When I had died With nobody by my side to hold me

first song i heard from you ,when it came out, still my one of my fav song to this day

You can not touch me🙄 / But we can still talk🤷‍♂️

sock monkey Island eheheheheh

lyrics:

Just holidays
And barely those holidays
Our good terms
Are not immune to decay 
I tried but im still away
And you’ve been fucking his brains out 
Don’t look at me as if there was a sorry to say

I would care but
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off 
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off
As the bodies grow dry
And I bleed from my eyes
From some shit I shoulda never saw
I don’t need a life line
I don’t need a good night
I just drink until I shut it off

 Ive never met someone so geared on my failure good job
At least I squeezed some meaning into ur shitty life huh
When I die an early death I hope that u can cope when the hatred in ur heart is now evicted with my pulse

Break the home
Breaks my bones and see my soul snapped too
Im alone most the time ur not restricting anything new
I like getting scary I do I know ur tryna be a boss good for u
What the fuck they turn me down for
 I am never going out more
I guess he wasn’t a regular guy
I hope u choke on ur vomit and die
My messages aids I do not open them
Im high as fuck from this bud its like opium
I don’t wanna live to get by
Ur literally here once and its over after that u fucking idiot do what u want ur done after this u fucking dumb ass u suck I fucking hate u
 
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off 
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off
As the bodies grow dry
And I bleed from my eyes
From some shit I shoulda never saw
I don’t need a life line
I don’t need a good night
I just drink until I shut it off

Im torn apart and I am dirty
If its like this fuck 30
I wanna die right now
Baby im sorry im fucked I can’t talk right now
She lies
She just loves him to death
I dont compare to that hex
I suck the tits off her chest
Times waits
For nobody
Crossed lines
Become common knowledge
Bullshit u were with friends that’s bullshit
I was the culprit before
I feel projection in my point of view
  
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off 
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off numb
I been better off
As the bodies grow dry
And I bleed from my eyes
From some shit I shoulda never saw
I don’t need a life line
I don’t need a good night
I just drink until I shut it off

better_off_nUmb (splashgvng)

lyrics:

I forgot the way about 10 miles ago
Ive heard to use the stars to help and walk me home
But Its hard to see anything aside from the moon
She said Its never been the same since the town lost u
The storm hit hard way harder than most
U shouldve been inside when it got that close
I pass thru the rubble heaps and I call to a ghost
Fear can get the best of us but pride will take a soul
I fly thru the sky for 10 seconds at most
And I thought to use the gust to try and drop me home
And I tried to use the wind but found the telephone posts
I felt The clips pops thru me out the back of my throat

And then the stars came crashing down
I wait for u now I drown
In my sorrows lost and found
Im just down and bad right now
And around we go
The life we used to live is forgotten so
Im loving on her lips and it feels like stone
If u could run away would u come back home

The clouds look fake again
But what’s wrong with u
Its still poison that drips down
That’s what they’re telling you
So what ur telling me
Is that its you vs everyone else
I think u think too much
I know I do it too
And it forced my to change shells
And I wish we didn’t have these fucking arguments
But we dont talk to anyone else
She said I know
What u dont
She said I could tell u
But u should know its brutal
Well fuck it then I dont need anymore trouble than I got
A quarter way is a long way when ur looking back at the drop
There’s nothing better than a friday except a Friday u forgot
Even when its just my place I feel a strong urge to get crossed
The night had always looked beautiful but this time its just so strong
Even after the worst of it im still happier than I thought

And then the stars came crashing down
I wait for u now I drown
In my sorrows lost and found
Im just down and bad right now
And around we go
The life we used to live is forgotten so
Im loving on her lips and it feels like stone
If u could run away would u come back home

the stars came crashing down
as i wait for you in this dirt road town and i
cannot make this up if i wanted to
i’m just lashing out at life
i can’t let go
it’s a lil bit harder now
you taste like him
i’m a lil on fire now

light speed into the fray ft eric godlow (eric godlow)

lyrics:

U should never have swung my face in that door
Now I just like u more
U should never have taught me how to feel pain
Cause now I just wait for more
Me or myself or my own sick mind who do I talk to more
Shell always lay in the pit of my heart
Though she is not mine no more

Bring that down on my neck u carver
I have been farmed like a lamb to the slaughter
I had drawn pleasure from what they called torture
Tears for the man in the mask oh the horror
Dystopia is not so far away from this place
And I would put my life on it that We were born in wrap up
I cant even look at u right now Cause I might throw up

so bleed me bleed me bleed me bleed me
I just put life on top of the line for some people that never tried or would do the same but im still here
That was one hell of a night I couldve died like 20 times i think my pride would’ve took my life and yet im still here
10 hours a day is unaccounted for I think of what were up to when separated this long I wonder
Hands all on my face pick at my head trying get under this drink start in my cup and end in my thoughts leaving them sundered

Bring that down on my neck u carver
I have been farmed like a lamb to the slaughter
I had drawn pleasure from what they called torture
Tears for the man in the mask oh the horror
Dystopia is not so far away from this place
And I would put my life on it
We were born in wrap up
I cant even look at u right now
Cause I might throw up

to the slaughter (saint tomorrow x taylor morgan x taxpurposes)

lyrics:

Sage green eyes look over me while I break down
U sucked out my life from my heart I need to lay down
I read somewhere u rarely should ever trust what people say now
I didn’t wanna believe but I know it keeps me safe now
Please just learn to fight on ur own cause ur all u got
Its something I hated hearing but honestly it helped a lot
She said rather drink some gin and smoke some pot to block it out
And baby that’s ur decision and I can’t help if u dont hear me out

But still we keep on drinking thru the hard times
These 50 people around keep us occupied
This October is so much colder than last years
I wish I could relax but I dont see any of my friends here
Ive made it this far so Im sure I could never fold here
But before u broke me up I didn’t know tears
I blow my cigarette smoke in fall air
U look so good but oh my god u bite
I didn’t trust nobody and oh my god I was right to
love didn’t use to mean that they’d try lock u up and hide u
Baby it’s a big world and I’m trying but I hate this
As soon u gain some traction oh its funny how the plot twist
Its all the same when the last breath comes
Who would u save and who would u rather have die
Dont focus on the blade look me in my eyes
Im here to wipe the last tears u cry
I was never the one to avenge ur life
Cause in ur last move u sacrificed mine
So baby I garuntee that it’ll be only bad dreams tonight
And in the worst of it all I show teeth tonight
Because me of still free tonight
Because of me I still breath
But because of u I cant sleep
It seems ur smells still stuck in my sheets tonight

Sage green eyes look over me while I break down
U sucked out my life from my heart I need to lay down
I read somewhere u rarely should ever trust what people say now
I didn’t wanna believe but I know it keeps me safe now
Please just learn to fight on ur own cause ur all u got
Its something I hated hearing but honestly it helped a lot
She said rather drink some gin and smoke some pot to block it out
And baby that’s ur decision and I can’t help if u dont hear me out

life sucker (taylor morgan x punk)

lyrics:

Keep your head down
Deep in dirt I could barely breath but Ill surface soon and relive the pain
I might stay infected but heaven knows with my straightened spine i won’t die the same
Words would hurt but ive grown immune and I like it when she get mad at me
That had worked once i won’t lie but im back revived and im starving
And everything I did was for you but im just an object
You embody evil from the hate that u harvest 
I would give my life to keep you safe I promise
But u knew that and still u wrote my fate for ur benefit
God save me Ive been lost
Every night I spend inside this wetlands swamp
Im in my head honestly I feel regret
Though Im at home and safe again
But Im obsessed with the life we missed

Ive always felt like a target
I don’t wanna fight I just want u to be honest
If I had some life left to live she would want it
The way that she mutilates me she’s like an artist
The hardest thing to face in this life is the damage
Damage u create it out weighs every lesson
Every time she breaks me I feel my heart ravaged
But god I love a woman that puts me at disadvantage

Show me ur strength Via my frame
Gimme everything I beg u do not refrain from using me
Deep in the corn I would summon some
Only when in danger id be having fun
Dont pay attention when I scream bloody murder
Secretly I pray they take it further for research
I read the books they told me I shouldn’t worry
I guess ive been in my head while I was planning February I know
I couldn’t hurt
So u preaching to choir
And I loved me first
So betrayal could not survive here
stack skrilla, margiela killa, i dont wanna die here
gucci, fendi, louis, blow some cash and feel alive wear
white on white designer head to toe im like a polar bear
surgeon mask is fillin with the smoke theres potent in the air

Ive always felt like a target
I don’t wanna fight I just want u to be honest
If I had some life left to live she would want it
The way that she mutilates me she’s like an artist
The hardest thing to face in this life is the damage
Damage u create it out weighs every lesson
Every time she breaks me I feel my heart ravaged
But god I love a woman that puts me at disadvantage

THE HARVEST (NEVRFALL X BRANWEN)

its complicated ..

lyrics:

I could never tell if they love or hate me its complicated its complicated
All I know these drugs help me out with thinking i swear they save me oh I know they save me
I just need a push to wake up and take em just to motivate me now im motivated
Pouring out my soul is too hard when conscious so I do it faded and the product pays me 
She tell me that she loving on me regardless but I know she faking oh I know she fakes it
Tell me how u really feel off this ace I swear I could take it promise I can take it
With everything in my life im complacent if I was here now id be crying shaking
Im searching up effects for the shit im taking and its all just bad but damn still I take em
 
I cannot bank on myself cause I couldn’t tell u how long I’m breathing
Process the words that the masses tell u and prove them weaklings
I’m at the point where only god can save me cause I reject the treatment they propose to me cause I’m happy bleeding
The devil told me I was born to demon
Crawl forward on ur fractures
I can feel the wrath of god thru her bullet words
Time and time again I am stripped of rest and happiness
But we all got our pain so ill shut up cause mine is nothing special

I could never tell if they love or hate me its complicated its complicated
All I know these drugs help me out with thinking i swear they save me oh I know they save me
I just need a push to wake up and take em just to motivate me now im motivated
Pouring out my soul is too hard when conscious so I do it faded and the product pays me 
She tell me that she loving on me regardless but I know she faking oh I know she fakes it
Tell me how u really feel off this ace I swear I could take it promise I can take it
With everything in my life im complacent if I was here now id be crying shaking
Im searching up effects for the shit im taking and its all just bad but damn still I take em

complicated (sorrow bringer)

Sewerperson - Shrapnel 4 Breakfast (savagegasp)

lyrics:

Tears will saturate the clay laid
The loose dirt paints me and warms me
Why is it a sad thing baby
Returning to the being who made me
The judgement scares me and I know this
In that flesh suit a vacancy notice appears
Why is it a bad thing baby
Returning to the being who made me
But I am still here im just in ur walls
Feel my blood flow when u check ur pulse
U cannot touch me but we can still talk
If u miss me just play out  this song
If I cant breath I will breath thru you
Can u feel me can u hear me too
I hate when u cry cause It makes me cry
But I will guard you from the afterlife

She saw a ghost when sleeping
Baby I know ur dreaming
But Ive been trying to reach out
And truth is this is the best way I know how
Talking to ghouls and demons
U need to talk to me and
I know its harder when living
I promise I know the feeling

Baby I need you and you need me
But last thing I would want is you here with me in this realm
The clock is busted and lights are out
Surprisingly its so cold in hell
Talk is so cheap
But its comforting to me
So I dont want to wait anymore
I pray that god speaks
To my soul to my being
Stuck in purgatory
I had sinned I was wrong
And now its flipped back onto me
When I had died
With nobody by my side to hold me
Im Mortified
Reaching out towards the light in front of me
If I return
You will feel the pain you placed upon me
In Twenty fold
I promise to make u cry ill make u bleed
Lay me down and let me sleep
I give you my soul to keep
Purple hands and dirty feet
Spirits take control of me
God cant save u from ur fate
I promise u ull be erased
Feed me blood I love the taste
Holy Spirit give me strength

She saw a ghost when sleeping
Baby I know ur dreaming
But Ive been trying to reach out
And truth is this is the best way I know how
Talking to ghouls and demons
U need to talk to me and
I know its harder when living
I promise I know the feeling

words_frm the dying (branwen)

lyrics:

sewerperson:
And I know u want me but I dont mind
use me and dump me this Friday night
Bite at my body and bleed me dry
Listen to my heart beat out as I die

I made a pact with my well-being 
But I couldn’t keep me from loving u still
The eyes of creation are all seeing 
And if they see me then I’m going to hell
Still what they pour Henny for
We all so blasted I don’t think we need no more
I feel I need a breather quick
My emotions don’t match with this mixed up gin 
Keep going 
I eat that cake then I perform
U cannot smoke this a me blunt
I roll backwoods until I go tree form
Bite on my lip till it comes off
Use me however to get off
Call me whatever u see fit
But after just pick up my pieces

And I know u want me but I dont mind
use me and dump me this Friday night
Bite at my body and bleed me dry
Listen to my heart beat out as I die

guardin:
yeah she's sucking me dry
not in the way that i'd probably like
i was afraid to commit to her patterns
living vicariously through her life
oh
feeling like i
wasn't enough to encompass your eyes
blistering welts like a page off of thrasher
half of the shit that i do isn't wise
torch where those feelings reside
kiss on my neck as i'm gripping your thighs
love isn't cheap when it's riddled with answers
i fall asleep always questioning why
cords tangled up like a dancer
timberwood lake house just south of dubai
you make my heartbeat grow faster
palpitation till it bursts through the sky
pierce through my skin till it's all bone dry
listen to my heart beat out as I die

sewerperson:
And I know u want me but I dont mind
use me and dump me this Friday night
Bite at my body and bleed me dry
Listen to my heart beat out as I die

friday nite fun ft guardin (twentytwo)

lyrics:

Create the bond
And break the bond in anger
We were once and once again are strangers
Piercing me her eyes have turned to lasers
Create the plot and skew the plot to make her
I hope this feeling in my stomach blows by
You were the only one to read me thru my eyes baby
I was fucked by u made it alright baby
now without you part of me dies

I thought human nature gifted moral code but I was wrong
She could kill me now and I would still try to put it in a song
Circulation leaves my fingers while I jot down these poems
I feel being hated still holds more than being alone
Ive lost too many friends to the same shit I take
Heavens way too full for someone that had willed this fate
The bottles never deep enough to drown out this pain
And the pills are never strong enough to alleviate this weight
Create the bond
And break the bond in anger
We were once and once again are strangers
Piercing me her eyes have turned to lasers
Create the plot and skew the plot to make her
Break me again
And again and again
When im numb Ill say sorry to my family and friends
Im on drink im on pills im on ten im on go
In my head I hear voices telling me im better cold
I dont know x4
But I dont know
I dont know x4
Huh
I dont know x6

Back in Dallas I thought I could make time
I was nervous but I tried to play fine
I feel my pills push down on top of my eyes
But In the 416 I really come to life
Inside of this city when u cry its pure ice
Snow is blinding me in these college streetlights
Oh what happened to me I guess in the end our time flies
That’s why I think ill come and check on u tonight

Kill me and then love me and then cut me and then stuff me and then dump me in this ditch
I was so damn whipped
U ungrateful bitch
please just choke
This about people that did me wrong
If u feel me just sing along
I had never felt how I was
On that evening night in that house
But Im too scared to reach out
So ill be here thinking about it

Back in Dallas I thought I could make time
I was nervous but I tried to play fine
I feel my pills push down on top of my eyes
But In the 416 I really come to life
Inside of this city when u cry its pure ice
Snow is blinding me in these college streetlights
Oh what happened to me I guess in the end our time flies
That’s why I think ill come and check on u tonight

crusher (branwen)

lyrics:

These cold kawaartha lakes can rip ur soul apart
A breach of contract in her heart of hearts
May have pushed my head into the deepest part
And This time I dont think I get a breathing part

Now her crocodile tears soak in her guitar
This mahogany is flooded past its salvage point
Carried back into her residence inside the trees
How do I taste ill bet on it its like a bitter sweet
Something woke me last night
And in its words
Taught me I just need myself to get by
I dont wanna pretend it didn’t hurt
But In her words
The sting should fade in due time

 Brush ur eyes
U could see it right
I see fallen angels
In this bleeding sky
At our time to go
I dont wanna die
But I dont decide
Damn I hate goodbyes
These cold kawaartha lakes can rip ur soul apart
A breach of contract in her heart of hearts
May have pushed my head into the deepest part
And This time I dont think I get a breathing part

Cracks in my armor invite in her poisons
It was never 50/50 I was just appointed
Im Sorry I can do it all I bet ur disappointed
But what’s the point in love if u can not enjoy it

Now her crocodile tears soak in her guitar
This mahogany is flooded past its salvage point
Carried back into her residence inside the trees
How do I taste ill bet on it its like a bitter sweet

Isn’t it funny how u aint gon message unless I am messaging first ok
She try to burn me a hole in my pocket but somehow I still kept em heavy weight ok
She pull up on me at night time
Then pull away like its rip tide
She say she cant stay a long time
But sumn bout that doesn’t sit right with me
Honestly I know u know that it wouldn’t be the first lie u told
She said im sorry I hope u can trust me I say damn I dont know
Ask me in the morning
Cause Tonight is way too cold
And u just turned it colder

Now her crocodile tears soak in her guitar
This mahogany is flooded past its salvage point
Carried back into her residence inside the trees
How do I taste ill bet on it its like a bitter sweet
Something woke me last night
And in its words
Taught me I just need myself to get by
I dont wanna pretend it didn’t hurt
But In her words
The sting should fade in due time

The treehouse (splashgvng x 5head)

produced by kassgocrazy
mixed and mastered by kassgocrazy
vocals performed by sewerperson

COVERART BY @UNNANOUNCED ON INSTAGRAM

i want you to suffer (feat. sewerperson)

• prod. @charlieshuffler
• mixed by me

彡☆<3 love u guys <3☆彡

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☆ u made me (prod. charlie shuffler) ☆

MUSIC VIDEO

☆ medicine (prod. nicolas sales) ☆

Imma go and leave the house again i got my backbone
Watch the ground shatter glass when i walk up on
People only call me when there something always wrong
I see distant memories creepin when i pass by
Hope its the last time
Stay connected like its land line
Watch my footing cause im surrounded by land mines
Never gonna trip cause im allways on stand by
I got ice up on my wrist you know this shit took time

Pills in my system only reason I would fall
Error in my coding so i always reinstall
They always try to stop me but im breaking threw these walls
Still hopin for that call

every night
baby i used to see u bout like every night
now im like
are we alright
damn
i just hold my head and dig my feet into the sand
man i miss my home land
u look like an angel in this candle light ya
the news had said that storm out west been heading over here
we sit in front this fire waiting for it to appear
while my eyes roll back into me as shes thumbing thru my hair
exhausting all my energy into the summer air
i swear i had this in me way before i was aware
sheath this field when im in public cause i hate when people stare
this aura seeping out of me whenever im feeling scared
black clovers
covering my books
im tainted
i levelled before i was ready now its rage i shoulda waited
rippin thru my mind i separate from what i hated
i live in constant fear of my projection in my basement

Everyday thinkful to god that i made it 22 
I be mixin all my pills and with my liquor to
She be fuckin good im keepin all the answers inside the coop
She tell me that’s she wasted i tell her im am to
Markings on her body 
She levitate the room
In my mind i tell her that ill see her soon
I be writing scriptures in these pages
Witth you know i keep it weighted 
Hated
Only show me love when your jaded
New beginnings but im feeling outdated 
Comin home to see nobody waited
Oblivious is stated

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