than some pussy boys that do it for a bounty
They be bragging bout the money that they sucking dick to see
You a sheep boy, living in the simulation, deep

I am free

Boy I threw away a 6 figure job, twice
Knew I'm giving up a life, still I paid the price
I ain't give a fuck about the money, I'm alive
Create to survive, that's my line, till I fucking die

My ex said that I was a lame-o
Said sloth you a pussy just take those
Blank thoughts while blacking in the shadows
Fuck, thank god I left that hell hole

Drove fast, eyes closed
Count downed, I really didn't know
Thought my life would just stay shit
But know there's light in darkness

Cus too many people here talk about me
So how does it feel to be the one without a dream
Fuck a 9-5 I wanna be free
Cus too many people wanna talk about me

Cus too many people here talk about me
So how does it feel to be the one without a dream
Fuck a 9-5 I wanna be free
Cus too many people wanna talk about me

BURNT IGNITION

Construct

$LOTHBOI x Rivilin - Construct [Music Video ↓]

Rivilin:

I know anxiety lives in me 
if I stay here will I lose my mind I think I've already passed that time
plagued by derealization feel like im looking through a fucking glass
feel like this ain't my body im just in a dream will death wake me up

these drugs no they don't mean shit when this body doesn't feel even real
can’t keep up a fucking job it feels like im just blessed with bad luck
try to explain it to someone but they don't understand
like why can't I be normal for a second so I can feel human

my body on this cold concrete no furniture fucking around
convinced these shadows on the walls are out for me till im in the ground
take a step back id like to realize that im ok it's just my perspective
It cus feels like im living in my skull like nothing is real and this is all a dream

till I take my life and I wake up, maybe then ill be happy in this place
my psychologist doesn't get it, no amount of therapy can change what I feel
I tell my mother that im ok, that im just going through a rough patch
this is my reality, ill fake a smile and say that im fine

floating above this city,
if I let go will I suddenly fall then can I wake up
to me, this place isn't pretty
I feel disgusted when I see myself suicide’s not enough

there's a constant battle in me
gravity has given in hear the wind roaring as I collide
with the concrete end it quickly 
my eyes snap open breathe heavy, every time I die I wake up

Coaastgxd:


Every time I die I wake up
Every time I die I…

This time I'm just fine running away
And I'd sell my soul just to better the days
I never get a hold of this, I throw it away
I never know what to say, I make the same old mistakes

I been playing in traffic with my emotions and 
I'm closer to a rope than I been in a fucking minute, oh
Every time I think I'm getting better, I end up fucking sendin'
Now I'm back to the motherfucking beginning tho

Can't sleep and I can't wake up
"Life's tough, get a helmet and, shit, man up"
I been stuck and I'm spinning my tires up in the mud
Going nowhere fast, The ash floating over the sun

Rivilin:

my body on this cold concrete no furniture fucking around
convinced these shadows on the walls are out for me till im in the ground
take a step back id like to realize that im ok it's just my perspective
It cus feels like im living in my skull like nothing is real and this is all a dream

till I take my life and I wake up, maybe then ill be happy in this place
my psychologist doesn't get it, no amount of therapy can change what I feel
I tell my mother that im ok, that im just going through a rough patch
this is my reality, ill fake a smile and say that im fine

floating above this city,
if I let go will I suddenly fall then can I wake up
to me, this place isn't pretty
I feel disgusted when I see myself suicide’s not enough

there's a constant battle in me
gravity has given in hear the wind roaring as I collide
with the concrete end it quickly 
my eyes snap open breathe heavy, every time I die I wake up

Scarlett FT. Coaastgxd

Follow $lothboi: @slothboipapi
Follow Rivilin: @rivilin
Prod. Grayskies

Watch on YouTube: https://youtu.be/xrW21bT-yUA

Lyrics:

Shine
Darkness
There’s people inside
Mind broke
These voices they lie
Telling me
I already d!ed
Liars
I feel so alive
Liar liar
The pants on fire
Higher higher
My mind in the fryer
Live and d!e here
Filthy s*x and desire
Loopty doopty
I’m spun like a dryer
Oh no yeah I’m spun out
Aye
High dose till the sun out
Yeah
Walls talk in the fun house
Yeah
Shadow people won’t get out
F*ck

Yeah deceiver
Dissembler
Has the noose become too tight
Are you hanging from the doorway
Are you screaming to the night
Just a cheater
A gambler am I fishing for a life
Am I searching for the truth
Tell me how to outrun a lie

You put the knife in my mouth
And you shake it all around
Can you tell me what's real
As I spit blood on the ground
Just a creature
Remember the facts that come in dreams
Am I fumbling for another pill
I swore that I'd get clean

I see your body dance up in the sky
So lifeless but you give a smile
And you say
It's ok
It's not like our life
Really mattered here anyway

40 stuck between
In the back seat
Dumb geeked
They capping ain’t the same
I'm a fact sheet
Trust me
Wide up and awake
Love a night shift
Create this
And lately I been dreaming wide awake
Imma make it

Liar liar
The pants on fire
Higher higher
My mind in the fryer
Live and d!e here
Filthy s*x and desire
Loopty doopty
I’m spun like a dryer
Oh no yeah I’m spun out
Aye
High dose till the sun out
Yeah
Walls talk in the fun house
Yeah
Shadow people won’t get out
F*ck

Yeah deceiver
Dissembler
Has the noose become too tight
Are you hanging from the doorway
Are you screaming to the night
Just a cheater
A gambler am I fishing for a life
Am I searching for the truth
Tell me how to outrun a lie

You put the knife in my mouth
And you shake it all around
Can you tell me what's real
As I spit blood on the ground
Just a creature
Remember the facts that come in dreams
Am I fumbling for another pill
I swore that I'd get clean

So the sandman will sing
Feelin' stress issa mess drowning neck deep
Take my hand and search with me
Hearing shrieks in the walls calling me sweet
I wake up see him in my screen
Shadowed eyes in the back, help I can’t sleep
The shadow people wont let me leave
All the same need a change looping last week
Looping last week
Filthy in the back geeked
Shadows on the wall
I’m feeling like they trynna grab me
Cult up in the cut deep
Roots in different countries
How the f*ck we get here from the bottom
Now we up sheesh

SHADOW PEOPLE

$LOTHBOI x RIVILIN - SHADOW PEOPLE

LYRICS:

You know I can't be someone that you depend on
Cus you know when you hit me up I will not answer
The consequences of separation are never easy
And when you’re all alone you hit me up, say that you need me

But I'm sick of that, I don't wanna be used to the grave
Panic attacks hit the stage open up I'm in a state
Dont wanna talk about feelings why can't I be left alone
I'm not coping, I’m not good, I didn't think that it would show

Yeah cus, I didn't want to be someone that you depend on
I didn't want to be the one that didn't answer
You said "Hold your tongue cus I don't want to hear you ever speak,
You just stay inside, haven't had a reply in a week."

"I hope you suffer in the bed that you have made for yourself
Are you happy all alone, in this hell are you content?"
"Yeah I don't care about you, I guess this is goodbye,
Cus I still don't understand the reasons why you wanna die."

Cus I hate you, when you break me, you choose
It was always us two back then I was confused
It's always when I see you falter I slip up to
I see that you are amused by the fact I need you

You know I couldn't help you when you just suffered
You know I couldn't be something that you wanted
Always getting up at me like I made a mistake
Push us back and then we break, constant fighting, say we’re fake

You wanna reprimand me for times when I didn't understand
Don't want to explain it to me so you give me the backhand
You say that I'm selfish for trying to be someone that just cares
But you run away, ignore me then just give me a blank stare

So what the fuck is up with it, I get it yeah you hate
Everyone who doesn't understand the pain that you create
You say you wanna tear them down in hopes that they never exist
I guess we all just have opinions and to you they don't mean shit

I see, "You suffer in the bed that you made for yourself
Are you happy, all alone in this hell are you content?"
"Yeah you know I care about you, I guess this is goodbye
And I still don't understand the reasons why you wanna die."

Cus I hate you, when you break me, you choose
It was always us two back then I was confused
It's always when I see you falter I slip up to
I see that you are amused by the fact I need you

Cautious

cover by colenascus tap in beat from dkmike got a few more dropping tap in tap in tap on

screws p. dkmike

Written/performed/produced by SEPHA.
co-prod/mix/master w/ CH!O(Juan Peralta)
art by SEPHA.
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Videos - www.youtube.com/channel/UCMiKze_9jKL9DpS0dXmxK3Q
Spotify - open.spotify.com/artist/094ug46k28Q0tdaGPm3WNA
AppleMusic/iTunes - itunes.apple.com/gb/artist/sepha/1243252989
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Social -
IG - www.instagram.com/sepha.a/
Twitter - twitter.com/_SEPHA 
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Lyrics -

i saw u in the docks
i was pullin up
on my broken bike
dirty jeans and my shirt was scuffed
said 
'take me on a site seeing night of lust
lets be foreign in our city
sneak the back doors of seedy clubs'

we had no foresite
so things looked so pretty then
shoplifted red wine
staggered through til daybreak along the thames
in those lamp lights at embankments when
she pulled my head to the pendant on her chest and said

pretend we're vegas for the night
im your bride and your mine and lets leave our jobs behind
(say i do i do i do)
lets skip a train to nowhere
no one will judge us there
and lets leave this cruel world behind
(say i do i do i do)
dont know ur name so tonight we're thelma and louise
drive a car off a cliff together
feel the breeze and
fuck the world from up high
(say i do i do i do)
this moment is everything

and you know i'll never fear the fall with you x4

i dreamt you every night
i was screwing up
daylight took my eyes
cos my bed dreamt us going rough
im your bride to be 
smoking gold dust
i feel foreign in my body
when im reckless im fabulous
we got no foresite 
so things were pretty then
stole all the flowers off that posh shop at 6am
in our dim lit sights is when i saw u then
in that next minute u left somewhere
ill never see u again

pretend we're vegas for the night
im your bride and your mine and lets leave our jobs behind
(say i do i do i do)
lets skip a train to nowhere
no one will judge us there
and lets leave this cruel world behind
(say i do i do i do)
dont know ur name so tonight we're thelma and louise
drive a car off a cliff together
feel the breeze and
fuck the world from up high
(say i do i do i do)
this moment is everything

and you know i'll never fear the fall with you x4

STREAM / DOWNLOAD

2BRIDES

(second album, 'Alien and connected' - out soon)
Written/Performed by SEPHA.
Produced by SEPHA. & CH!O
cover art by nikita ono
mix/master w/ CH!O 
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Videos - www.youtube.com/channel/UCMiKze_9jKL9DpS0dXmxK3Q
Spotify - open.spotify.com/artist/094ug46k28Q0tdaGPm3WNA
AppleMusic/iTunes - itunes.apple.com/gb/artist/sepha/1243252989
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Social -
IG - www.instagram.com/sepha.a/
Twitter - twitter.com/_SEPHA 
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Lyrics - 

a love thats built on lust
a love thats built on trust
and passion
its all the same
its all hard

when life keeps teaching you
how to be alone
they say don't know yourself
know what you want 
its all what you want

i'm all alone
when im together with all my friends
we're still alone 
we're all alone
when we're together with all our friends
we're alien 
and im alien
when im connected to all the world 
im alien
and im all alone
when im together with all my friends 
im still alone 

they always place things in steps
and they always place things in parts
they always place ends and starts
they always have the last laugh

"so please get a job - one thats built on trust,
a work that tests your guts.."
...its all the same
its all endless paths

i'm all alone
when im together with all my friends
i'm still alone &
we're all alone
when we're together with all our friends
we're still alone
and im alien
and im connected to all the world 
im alien
and we're alien
and we're connected to all the world
we're alien

i'm all alone
though im together with all my friends im still alone
x 4
i'm still alone
x 8

STREAM // DOWNLOAD

Alien & Connected

Meaningless lyrics, did this to experiment and have fun.
Outside of my normal style, but I hope you guys enjoy :)

so take it slow
just ripped the soul
just let me go
the center folds
it takes it toll
nowhere to go
you say its cold
you're staying low
you're breaking bones
empty soul the grave is all
you've ever known

taking 2 steps you're backing
i see your footsteps im tracking
I see emotion you're lacking
I see you fall away

drawing blood with a knife
I'll start by taking your life
gripping to death in the night
I see you fall away

Come snapping bones I can show that
low blow to the chest I can strike back
pull up to the show with a full pack
you dont know when I blow you'll be stabbed back
say you reap what you sown but
I can see that you aint going nowhere
make like a fool when you run back
sliping down in a pool of your blood, ha

gripping the grasp of a soul
you better know, 
I'll be taking it all
hit a new low
this path that I chose
it aint for me anymore

slippery slope
down to the floor
im taking it all
with me to fall
you aint anymore
ayy 

so take it slow
just ripped the soul
just let me go
the centre folds
it takes it toll
nowhere to go
you say its cold
you're staying low
you're breaking bones
empty soul the grave is all
you've ever known

Grasp of a soul [prod. goodwill]

written/performed/produced by SEPHA.
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Social -
IG -  https://www.instagram.com/sepha.a
Twitter - https://www.twitter.com/_SEPHA
VK - https://vk.com/sephaofficial
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Lyrics: 
i'm spending every day
goin insane
talkin to screens
voices in the walls they squeeze me

its them that preach
preach so loud
so loud
but don't say much really
they don't get shot down 
when their shut down
they only sound dumb when you hear them out loud
x2

welcome to the era of mass death
unemployment
oligarks
and isolated enjoyment
natures collapse
with self accountability the central employment
not the systemic poisons 
and our daily routines
given more to screens
their reality illusive yet intrusive
click bait dreams
happy days where desires
are figured out for me
let my pores perspire
formulations for my needs
oh...
and a couple of crowds 
are at each others necks again

its them that preach
preach so loud
so loud
but don't say much really
they don't get shot down 
when their shut down
they only sound dumb when you hear them out loud
x2

they only sound dumb when you hear them out loud
they only sound dumb when you hear them out loud

well you might feel so corny when you put love first
cos lovin doesn't talk inside the echo church
every roll i'm on they follow in every angry word
daily saving different targets 
manifest my thirst

opinions 
i'm surrounded 
might be catered to til the grave
arteries clogged but still enabled 
on many boards of the same face
see the one's you disagree with 
silenced and called fascistic
no one can expose their ignorance
when they're not platformed with real statistics
oh...
and the crowds are at each others necks again

its them that preach
preach so loud
so loud
but don't say much really
they don't get shot down 
when their shut down
they only sound dumb when you hear them out loud

so gimme your hate
your hate speech
hate speech so i can speak freely 
no one gets shot down 
when their shut down
they only sound dumb
when you hear them out loud

its them that preach
preach so loud
so loud
but don't say much really
they don't get shot down 
when their shut down
they only sound dumb when you hear them out loud
x2

them that preach

SEPHA = singer//multi-instrumentalist//producer ☠✮ ✯☠ 
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All songs written, recorded and produced by SEPHA. (Joey Aybak) unless otherwise stated. 
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contact - instagram - @ sepha.a 
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