disgrace parades

lyrics:


promise this week i’ll do

all the things last week

i meant to do

and in the stars

out my window

i see plans and places i could go


the energy lifts all around 

i’m a spirit when i live this sound 

it’s the only thing to take me outta here

the fog on my window now clears


i’ll try and quit the escape 

and never fear it

no longer try and take the wheel

yet never steer it

when all i learned about myself

set me free

but the weight of it 

ended me



an infestation of loud insects

takin up my space but never payin rent

just like my past self livin check to check

stayin on sofas and sleeping on debts

when your careless your free to a degree

you live romantic while others take your fees

you break outta the shell more stuck

and try and make up for all you took

see a life out my window

so many plans and places I could go


now i’m in the comfort of bare bones living

don’t need big richs just enough to be giving

to all i owe for others and myself

just to pay for daily gravity and health

the quiet strangers are the saviours of the earth 

those who need validation or a needy soul search

them who play their part for nothing in return

those content within their role who never always yearn

reprobate

written/performed/produced by SEPHA.
mixed/mastered w/ chio
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u care too much (for validation)

prod https://soundcloud.com/amertm
feat https://soundcloud.com/sepha-joey
cover @slothboipapi

Lyrics

Haven't left my room in 3 days
This pain its got me
Procrastinating, like

Sloth really crying to sleep
Cuz loneliness peaks
And I'm a fucking loser

Drown in pain
Hate my days
I'm finna break

Locked inside by choice of mine
Disintegrate

Mental state decay by day
I am afraid

Of thoughts of mine they wondering
I'm finna break

I drink daily
To forget the pain
I want love, not trust issues from past mistakes

I feel hazy
I ain't want this day
Stuck in cycles of trauma I can't escape

Watch me and the bottle slip backwards away from here
Watch me and the bottle slip backwards away from here

Watch me and the smoke hang around the ceiling like a wraith of my fears
A wraith of my fears

I'm going on my way
But I'm here in the same place

I be going on my way
But I'm here in the same place

I'm going on my way
But I'm here in the same place

I be going on my way
But I'm here in the same place

Haven't left my room in 3 days
This pain its got me
Procrastinating, like

Sloth really crying to sleep
Cuz loneliness peaks
And I'm a fucking loser

I drink daily (Dark my eyes)
To forget the pain (As I see the light)
I want love, not trust issues from past mistakes

I feel hazy (Name my fate)
I ain't want this day (As I hate my days)
Stuck in cycles of trauma I can't escape

Trapped

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Trapped w/ SEPHA. (Amertume)

written/performed/produced by SEPHA.
mixed/mastered w/ chio
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Lyrics:
6am
get up
feel doubt
shake it off
walk about
while the sleeping sky is teasing you
tally scores
of the chores
of ur day
to rid away
all the clouds
that carry all ur desires and gods

gonna run with the pain til i feel high
gonna leave all my worries in an old life
x2
there's so many things that could kill u
so let it go
x2

works ends
it sucked
now its night time
ur a night guy
work for breaks guy
have a pint guy
hide ur thoughts guy
and appear
all smiles
to live the day
its first world problems
at a table
while third world devastation
through a screen
far away
makes u stressed at yourself
thinking why am i taking this for granted sink another one in on a bread line
not a death line
just a casual small wage alienation with information overload to keep you always envy dreaming

gonna run with the pain til i feel high
gonna leave all my worries in an old life
x2
there's so many things that could kill u 
so let it go
x2

its weekend 
wake up
make upf
or all the lost
hours spent on time for someone else
indulge
go big
everything's yours
to give 
til it goes back to the grind again
and u check ur
ur wasitline
ur frownline
ur health and ur bank account
and think why did i do that thing fuck it
its another day
probably do it again
try to break the pattern before it goes in circles

gonna run with the pain til i feel high
leave all my worries in an old life
leave all my worries in an old life
leave all my worries in a

gonna run with the pain til i feel high
gonna leave all my worries in an old life
x2
there's so many things that could kill u
so let it go
x2

so many things (that could kill u)

written/performed/produced by sepha.
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Lyrics:

it hurts so much but we'll get there
and i'll
i'll go with you
we can older 
i'll finally get to hold you 
appreciate the beauty 
up there
x2

the one's your lead by
in youth
they're only saying the things you want to hear

so why are you trusting them your fears?
they'll only say what you want to hear
x4

it hurts so much but we'll get there
and i'll
i'll go with you
we can get older 
i'll finally get to hold you 
appreciate the beauty 
up there
x2

so why are you trusting them your fears?
they'll only say what you want to hear
x4

it hurts so much but we'll get there
and i'll
i'll go with you
we can get older 
i'll finally get to hold you 
appreciate the beauty 
up there
x2

we'll get there (away from headless crowds)

KILL KILL KILL KILL KILL KILL KILL KILL KILL KILL KILL KILL KILL KILL

i want you dead and gone
(x8)

"KILL KILL KILL"♡.•°*”˜ p. grayskies

Taken from the album Ratrose


SHORT BLUNTS, WIDE EYES, YOU’LL FALL FOR ME
(YEAH YOU’LL FALL FOR ME, YEAH YOU’LL FALL FOR ME)
BABY GIRL YEAH, I GOT ALL THAT YOU NEED
(I GOT ALL THAT YOU NEED, YEAH)
SHORT HIGH, WHITE EYES, MAN DEATH IS FREE
(MAN DEATH IS FREE, FUCKING DEATH IS FREE)
LOOK TWICE, CUS FAKE FRIENDS COME SO CHEAP 

POVERTY LEGS, WATCH ME BLEED
I'M LOOSING SENSE OF EVERYTHING   
ANOTHER DAY, ANOTHER DOLLAR
STEALING SCRAP WHILE SECURITY HOLLER

AT US, JUST TO COME BACK, COME BACK
I WAS SEVENTEEN, JUST AFRAID OF ANYTHING MAKING ME
A COWARD, A DAMN RIGHT BASTARD, THAT'S RIGHT 
I'M NOT PERFECT, JUST LIKE YOU

CUS I’M SICK OF MY OWN NAME, SICK TO DEATH OF MY OLD WAYS
SELF DESTRUCTION, I WISH THERE WAS AN OPTION
HANG HOPE HIGH WITH THE ROPE AT AUCTION
SELL ME FOR LOOSE CHANGE, CLAIMING I'M DERANGED

I'VE DUG SO MUCH THAT I'VE LOST SENSE OF TIME
LOCKED THE DOOR, SHUT THE BLIND, YEAH EVERYTHING'S JUST FINE
SMASHED THIS OUT IN FEW DAYS, GONNA BE A HIT
YEAH COMING UP, JUST WATCH

IM 10 GRAND IN DEBT, AND I DIDNT LEARN SHIT MAN, 
IT MADE ME FEEL LIKE I WAS NOTHING
I LINGER HERE ABIT MAN, AND ILL KEEP TO MYSELF, 
WRITE THIS MUSIC UNTIL IAM SOMETHING

OLD EX GOT A HOOK THROUGH MY NECK
RIP IT OUT AND I’M BLEEDING ON THE GROUND WHILE YOU’RE WATCHING
I TRY TO GET ON MY FEET BUT I’VE NEVER FELT THIS WEAK
BUT YOU WANNA PUSH ME DOWN WHILE YOU’RE LAUGHING

all i need

Prod by: @quiteevil

Lyrics: 
(verse 1)
Done with all this shit
Hoppin out the whip bitch
put a 9 in my mouth
Let my brains blow out
Broken silver arrows broken fucking minds

Im a vampire cutting out your fucking eyes 
I'll drink your blood like its nice

Cut my wrist cause im fucked right
Cut your wrist so i cry right

Are you fucking with my mind
Are you fucking with me this time 

Cut our ties 
Cut you out my life
Cut you down tonight better make me feel fine
Cut our ties
Cut you out my life
Cut him up tonight 
Show me that you love me right
Show me that you love me right

(chorus) 
I dont want to see
I just want to bleed
No i dont want to see
I just want you to bleed

(verse 2)
And when im dead i hope you smile
I dont want no fake love i hope you die
And if you want us too we could get high
Cause i dont wanna feel this way tonight
Did not show me love 
Did not watch me bleed
Even tried to fucked my best friend
What is this greed

Tried to show you that i care
Tried to hide my fears
So i tied myself a noose
And now my body's hanging loose

No
No you did not fucking care
Your heart already bruised
Thats why you left me feeling used
Left me feeling used

(chorus)
I dont want to see
I just want to bleed
No i dont want to see
I just want you to bleed

Heaven’s Gate/Decades

I'm done/A long time ago

SAME WITH YOU IS OUT
[Mixed and Mastered by Kyle Williams]

PHANTASMAGORIA 2021

THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR THE SUPPORT!

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LYRICS:

Rooftop, surrounded by a thousand winds 
You sang a song as if you had to sing it for the last time 
Despite your own own doubts and old fears
You sang so loud, it brought attention of the others 
Whatever makes it easier to breathe 
No difference how apart, you’re gonna find me 
What is it that you’ve done?  
What is it that you choose? 
What if it never ends, still if you want it to 
Why it’s the only way? 
Please tell me, walk me through 
Otherwise I don’t care 
Seems like same with you 

Since we have torn ourselves away in million pieces 
Still free falling 
What comes next still seems beneath us 
It’s been a venture of a lifetime, can you feel it? 
Ain’t no warning 
Tables turning, all be witness 
Since we have torn ourselves away in million pieces 
Still free falling 
What comes next still seems beneath us 
It’s been a venture of a lifetime, can you feel it? 
Ain’t no warning 
Tables turning, all be witness 

Still free falling

Same With You

written/performed/produced by SEPHA.
art by sepha.
mix/master w/ @ch!o <3
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Lyrics:

i can never sleep
screamin at the ceiling and i'm tearing at the sheets
all of my anxieties are running up to me
their frantic energy is overwhelming me
and i cant calm it down
the space i breathe
is also the prison where my mind can never keep
positive in lines of thought
it ties up endless seams
keep asking why til numbness consumes 
the feeling free

where nothing ever feels like anything anymore (x2)

all this human bondage wraps me up
and i don't feel the
unity of it all
and i don't feel the

i could never dream
dreaming is believing
then you're loosing everything
all of the naivety 
will lead you to worse things
find the strength to love the now
the comfort is the key
but i can't calm it 
down
the space i breathe 
is also now the prison 
where the learning hinders me
stay a little dumb and
stay a little meek
everything you learn and more
are keys but they're locks where 

nothing ever feels like anything anymore (x2)

all this human bondage wraps me up
and i don't feel the
unity of it all
and i don't feel the
(x2)

bridge //

all this human bondage wraps me up
and i don't feel the
unity of it all
and i don't feel the
(x2)

(backing vocals -
all this
human
bondage
bondage)

ALL OTHER PLATFORMS

human bondage

written/performed/produced by SEPHA.
art by sepha.
mix/master w/ @drunkgirl <3

the ones (who think they've figured it out)

https://linktr.ee/Rivilin

I hear the silence talking
yeah deep in my chest
This girl shes got me fucked up
sink in the pills with no regret

Falling down the hallway locked in an empty house
yeah gravities a blur, on the ceiling screaming now
the shadows dancing on the walls seem to taunt me
always beckoning me to just jump and just leave

I haven’t felt this way in a long time
get the strength to walk on the balcony and im staring straight down
legs are shaking as I climb over the fucking edge
if I let go will you please just stop this

all these thoughts they erase over time
like tell me what is my own fucking name I forgot
I collapse, I collapse as my neck snaps
wake up from another dream where suicides a fairy tale

popping pills after pills get my mind straight
watch me relapse again till you just hate everything I am
cut my throat let me bleed, let me bleed out
there’s no amount of medicine that can help me now

yeah im watching the bedsheets consume me
watch the walls start to fade when my vision blacks out
I saw your face standing right there above me
I don’t blame you for cutting out to just leave

watch my soul walk down the hallway
he said goodbye, you’re lost in a state now
what does that make me
just another fuck up that’s a shame, wear a fake mask till my grave

watching my family just stare now
yeah they don’t know a thing about what it’s like to break down
fill my psychs pockets till they realize debts found
kick me out on the street cus I can’t afford to get help

with the shadows on the walls as we stare at my body
it’s just convulsing now everyone just thinks im a druggie
because im paranoid about words that I just hear
cus I know you divulge information that I trusted in you

but we both know that it doesn’t mean shit
I bet you don’t even remember the torment that you just put me through
I collapse, I collapse as my neck snaps
wake up from another dream where suicides a fairy tale

Erase Me

Written/Performed/Produced by SEPHA.
art by sepha.
mix/master w/ https://soundcloud.com/drunkgirlmusic <3
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Lyrics -

those doubts
I run them out
X2

Its those doubts
those doubts in ur mind still rise
u take ur time
drive u wild with hate away from growth in sight
u run them out
 legs tiger pounce in every stride
Thought that the powers above never towered high

But the powers above never brought me down 
Made the forces in my step
On shallow grounds 
X2

No man knows
Where the power is
Whose mouth speaks it
Who repeats it
Who imitates it
Then concretes it
Who imitates it then concretes it

Those demagogues
Them that seek it
Them that breathe it
Them that repeat it
Then concrete it
Them that repeat it then concrete it
Oh

Oh
Bring the colours out of you
Well I’ve been sleeping
in dark rooms
x2

Im so down
Wont let the powers above mess me more somehow 
Wont let the pride in my chest
Arch down to a bow 
Wont let the voices from the crowd
Become to loud 
Wont let the faceless noise
Bring heartless anger out

No man knows
Where the power is
Whose mouth speaks it
Who repeats it
Who imitates it
Then concretes it
Who imitates it then concretes it

No punch knows
Where the force is
Whose fist beats it
Whose neck seats it
Who recieves it
Then repeats it
Who imitates it then recieves it

Bring the colours out of you
I’ve been sleeping
In dark rooms

Bring me the colours out of you
Well I’ve been sleeping
in dark rooms
x3

Away from the others ive been waiting to
See u in colour ive been waiting to
See u in colours ive been waiting to
See u in colours ive been waiting to

Show me the power of u
of you
you
x4

demagogue

Written/Performed/Produced by SEPHA.
art by sepha.
mix/master w/ chio (https://soundcloud.com/user-780638133) <3
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Lyrics -

i played up like a fool
i was clownin and 
fallin fallin fallin around town
but i was callin callin callin out
but you only saw the fool 
and heard the shouts
x2

knew you loved to school me
how i knew you loved to school me then
how i knew you loved to school me
how i knew you loved to school me then
but i was clownin clownin clownin
but i was clownin clownin clownin

i hope 
we look
with a laugh
and relief in a better time
x2

i played up like a fool
i was clownin and 
fallin fallin fallin around town
but i was callin callin callin out
but you only saw the fool 
and heard the shouts
x2

lost clown in the over growth
the mud banks slippin down liquor slopes
and on the buzz i reached the tall heights
but my arm span sunk and lost focus on my sight

please no more bad news
they said they can't take it
disgrace parades
collapse brigades
please no more bad news
they said they can't take it

i hope 
we look
with a laugh
and relief in a better time
x4
in a better time

i threw those devices away
and deleted the self i made
for the maniac
who couldn't live
the day to day

played up like a fool
i was clownin and 
fallin fallin fallin around town
but i was callin callin callin out
but you only saw the fool 
and heard the shouts

spotify

better time

https://linktr.ee/Rivilin

https://soundcloud.com/ripthepetals

RipThePetals

Body so cold
I'm on the road
You wanna go home

Cocaine drip down your nose
Body feel so cold

I don't like you
I don't even see you as a friend anymore

You know when it rain, yeah you bet it gone pour
Remember you came and you claimed you’re alone

I was there when you needed help
Now i'm alone, living in this hell

Body so cold
I'm on the road
You wanna go home

Rivilin

No i don’t get this, 
when you say im a fuck up and leave me alone oh

RipThePetals

Cocaine drip down your nose
Body feel so cold

Rivilin

Where do I go from here 
when I mentally fucked and I hear your call

RipThePetals

I don't like you
I don't even see you as a friend anymore

You know when it rain, yeah you bet it gone pour
Remember you came and you claimed you’re alone

Rivilin 

FUCK FUCK FUCK

RipThePetals

I was there when you needed help
Now i'm alone, living in this hell

IMAGERY FT. RIPTHEPETALS

written/performed/produced by SEPHA.
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Lyrics: 
i'm spending every day
goin insane
talkin to screens
voices in the walls they squeeze me

its them that preach
preach so loud
so loud
but don't say much really
they don't get shot down 
when their shut down
they only sound dumb when you hear them out loud
x2

welcome to the era of mass death
unemployment
oligarks
and isolated enjoyment
natures collapse
with self accountability the central employment
not the systemic poisons 
and our daily routines
given more to screens
their reality illusive yet intrusive
click bait dreams
happy days where desires
are figured out for me
let my pores perspire
formulations for my needs
oh...
and a couple of crowds 
are at each others necks again

its them that preach
preach so loud
so loud
but don't say much really
they don't get shot down 
when their shut down
they only sound dumb when you hear them out loud
x2

they only sound dumb when you hear them out loud
they only sound dumb when you hear them out loud

well you might feel so corny when you put love first
cos lovin doesn't talk inside the echo church
every roll i'm on they follow in every angry word
daily saving different targets 
manifest my thirst

opinions 
i'm surrounded 
might be catered to til the grave
arteries clogged but still enabled 
on many boards of the same face
see the one's you disagree with 
silenced and called fascistic
no one can expose their ignorance
when they're not platformed with real statistics
oh...
and the crowds are at each others necks again

its them that preach
preach so loud
so loud
but don't say much really
they don't get shot down 
when their shut down
they only sound dumb when you hear them out loud

so gimme your hate
your hate speech
hate speech so i can speak freely 
no one gets shot down 
when their shut down
they only sound dumb
when you hear them out loud

its them that preach
preach so loud
so loud
but don't say much really
they don't get shot down 
when their shut down
they only sound dumb when you hear them out loud
x2

them that preach

SEPHA = singer//multi-instrumentalist//producer ☠✮ ✯☠ 
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All songs written, recorded and produced by SEPHA. (Joey Aybak) unless otherwise stated. 
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xx

u care too much (for validation)

SEPHA.

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