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bleach & tone (@reklus1ve)

fuck it *composed by feral cat*

Lihonabolote, Rom4n - Wud u rather (liho, rom4n)

lihonabolote, wackoes - peace sign up ☮︎ w/ xxffcyuvcui (feral cat)

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part of the band with feral cat (junebug & hollowtekken96141)

@feralcatshelter
everything gets worse
song for Katie , Mila & Cade


Lyrics 

want to stay where i never had
wanna end what i never knew
yk i loved that day i always do
i ran out of things i wanna prove

Hold me down ik its coming close.
Just tell me off i really wanted more.
just want you safe idc if its in my arms
lost myself i cant play my part

cant find the words so i spill my heart
please forgive me lets not fall apart
everyones leaving i dont know what i did
my friends are bleeding swear howd it come to this

i used to have it all be fake
than i cant handle it when its real
cant stand another second of this mess
wake up shivering in a cold sweat

im just hoping that i end up dead
im always too scared to rest
im not trying to do the best 
just spend everyday wish for death

hit me i dont care at all
settle for the worst to go so far
dont got what it takes to go on
swear ive really never grown

violence comes with a sense of solace
& id be lying if i said i didnt want it
it happens more quietly than is shown
pray one day i can live on my own

care for me ill do the most
hold me down dont let me go
wish that i could keep u safe in my arms
but i really know it falls apart

Stepping Stone [prod. Feral Cat]

With so much continuing to pile up all at once;
With people showing true colours;
People trying to hurt me.
I've come to realize;
God is taking away all that has been holding me back..
Creating space for what will assist in my growth and evolution.
I prayed for true colour to be revealed, and the strength to be able to make the right decisions.
Yet my mind is all over the place;
Filled with rage and confusion; I want to attack yet even when examining what's going on I can't help but understand.
Its frustrating;
I WANT to talk;
Yet there is no point to talk with someone who can't ever see their own wrong doings.
Misunderstandings or not, there are ways to handle things.
Clearly the value for me isn't the same.
I'm done, I'm done trying to help and love this person who can effortlessly bash me behind my back and in public.
I want to answer your calls man I really do, yet I have nothing more to say; my trust is broken and I have no intentions on rebuilding it with someone who thinks sleeping with their friends girlfriends/exes behind their backs is cool and or ok.
My absence in your life should cause you more pain than yours in mine.
You've made your decisions...
It's time for me to make mine…

To Everything I've Ever Lost; Thank You For Setting Me Free

fallen pedals
in the garden we killed
that we poisoned with guilt
that i burnt with your help

discarded packets of seeds
and the remnants of me
that we will never grow

its about that time i let you know
that i hate that you refuse to reap what you sow
i hold onto hope, but you erased that note
and i cant tell the difference between us

where did your heart go?

cover art by https://soundcloud.com/in53ct
guitar, keyboards, written, performed, produced, mixed, and mastered by junifer(feral cat)

part of the band with feral cat (junebug & hollowtekken96141)

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