Faster

This is one of my 'lounge series' acoustic thingies.  A simple one-take song/story for voice and piano.

Listen

Listen, I want to tell you, I respect you, I admire you
Listen, I want to open up, enfold you with my heart
You’re looking closed up, I’m feeling shut down, is there no place we can meet?
I’ve lost the shape now, words have vanished, think I’m talking in my sleep

And you’re not even listening, no you never even heard
Now you drown me out, shut me down, I’m bewildered and I’m hurt

Listen, I want to tell you, what’s the point in carrying on?
Listen, I’m giving up now, just can’t take this pain of losing
You’re looking closed up, I’m feeling shut down, is there no place we can meet?
I’ve lost the shape now, words have vanished, think I’m crying in my sleep

And you’re not even listening, no you never even heard
Now you drown me out, shut me down, I’m bewildered and I’m hurt

Listen, I need to tell you, how I love you deep inside
Listen, goddamn you listen, it’s no use, you run and hide
Been building walls up so long now, you’ve walled yourself away
If I come too close, you’re cornered and you toss my love away

Then I notice that you’re crying, in a small and subtle way
But there’s no way in to hold you, so I have to walk away
And I realise your pain now, the parts of me you heard
had to drown me out, had to knock me down, you couldn’t bear my words

And it’s all over now, the phone keeps ringing
and there’s really nothing left for us to say
it’s all over now, I watch you as you turn and walk away

Listen...

A past lover keeps showing up in my dreams and reminding me of my failures.
From my new LP " Low Profile". My best tracks from 2023. Thanks for listening!

Lyrics:
I get my melancholy straight from the IV drip
A Xanax, a red eyed flight on the sky ship
That's when you appeared
I'd been gorging myself on 
Televised violence
It's like synconized swimming
You were grinning while the plane was rapidly descending
(You smiled all the way down)
The atmosphere was colorless
Odorless
Void of all surface and all texture
I'm reveling in my psychosis
You reminded me I never finished my
Junkyard magnum opus
You still show up in my dreams

We were entering into 
An impressionist painted landscape
With a language that we just didn't understand
You reminded me that I'm a big believer
In blindly believing
And I need to start drinking in
A little bit more in what I'm seeing
We're like suburban dadaist
Coming in, out of the rain
My mind was racing
Like those 808 beats
There all the same
Well, that's the way the Goddamn wheel rolls
You headed off into the night
You never told me to change the angle of the light
You still show up in my dreams

"You never even had it even when you had it your hands,"
You've got to bring it right down
To where the sideways ends in the light
I'm digging down deep
I'm digging down slow
I'm striking oil 
Or the fires down below
You still show up in my dreams

You Still Show Up In My Dreams

Burning Circles

The English saying "We're all going to Hell in a hand-cart" just about describes my mood when I wrote "Descent". It was one of those weeks in northern hemisphere Spring 2024 when there was absolutely no good news coming in from anywhere on the planet.

I trust that things will get better!

Descent

The DRUMAX PROJECT Present Track 48 // ... about special relativity .... ;-)
@joerxworx > Composition, Instruments, Arrangement, Tenorsaxophone, Mix
@docfritz > Rhythm Design, brilliant Drums & Percussion
© 2024 by joerxworx and docfritz / DRUMAX PROJECT

CONTINUUM

DRUMAX No. 48 // CONTINUUM

lyrics:
Since we started, we had a long way from home
now never departed, we have to stand tall
Never let it down, no threat from the wind
rain or thunder nor from any evil seed

Always i wonder, what's next on the line
this daily life plunders whatever vital that shines 

i keep on dreamin' aiming high
but this weird feeling shutters my mind

but if i'm keeping all worries behind
i should remain believin', relentless will for life to find

fightin' for no reason, ain't gonna give me peace of mind
feeding my ego, had lost so much precious time

Now it's the right time, to think what's next
healing this heart and let the mind to rest
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(p) & (c), Shock the Algorithm 2024.

Since We Started

Lyrics 

Drip drop by drip drop
You’re filling this hollow heart 

Drip drop by drip drop
You're filling this hollow heart
Drip drop by drip drop
You're filling this hollow heart

Hand over my eyes
I can't even look
You finish these pages in this empty book

Hand over my eyes
I can't even look
You finish these pages in this empty book

Drip drop by drip drop
You're filling this hollow heart
Drip drop by drip drop
You're filling this hollow heart
Pages in this empty book

Drip drop by drip drop
You're filling this hollow heart
Drip drop by drip drop
You're filling this hollow heart

I hear people say
I'm a fallen boy - a falling boy
But they don't know what you're doing
To make this all ok

Finish these pages in this empty book

Hollow Heart

No Turning Back Now

All rights reserved by Rolf Joseph

Lyrics:

Every tear spills my plight
(oooh)
Underneath the starlit sky
Holding memories tight
(oooh)
We danced on broken glass
With shadows all around
In dreams I still see you
But waking up, I drown

Still hoping you'll come back
But silence fills the room
The echoes of your laugh
Haunt me like the moon

And as the night falls down
I search for traces left
A bittersweet reminder
Of love that we both kept
(oooh)
These scars can't heal so fast
But I need to let you go
Each breath, a whispered thought
Of how I miss you so

Still hoping you'll come back
But silence fills the room
The echoes of your laugh
Haunt me like the moon

So take your memories back
Leave me with the past
I'll find my way someday
But it won't come too fast

Still hoping you'll come back
But silence fills the room
The echoes of your laugh
Haunt me like the moon

With every step, the weight won’t fade
(oooh)
Searching for the warmth we had made
A flicker in the dark
(oooh)
I chase the ghost of you
Through echoes in my mind
The rhythm of our past
Keeps me longing, keeps me blind

In the ashes, I still stand
(oooh)
With shattered dreams grasped in hand
Replayed in my mind's track
(oooh)
But the echoes won't die down
They linger in my soul
This anger and this pain
Leaves me grasping for control

🆔0951 📅250601⌛4:18 ▶ 0319 : Still hoping you'll come back

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