and one more thing

I haven't left this hole in weeks
Relive the same day on repeat
You're gone, there's nothing left except this letter
I take a pill and go to sleep
Watch my life play out on screens
It's been too long, okay whatever (Oh, oh, oh)
I've never felt so far away
When you're with him, I'm wide awake
Tell me love, does he do it better?
Think I'm running out of time again
Pack my bags, don't tell my friends
You must've known this won't last forever
But now I'm falling to pieces
I don't have a reason
You were all that I needed
Now I can't stop the bleeding (oh, woah)

I fell in love with someone I imagined you to be
I just wanna get some sleep

I can't talk about it right now, it takes a little time
I went everywhere with you, now I can't even go outside
I been talking to the devil, think for sure I'm gonna die
But maybe that's just fine, maybe that's just fine
Is it fun for you to make me feel like this? Don't fucking lie
Leave me lying on the tile while my veins are running dry
And I know that I'd do anything to fake it for the night
Just tell me that it's fine, tell me that it's fine

I'll just rot away inside, do the only thing I'm good at
They were never there for you, so don't you fucking look back
Wait until they see you on the stage, you can look 'em in the face
Show 'em everything they could've had
Now I talk when I want, I don't owe you a response
My replacement left, that's not my problem
Love me when I'm gone, then pretend you're better off
I got everything I wanted
I got everything I wanted
I have everything
(Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh)

I can't talk about it right now, it takes a little time
I told you that I loved you and you didn't seem to mind
I guess I'll leave you alone, just tell your friends I fucking died
I'm writing this about you to remember I'm alive
I fell in love with someone I imagined you to be
I just wanna get some sleep
Before I remember

I can't talk about it right now, it takes a little time
I went everywhere with you, now I can't even go outside
I been talking to the devil, think for sure I'm gonna die
But maybe that's just fine, maybe that's just fine
Is it fun for you to make me feel like this? Don't fucking lie
Leave me lying on the tile while my veins are running dry
And I know that I'd do anything to fake it for the night
Just tell me that it's fine, tell me that it's fine

it takes a little time

My veins try to hide, my body is chilling
Stop all the lies, I know you don't feel it
Tell me you care, then stare at the ceiling
I know I never meant shit to you, I'm dealing
I'm trying as hard as I can
Laying here shaking, it's barely a gram
I look in the mirror, don't know who I am
But that'll be over soon

Baby look in my eyes
Tell me again "it was only a night"
Tell me I'm nothing to you, I'll be fine
My head's in the clouds, I got lost in the lie-lie-lights
And love if I die
Know that you were the last on my mind
I'm fine, I'm not thinking of you, I can lie
Kiss him again while you're twisting the knife
I'll be alright

Tell me that you never meant it
Those beautiful nothings, I always regret 'em
You call me, but I'm not that strong so I dead it
I think I waited too long, whatever
I think I waited too long, whatever
Kiss him again while you're twisting the knife
I think I waited too long, whatever
Kiss him again while you look in my eyes

Baby look in my eyes
Tell me again "it was only a night"
Tell me I'm nothing to you, I'll be fine
My head's in the clouds, I got lost in the lie-lie-lights
And love if I die
Know that you were the last on my mind
I'm fine, I'm not thinking of you, I can lie
Kiss him again while you're twisting the knife
I'll be alright

kiss him again

LYRICS:
I wake up, it hurts'
I sleep in the dirt
Got blood on my shirt
Try to talk but it makes it worse

And I should've crashed the car
The night I drove alone
And I miss you so, my darling
But I'm never coming home

Take me back to what you call your civilized society
I'll make it burn, just to prove that it's worth nothing to me
And my hands get dirty sometimes, but that's okay cuz someone has to dig the hole
I remember how you're feeling sometimes, but like so many things in life, I had to let it go

And I made you crash the car
The night we drove together
And I'm not sorry, you're sorry, no
Sometimes when I'm alone I just feel better

crash w/ GLXSGXW

LYRICS:

 thought you promised I'd be better away from all the rainy weather
But all that's changes is razor blades are hard to buy
I drift away inside your laughter, it's like you know what's coming after
First a promise, so dishonest. i'm so happy I could die

Just call me back
I think I'm running out of time
I'm in the bathroom fading fast
I hope it's what you wanted
Just call me back
I think I'm running out of time
Just fade to black, forget it happened
Guess that's all you wanted

Caffeine, ephedrine; I don't eat
Klonopin to get some sleep
This town's infected
Can't see stars unless I'm falling over
I just hope I'm not all alone when I've got everything I wanted
Cuz I know that it's coming. Cuz I know that it's coming

Just call me back
I think I'm running out of time
I'm in the bathroom fading fast
I hope it's what you wanted
Just call me back
I think I'm running out of time
Just fade to black, forget it happened
Guess that's all you wanted
Just call me back
I think I'm running out of time
I'm in the bathroom fading fast
I hope it's what you wanted
Just call me back
I think I'm running out of time
Just fade to black, forget it happened
Guess that's all you wanted

Guess that's all you wanted

just call me back

LYRICS:

You've been on my mind
And I been losing time
Last thing you told me was goodbye, goodbye, goodbye

All my friends are junkies and I'm scared of growing older
It's like every time we talk you end up crying on my shoulder
Could you tell me why we do this? I don't know what the use is
I guess I'll stay in my room, because I'm tired of feeling useless
So braindead, can't eat, can't sleep
I been out my mind, locked in all week
Just hear me out, I'm on my knees
But you don't like to listen to me

You've been on my mind
And I been losing time
Last thing you told me was goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye

You've been a waste of my time and I don't want this fight
What good is love when you can't see things from someone's side?
Let me just show you tonight, before we say goodbye
Let's go give into our pride, we can't go back inside
What's it gonna take for you to go get the message?
Save me all the evidence, and heartbreak along with it

You've been on my mind
And I been losing time
Last thing you told me was goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye

GOODBYE w/ Sinxi

last night w/ GLXSGXW x roachspliff

LYRICS:
He's telling me a secret I don't wanna know
I'ma burn the bridge, I don't wanna pay the toll
Invite me to a party, I probably shouldn't go
But if i don't, I'll never know
So I walk in, everybody's talking too loud
Oh wow, I'm just tryna find my way out
So high I can't wipe the blood from my mouth
Might die, I'm a long way from God's house

Drugged out, nauseous. I can't keep the topic
This is do or die so stay alive 'til you're neurotic
Honest, this shit getting toxic; sex on Oxy
And they wonder why my songs are so demonic

I made a deal with the devil, he told me everything would be fine
Everything I wanted, it would finally be mine
If i want it then I bought it, I don't check the price
Boy, don't play with me. You better know you boutta die
I lost my love
I fucked it up
I just hope this was worth it

Drugged out, nauseous. I can't keep the topic
This is do or die so stay alive 'til you're neurotic
Honest, this shit getting toxic; sex on Oxy
And they wonder why my songs are so demonic

deal with the devil

LYRICS:

Another disappointment
I'm talking to myself 'cuz everybody else annoying
And no one ever listens, I'm the goat they won't admit it
And you worried bout your spot
Cuz once I pop, you know you're finished

i starve myself before my shows and then complain about the energy
Keep your friends, they hos, I mix klonopin with hennesey 
But you won't ever see it, if you did you wouldn't believe it
Always keep my composure, never let them see you bleeding
I don't wanna give a fuck about what they think
I always pull up by myself, and I'm driving; I can't drink
I just wish you gave a fuck a little more
When I rip my fucking lungs out, collapse on the floor

Uh, but what's the point then? Another disappointment
I'm talking to myself 'cuz everybody else annoying
And no one ever listens, I'm the goat they won't admit it
And you worried bout your spot
Cuz once I pop, you know you're finished

We was family, now you dead to me
But fuck it, rest in peace
Keep that lil percentage
I swear I make that shit in a week
But i don't wanna talk about, load. up another beat
Crush my medication up and mix it with amphetamines
Uh, gave you everything I had it wasn't enough, huh?
I hear you talking on the side, just shut the fuck up
i know you can see the state I'm in, don't fucking touch me
What's an after party? Gave me drugs so you could fuck me

Uh, but what's the point then? Another disappointment
I'm talking to myself 'cuz everybody else annoying
And no one ever listens, I'm the goat they won't admit it
And you worried bout your spot
Cuz once I pop, you know you're finished

Another disappointment
I'm talking to myself 'cuz everybody else annoying
And no one ever listens, I'm the goat they won't admit it
And you worried bout your spot
Cuz once I pop, you know you're finished

after party

LYRICS:

I'm too fucked up to be in public
Anxious at the function, got this feeling in my stomach
I see people dancing drunk, in a few hours they'll be fucking
But I'll go home alone and fall asleep; remember nothing
Baby, waking up is such a chore
I'm always high or else I'm bored
I gotta pick myself up off the floor
One day I'll see the world (and I'll see)

One day, I'll wake up and I won't have a headache
Chest pains, blame it on the drugs or on the heartbreak
Today, I woke up and I don't feel right
I guess I'll try again in the next life
One day, I'll wake up and I won't have a headache
Chest pains, blame it on the drugs or on the heartbreak
Today, I woke up and I don't feel right
I guess I'll try again in the next life

I don't wanna talk, I wanna end it, no discussion
Give me everything I wanted, I'll return it like it's nothing
Make it back tomorrow night and go to heaven in the morning
The devil's in the book, but I'm too good at telling stories
So I wake up, say a little prayer for all the dead ones
Take one, and stay the fuck away from all the fake love
Guess I'll make it through somehow
Tell me, darling, how soon is now?

I don't know what the fuck to call it
I'm always in withdrawal, I'm like a fucking alcoholic
But with you it's something special, I can tell that's why I lost it
I don't wanna talk, honestly, wish I went to college
Cuz I'm sick of all the run-around
You hate my guts, I hate this town
I hate the things I write about
Cuz soon we'll all be dead (but fuck it maybe)

One day, I'll wake up and I won't have a headache
Chest pains, blame it on the drugs or on the heartbreak
Today, I woke up and I don't feel right
I guess I'll try again in the next life
One day, I'll wake up and I won't have a headache
Chest pains, blame it on the drugs or on the heartbreak
Today, I woke up and I don't feel right
I guess I'll try again in the next life

ONE DAY

LYRICS:

I think I'm gonna run away from everything I thought I wanted
Got too high at the after party, then convinced myself it's not a problem
Nosebleeds, clean white sheets, i'm falling
Over old friends, let this end, so haunted
I'm too fucked up to call
Just know I'm thinking 'bout you all night long
All my dreams start coming true
But I can't do shit but think of you
I know I'm such a dick, I get in my moods
But I just never wanna see you again

I'm ready to let go
Treat me like I'm nothing
Conversations with my echo
Think I'm onto something
You can tell me I went too far
I got tired of running
Always hunting for a new war
Fuck it, keep it coming
I'm ready to let go
Treat me like I'm nothing
Conversations with my echo
Think I'm onto something
You can tell me that I'm too gone
Fuck it, ain't no roof on this
Gotta move on
Crawling out of this abyss

We’ve been too gone
did you ever really give a shit
Every time you said you loved me no I can’t forget
Nose bleeds in the back where I met you
(you said) how you’d die if I ever left you
Watch how the time goes
I been moving too slow 
And everyone around me off the drugs just trying to smile 
So I just watch the years go by, and try to take my life
Cus’ we’re just so distrusted by the same things 
That you see in me, every time you tell me that you hate me 
At the ceiling, staring til I’m losing all my feelings 
Can you hear, screaming I don’t think no one can hear me

I'm ready to let go
Treat me like I'm nothing
Conversations with my echo
Think I'm onto something
You can tell me I went too far
I got tired of running
Always hunting for a new war
Fuck it, keep it coming
I'm ready to let go
Treat me like I'm nothing
Conversations with my echo
Think I'm onto something
You can tell me that I'm too gone
Fuck it, ain't no roof on this
Gotta move on
Crawling out of this abyss

w/ @arkaeo
prod. love,matt x thislandis

CONVERSATIONS WITH MY ECHO w/ Arkaeo

LYRICS: 

Touch me, baby
Wanna feel you hurt me, love
Tell me that I'm not enough and I never was
Touch me, baby
Feel you hurt me, love
Make me feel like I'm enough

You give me vertigo, I swear you got me falling to pieces
I've been tryna hold it together, please just give me a reason
I don't know how the fuck to trust, cuz they just change like the seasons
I've been ripping out all the stitches. Call the doctor, I'm bleeding
And I've been drinking every night, I'm tryna keep it together
And I've been tryna go outside, I swear I wanna be better for you
And I know it'll all go wrong
But until then, just sing along

And touch me, baby
I don't wanna feel it anymore
I'm crazy
I feel like I was better off before
I'm jaded, get me wasted
Rest in peace inside this basement
And touch me, baby
I don't wanna feel it anymore
I'm crazy
I feel like I was better off before
I'm jaded, get me wasted
I don't wanna feel this anymore

I wish that we were closer
But it don't mean nothing at all
I'll get rich and you'll get sober
But it won't mean nothing at all
I've been alone for some time
And I've been having withdrawals
I'll say I love you 'til my voice gives out
It won't mean nothing

And touch me, baby
I don't wanna feel it anymore
I'm crazy
I feel like I was better off before
I'm jaded, get me wasted
Rest in peace inside this basement
And touch me, baby
I don't wanna feel it anymore
I'm crazy
I feel like I was better off before
I'm jaded, get me wasted
I don't wanna feel this anymore

prod. branwen

touch me 222

LYRICS:
Oh, so predictable
And oh, so sweet
Bit down on three points of molly
You were all over me
Oh, so predictable
Once love, now skin and bones
But they don't know
You're all alone tonight

And you've been the same since you were 16
I don't wanna talk, know you'll do it again
And I taste crushed pills when you kiss me
And I heard you on the phone with my best friend
Do you miss me? Tell me, do you miss me?
Cut up one more line when you're in town
Do you miss me? Tell me, do you miss me?
Do you fucking miss me at all?

Oh, so predictable
And oh, so sweet
Bit down on three points of molly
You were all over me
Oh, so predictable
Once love, now skin and bones
But they don't know
You're all alone tonight

You can ask if you wanna know
You told me to stay, I don't wanna go
Oh, hold on to
What I've got left of you (woah)
It's been too cold out to run around
But I'm just afraid I'll fuck it up somehow
I want you to fall hard and call on me
I'm somebody selfish that you don't need

Oh, so predictable
And oh, so sweet
Bit down on three points of molly
You were all over me
Oh, so predictable
Once love, now skin and bones
But they don't know
You're all alone tonight

w/ @vito2300 
prod. reesoo

loving you is self harm w/ VITO

lyrics:

When it all looks fucked, we just keep trying
We don't gotta talk about last night
And I been pretty good at breaking down
But I don't know how to act when it all goes right
I can't lie
I'm so sick I'm petrified
I feel stupid, it's so useless
I'm just sulking 'bout my life

But I think I'm onto something
No need for discussion
Wait until the drugs hit
I'm alive
And I don't know where to go from here
Do I disappear?
Do I fake it 'til I cry?

I'm gone
Miss me for a minute, then you'll all move on
Tell me why you look so sad. What did you want?
I'm sorry that I'm not what you expected
I wish I was worse at first impressions
Just lie
Tell me you don't love me anymore and that's fine
Tell me why I'm so down bad, baby you're mine
I'm sorry that I'm not what you expected
I wish I was worse at first impressions

Look into the mirror, I've been hating what I see
Look into the mirror, it's not me it's not me it's not me
Grinding my teeth
Feel like a monster so just let me bleed
Gotta get too high to function whenever I'm in public
Feel like I'm disgusting
Always too much 
Or not enough of something I can't describe
Feel I'm always locked inside your eyes 
(Oh-woah)
I've been falling in line
Ran out of places to hide
No matter how hard I try
I'm someone else to you

I'm gone
Miss me for a minute, then you'll all move on
Tell me why you look so sad. What did you want?
I'm sorry that I'm not what you expected
I wish I was worse at first impressions
Just lie
Tell me you don't love me anymore and that's fine
Tell me why I'm so down bad, baby you're mine
I'm sorry that I'm not what you expected
I wish I was worse at first impressions

I'm gone
Miss me for a minute, then you'll all move on
Tell me why you look so sad. What did you want?
I'm sorry that I'm not what you expected oh-woah-oh

Just lie-ie-ie-ie-ie-ie

prod. love,matt x chrismarek

and one more thing

Shiki XO