Live Fast, Die Faster

best of shizukesa. (love you brother)

rap shizu

dylan.

just a personal one haha

lyrics:
dylan why you feel bad
if you only wanted clout why not say that
ion really like this style you should change that
namedropping his ex for the payback
lil lazy ass kid with his playbacks
no new flow
payroll set back, no real job, why he act real bad
all he do is stay inside on a notepad
toe tags ready, fuck almost everybody
i'm not talking anybody, just the ones that never had me, still telling me that you got me
i'm not ever really sorry, but sorry is all i say now
never been to parties everyday feel like a waste now
2020 vision pandemic been on a mission
of living my fucking life without crying inside the kitchen
they say that they fucking with my new shit
but do they get the same feelings i say that i always get
i felt that i could never understand my hand i've been dealt
like do you ever wish you were just somebody else
fight off the urge of sipping lonely at night by myself
a bowl of ramen, and orange bottle lids on the shelf

dylan (slim productions)

new ep soon <3

lyrics

stay up, if i go to bed can't bake up
get scared to death imma wake up
break down, i'm a fuck up
babe you look great
makeup, and she out in town
i don't go around, i'm not going out
(i don't go around, i'm not going out)
(i'm not going out)

motivated, 2am by then i'm hella faded
bitch i'm elevated, ion choose to wait
hella shoes to fill, but i got empty plates, and a couple spills, i'm not doing great
losing weight, but i'm keeping pace with the tracks i make
i hope they relate to the shit i say
know the words hit worse, when you see
the weight
feel the power struggle of my sentimental
with a better mental
my new fashion recently blackened
but newsflash i don't interact with no-
woahhhh (yuh), tell me what you need from me
i know i'm bad but i been changing like the leaves, honey
don't even need money
just wanna make my shit and smile and really be something 

𝖕𝖑𝖊𝖆𝖘𝖊 𝖉𝖔𝖓'𝖙 𝖑𝖊𝖙 𝖒𝖊 𝖇𝖊 𝖓𝖔𝖙𝖍𝖎𝖓𝖌

*kill or be killed
by myself i'm the king of this hill
you want me to be dead well then great
come and get me cause i like a thrill
ain't no fixing this shit dr. phil
busy mixing my shit like for real
and i'm sicker than shit need a pill
but i'm sick of this shit, i can't feel*

what (idealism)

luv yall <3
prod. ztope

lyrics
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long nights on the patio
its getting cold, girl i gotta go
7/11 stop down by the road
long drive, but im walking home
long nights on the patio
its getting cold, girl i gotta go
7/11 stop down by the road
long drive, but im walking home

all already alone
so it shouldnt make any difference
but why cant u pick up the phone
n why is everyone distant
i speak and its hurt in the tone
i just wanted u to listen
this blunt really got me in thoughts
inside of my mind is a prison

long nights on the patio
its getting cold, girl i gotta go
7/11 stop down by the road
long drive, but im walking home
long nights on the patio
its getting cold, girl i gotta go
7/11 stop down by the road
long drive, but im walking home

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nites

prod / mix @93feetofsmoke
mix / master Pat Dicenso

lyrics:
I dont know you anymore
Do you know me anymore? 
You could go ahead and spit that out
Was it something that i wore? 
You could get it off your chest right now
‘Cuz i’ve heard it all before 
I done heard it from a young young age
You dont hurt me anymore 

Just the thought alone 
Makes me nauseas
Like why’d i have to beg
For you to stop it? 
I could not tell you 
where the heart is
I could not tell you 
what a home is for me 

But it don’t
It don’t
But it don’t
It don’t
(Hurt like it did before)

Breath gets shallow 
As the daytime bleeds
I’m self med magic 
Til the crash 
high speeds
I’m straight
I’m straight
Not a scratch on me
I’m straight
I’m straight
Not a scratch on me

It don’t
(It dont)
It don’t
(It don’t)
Hurt like it did
Hurt like it did

It don’t
(It dont)
It don’t
(It don’t)
Hurt like it did
Don’t hurt like it did
No more 

Just the thought alone 
Makes me nauseas
Like why’d i have to beg
For you to stop it? 
Flashbacks still got my skin crawling
Better pray to god
Blood deeper than a coffin 

Just the thought alone 
Makes me nauseas
Like why’d i have to beg
For you to stop it? 
Flashbacks still got my skin crawling
Better pray to god
Blood deeper than a coffin 

I dont know you anymore
Do you know me anymore? 
You could go ahead and spit that out
Was it something that i wore? 
You could get it off your chest right now
‘Cuz i’ve heard it all before 
I done heard it from a young young age
You dont hurt me anymore 

Just the thought alone 
Makes me nauseas
Like why’d i have to beg
For you to stop it? 
Flashbacks still got my skin crawling
Better pray to god..

But it don’t 
It don’t

But it don’t
It don’t

Hurt like it before

GOODGRIEF

HURT LIKE IT DID

death_wish w/ casperrr (yung rospo)

I CANT EVEN DRIVE
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i_Y_W7o276k

Drive Alone

DRIVE ALONE (VISUALIZER IN DESCRIPTION)

i forget the prods i'm sorry :/ but this is nonprofit and i used 2 dif prods

lyrics:

constantly calling me
honestly, i been a product of problems
arisen from prodigies
flop in my music so often i thought below all them was never an option for me
mixing the vox on a screen
i been missing you calling to me
say she falling for me
i couldn't know what that mean
shawty gon nod to the beat
she just nod to the beat-
woah, slow it down, there you go
if you spit it too fast they lash out at the flow
if you spitting facts, they wont spaz at the show
you got a bag needing cashed for the low

when i pop off
sipping top notch
hop off
this aint hopscotch
"fuck around get notched, no mc,
better stop"
nah
i got plans for yall
dancing around you, flow feast, no tabletop
snow fleece, she take it off

~~beat switch~~

been searching for a better me
n lurking on my tracks
i think they split me like anenome 
to break it down n say im better off a enemy
u better off alone than look along the road ahead of me
woah
burn scars
cigarettes
snowstorm, skin torn
tell me r u living yet
feel like a silhouette 
wit all the effort i put in it just for little checks
couldnt give a shit
imma grind until my timepiece a little drip
audemar the slits
jus a little bit
<3

nod//jus a little bit

pretend da mix is good LMFAOOO
luv yall~

lyrics
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sittin humble 
boy we still in trouble
throwback, old homies told me we fit like the puzzle
and now im picking pieces up that leave me left in rubble
then to stumble back up earth again its certainly a struggle
fumble every bag i need a cart again
i grab a dab pen with wax stains on top my cardigan
now the thoughts flooding in
"you'll write a song, go hard again
to cry into the bars surely-"
HOPE I DONT LOSE MY GIRL AGAIN

^^^least that what i been thinking
when my confidence keep shrinking
just might fall into the deep end if i slip again
mental caving in
guess its fuck you win~


practically a rapper, so guess everything come after
but even if i blow up soon then do this shit really matter
its like since been switching up within the feelings, need a green screen to show the real me outside this shell of fucking actor
...no mathers
only shady looks n laughter
show like any track for the masses to get it backwards
and if all i am the artist, then i guess it make it sadder
cause shit all on my art then its jus me u coming after

dylan p2 (djbotox)

𝐢𝐥𝐲 𝐛𝐫𝐲𝐬𝐨𝐧<3

𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚣𝚞𝚔𝚎𝚜𝚊.
come around
ik im a fuck up jus a let down
but we could run away my love, from this town<3
gaze inside her eyes been filled w/ hate now
need 2 stay down
really need sum backup
u know ur the only one i want luv
cant fkn take this aching make my chest numb
you the one i want luv

𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚊𝚕.
cant even snap back 2 this snapchat
got 80 ounce in this backpack
making lame shit on this old mac
while my friends out in their pontiac
how are you so contagious
holding back on my anguish
'cardi rocks when im anxious
blood n mud on these pages
she dont talk but her eyes flirt
louis v n that black skirt
pulling up in that chrysler
bloody shirt n my chest hurts

𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚣𝚞𝚔𝚎𝚜𝚊. 𝚡 𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚊𝚕.
come around
ik im a fuck up jus a let down
but we could run away my love, from this town<3
gaze inside her eyes been filled w/ hate now
need 2 stay down
really need sum backup
u know ur the only one i want luv
cant fkn take this aching make my chest numb
you the one i want luv

ep w/ bry soon also~ if you've read this far then thank you all sm for all of the support this past year, and just in general if you listen to any of my stuff. it genuinely means the whole world. ily all sm<3

let_down w/ residential. (ushanka boy)

the logs do be mono tee hee

fashionably late
like my passion been proving
a clean slate couldnt save me at the rate we been moving
the trio me myself and i and still i aint be improving
its either patiently waiting, or basically stupid
maybe music aint got much in it 4 me 
lately living the dream
only its in dreams when im snoozing, yet still been losing sleep
yes i dont reach out now but hope they know me truthfully
crucial info never coming out me usually
really never talk much in my new stuff
to pick apart the projects watch em fall apart like "true luv" ..
hit up only homies they gon tell me "bro u too rough"
"made a new track like what you think about it
and what would you change about it"
too tuff
but spliffy got me couch locked
and i aint felt this down to earth since last time that i been grounded
took me back to school days with lunch bags,
iphone in a backpack that's hidden under notepads,
all black with the screen cracked
almost wanna go back
kid still, but i live alone
make a wish tim turner dimmsdale dimmadome
lookin ass white fit on 
and my wrists froze (this is a lie i am broke pls send me money or taco bell)
no more 9 missed calls 
and nightly terrors
terrifying 2 death
plus the heavy weighted trauma overstay in my chest
but if the EMDR dont work i might blow out my head
almost killed myself again, im trying my best
guess that's what happen when u go off the meds

monologue (engless)

another pre-hiatus vault track from over a year ago<33 new stuff when i’m not outta town

i can’t fucking make shit
but i still been rapping like i is
semi auto my feelings they firing like switched
toxic in the scene acidic ph level 6
bitch i wouldn’t stand with nun of u
if even barely sit

not the shit, kid
been hardly even pissed off
still knock em offa list, like EG call em/column niggas tilted
problem solving with a blick
write lines about a line, when we been knowing that im broke 
weeping crying on a phone 
on sum dying all alone shit-
michigan lake from my kidhood, fading to blue
steady searching for these steps, still bigfoot hunting to you
couldn’t follow my path
but hold a glock to my back 
to walk inside of the tracks
tracing blood to my shoes
still the same old boots
and that wall with a patch
over the hole of a past
mirror, see same old you
fuck you mean i aint change
stepping inside of this home, feel like the gun to a range
often causing latent damage for sum profit and gain
still u think all it’s a game 
so i cock that glock to my brain
say pull this trigger n fade
guess im going the same
maybe u still coulda stayed
but look back at the holder n its me in the frame
(like damn)

i can’t fucking make shit
but i still been rapping like i is
semi auto my feelings they firing like switched
toxic in the scene acidic ph level 6
bitch i wouldn’t stand with nun of u
if even barely sit

who r u (engless)

2023 rap track from the vault

a-list
you niggas aint make lists
i put drugs inside of my body when im anxious
still been faded with pods in stars like shit was racing
pull up w/ the top dropped, been whippin faceless

end with this period
so patient, the zeitgeist
relations friendly, when adhered to limelight
-shit
but now its heated dine ins like mai thai
dinner, single word to hurling spit, on a food nite
every minor problem sever ties till the mood right
all my life walked to fly for times like these
no foo fighter, bridge burning, its rope-noose tied
wanna hang in the moonlight
still kickin it, the jits like wu tang
..clan
niggas hit me wit a open, washed up
..sand it
smooth
ride off wit a flow like bandit-
eating good, rap niggas been famished
give it one track, and he practically vanish
aint took no pics, but i been moving candid
eyes red, no kush i aint rest inna minute
investing my time in sum write lines type shit
no money, a nigga had been motion sickening
still dripping inna show need a boat to dip in
float off in a wave, need no pot to piss in
when all my problems are a lost emission

a-list
you niggas aint make lists
i put drugs inside of my body when im anxious
still been faded with pods in stars like shit was racing
pull up w/ the top dropped, been whippin faceless

vault_anxious

i can't find the prod :( if anybody knows his name plz lmk

shoutout @melmige

when i step out the rental house i’m feeling fifa w/ my kicks
adolescent, my fits
heard you got a new man, why you staying on my dick
stand on this shit
on sum “u could do much better if u wasn’t such a bish”
..that’s why shizu doesn’t miss

see our contrast stark like it’s ironman
ur heated up like Bluestar; i’m the fucking fireman
it’s funeral season all black on my attire
hit the track in one evening spent a minute in retirement
mr rock how flows Will slap a nosey nigga
chrome could blow a nigga top clean
he dug/doug deep and then, now his dome is dimmer/dimma
fairly odd problem solver make u wish a turner w/ you
but bigger picture jus me, yet six figured
when ur money counter’s black screen w/ no balance
this no challenge
hurl spit, his word salad
it’s songwriting line-of-fire and ice ballads

(be sincere for once i promise it won’t hurt you
post-ironic posturing i promise it’s a clear view
i got on your intention it’s embarrassing you consider yourself sinister
a minute in the mirror got u cracking under pressure)

spent some time in a rut
spent a couple hundred keeping hunger barred out enough
spent a couple dozen months pulling myself out the mud
spent a ton of fucking energy keeping air in my lungs
suffocating off the apathy i’d kill for your complaints
the suffered casualties have left me battled scarred in disarray
hard and weathered by reality my dreams been going gray
desaturated by mentalities developed in the fray
but i’m aware of where i’m fine
me and shizu hit piano licks like elton 89
the sacrifices will be worth it
artificer with my words
twist phonetics to the rhythm i could spit until it burns i can’t stop
what’s the alternative if i do
i’ve exhausted any option beyond entry level food and service
fuck if that’s my future fuck if i don’t make a move
and flip the script and kick off i’m mister tech deck im off
grimey spitting vitriol on non-profit beat rips
sliding with philosophy, horosha does the drum kicks
match the tempo that my heart is beating cuz i live for this
and if you don't, don't fuck with me i promise we are not friends

fire//ice (ft. melmige)

one take; last "dylan" track<3 luv you

feel attacked when they ask if medication been helping lately;
texting back feel a task, and "i hate it" started sounding lazy, but
half awake, drained, sleep in late, daylight hate me
they like my music that way, may likely keep it
elegy-writing every piece, and keep siphoning feelings
from old lined pages of my mom’s, i’d recycled her meanings
would resurrect her for 1 minute, sum speaking is needed
it’s sum shit to address
like “you really left me alive? i been battling demons”
“so why you allotted freedom? i aint even there to see it”
“i still love you to death”
“and i still cry to your ashes at home, i doubt you even hear it”
“i doubt ur even here”
“see least you get sum sleep now, if only when u rest” 
i’ll wait another year, just had 2 fade that off the chest
“shizukesa” stays afloat until my date of death
create the music until then, but still i’m playing chess
input my suicide note into something second guessed
until i split the wrists and crimson start to coalesce 
until i’m nothing left

sleight of hand, sight of mine sliding skin
midas, my girl's golden touch heal my sin
might as well pray for 1 day that this bliss
should never evaporate, nor up and dip
real shit
that's real shit
shizu

dylan p3 (urban)

静けさ - shizukesa

alt rap
[Ｔｉｍｅｌｅｓｓ]
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influences: aries, supachefm, 9tails + sewerperson, shinigami, kevin kazi, 49bags, guardin, atlas, noname