dylan lotus - Chains (w/feelnum)

Clueless w/ Yung Krypto

This album wouldn't have been possible with all these beautiful people:
@jolst
@eidolon seeker
@emjaay
@plxce
@cboy
@yokai dreams
@klonic
@splashgvng
@shadow!
@irby
@ninewaters

dont go

dont go(ft. Eidolon Seeker) [prod. Ninewaters]

i know it hurts (reesoo+remghost)

produced by cmd-Z
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hiccup / crimson - Single

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hiccup [prod. cmd-Z]

i could hang myself with all the cobwebs on the ceiling
say you give a fuck oh you really must be kidding
used to think you loved me oh yeah its a pity
even when i know ur gone im still hoping you miss me

i could give up
or i could try my shitty luck again
everything sucks
i think i wanna kill myself again

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VYZKCCNJ1MU

i get lonely too quickly (jolst)

(prod. charity hallett)
(lyrics)
you know that i, 
will never be the same again
and i know that I,
couldnt live by myself
and i know im not okay
you left me all alone
just remember,
all the times with me
cause im dying alone
i cant think straight
these thoughts overtake
cause i know that you never will be mine

and your bloodshot eyes,
know all the time that ur on my mind
i cant lie this is what im like
maybe you should call me on my phone
but now,
i can hear it in the walls, ur not around
its killing me again
staring at the walls, im by myself
and i know its not the same
ooohh,
lovings not the same,
oooohhh
i know im not the same

(youll never be mine
youre too perfect
i swear to god i always think about losing you
i dont want to, ever feel that pain
please only ever be mine, or its not the same
killing myself with every drug i take
losing everything and i can't stay,
oh,
please save me.)

remembrance (charity hallett)

thanks for an amazing year, heres to this one <333

out run my lows

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out run my lows [prod. methboiswag]

regardless of what happens, my mind just seem to end up back in this cycle..
-+- mix & master, lyrics by me
prod. stillvanishing -+-
(lyrics)
take me away from here
this is my biggest fear,
know that all of this shit hurts me
you wont ever hear, stuck here in my thoughts
i am not what you wanted
i know you say youre fine
im trying to be fine,
know that im only hurting
need you as all mine
repeating the same songs 
that ive always made for you

you say you wouldnt leave
i guess i will only see
youre taking control of me
without you i just cant breathe
all in this damaged place
think im describing my brain
know that i wont ever live,
ill never see the day without you

cutting all my veins,
laying in my grave
without you

broken cycle (stillvanishing)

elsewhere is a place i could turn to, 
a reason.
-+- mix & master, lyrics by me
prod. 2001 x dead spyro -+-
(lyrics)
i know that you are gone,
that you are gone.

i know that you are gone,
that you are gone.
you see whats left of me now
and you'll never stick around

you know that it isnt worth it
and you're stuck here calling me crazy
never thought id be alive lately
only one car crash from leaving
and the drugs only give me a reason
and the drinking it gives me these feelings
cause i know that you are leaving
and i wont see a day without you

and these songs only show that im hurting
but youll never truly understand me
or the thoughts that always control me
wake up, and im hit with emotions

drink my pain away,
i know that i will see better days
but you're gone, and i wont know
what is left to call my home

made 4/22/2022

hiccup [prod. cmd-Z]

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